It turns out that no one survives in love

Haiming turned pale in shock, turned his head away immediately, and then desperately stretched his hands out, "Lin Rui, don't be like this, get up. Don't go crazy!" Lin Rui became even more excited when he heard the phrase "go crazy", "I'm crazy I'm crazy! How do you know you don't like it if you haven't tried it!"

"Slap!" Haiming finally broke away from Lin Rui's hand, and in desperation, he slapped Lin Rui backhand, "Calm down!"

Lin Rui froze while maintaining the posture of riding on Haiming.Haiming came to his senses, looked at his hands and regretted for a while, and immediately wanted to see if there was anything wrong with turning Lin Rui's face, but saw that Lin Rui's face was covered with tears and snot, and his eyes were already swollen, "Haiming, I beg you Please, give it a try, just once, okay?" Haiming couldn't move, his mind exploded.In his past twenty years of experience, he has never encountered such a situation, no matter whether it is a boy or a girl, there are those who confess, and those who are entangled, but they have never begged him to try. .of. . .What's more, this person is still his brother!Lin Rui didn't know why he would say such a thing or do such a thing. He may or may not have thought about it, but he did it anyway.His mother taught him since he was a child that people can lose, but no matter how badly they lose, they must have the courage to admit defeat and retain their dignity in the end.In the past 20 years, he has put dignity above all else, has always been cautious, proud, and self-reliant, and always has a sense of proportion in front of outsiders.At this moment, he stomped all his face on the ground.The two of them stopped moving. After a while, Haiming let go of Lin Rui's hand, and slowly lay flat on the bed.Lin Rui looked into his eyes, filled with disappointment, heartache, and confusion.Lin Rui looked at him and cried.At first it was sobbing, and then it was crying loudly. He held Haiming's clothes corners with both hands in this inexplicable position, crying like a wronged child.

After a long time, Haiming stretched out his hand and gently placed it on Lin Rui's head, stroking Lin Rui's hair like trying to comfort a child.Lin Rui slowly calmed down. He moved his numb kneeling legs and lay down beside Haiming.That night, neither of them fell asleep, nor did they speak.Keep your eyes open until dawn.

Lin Rui sat up and looked at Haiming who closed his eyes tightly. He knew that the other party was not asleep.He looked at Haiming carefully, tracing the outline of the other person, eyes, nose, and mouth with his eyes.Then, he got up silently, got out of bed, and walked out slowly.It was a fine day, the sun shone on the street in the morning, and it was extremely warm.All kinds of snack carts have already occupied the street, and the road is full of people in a hurry.Lin Rui thought to himself, they are really happy, they know what they are pursuing, what they are looking forward to, and what they are running towards.Only him, only him, Lin Rui, in such a fine weather, shivering from the cold, lost nothing left.He used all his courage and self-esteem to make a huge gamble, and he lost.

Back in the dormitory, he took a shower, wrapped himself in the quilt, and fell into a deep sleep.It was evening when I woke up again.He turned on his phone, and there was a text message from Haiming.He clicked on it as if death was at home, and there was a very short sentence in it, "Lin Rui, I am very lucky to know you and be friends with you. There is still a long way to go in life. I believe that you will be able to pass this period of time and then truly It is a pity that in the future, I will not be able to accompany you by your side. I will always bless you and pray for you. There is always a banquet in the world. " Lin Rui was repeatedly hammered by these eight words in his mind, he burst into tears, but laughed, "It's so high and the water is so far away, there will be no future."

Lin Rui didn't go to the scientific research room again. Since "the future will be indefinite", then naturally he can't give himself any chance to see Haiming.He sent a letter to Teacher Cao saying that he had a cold and didn't want to infect everyone, and then sent the completed manuscript to Teacher Cao, saying goodbye by the way.He knew that Mr. Cao had always paid little attention to these secular etiquettes, so he probably didn't care whether the farewell was formal or not.Sure enough, Mr. Cao was very happy that he completed the first draft with high quality, and wished him a safe journey.He was determined not to be in the mood to sing anymore, so he could only apologize to Qin Yue for missing the appointment, but the company still had to go, handing over work was only one aspect.He turned his back on the matter of joining the job, and he was also very sorry to his senior brother and Qin Yue, and he had to say goodbye face to face.The senior brother still felt it was a pity, "Lin Rui, I know that I can't change anything by persuading you now, but now is indeed the best opportunity to join. Chief Qin values ​​you again, so I can take you with me. The company will be listed soon, wait If you come back after completing your PhD, you may not have such a good position. Of course education, experience, and professionalism are all important, but the most important thing right now is the opportunity." Of course Lin Rui understood what he had given up, but he Now I have to leave here, far away, staying in this city will only make me sad.Seeing that Lin Rui has made up his mind, the senior brother can only tell him to be careful and take good care of himself.

