Mr. Zhang is about to be dumped

Since having Oscar, Xie Chu will still help him soak the dog food on time before feeding him.But he didn't take the initiative to think this way, mainly because the dog whined when it was hungry.

Now it is too small to take it out for a walk, Xie Chu looks at it as if seeing his own life, going around, but only in a radius.

This day was no different from usual. After Xie Chu fed Oscar, he took a shower and put on clean clothes. Zhang Siyan bought them for him, but he didn't care so much anymore.

He put on his clothes, but what he put down was his own heavy life.

Oscar ate happily in front of the rice bowl, Xie Chu took the ID and card, went to the bank to withdraw [-] cash, and then went to the hospital.

In the hospital, Xie Changqing was sleeping. He heard from the nurse that he was not feeling well recently, and he slept for a long time. Xie Chu asked him to go out, stood in front of the bed, and then knelt down.

He bent down and kowtowed, and said to himself, from now on, you will resign yourself to fate, and I will resign yourself to fate, and my son can no longer be filial in front of the bed.When he raised his head again, his eyes turned red, and he looked at it for a while, then turned and left.

Xie Changqing's fingers moved, he opened his eyes and saw Xie Chu's back, raised his hand to call him, but couldn't make a sound, he could only watch Xie Chu leave.When the nurse came in, Xie Changqing waited for a while before saying: "Call that Mr. Zhang, I think something is wrong..."

Every step of Xie Chu's walking was extremely difficult, the eighteen-story building was high, and the steps went down one after another, as if he had descended into eighteen floors of hell.There is no end to hell, but Xie Chu walked to the exit. He knew that he was a coward, a person who could abandon his relatives, a white-eyed wolf, and worse than an animal.

But he tried his best.

Xie Chu took a taxi to the airport. He wanted to leave Zhang Siyan, Xie Changqing, and everything here. He wanted to start over in another place, and he knew he could do it.

Driving all the way, Xie Chu's mood has never been so complicated for a moment. He saw through the rearview mirror that there seemed to be a huge black hole behind, bit by bit devouring the way they came.

"Master, hurry up." Xie Chu kept urging.The driver master thought he was in a hurry, and the speed of the car flew off.But the black hole was still chasing after him, Xie Chu was afraid that he would eventually be caught up and swallowed, so he curled up helplessly in the car.

At this time, other people's voices came from the intercom.

"Who pulled a young guy in a white suit and black trousers in the car, and now he has 1 yuan for parking."

The driver was puzzled: "Old Liu, what are you talking about?"

Other people's voices came out one after another, they were all discussing that something good happened today.The driver laughed when he heard it, looked at Xie Chu through the rearview mirror and said, "Tell me that you have everything now, why are you looking for someone in white clothes and black shorts..." He looked at Xie Chu's cold eyes suddenly. I shivered, this white dress... black shorts...

"Little brother." The driver's voice trembled: "Did something happen to you, or..." He didn't dare to ask, for fear of being killed, if there was a fugitive in this car... he Not daring to speak anymore, he swallowed his saliva and continued driving.

No.

dare not.

The driver picked up the walkie-talkie and shouted: "I'm on the viaduct leading to the airport, and now there's someone in my car!"

As he spoke, he picked up the key and parked the car on the side of the road, and hurriedly ran out of the car.

Xie Chu sat motionless in the car.

Until Zhang Siyan's car arrived, he still didn't move.Zhang Siyan's speed was very fast. After receiving the call from the hospital nurse, he realized that something was wrong. He refused to answer the call from Xie Chu, just because he was afraid that something would happen to him. Now that he was safe and sound, he dragged Xie Chu along. Get out of the car.

Xie Chu suddenly threw the bag containing cash that he was carrying with him on Zhang Siyan, and he arrived at the guardrail of the bridge in three steps. His movements had never been so fast. He was riding on the guardrail, looking at the bridge The vehicles passing below calmly said to Zhang Siyan: "Don't come over."

