Mr. Zhang is about to be dumped

"Do you love me?" Zhang Siyan suddenly felt funny and warm. It seemed that no one had said such a thing except his own mother for so many years.

Of course, people only see the shining appearance in front of others. As for those sympathetic and weak sides, it is hypocritical to say so.Zhang Siyan's face was covered with an ice pack, but it wasn't too obvious. The swelling was her own, and the pain was really painful.

But seeing Xie Chu's appearance, he felt that the beating he had suffered...was quite worth it.

Xie Chu nodded earnestly: "My good face has become like this, I feel sorry for it."

Zhang Siyan: "..."

Xie Chudao: "Today I will go to Lao Tang by myself... Forget it, I won't go." He thought he would die, and said it, but he suddenly felt a world away, as if what he said didn't matter. Not what he wanted to say.The actions began to go against the will, and the coordination of actions and thinking was not enough.

"I don't want to be treated anymore, why don't we stay together?" Xie Chu heard his own voice, but he couldn't control himself to stop, he seemed to be floating above his body watching all this, this kind of loss of body control The feeling of power is amazing.

He was Xie Chu for a while, and someone else for a while, only Zhang Siyan in front of him remained the same.He wants to grasp this fixed point, so as not to be caught in the whirlpool.

Zhang Siyan admitted that he was moved at this moment.Yes, what are you doing to treat illnesses? Xie Chu treats himself as a tool, and when he gets better, he will kick him away.Xie Chu wanted to sever ties with him yesterday, but the feeling was still stuck in his chest. He had done so much, endured the abuse and attacks from the Yu family brothers standing on the moral high ground, and left his family and career to bring Xie Chu here for treatment, just to heal people. Okay, let him hook up with others?

He felt that he would follow Xie Chu and become schizophrenic.Xie Chu's capriciousness made him suffer a lot. He thought that he couldn't do without Xie Chu. He put his sensibility aside, weighed the pros and cons according to his past life experience, calmed down and re-examined himself, no matter what angle he looked at. , he should persevere and take Xie Chu to cure his illness.He has always advocated that professional things should be done by professional people. All he can do is continue to love Xie Chu.

What's more, Tang En also warned him before that the personality pretending to be Yu Bao is very good at disguising, how does he know that Xie Chu in front of him is not Song Yaoran's faking, this is his plan to delay the attack, let himself give up taking Xie Chu for treatment.

"Let's go see Tang En and listen to his opinion." Zhang Siyan said: "Sit down and wait for dinner."

After coaxing Xie Chu to finish his meal, Zhang Siyan accompanied him to Tang En's place as usual. After sending him to the toy room, Zhang Siyan went into Tang En's study and told him about Yuan Wei's appearance. go through.

Tang En frowned, and said in English: "He is beginning to waver, this is not a good sign."

"What do we do now?" Zhang Siyan asked.

"You provoked him?" Tang En said, "Little Xie Chu is very good, what did you do? The person he mentioned at lunch yesterday... Although this involves your privacy, I'm sorry, I want to know the general through."

Xie Chu's condition was stable. Although he did not actively cooperate with the treatment, as Zhang Siyan said, giving up suddenly should not happen. Tang En had reason to question what his guardian had done.

Zhang Siyan was simply... speechless and could only tell the truth.Said that Xie Chu wanted to sever ties with him and asked him to find his ex-boyfriend.

Tang En said: "I see, you can go to your boyfriend now and pretend to be reconciled, and I will let Xiao Xie Chu actively receive treatment."

"..." Zhang Siyan was silent for a long time before saying, "Is this necessary?"

"You and Xiao Xie Chu are lovers. After he is cured, you can explain to him, and he will understand." Tang En said, "And it's easy to explain."

"..." I'm afraid I will die.Zhang Siyan doesn't want to dig a hole for himself anymore, he is now in a state of being thrown away by Xie Chu anytime and anywhere, if he dies again, it will be impossible to save him.

Tang En said: "It's like this, he..." He thought for a while, and tried to use common words to make Zhang Siyan understand.

"I haven't been in contact with Xiao Xie Chu for a long time, and I basically made a mistake in my judgment. I told you before that his sadomasochistic tendency does not affect his personality integration. Now I know that it is very likely to split into a new personality. He has strong I want to be healed, but I want to seek a sense of security from you. Morality, pleasure..." Tang En's left and right hands looked like scales, and slowly tilted to one side: "When morality is getting heavier, the other side will It doesn't matter anymore."

"If you treat him according to his request again, it will make this..." Tang En leaned in another direction and continued what he said just now: "It's back to the original position, it's more serious, it's better than morality."

Tang En's words were not difficult to understand. Zhang Siyan felt that Xie Chu's state in less than two years was really strange. It was probably what he wanted to be.

