Bastards

"Don't you think...there is no warmth in the world, everything you see is filthy, everything you are in is vain, living is meaningless, why not die?"

Cui Yu spoke slowly, stepping forward step by step, and finished speaking bit by bit.

Mo Ting looked up at him suddenly, his eyes were full of defense.

Cui Yu walked to the prison door, took the chair Longwei sent him, raised the corner of his robe, and sat down slowly.

While sitting down, he went on to say: "I'm going to die anyway. Everything in front of me, if you don't bring it with you, don't take it away with death, what can you cherish? You can waste it or waste it, even if it's yourself—— "

"I can spare it too. Is it not?"

After speaking slowly, Cui Yan looked at Mo Ting with a smile.

Mo Ting's eyes widened, as if the person sitting in front of him was not a human being, but a mind-reading monster.

"Strange how do I know?"

Cui Yu smiled mysteriously and pointed to himself: "Because I am a half-immortal."

Actually of course... no.

He has a little supernatural ability, and he can see some future pictures by overdrawing his body, but he can't read minds.Everyone in the world is different, with different growth environments, different personalities, and a variety of ideas. It is too difficult to understand.

But Mo Ting's frantic state is a little bit like his past.

Incentives and current habits may have different development directions, but the mood of courting death is somewhat similar.

Mo Ting obviously doesn't like being studied by others, or Cui Yu's puncture hurt his heart, he immediately counterattacked, with a sarcastic tone: "You think you understand me? Oh, naive! I just like this excitement, that's I like this refreshment, I just like to wander among different men, watching them crazy for me, the crazier they are, the more things they do for me, the happier I am! What, are you envious? Jealous? Hahaha deserve it You can not!"

His voice was very loud, heavy and urgent, and he seemed to be angry with embarrassment, but in his eyes, under the subtle expression, there was indeed a bit of pride and self-satisfaction hidden.

He really enjoys this state.

This is really different from Cui Mata.

At that time, Cui Yu really wanted to die. He was very courageous and dared to try anything. For example, when he saw a building, he would be willing to walk on the highest and outermost rooftop; If you go to the sky, you will be willing to play a higher and more dangerous paraglider.

He wanted to court death, and was willing to be close to death, but he hoped that the result was an accident rather than suicide.I don't know why, but anyway, he is against the idea of ​​suicide.

But Mo Ting is different, he has hanged himself and thrown himself into water, he really wanted to commit suicide, if someone happened to pass by to watch, he wouldn't be alive now.

As for masochism...

Cui Mata is not at all.

Who dares to torment him to see, if he doesn't kill the other party, his surname will not be Cui!

Yang Xuan from the previous generation...was an exception, he didn't know why he could stand it.Later, when I thought about it carefully, I realized that Yang Xuan was actually very clumsy at the time. At the beginning, he also wanted to be gentle with him, but he didn't cooperate.The first time they had a relationship, the atmosphere was really bad, very tense, they were all men with a big temper, and when they became aggressive, they would inevitably be rough, but afterwards, Yang Xuan actually treated him more gently.

He may understand it in his heart, but he is conflicted in his mind, he hates Yang Xuan, and even more hates himself who is world-weary, so the situation is getting worse and worse.But the two of them, both smart people and lonely souls, actually gave each other comfort and redemption, and the strength to keep going.

If Yang Xuan only wants to take from him, or treats him as an object, willing to share with others, playing tricks that he doesn't like or accept...

Heh, Yang Xuan must not live to die.

Thinking seems to be too divergent...

Cui Mata lowered his eyes and regained his senses.

Even though the specific circumstances are different, there is still something in common in this death-seeking state of mind, which proves that Mo Ting can be forced to speak with a few words.

Cui Mata thought for a while and continued.

"You asked Wan Lin and others to use you to rebel against you...but you want to take revenge? Was the person who made you suffer back then an official from Da'an? He has a strong background? Or..."

Emperor Taikang himself?

The identities of the two are really different, and the possibility of meeting them is too small, Cui Yu thought about it, and didn't finish.

Mo Ting's face was a bit ferocious, and after a while, his emotions were put away, and he slowly showed a sneer, still uncooperative: "You can think what you want."

Cui Mata frowned.

The air stagnated suddenly, and there was an unpleasant and oppressive atmosphere in the dark cell.

Cui Yan looked at his fingers for a long time before continuing to speak.

"You said you were happy, but you gave up your beliefs and pursuits, gave up on yourself, are you really happy? You and Wan Lin, with those men, yes, there is indeed a moment of joy, and what happens after the joy? There is no emptiness, no moment of regret? "

He stared fixedly at Mo Ting: "Do you think that in the future, if you get your revenge and wish fulfilled, you will be very happy? Let me tell you, no."

This point, he is deeply touched.