"Xie Chu." Zhang Siyan's face turned paler in an instant, and he moved his hands forward in an attempt to calm him down, but what could Xie Chu listen to at this moment.

"Xie Chu, don't be impulsive!" Zhang Siyan shouted: "You come down first!"

What a cunning hunter, coaxing the prey a little bit, and falling into the trap he had already prepared.Xie Chu laughed, does he still regard himself as a stupid prey?

"You come down first, okay..." Zhang Siyan felt helpless like never before, he was afraid that Xie Chu would jump off like this.

The wind on the bridge blows towards Xie Chu, and he feels that he has become very light, and he can regain his freedom at any time.He closed his eyes, not even wanting to say a word to Zhang Siyan.

When he was a child, he thought that all people are created equal and everyone is relatively independent.It wasn't until I met Zhang Siyan that I realized that there is still such a kind of life that exists completely dependent on others, like a slave respecting his master.

Zhang Siyan threatened him with worldly things, and money and power bothered him. He was already out of breath, what else could he do?

It's all right now, Xie Chu looked at the flustered Zhang Siyan and thought, he's not afraid anymore.Living was meaningless to him, all Zhang Siyan did was to let him, a coward, die with peace of mind.

When the passing car owners were hesitating whether to stop and have a look and call the police, Xie Chu fell to the bottom of the viaduct——

The wind of the whole world stops at this moment.

Zhang Siyan was already very close to him, but what could be faster than a person falling, he went to the edge of the guardrail and watched Xie Chu fall off the viaduct, and his body fell on the passing oil tank truck. On the green belt in the center of the road, there were bursts of whistles in an instant, and the sky was spinning.

Xie Chu——

But Zhang Siyan knew that he couldn't mess up, he couldn't mess up, he thought, got into the car calmly and asked Assistant He to drive the car down, and at the same time called the emergency center, his trembling fingers pointed out that he had betrayed him. Know which numbers to call.

His heart was beating violently, he didn't want Assistant He to drive too slowly, and he didn't want him to drive too fast.He wanted to see Xie Chu safe and sound, and he was even more afraid that when he saw someone, he would already leave him.He didn't dare to think about anything, his mind was blank.

Finally, he rushed to the place, and the ambulance came soon. Xie Chu had no obvious trauma, which made Zhang Siyan feel very lucky.

It's like being reborn.

It was really a coincidence, the big oil tanker passed by so timely, Xie Chu had nothing but contusions and a slight concussion.

The doctor sent him to the hospital for observation, and Zhang Siyan stayed by the bedside.

Xie Chu woke up soon, with his blank and innocent eyes open, he suddenly laughed when he saw Zhang Siyan.

"Xie Chu, how are you doing?" Zhang Siyan left the chair excitedly, held Xie Chu's hand with both hands and asked, he looked so embarrassed, as if he had lost a loved one.

Xie Chu asked: "Are you reluctant to part with me?"

"I love you." Zhang Siyan said without hesitation, and these three words were like a switch, clicked, and remembered in Xie Chu's mind.

"When you hear the three words I love you, you are finally freed. You will put down your heavy body and return to the place where you came from."

An ethereal voice sounded in his mind, Xie Chu looked down at his hands, then at Zhang Siyan, and said, "Now we can break up."

Zhang Siyan knew that this must be his first request after waking up, and he asked in a voice almost eager: "Let's not mention it for now, I can agree to other, other requests."

He bought a villa here, and started to decorate it a long time ago. Halfway through, he felt that there was something missing in the villa. He heard from Xie Chu that he liked Yuan Weiqiu's paintings. He bought a few paintings from different people at a high price, and quickly caught up with the house. the price.He wanted to take it as Xie Chu's birthday present, but now that his birthday hasn't arrived, he is reluctant to let go.

"I just want to break up with you." Xie Chu said calmly. Although he likes Zhang Siyan's looks very much, he doesn't have much time. no regrets.

