Salazar Slytherin's suicide note

You gave me a hug, and I felt your warm body temperature pass through your arms.Our Slytherin family has not yet evolved into a constant temperature, so for a moment, a strong desire rose in my heart-I want to stay in your arms forever, enjoying this feeling of safety and warmth .I was too young at the time, and this desire was willing to yield to the limits of reason, but I didn't expect it to expand with the awakening of blood.

Then, you say, "It doesn't matter who that is, Sal, I'll never treat you like they do."

You see, this is your first unfulfilled vow to me.I believed it at the time.And after a long, long time, you tore my body in a more brutal way, and then engraved my apology for you on my soul.Compared with the punishment I received at that time, the pain was definitely worse than anything.

You also took me to the riverside of Cado.I listened to you humming the ups and downs of Greek poetry and the strong vowels, and suddenly felt that you were the only one in the whole world, walking alone in the afterglow of the setting sun.

"Hey, Sal, have you ever been to the Far East?" Suddenly, you changed your tone and looked back at me.

In this way, I seem to have stepped into your world, although this is just my illusion, a beautiful illusion.

"No." I replied.

"That's such a pity." You took a sip of the wine, then handed the bottle to me, and continued, "I've always wanted to go to the East. It's very mysterious and gorgeous. I've seen silk produced in the East. The texture on it is as delicate as a classical oil painting."

I shook my head: "I don't drink."

"Really? I didn't see you refusing last night." You laughed, as if the joy of the whole world was contained in those shining blue eyes, "You were quite drunk yesterday."

"Do I have it?" I raised my eyebrows, and couldn't help being a little happy, although I didn't know why.

"Oh, you don't have to worry," you looked at me with a wider smile on your face, "you are very beautiful, even more beautiful than any woman I have ever seen. For such a beauty, believe me-you have the right to try anything."

"Thank you," I said. "There are two poor people in this world who are always treated with pity for biological reasons. One is disabled and the other is naturally beautiful."

"good."

Walking east along the embankment of the Kadu River, you continued: "I like exquisite things, so I have always hoped to have the opportunity to truly understand the culture of the East. It's a pity that our ambition, no matter what it is in Gensokyo The grandeur is always buried by the plainness and laziness of reality, don't you think, Thrall?"

"Maybe it's fate telling us that fantasies should only stay in fantasies." I said, "It's just a personal opinion."

You froze for a moment, then sighed: "Yes, no matter what it is, once you want it, it will bloom; and once you have it, it will wither."

I laughed and said, "This sentence is lame, but the truth is straightforward."

You say, "Sal, I like you so much, you're so smart."

I was in a trance for a moment, and your golden hair reflected the light of the setting sun, as if it hurt my eyes again.Those passing time, the years of flowing water, have appeared in front of me in a blink of an eye.My heartbeat is only heard by myself, it hits my skin again and again, as if it is about to jump out of my chest.But you can't hear it, and you won't hear it again.

Do you still remember, you said you like me.At that time, I was still young and ignorant, carefree and frivolous, so I felt that the years are long and the time is quiet.I also feel like my life is just starting to sail.I was blinded by unrealistic fantasies, blinded by your warmth, so that I couldn't see the thorny road ahead; I moved forward so persistently that I couldn't see the hand stretched out by the person behind me.

The scariest part was that I wasn't even aware of my shortsightedness.Until one day, your affection for me was wiped out by conspiracy and tricks, and finally let that disgust and contempt replace the tenderness you once gave.It was only then that I realized how naive it was to believe your nonsense.

At that time, I turned my head, half-closed my eyes and asked you: "If I were a woman, would you marry me?"

You shook your head, smiled lightly, "Sal, don't make trouble."

We looked at each other and smiled.You kissed my cheek gently, and those vibrant eyes reflected the colorful clouds in the sky, looking at me.The chapters of childhood in my life, the countless steps of wandering in the corridor, the solitude in the middle of the night, the numbness at the dinner party, are all broken by your appearance-I don't have to live like that anymore.You gave me freedom (Yousetmefree).At that moment, my gray world seemed to be dyed with color:

Bright red, blood-like red, gallops in my body, flowing in the clear sky above the Kadu River.

From then on, I know that you will marry an ordinary woman. She may not understand you, ancient Greece, or the mysteries of the East, but she will be a soft woman with elegant and reasonable manners.It doesn't surprise me at all that you and Emily are married.I can't help but feel sad when I see you take care of her day and night, and see her whispering affectionately in your ear.Because I know that as long as one day I am still me and you are you, there will be no long time between us.

Godric Gryffindor, tell me why, why am I so infatuated with you?

Perhaps your brilliance is too dazzling.When I sink my eyes into yours, what I glimpse is a sun too bright, a blooming splendor.

Even though I know that those past years will eventually pass, I still enjoy every minute and every second with you, as if I am in a time longer than time.

But I hate you.I am no longer young, and my desires are no longer poured out of my lips, nor are they expressed with my expression.I hate everything you've done, everything you've done to me.

You made me never forget the embankment of Kadu, and even now, when I am dying, the sky is full of sunset in my mind.I always knew that I would not be the No.1 you took there, and I would never be the last.I'm not your favorite person, nor your most hated person.

I always knew that I was nothing to you.To myself, I am nothing.Only in the eyes of the children of my academy did my life have dignity for the first time, and my existence as myself had meaning.It was you who gave me such a fatal opportunity.

I hate you.It is because of you that Anna suffers like this, and because of you, I am here.But I don't regret meeting you, because from then on my life just started.You are the light that shines into the abyss, maybe only for a moment, but it gives hope to the desperate people.

As a matter of course, I was confined and grounded by the head of the family.That was three full months, and you never came to me.The intimacy I consider myself to be with you--and I am even punished for it--is nothing to you but an insignificant one among many.But even so, I was happy during that time, thinking of you saying you like me and you saying you won't hurt me.