After pretending to be poor for so long without showing any flaws, Zhang Siyan doesn't quite believe that these are all Xie Chu's plays.He was afraid that what Tang En said would come true, and that Xie Chuzhen would split his new personality again.

But what Tang En said "can be explained clearly", Zhang Siyan really disagrees.If he really got back together with Qin Jiyun, there would be no chance to explain it.

"Besides this..." Zhang Siyan said, "Is there any other way?"

He continued: "My relationship with him is not what it seems, at least I don't think he will forgive me."

Tang En can act as a spiritual mentor, but he is not an emotional expert.He said that he just made a suggestion, and it was up to him how to do it.

Scanning the surveillance screen, the two saw Xie Chu knocking on the door at the same time, as if they had been knocking for a while.The two hurried to get up, the moment the door opened, Xie Chu saw Zhang Siyan, wanted to go forward, but retreated to the corner.

Tang En saw all this.

Xie Chu stood in front of a display case full of toys, and there were a few building blocks scattered on the ground.

He said, "I want to go home, Zhang Siyan."

Tears rolled in the eyes, as if they would fall if touched lightly.

Zhang Siyan knew that he could immediately pack Xie Chu away and put him in the house he had prepared for him. He could manipulate Xie Chu's life, making him more and more dependent on him, and he would not be able to live without him.He can let Xie Chu know that he is the only one who treats him best in the world, his brothers are the ones who want to harm him, and the outside world is extremely dangerous, so his embrace is the safest.

Xie Chu belongs to him alone, completely to him.

He wants to go home, Zhang Siyan, what are you waiting for.A voice sounded in his mind, prompting him to make his own choice.

But this was much more difficult than any previous decision, making it difficult for him to move forward.Zhang Siyan couldn't feel his own breathing, and he didn't know how long it had been. He closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, there was calmness in his eyes.

"My place is not your home." Zhang Siyan said, "I can't take you back."

He turned and left, wanting to turn back and take away his beloved with every step he took.The cuteness becomes pure after peeling off the cocoon. This is a process of re-examining oneself, constantly giving in and accommodating, just to fulfill the other half.He wanted to satisfy his own selfishness, and wanted Xie Chu to be complete.Even if the process of recovery is extremely dangerous, he created it all by himself.

He laughs at the hubris of his old self and sees himself like a madman.He wanted to explain, but couldn't speak.He knew that all the reasons were not worth mentioning to Xie Chu, he was repenting, and he wanted to choose the right path.Zhang Siyan didn't know how he got out of Tang En's house. He looked back at the door and restrained his urge to open it again.He quickly went back to his house and locked the door.

In the dollhouse, Tang En waved to Xie Chu: "Come over to my side, kid."

No matter what, the treatment still had to continue. Under Tang En's guidance, Xie Chu became more and more calm.He recalled yesterday, thought about Zhang Siyan and Qin Jiyun's affairs, and began to despise his actions again.He lowered his head, as if he had no face to look at Tang En, and said with some difficulty: "I don't know, what's wrong with me now, I figured it out for a while, became confused and vacillated for a while, and I felt more and more out of breath. I made up my mind to leave, and the next second I wanted to be with him again. I don't know, if I stop thinking, it won't hurt, I'm so tired..."

Xie Chu didn't know his true thoughts, and he didn't know who was the real self. There were other people's voices in his head, which made him suffer from headaches day and night, and couldn't live in peace.Without a firm goal, everything is so chaotic, only pain and pleasure are real, allowing him to gain a real sense of existence.

Tang En's voice was next to his ear. Xie Chu felt drowsy under comfort. When he closed his eyes, he saw a garden.

"Go down the steps and you will see three doors."

"I will take you to a safe place and you will be free from this pain."

……

Memories are like spots of light, falling on the body one after another, complete little by little, Xie Chu saw himself who was almost abducted by human traffickers behind the first door, that child was him, and he saw his face clearly.But these have become acceptable, knowing that his own is safe, so he no longer feels afraid.

Accepting yourself is a painful process, admitting your weakness and incompetence, and admitting the dark side that arises from various reasons.The memories of Xie Chu and Zhou Rongyan overlapped. He saw that figure getting fainter and fainter, like floating bubbles, which completely dissipated with a "pop".

Xie Chu opened his eyes and was in a daze.

Tang En's voice was extremely calm.

"Look, it's not that difficult," he said. "You'll get better and better. You don't need to depend on anyone, and you don't need to condemn yourself. Give yourself to me for a while, okay?"

Xie Chu twisted his neck to look at him, and finally nodded.

Tang En smiled, took out the letter left by Zhou Rongyan from the drawer, and handed it to Xie Chu.

"Now you can watch."

When it was the most painful and difficult time, Xie Chu in the past was still persisting, why should he just give up like this.

He thinks that he can definitely recover, he no longer needs anyone, he is independent and complete, he is Xie Chu.

In life, it is not easy to find your true self.