Zhang Siyan has already satisfied him and made him understand that he can defeat even death, and there is nothing to fear about him.

"No, why don't you study hard, you haven't graduated yet..." Zhang Siyan began to find various reasons to stop what was about to happen.

Xie Chu laughed: "I just go to school for fun."

"What about your father? He is very worried about you. I won't force you anymore. Let's treat him..."

"Are you stupid!" Xie Chu didn't take back his hand in a hurry. There was a thin layer of sweat on Zhang Siyan's palm, which made him very uncomfortable to hold, but Xie Chu still said with a smile: "You and your father are usually like that. Talk? He's not my dad at all..."

"you……"

"You gave me back the money, didn't you...Although I really want to say that there are 500 million here and get out of here, but when I think about it carefully, it's my own money, after all, I really don't want to part with it."

Zhang Siyan feels that Xie Chu is not normal now, but he wants to make a final struggle: "You said that you like me and love me." On the bed, in the restaurant covered with flowers that day, Zhang Siyan listened to After a few times, Xie Chu just said calmly: "Just for fun."

"I love you." Zhang Siyan is like a warrior who is not afraid of being humiliated, and he seems to be struggling before death. He has read in a book, "Any eternal and great love must despair once, disappear once, and die once. Only then will we regain love and know the value of life again." ①

Zhang Siyan doesn't understand whether this kind of feeling is really love, love needs to be learned the day after tomorrow, and he probably can't learn this kind of thing, so he never returns on the wrong path.He didn't feel the feeling of tearing his heart and lungs until he tried to lose once. He had no choice but to keep Xie Chu with love.

But it was really ironic to say this kind of love, Xie Chu didn't bother to say it anymore, he smiled and said: "What a coincidence, I love myself too."

Zhang Siyan's eyes were red, he had no time to think about other things, and he couldn't listen to what Xie Chu was saying.

The feeling of lost and found swept him away, he kept telling Xie Chu these things later, and Xie Chu was obviously tired, so he closed his eyes and ignored him.

Zhang Siyan held his hand tightly, it was the only thing he could do now.

When he went to the bathroom for a short while, there was no one on the bed when he came back.Zhang Siyan frantically went to ask the nurse, who said that he was picked up by a man wearing glasses.

Wear glasses, wear glasses.Zhang Siyan couldn't think of who this person was for a moment, just at this time Zhang's mother called.

Hearing that her son was in a bad mood, Zhang's mother asked with concern: "How are you? Where's Xie Chu?"

Now those two words were stabbing his chest like a knife, and he didn't feel happy until his heart was dripping with blood, and he said he was gone.Zhang's mother made a mistake and asked if she had gone to see a psychiatrist.

"What psychiatrist?"

"When I investigated him, I found that he would go to Juye Building to see a psychiatrist on a regular basis. I thought you knew that too."

Zhang Siyan asked his assistant to find Xie Chu's whereabouts, and drove to Juye Building alone. After asking about a psychological clinic on the 21st floor, he went straight up.

The person at the reception stopped him: "Sir, we need an appointment here..."

Zhang Siyan's gaze was so fierce that the little girl trembled in fright. Just at this moment, someone came out of the consulting room, and the little girl saw a life-saving straw: "Mr. Zou, this, this gentleman is looking for you."

The man looked very modest and polite, and smiled at Zhang Siyan: "Let's go in and talk."

In the consultation room, Zhang Siyan straight to the point asked Xie Chu if he was here, if he had been here recently, what he said every time he came, how long he had been sitting, and what kind of treatment he had received.He had too many questions, and Zou later said after listening, "Sir, the person you mentioned has indeed never received psychological counseling from me..."

"You're the only doctor here?"

Zou later said: "To be precise, he is a psychological counselor."

"Sir, maybe you can go to the consultation room over there." The little girl at the reception knocked on the door just now, and then suggested that Zhang Siyan went to the room at the end under his guidance.

Seeing his leaving back, Zou later wiped his sweat: "Won't Mr. Yu be angry if you let people in casually like this?"

