Nowhere to belong

Yu Lin has been in a trance for the past few days. He didn't fall ill when he went out in his pajamas that day.

The house has been sitting and eating for the past few days, everywhere is empty, and Yu Lin's heart is also empty. Except for a few phone calls from his parents and editor, no one else has come to him.In fact, life is still very normal. In the days when Luo Fei didn't come back, Yu Lin didn't get any news about him. He lived alone in the same way, eating when the time came, and the editor rushed to write impromptuly.

Yu Lin felt that he should go out, and it would be good to go to places with many people, it was much better than being alone in this deserted place.

The wind was biting at night, and the dim street lamps could not reflect the slightest afterglow on the dark road. Yu Lin had no thoughts in his head, it was blank. I didn't know how long I walked until I looked up and found that I had arrived at a small square half an hour away from my home.

If the weather is warmer on weekdays, there will always be some aunts and aunts here to exercise and dance, but today there are only a few aunts who are not afraid of the severe cold. Without music, they have no enthusiasm. Yu Lin swallowed to relieve the dryness of his throat, but Brings a sting.

Pedestrians on the road were in pairs, the couple at the bus stop were laughing and playing, the girl slapped the boy on the shoulder angrily, the boy hugged the girl into his arms, held her hand and breathed out...

Yu Lin turned his head away, he should find another quiet place, the dark place in front of him was empty, he walked over and found a not deep pool, looking at the darkness according to the light, Yu Lin was already submerged in the pool.The icy pool water seeped into his thin pants quickly, Yu Lin reached out to the bottom of the pool, touched a few coins, and twitched the corners of his mouth to laugh at the naivety of these people, if a few coins can make a wish come true, where in the world do these people come from? Things that make life worse than death.

A few understated words and a few strokes required Yu Lin to accept the fact that Luo Fei had disappeared from this world, but Yu Lin couldn't do it.What kind of person Luo Fei is, how could he easily surrender his life to the god of death, without a trace of struggle, and accept death like a murderous death.

Is Luo Fei really gone?Yu Lin began to think that if he had told Luo Fei that it didn't matter if he went to jail, and would wait for him, maybe he wouldn't have died today.Yu Lin fell into the pool, and the pool water splashed and wet the originally dry ground. The pool water seeped through the cracks in the floor tiles, winding several meters away, but no one noticed.

If he had been willing to bow his head to Luo Fei earlier, the last time they were together would not have been red-faced and domineering, nothing worth saving.Luo Fei is gone, there is no Luo Fei in this world anymore, even if you search every corner of the earth, you will not find Luo Fei, without his voice, the two who were originally a couple, now there is only Yu Lin... ···

Yu Lin hasn't told Luo Fei that he wants to celebrate his birthday with him, and Yu Lin's birthday will be Luo Fei's birthday in the future.Before handing over the prepared gift to Luo Fei, he was interrupted by the damn book, but it was a book that no one would care about.There are still many things that I haven't finished with Luo Fei in time, and I haven't grown old with him in time, everything is too late, everything in progress has stopped abruptly, and will always stay at the moment when Luo Fei disappears.

everything is meaningless...

Yu Lin also collapsed. He thought that meeting Luo Fei was the biggest outrage and accident in his life. It turned out that taking Luo Fei from his heart was bloody and fleshy.The pool water flooded the ears, and the noisy square became silent, and the sound became smaller and smaller in the cold water until it disappeared.

The cold pool water made Yu Lin feel better, his hot body was soothed, and his splitting headache was calmed down. It is not clear whether the pain in his heart came from Luo Fei’s peeling off or the torment of illness, and he sank further Maybe it will be more comfortable.

Yu Lin closed his eyes so that the pool of water covered his nose, and finally got a moment of comfort...

Before suffocating, Yu Lin got up, breathed in the cold wind, and waited for the water on his body to dry up. He stopped a car and went directly to the hospital.

On New Year's Eve, Yu Lin finally finished his two-month treatment in the hospital. These two months were enough for him to accept the fact that Luo Fei had left, and gradually got used to the days without Luo Fei. He left the city.