In his previous life, he killed all the people who treated him harshly, leaving no relatives left, enjoying the huge family property alone, and was not happy.He dismantled all the family business, and he was not happy. He re-established a kingdom that only belonged to him, a place that didn't have the slightest taste of others, and he was still unhappy.

"I'll tell you how to be truly happy."

"The first one is also the shallowest one. When you grow stronger, you can be the master of your own affairs, and let everyone rely on you. All those who have bullied you must live according to the way you arrange."

"The second is to find someone, or some people, and let them rely on you."

"The third way is to find a sense of responsibility for yourself."

Cui Yan stretched out his fingers one by one, and was not in a hurry to ask questions, as if he was just in a normal state of mind, chatting with Mo Ting.

"I guess, you must like the first one. But how powerful is the real powerful, never to be controlled by others, without any influence? Even if the current emperor is rich and powerful enough, but what he wants , may not really be able to get it. Every action of his is related to various interest groups. Only when everyone is satisfied can it be implemented, otherwise... no. He even has to choose a concubine and who is the woman sleeping next to the pillow. It is the ministers and various interest groups who have drawn up a list, and in this list, he chooses one who is fairly pleasing to the eye. Break away from this rights group and go find it elsewhere?"

"Well... it's not impossible. After all, under the power of the monarch, any force has to bow its head, but such a monarch is no longer a wise monarch. A king who disappoints his subjects and is not supported by them, do you think he can be a king? By when?"

Therefore, this is actually a false proposition. In fact, as long as you live for a day, you will encounter various problems, and it is impossible to do whatever you want.

"It's different when someone relies on you. This person will give you warmth and comfort. Because you shelter him from the wind and rain, he will always care about your well-being, whether you have food when you are hungry, and whether you have clothes when you are cold." Wear...the kind that is sincere."

Very rare, with these words, Cui Mata recalled the past.

How he got along with Yang Xuan in his previous life.

The atmosphere between them is always very cold, either they are arguing or on the way to arguing, but when they sit together, even if they don't speak, the atmosphere is very harmonious.Yang Xuan is really careful, so careful that even his urination is a bit yellow, he knows such trivial things as getting angry, and he will quietly ask the doctor to prescribe medicine, and ask the chef to make medicinal food for him to recuperate.

He himself... Occasionally when the weather is particularly bad, he would hesitate to send someone to look at it and give Yang Xuan an umbrella.

Their relationship is different from ordinary lovers, but there is a slight sense of dependence.

That's why he just said that he didn't continue to seek death, so Yang Xuan's stubborn temper was relieved a little bit, and he wasn't too stubborn, desperate to do something big right away...

As for the last one, responsibility...

"All your life, you are actually looking for the meaning of life. You are looking for who you are and what you really want."

Desire is something that will never be satisfied. Every time, every time, a higher standard and higher goal will be set, but there are some things around you, if you are willing to bear them, you will see a different sky.

This truth was discovered by Cui Mata in his lifetime.

When I returned to the old house in Yicheng County, I met Cui Ying and Cui Jin. Because of their cuteness and caring, gradually, he was willing to carry them on his shoulders and take more responsibility, so he became more settled and more mature. Become a better version of yourself.

Yang Xuan is actually the same.

If he only had hatred in his heart, only resentment and resentment towards the past, he would certainly not be what he is today, would not have so many followers, and would not break his heart.

People who don't work hard will never know how good they are and how beautiful life is.

Cui Yu pointed at Mo Ting: "Actually, this thing is not hard to find, it's right around you, but you don't want to look at it."

"Do you still remember the doctor named Yu and the girl named Sangsang?"

Mo Ting's face changed, he rushed forward, was held back by the heavy shackles on his hands, and stayed in the air, his face extremely grim: "How do you know about them! I warn you, don't hurt them, otherwise I will definitely not hurt them." I will let you go, I won't let you go!"

How could he not remember... how could he not remember!

Bright colors in life, the best memories!

This Cui Yu is really eloquent, and he is the best at attacking the heart. A few words make his mood fluctuate constantly, and he agrees with him from the bottom of his heart...

It's useless to defend against it!

Cui Yu ignored him and continued, "Miss Sangsang is very beautiful and gentle. Dr. Yu is very skilled in medicine and is respected by everyone. But there are few doctors who are particularly rich, and Miss Sangsang is so beautiful...you I understand, no matter how respected you are, you will inevitably be coveted. You are so smart, you may not be able to go to the battlefield, but if you want to protect them and protect them for a lifetime, it must not be difficult..."

Mo Ting bit his lips tightly and didn't speak.

"Think about it, will this picture be much happier?" Cui Yu smiled, "Compared to your revenge?"

Mo Ting thought in his heart that he couldn't be led away by this person, but he couldn't help but imagined this scene in his mind.

