[Korean Entertainment] But I love U

"Alas..." Li Cailin stood at the entrance, looked at the mess in the room, sighed, and resigned to her fate after changing her shoes, she began to pack them up.

Although Ruoyi's dormitory is not big, Cailin was still sweating profusely after tidying up, exhausted.She gently pushed open the bedroom door, let out a sigh of relief, secretly glad that Roy didn't act too badly here.

"Min Min, don't sleep, get up, your eyes will be swollen if you sleep again, don't you have an announcement tomorrow?" Cailin pushed Ruoyi who was lying with her back facing her, trying to wake her up.

In fact, Ruoyi didn't sleep, she couldn't sleep, she just entered a period of self-loathing. I stayed in the house for a long time.

Seeing that Ruoyi ignored her, Cailin simply moved to the other side of the bed and sat down. Sure enough, although Ruoyi closed her eyes, her eyeballs were shaking slightly, and there were still half-dried tears on her face. Cailin looked It hurts so much, but when I think of her sluggish appearance, I grit my teeth, roll up my sleeves and forcefully pull the person on the bed up: "I know you haven't slept, get up!"

Ruoyi couldn't resist her, so he could only open his eyes, half-up and leaned against the head of the bed, without saying a word.

Cailin poked Ruoyi's forehead with her fingers, hating iron and iron, and said angrily, "Look at what you are now." She didn't delay her work and give the staff a bad look, but she was terribly silent during this time, and she didn't seem to be in a good mood, and she didn't eat much food seriously. Yin Zhixin persuaded her several times, but Ruoyi ignored her She didn't answer or refute, as if she didn't hear it, and Yin Zhixin who was on the side could only worry.

Ruoyi remained silent, she opened her mouth, and a few words came out of her hoarse throat: "Cailin, am I really bad?" She has been thinking these days why Quan Zhilong is so determined If he breaks up with her, is it because she is not good enough, or he has found someone better.Some time ago, a man was still playing with you endlessly in the game of running and chasing couples who must be tired of fighting. Now he suddenly broke up with you so resolutely, which made it difficult for Ruoyi to accept.She subconsciously felt that it was her own problem, and all the negative emotions erupted, so that she was in this decadent state of dying.

"What are you thinking about!" Cailin was angry and anxious, why is this dead girl so obsessed with horns and can't get out!She calmed down, and said softly, "Min Min, don't think about it. There are many reasons for the failure of a relationship. Sometimes there may be no reason. It's just that the timing is wrong. It's not a particularly shameful thing or the sky is about to fall. It’s something that’s over, so don’t torture yourself like this anymore.”

"But..." Ruoyi said hesitantly, as if he was trying to organize his words: "I can't help myself not to think about it, and I don't want to, I tried my best. But, I smiled in the mirror and found that it was just twitching the corners of my mouth, It’s not a joke at all, when I perform on stage, the fans’ cheers don’t affect me, I always feel that after the performance they will leave me to like others, just like Zhilong... without looking back.”

Cailin held her slightly trembling hand, and quietly listened to what she said with a little panic and a little annoyance.

"I even hate people's gazes. I feel like they are looking at me as a joke. Although they believe that I have not done those dirty things, they will still scold me and look down on me behind my back. Last birthday Yes, I was better at first, but after seeing the lily hanbok, I even wondered in my heart whether the fans' concern was really kind. Cailin, what's wrong with me?"

"From childhood to adulthood, no matter the elders, relatives, teachers and neighbors around me, they all praised me for being beautiful, well-behaved, smart and motivated. Later, when I debuted, many fans also complimented me because of this skin. But I really like what they said Is that good? Even if it's really good, what's the use, wouldn't it be criticized by others, and you can't even keep a relationship?"

Roy talked a lot, and seemed to express everything he thought during the silent period.Seeing that she seemed to have finished venting, Cailin held her hand tightly, looked into her eyes, and said firmly: "In my heart, you are so good, sincerely."

When Ruoyi heard what she said, she lowered her head halfway, not wanting her to see the tears in her eyes. She was confused and struggling, unable to keep denying herself, and didn't know who to tell. Now Hearing someone affirming herself so firmly, she suddenly felt extremely wronged.

"Min Min, you still have a lot of time in your life to prove your value. There are still many things in this world waiting for you to challenge and conquer, and there are countless people by your side You care about you, and you don’t even care about denying them all?”

Roy bowed her head in silence for a long time, the bedroom was terribly quiet for a while, suddenly Roy shed two clear tears, but she didn't cry, as if these two clear tears condensed all her sadness and uneasiness, she raised her head, Her eyes were clear, she smiled lightly, but it was sincere.

Seeing this, Cailin finally breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that she had finally pulled her back, her face softened, and she jokingly said: "If you cheer up one day later, your Mr. Right will come one day later, you know Is it?"

Ruoyi pursed her mouth after hearing this, and said three words: "I'm hungry."

"Min Ruoyi, I'm going to be your mother!" Cailin angrily dropped this sentence, and then resigned to her fate and went to work in the kitchen.

Roy got out of bed and walked to the desk, picked up the crayon Shin-chan on the side, pulled out the ring hanging around his neck, bit his lip, but was not willing to throw it away, but locked it in the deepest corner of the cabinet.

Since then, Ruoyi has indeed returned to her previous lively and cheerful attitude. Manager Yin Zhixin admired Li Cailin in a five-body manner. Seeing the haze disappearing between the eyebrows of his artist, he couldn't help but smile in his heart, and let her He eats hazel all day long, and doesn't know how to write the word weight at all.