"Mr. Yu said that if someone comes here angrily, then lead him in."

Zhang Siyan pushed open the door of the consultation room, which was the size of a simple office with a large desk. Zhang Siyan sat on the chair in front of it and saw a huge half-length mirror on the opposite wall.

This arrangement made him feel a little strange, but he didn't have time to think about it. He found the recording pen on the table, flipped through it a few times, turned on an audio, and soon after, Xie Chu's voice came out.

"He doesn't see me as a human being at all."

"He likes to use violence to coerce me. No, to be precise, I can't beat him, so I can only catch him..."

"He has great strength, he likes to order me, and I feel that I have no dignity in front of him..."

"Take off your clothes one by one, kneel on the bed, forced to obey his mercy..."

"Contained... Helpless struggle... Hope followed by disappointment..."

"I didn't feel like I was a human being, and I didn't even count as a pet at first..."

Then, the sound stopped abruptly.Zhang Siyan didn't expect that Xie Chu's mental state had already gone wrong, but he always had a tough look in front of him.

The despair in every sentence made Zhang Siyan feel unceasing pain, as if he was nailed to the chair, he couldn't move his whole body.

Seeing his ugliness and sin, Xie Chuzhao dug a crack in his heart and then tore it open suddenly, only then did he know that the inside was filthy.He thought he finally realized Xie Chu's despair, no, maybe it was just one percent, one thousandth, one ten millionth of his despair... Zhang Siyan couldn't imagine what Xie Chu was carrying every time he came. Mood, but go out from here, and when you go home and face yourself, you have to act as if nothing happened.

But do I still have a chance now?Zhang Siyan asked again, and fate had already written the answer secretly.

Xie Chu disappeared, and Zhang Siyan went to Xie Changqing's place and couldn't find Xie Chu. He asked Xie Changqing about Xie Chu's relationship with him, and Xie Changqing said they were father and son.

Later, under Zhang Siyan's repeated questioning, Xie Changqing still didn't let go, so Zhang Siyan could only say that Xie Chu was bleeding heavily in a car accident and was in urgent need of blood transfusion... Xie Changqing panicked when he heard that, and said that he didn't know where Xie Chu's parents were. It is not that lucky to have such a good son as Xie Chu.

Zhang Siyan went to Xie Chu's company again to find someone to see if anyone knew Xie Chu's whereabouts, but he went wherever he could find Xie Chu, but when he arrived at Xie Chu's company, he suddenly remembered what the nurse said at that time.

The person who picked up Xie Chu was wearing glasses.

Thinking back to the people around me, Yu Chunhe is the only one who wears glasses and can have a relationship with Xie Chu!

But Yu Chunhe came and went without a trace, and he couldn't find it for a while.

……

Xie Chu met Yu Chunhe in the hospital, he obediently left with him and came to the hotel where he was staying.

"Brother Yu." Xie Chu called out.

"Who taught you to jump off the viaduct, it's dangerous, do you know that?" Yu Chunhe looked stern.

Xie Chu said: "I just wanted to get rid of it quickly..."

"Didn't Su Wei'an say that it will be fine after you overcome your desire?"

That's because he lied to you, but Xie Chu doesn't plan to tell them anymore, he has nothing to miss in this world, he is just a successor personality, and he will return to his blue sky and pure land after all.

He said so.

It was very quiet there.

There is no limit and no one knows.

"Okay." Yu Chunhe obviously had no patience with him, he said, "I want to see Yu Bao."

Yu Bao was taken away by Yu Chun and their mother when he was very young. After Yu Chunhe grew up, he sent people to look for him until Yu Bao was 16 years old, and they found him.

The young boy was taciturn, and the name on his ID card was Xie Chu, which followed his stepfather's surname.At that time, his mother was sentenced to death for killing people by bad means, and he was adopted by a kind aunt who was a psychological counselor.Yu Chunhe and Yu Jingming were like finding a lost treasure, wishing they could hold him in their hands.But they also gradually discovered something was wrong, their Yu Bao was not normal.