Will you feel happy and satisfied, needless to say?

Cui Mata concluded: "You will regret it."

Even if he regretted it, Mo Ting didn't want to admit it.He can't turn back now, it's useless to say anything!

Cui Yu continued to make big moves: "Doctor Yu and Miss Sangsang, we haven't moved. Miss Sangsang, she hasn't married yet."

Mo Ting covered his face.

After a long time, he laughed softly: "I want to know why I rebelled? Because the one who ruined me was Emperor Taikang! I want to kill him, but I think about it every day and night. If I can't, even if I die, I will die." I will die with peace!"

"You want to know what I went through? Why did I know Dr. Yu? Well, I'll tell you all!"

Mo Ting was good-looking and talented back then, even though he was a bastard, his family didn't hold him back much.Once when I was drinking in Hualou, I happened to go to the wrong place and met Emperor Taikang who had a "private visit with a micro-service".

At that time, Mo Ting was drinking too much and was playing games with others, the loser had to pretend to be a young lady, and even went to the wrong place, so Emperor Taikang would misunderstand it, so it was normal.

It was rare for Emperor Taikang to see such a beautiful boy, and Xu was also in a good mood, so if he wanted to play different tricks, he had to get Mo Ting.At the critical moment, Mo Ting sobered up from the wine, sober that he couldn't be sober again, he pushed desperately and tried his best to explain, but Emperor Taikang who was too drunk didn't take it seriously at all, thinking that everything was just for fun.

Emperor Taikang had some bad habits and roughness when it came to intercourse... He could not take pity on Concubine Tian Gui, who was always with him, caring and sensible, and had to rely heavily on him, let alone the young lady who jumped up in the building by herself?

I also know that Mo Ting's degree of pain is extraordinary.

But Mo Ting experienced more than that.

After enjoying Mo Ting, Emperor Taikang thought it was okay, but he still didn't listen to his explanation, and rewarded him casually to a warrior who escorted him out to play.

This warrior is the real ruthless man.

In the next three years, Emperor Taikang had long forgotten about Mo Ting, and the torture of the martial artist was still there, until——the martial artist was on a business trip and died in the line of duty.

A martial artist has a family and a family, Emperor Taikang secretly gave a man, no one knows, he can play, but can't take it home, so he died, and Mo Ting was free.

Take care of your body and come out to see that things are different.

He suddenly disappeared, failed the imperial examination, and the family only thought that he was gone, and his aunt and brother were in charge of the house, so there was no place for him.The biological mother also died. I heard that it was because of him. She was sad day and night, crying and blinded, and finally couldn't bear it...

What he insisted on, pursued, and wanted were all gone.

So, what are you doing alive?

"Emperor Taikang, I want him to die! I want him to die!"

Blood and tears flowed from Mo Ting's eyes, and he shouted at the top of his lungs.

Anyway, he has been abused by others, a few years is enough for him to get used to intercourse between men, enjoy this kind of thing, know how to tease a man, how to satisfy a man, he also picked up the skill of motherhood, learned a little drama, Even she couldn't hide the obsequiousness accumulated over the years of training.

That being the case, what's wrong with using a few men?

He is a prostitute, he is cheap, he cannot live without a man, he just wants to make it like this, no one can do anything to him!

Cui Mata did not expect to hear such a story.

It turns out that all of this was the fault of Emperor Taikang himself!

It's understandable for Mo Ting's mentality that he doesn't comment and wants revenge, but this behavior of pulling the whole world to go crazy with him and revenge together... is really unforgivable.

"Even if Dr. Yu and Miss Sangsang are caught in the flames of war and displaced, life and death are unpredictable?"

Mo Ting wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes: "That's their fate too! It's their misfortune that they know me! In the next life—"

"There is no next life!" Cui Yu stood up, his eyes slightly rolled up, and his voice was cold, "It is useless to try to comfort yourself, you have hurt them! What you carry on your back is not only the lives of many innocent people, but also Your benefactor!"

Mo Ting was stunned for a moment, then suddenly burst out laughing.

"Hahahaha—whatever you like, I can't control that much anymore! I know, you came here to see me today just to ask about the future, don't you? Let me tell you, I can't help it, no one can do it The rebellion has already been created, whether I am here or not, it must continue, killing me, threatening me is useless!"

"Foreign enemy Turkic invasion, here Wan Lin leads the battle, Lin and Ma encircle and support, and Sun Liang is in charge, no matter what happens, there is no one left! Emperor Taikang will be defeated, this city of Luoyang, this seat of the emperor, will definitely change hands! "

Well, now Cui Yu and Cui Shu know the whole team of the rebellion.

Wan Lin led the Xishan camp, and Lin Ma was the two support troops. Sun Liang, check the surrounding troops, and you will know who it is immediately!