Even, with Teddy's encouragement, Roy wrote the mood at that time into lyrics. Teddy chose an arrangement to make the melody, and after several adjustments, a masterpiece was born. Roy thought of his gloomy mood at that time, and named it "Ugly", Just wait for the production to be completed, and it will be released as a sound source single in early December.

Fast forward to the end of the year, and at the SBS Gayo Daejeon, Roy finally inevitably met the person she had been avoiding for the past few months.

The performances of the two solo tracks were arranged together. Ruoyi's "Ugly" was followed by Quan Zhilong's "Heartbreaker". It's not from the same company anymore, isn't YG called Family?What kind of family is this!

As her performance sequence approached, Cody was in the waiting room doing the final touch-ups for her. She looked at the shoes in the shoe box on the dressing table, and couldn't help being lost for a while.

These are the shoes that Quan Zhilong gave her at the beginning, Alexander McQueen's sapphire blue flash diamond high heels, waterproof platform stilettos, and the brand's iconic skull printed on the sole. She liked it very much at one time, but after breaking up, she basically followed Quan Zhi Everything related to dragons was assigned to a corner by her.Some time ago, her team held a small party in her newly moved dormitory. It was considered a warm residence. The costume designer sister found this pair of shoes somehow. She patted her thigh and said that it was a match made in heaven with this costume. she wears.

She insisted on refusing at first, but then thought of what Cailin said, 'the more you deliberately choose to forget, the more guilty you will be', so in order to show that she really doesn't care, she agreed decisively.After reminiscing, she sighed, put on her shoes, and walked to the standby position.

She performed on stage accompanied by music, probably because she was wearing Zhilong’s shoes, thinking about the lyrics written by herself, she sang more and more with a paranoid sense of catharsis, and the audience in the audience also infected this emotion, The screaming became louder.

Quan Zhilong is on the second floor directly above the stage, and he will get into the cloth box in front of him to perform soon, so he can only wait on the second floor, but he can also see the situation on the stage clearly.He has not been calm since he saw the pair of high heels on Ruoyi's feet. To be honest, he has not had a good time during the past few months after breaking up, but he is buried in his heart, and he is either rushing to make announcements or preparing to sing all day long. Yes, the rest of the time was spent in the studio, and he seldom went back to the dormitory, so his fragility was not shown to others, probably only the antidepressants in his bag understood his sorrow.

Roy on the stage has already performed the chorus of the second stanza. She wholeheartedly enjoys the treatment of her pain on the stage and enjoys this song that expresses true feelings.

"I think I'mugly

Andnobody wants to love me

Just likeherIwannabeprettyIwannabepretty

Don'tlietomyfacecuzIknowI'mugly"

The ugly sound of the last sentence of this paragraph fell, but she froze.Because she found that the high-heeled shoe on her left foot was thrown out by her in a moment of forgetfulness.

The lonely high-heeled shoe slid a small parabola in the air, landed on the edge of the stage, rolled a few times without stopping the car, and got stuck in the gap of the spotlight on the edge of the stage, unable to get it out.

Fortunately, the next two lines of Ruo Yi's stunned mind only needed to be sung by the accompaniment, and when she came back to God, she just caught the line 'There is nothing to keep warm, and there is no one to accompany her'.

She sang calmly, but she felt sore and wanted to cry.She has sealed up everything about Zhilong, only this pair of shoes was accidentally turned over, she agreed to wear them out for a performance, but she was a little guilty in order to prove that she can face this failed relationship calmly now, It can be regarded as encouraging himself, but God is so fond of joking, is he telling himself that he shouldn't have even the slightest involvement with that person?Even in this way, even if she really felt that she didn't care anymore?

Maybe God is using this pair of shoes to tell her that she still has some love left, and it is also using this pair of shoes to tell her that she should clean up the last bit of ties.

She smiled wryly in silence, took off the other shoe on her foot, picked it up and took a look.The sapphire blue skull was as proud as usual, with empty eyes and expressionless face. At the moment, Roy seemed to be mocking her. She paused a line of singing, said "goodbye" softly, and put her shoes on. He threw it out as if he didn't care, his movements were wanton and chic.

She has never dared to say goodbye to her love. Even under Cailin's earnest persuasion, she just covered the wound and sealed it in a small corner of her heart, hoping that it would be buried by time.

She thought, now is the time to say goodbye to this relationship.

Some were laughing at her 'goodbye', and some were screaming because of the way she had just done.But only Quan Zhilong saw the mist in her eyes when she threw away her shoes and walked barefoot in his direction.

He was sure it wasn't the illusion of stage lighting, he knew it was her sadness.

So, he didn't care about meeting the audience in half a minute, and couldn't help but shed tears.

In that moment, something was really broken between them and it was never the same again.

The author has something to say: ah, the writing of this chapter was really time-consuming, and I finally wrote what I wanted to express.

Under the double blow of scandal + broken love, Roy started self-denial and self-doubt, so I stole 2ne1's "Ugly" to ration her, it couldn't be more appropriate.What Ruoyi said to Cailin is actually my personal understanding of Ugly.

I absolutely love the song "Ugly" and have used it as my phone ringtone for over two years now! !

In addition, the plot of throwing high heels is actually the "one of the earliest YY plots when conceived" mentioned in the author's words in the previous chapter. I like the plot very much.

By the way, are you really a man who let Gun Gun play the stand-alone version for several chapters in a row!Is it really a human being?

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