He likes to draw, but the styles are different. Some like to use super-realism to draw roses. Those roses are full of morning dew, which is very real; , they look like the characters in the works of the Italian painter Modiglinia, they are gentle and sad; Yu Bao advocates the surrealism genre, and his paintings are pure and dreamy.

They firmly believe that Yu Bao is their younger brother, and when they find out that Yu Bao will inexplicably lose consciousness and wake up and appear in the sadomasochism club, it is almost too late.

Is there a cure for this disease?Yu Chunhe didn't know, but fortunately Su Wei'an appeared at this moment.Su Wei'an offered ideas and asked them to relieve Xie Chu by satisfying him, and they had no choice.You can't keep Yu Bao by your side, and even if you use coercive means, he will always have a way to escape, or self-mutilation.

They believed Su Wei'an, after all, he was also the person who knew Xie Chu and Yu Bao best.

For Yu Chunhe and Yu Jingming brothers, the well-behaved and sensible Yu Bao is their younger brother, and he Xie Chu is just one of the personalities that should not appear.He is ugly and sinful, because he was taken away by his mother since he was a child, and his unpleasant childhood experience made him appear here.

Xie Chu is morbid. To obtain pleasure, he must be connected with pain. Torment and pleasure are the same path. He needs to obtain enjoyment through great humiliation, and being tortured makes him feel "ecstasy".He knew it was immoral, and before returning the right to use his body to Yu Bao, he just wanted to experience it once.

Su Wei'an is an excellent "folk psychologist". He has read a lot of psychology-related books. He hypnotizes Xie Chu, making him truly feel that he has surrendered to power and sinking in desire, and at the same time reminds him, "I love you "That's the ending he was after.

But his hypnosis in the middle had no effect at all, it was just to make Xie Chu not look back, continue to persevere, and find the bottom line that didn't exist at all.

The other side of liberation symbolizes leaving forever.

Su Wei'an had been waiting for this day for a long time. When he gave up his chance of life, Xie Chu laughed at his deliberate deliberation and didn't bother to argue with him.

Su Wei'an lied to the brothers of the Yu family, and also to Xie Chu. He told Xie Chu to overcome desire, but he didn't tell him that when he went through all this and jumped off the bridge, at that moment, he would be surrounded by evil and evil. Captured by sin, he will no longer fear his own demise.

For a moment, Xie Chu really wanted to work hard to live in this world.He was apprenticed to Yi Chengqun, and he only wanted people to see the bright spots in him, and he wanted to live hard, that's why it was so painful at that time.He also wondered if he could be the one who stayed if he could perform better.He woke up frequently during that time, looking at the people sleeping beside him, but he couldn't say anything.

But these are not important anymore, no one can understand him, his memory is intermittent, this piece, that piece, can't be connected together, he can't tell whether he is the master personality, and he is not qualified to occupy the body.Anyway, he has tasted the ultimate ecstasy in the world, and understands that if he lives again, he will cause irreparable harm to everyone.

He thought that his departure should not bring any trouble to Zhang Siyan.

If you have a chance--

He wants to be a complete person in his next life, see you then.

Xie Chu closed his eyes, there was a beam of light in front of his eyes, once he left the beam of light, he would leave here forever and return to silence.

He knew that no one wanted to hear his story.

"Yu Bao?"

"Did my elder brother call me?" A voice sounded in the darkness.

Xie Chu was no longer reluctant, he left the beam of light.

Yu Chun and the person in front of him slowly opened their eyes, their eyes were extremely clear.He looked at his younger brother, his face softened a lot.

Yu Bao threw himself into his arms excitedly: "Brother, I miss you so much..."

Yu Chunhe patted his back lightly with an extremely gentle voice.

"No one will hurt you in the future, I will take you home right now."

The author has something to say: ①. Quoting Mu Xin from "Literary Memoirs"