Another point……

Mo Ting thought he was unimportant, but in fact he still has some weight.

At least he's here, and the rebel teams don't like each other at all, but he still has to give him some face, on the surface he wants to get by and cooperate.But now that he has been arrested, the alliance officially disintegrated and fell apart.

Twisted into one rope, constrained by battle plans, and echoing back and forth, the troops are terrifying. Without this cooperation, no matter how many people there are, they will not be difficult to deal with.

The news is obtained, but when the other party will move, whether it will be stimulated by the news of Mo Ting's captivity, it is still unknown.

So, hurry up!

Can't ask more questions, knowing that this is all, Cui Mata and Cui Shu didn't stop, immediately transferred out of the cell, and went to their respective jobs.

……

The third siege battle will begin soon.

The number of people is still crushed, and the battle drums are beating together, and the momentum is huge.

From such a distance, even Emperor Taikang in the palace heard the movement.

"Why are you here again? Didn't you retreat!" Emperor Taikang was very irritable.

Eunuch Gao served the tea lightly, and explained gently, "Perhaps the rebels haven't given up and still have illusions..."

"After all, Yang Zhao and the Cui family were careless! If they were really capable, they would have defeated each other by now!"

Emperor Taikang pushed away the teacup impatiently, listening to the sound from outside, his heart beat faster and faster, and his heart became more and more flustered.

The war drum seems to be getting faster and closer?

The sound of the city gate being broken seemed to be right next to my ears...

"No, it's not safe here!" Emperor Taikang strode back, "Pack up your things, I'm leaving the palace!"

He remembered that there was a secret passage in the palace, which was specially used for escape during special times.

Eunuch Gao's face twitched, his head drooped heavily, and he whispered, "A country cannot be without a king for a day. The city gate has not been broken yet, has it? The soldiers are guarding it. Your majesty, look..."

"You old dog don't listen to me anymore!"

……

There is a quarrel in the palace, and the battle is in full swing at the city gate.

Wan Lin's troops were not with the two Xiang armies, and they were engaged in various political activities on several sides, and experienced different battles at the main entrance and the east and west gates.

There are those who act recklessly when they come up, some who scold and fight, and some who make threats.

Someone put Prince Yue out and threatened Yang Zhao: "Look who this is! He looks exactly like Emperor Taikang in the palace, this is the emperor's son! You guys hurry up and open the door and hand over Mo Ting, or I will kill you!" killed him!"

Prince Yue was very frightened, before...it was clearly not what he said!

Before Yang Zhao could speak, the soldiers below expressed their opinions one after another: "You kill him, I will let him die!"

"He's not the prince. Didn't he admit that he and Huizhi are his father?"

"The emperor's decree has come down early, the Tian family is unclean, and the Yue prince, the prince Chang, is not a dragon!"

"That's why this guy is hurrying to discredit our prince!"

"Bah! When we are too blind to see!"

"Our allegiance is to the emperor above the head, the crown prince bestowed by heaven. I don't know what you have in your hand!"

Prince Yue looked at everything in front of him, feeling a little complicated.

If he hadn't turned back...would everything have been different?

Letting go of his hand behind him, the deputy general patted Prince Yue on the shoulder: "I'm sorry, I just frightened them just now, but I didn't expect people not to follow this routine, and the prince has worked so hard."

This sounded like an apology, but it was actually ironic.

Prince Yue blushed slightly.

The deputy general looked behind Prince Yue again.

Today, Zhuang Shu was also arranged to watch the battle...

When Zhuang Shu saw this look, she knew what it meant.

She sneered, instead of being caught out, she might as well take the initiative herself!

She passed the prince Yue, and said firmly: "The deputy general will use my concubine body! Anyway, I was forced to take this battlefield, and I didn't think about going back. If I can make a great contribution, I will get a memorial archway in the future, and the world will still remember me lifetime!"

Her back is straight, the corners of her skirt are flying, and her eyes are hunting like fire. Underneath, she has a courage that even a man can't match!

The lieutenant general was interested in it at first, the prince Yue is useless, women... must be useful, if the other party dares to ignore women and children, their reputation will be bad if they say it.

In this case, the weaker the woman, the better, and the effect of crying and cursing is stronger, but this woman stood up by herself.She is heroic. Doesn't it show that he has no ability as a lieutenant general?

The lieutenant was not happy, he waved his hand and asked Zhuang Shu to be taken down.

Anyway, it's not the worst time yet, scare this woman, the effect will be better later...

Just as he was thinking about this, a group of teams suddenly appeared on the other side's tower, and tied up the concubine Yue and the only son of the Yue prince.

"Listen to the people on the other side! Your Royal Highness, please stop the war immediately, otherwise your wife and son may be in trouble!"

Damn, this is the turn of feng shui, did you use this trick?