After handing over the work, standing in front of Qin Yue's office, Lin Rui had mixed feelings.He collected himself and knocked on the door, "Please come in." Qin Yue's voice was as cold as ever.Lin Rui walked in with his head down, and Qin Yue beckoned him to look at the computer, "Come here, I've found you some apartments that are closer to the school, let's see how they look." Then he took another notebook, " I called the other party last night, and these are □□ailable rooms.” Lin Rui took the notebook, and Qin Yue's handwriting was strong and powerful, just like his people, with a sharp streak, and he was very distinctive when writing English. It is to hook back at the end of the pen to form a feeling similar to a flower.The above is a list, which records the location in detail, whether there are supermarkets around, how far away from Chinese supermarkets and restaurants, which floor is the better room on, whether there is a garage, the size of the area, and what the orientation of the room is.Lin Rui felt that the notebook in his hand was heavy and hot.He chose the first one with a complicated mood, so Qin Yue opened the webpage and gave him a detailed introduction, "When you arrive, just take a taxi here, just register at the office on the first floor, look, this is the room, I think the lighting That's right, there is also a balcony..." Lin Rui shifted his gaze to Qin Yue's face, staring at his tall mountain roots in a daze, "Why didn't I fall in love with this person?" Then he laughed at himself, "I do." It's useless to talk about it, and he won't really like me, he just treats me as a younger brother." It wasn't until Qin Yue patted his arm that he came back to his senses.Qin Yue smiled at him, "I won't be able to see you off on the day you leave, there will be a meeting. Xiao Linzi, be careful yourself. Get a mobile phone immediately when you arrive, and then give me a text message or call, so I can rest assured." Lin Rui carefully said Observing Qin Yue's expression, he didn't see any reluctance or sadness in it, only encouragement and blessings for him to start a new life.So, Lin Rui smiled and agreed.When Lin Rui walked out of the office, the smile on Qin Yue's face gradually faded. He walked slowly to the window, stared out of the window, and stood there for a long time.

Finally, on the day of departure, Lin Rui called his father on the taxi to the airport.Except for the routine phone calls during the Chinese New Year, the father and son do not contact each other easily, and have not seen each other for several years.It was his stepmother who answered the phone. Lin Ruiping calmly called "Auntie." "Hello?" Father Lin's voice sounded, and Lin Rui hesitated for a moment, but said straightforwardly, "Dad, I'm going to study in the United States." Father Lin was obviously stunned for a while, "It's up to you to decide. When Go?" "Today." This time, Father Lin was silent for a long time, so long that Lin Rui suspected that there was something wrong with the signal, "Hello? Dad?" "Oh, I'm here. Okay, then you have a safe journey. "Both father and son stopped talking again.Lin Rui didn't take the initiative to hang up the phone, he subconsciously wanted to say something.But too many years of no contact, let alone chat, he really didn't know what to say.Father Lin suddenly said, "Ruirui." Since his mother passed away, Father Lin hadn't called Lin Rui by his nickname for many years. Now that he heard it suddenly, Lin Rui felt his nose sore, and he replied, " Hey." Father Lin paused for a moment, then sighed, "Father, I'm sorry." Lin Rui's eye circles immediately turned red, and he felt that all the hatred and grievances were lost in this "I'm sorry".Lin Rui said with a strong nasal voice, "No. You didn't apologize to me. I will give you a call and call home. You, you, take care of yourself." "Hey." Father Lin also brought Nasally, "Young man, you have to know how to take care of yourself, think about everything, you too, you are fine too."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Rui looked at the familiar street outside and thought, where is my home?Telling his father "home" is just to let Lin's father relax. He knows that the home he has lived in for more than ten years has long since disappeared, but Beijing, where he has lived for 7 years, is not his home either. a home.He was about to go to a foreign country, which was not his home either.He curled his lips and thought mockingly, "I'm just a tramp."

The airport is as busy as ever, especially during the enrollment season, when many students go abroad, the whole family comes to see them off, with a lot of huge suitcases, and all kinds of accents.Lin Rui looked at his suitcase, "He's really a homeless man. After staying in Beijing for 7 years, he only saved up a medium-sized suitcase. How poor." The students are very envious, they are really young.Vigorous and full of enthusiasm for the new life, like a recruit who is about to go to the front line.Unlike myself, alone, unable to see the direction of the future, only a heart full of holes, and a soul that is prematurely aging.He achieved his wish to go abroad with superhuman perseverance and hard work, but the person who made him make the wish stayed.Lin Rui looked at his own shadow in the glass window, and found that he had really changed a lot.People say that the best love is to make each other better, and he has become better, but these changes have no meaning to the person who made him change.

Lin Rui was sitting in the airport, alone, about to head towards an unknown life.He didn't even know what the meaning was.He suddenly discovered that eight years ago, he was the same, coming to Beijing to study alone.At this moment, he overlaps with that teenager who left home to study.It turned out that he had always been a person, and would always be a person.His courage to move forward, his pride and dignity, and his desperate love were all frozen in that chaotic night, and then, together with the warm and sunny smile that made his heart beat, they were forever sealed in Beijing in 2007.The only one who left was Lin Rui who had lost everything.

The plane took off, and Lin Rui would never know. On that day, Qin Yue, who claimed that he would have no way to see him off, smoked in the car outside the airport for more than two hours until he saw the plane take off.Qin Yue thinks this is very good, there are some things that some people never need to know.

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Life is like this, it will not be kind to you just because you work hard.