Salazar Slytherin's suicide note

I can't even bear to recall the words that followed.Godric Gryffindor, you are indeed a rational being - all your emotions give way to that.

The next day, isn't it the day I say goodbye to you?The clouds of the day dried up, and without lights, Brohoby St. returned to its former gloom. The owl hanging upside down on the branch was dying, as if it had experienced severe pain that could not breathe in the cold wind.

And I, at that time, hoped that your promise was no longer empty words, and thought that happiness was more than just a dream.

So when I was hit by your spell, I was more surprised than angry and sad.It made me realize that there is a part of my mind that even I can't touch, that still thinks of you as someone I can trust, that still thinks of you as the person I slept with last night.

I told myself so many times, again and again, that there are two you in this world, one is used to comfort me, hug me, and give me warmth and the courage to survive.And the other one is used to abuse me, harm me, and push me to the edge of the bottomless abyss.

Your expression is cold and hard, and the ocean in your eyes has turned into ice.The temperament on your body makes me want to shrink back for some reason, wanting to escape endlessly.

But where can I escape to?No matter how far it is, it is no farther than the distance between me and you, and I can't break free from the fetters you have set in my life.

you are my Destiny.I can't get rid of you no matter what -

You say, "Sal, you've really disappointed me."

I raised my head, provoking your demeanor.The flames of anger ignited in my heart, for a moment, I wanted to open my mouth to refute you, tell the whole story of everything you did to me, and then use my lips and tongue to taunt you, in order to seek pleasure, even if it is less than a second , to gain, even a little bit of freedom.

But I can't.I just, can't say it.Those syllables were already on the tip of my tongue, but I held my breath to let them dissipate in the cool air.

"Thanks to me, I thought that what they said about you were just absurd theories. But I didn't expect that you would actually do something absurd." You said, cornering me, "You actually Bullying Muggle students. You seduce young children. You trick me and try to keep it all a secret."

I sneered, but didn't answer.That obviously stabs you, doesn't it, Godric Gryffindor?So you acted more intensely, and those strong hands clasped my neck with well-defined joints.

"How noble do you think you are? Huh? You think I don't know that half of your body is filled with the blood of magical creatures, and half of your body is filled with the darkness of primitive desires, concealing the brilliance of Apollo?" You looked disdainful, and said without any mercy, "If you have to talk about noble and humble, aren't magical creatures the lowest, even if they are not even human beings? What right do you have? To despise a human child, whether his parents are Muggles or wizards?"

"I'm not," I argued. "You can't punish me for something I didn't do. I love all the kids, just as you do."

"Like I did?" You seem to have heard something ridiculous, "Salazar Slytherin, when did you ever see me kiss my students? And when did I, in bed with them, Are you so entangled with me? Isn’t that your love—as I said before, for a creature like you, love is lust. In your eyes, everything is desire, even the soul .”

"That's exactly what I want to stop you."

As you said, you crossed your body and left, leaning against the round wooden table next to the window frame, with your arms crossed in front of your chest.

You know it all, I should have thought of it earlier.Marvolo will tell you all this, and then I will be utterly ruined, utterly hopeless in you, utterly controlled by him.The thought stings in my mind.

I'm still too credulous, trusting people who shouldn't be trusted.

Godric Gryffindor, tell me, when you saw me submitting and surrendering, were you really as happy as you were, could you really feel happiness in my sadness?How much I want to argue and retort that you are wrong, I know how to love, just because I am cowardly, because I have never devoted myself so much, so I didn't do it too well.

The person I love, he doesn't know yet, hasn't heard my confession with his own ears.How could I, one step ahead, reveal it to you?I used to be so confused between love and hate that I made everything so bad that they stood side by side like lights and shadows and couldn't exist without each other.

Seriously, if I had another chance to start everything again, would our ending be different?If I drank the wine you handed me that day on the banks of the Kadu River, if I didn't mistakenly thought I was in love with Dalia on the days in the Aegean Sea, if I never erased your memory, if I never married Rowena, if I had rejected Marvolo, if I hadn't just chatted with you last night.So is it, today will never come.

Is it true that there is still room for redemption in everything.

If not, I wouldn't be struggling to breathe in this remote forest.

With bitterness in my voice, I hear myself asking you, "Do you want me to leave?"

You didn't give an answer, and this is the answer.In a trance, I seemed to hear fate mocking me and spurning me.One word from you, Godric Gryffindor, and you will never see me again.I am a person, without any reason, without any purpose, and exactly as I said to you, without any self-respect, I just obey you.

They are not wrong, none of them are wrong, you are a warm person, a kind teacher, and a responsible principal.You are on the side of your wife, the children you care about.You deserve to have the most perfect life.If it's me, making you feel bad, then I think, I know how to choose.

This is my last choice, not yours, Godric Gryffindor, don't think about it.There is no worthy or unworthy, because life is no distinction between worthy and unworthy.Go ahead and treat Emily well, hold her in your arms, pamper her, comfort her, and take care of her for the rest of your life.Also love your child well, beautiful Daphne, she is so much better than Anna, she will inherit all your glory.

Go live your life, find the happiness you want, treat wizards or Muggle children as equals, I believe them, with you as a teacher, no matter what, they will be the best people.I sincerely wish you, and those children, must, be happier.Be sure, let my departure redeem my sins.

I thought, I really will never see you again.Godric Gryffindor, last and last, just please, listen to my parting vows again:

You are my destiny and I love you.

sorry. "