Salazar Slytherin's suicide note

"At this time, shouldn't you be by your wife's side to comfort her? Or are you just an incompetent coward who has to blame me for all your dissatisfaction with her?"

To my surprise, you are not angry, and the ocean of sadness in your eyes is surging.You say, "Sal, is that what you teach your daughter? Where's your gentle demeanor?"

Godric Gryffindor, wasn't it you who made me like this?The young man who stood by the flower bed and simply thought your smile was charming, has long since drowned in the deep sea of ​​fate.It was you who made him desperate again and again with your infinite charm, short company and perfect marriage, and you made him have no choice but to change.

I grinned grimly and replied, "Liar."

My dear friend, that's just a lie you've made to hide your emotions.And this lie is spoken from your lips again and again, starting with lying to me and ending with lying to yourself.

You have momentary loss of consciousness.I thought you were going to slam the door and leave, but you didn't.You stepped forward, grabbed my collar and forced me to get closer to you.I looked up and refused to admit defeat.I feel the beating of the heart, how like the last melody of life.

"Guess what, Sal, you're right," you shoved me against the wall so hard that my legs hit the edge of the bed, the pain flared up, "I lied to you. And trust me , you won’t want to hear the truth.”

My expression is dull, but my heart is sighing.I have already said that mine is all yours, and if you ever loved me even less than you loved Emily, my heart would be yours too.But you don't.You always use unbearable means to violate me, so that I have to obey you.You left room for my heart to struggle, but you captured my body.You tear me apart, make every cell of me scream and make my soul cry.

You are cruel to me, I can only sigh again and again.The last time, I couldn't stand up in the corner, but you turned and left with a cold face, without any affection.I look at your back and call your name:

"Godric Gryffindor."

You stop and look back at me.My wand is pointing at you:

"Everything is forgotten."

My joys are shared with you, and my sorrows are all borne by me alone.And just like that, you took Anna.I have nothing left.You treated her as an equal with Daphne, and every morning on the way to the classroom, you would gently touch their cheeks and say goodbye with a smile.You can tell that Ana likes you as much as I once did.As long as she is happy, I don't want to force anyone to agree with me.

But I hate you for taking her, for taking Emily's word for it.It was you who never gave me a chance to explain.I don't ask you to be nice to me, I just hope you can take your lover and your daughter out of my world.Now, I think, I'm used to losing you, used to cover up the traces of your existence and fill your absence with others.

Marvolo was so careful with me that I didn't even know what to do.But even so, in my mind, he will always be you.Happiness again and again overlapped into pictures in my mind, and my addiction to sex made me forget to think.

Since then, I really don't think of you often.Probably only when I cry alone, your figure, your smile, and your voice will emerge before my eyes.

My students, the hypocrites of the Ministry of Magic, and many, many others, they regard me as a rakshasa from hell.More and more people are deliberately avoiding me, making irresponsible remarks where I can't see them.I should have realized all these, but unfortunately I fell too deep in Marvolo's tenderness at that time, and I couldn't extricate myself from the abyss after you left.

I don't know anything, I'm like a fool in the dark; although I have a hunch about it, maybe in one class, I already know it from the too hot eyes that fall on me future.

The love with Marvolo made me fall completely, making me unaware of everything changing rapidly around me, and making me unable to see the unbelievable sight you cast on me.I forgot Anna, I forgot you, and I forgot myself.You still want to hear my explanation, Godric Gryffindor?

sorry.Really really sorry.

This is an admission I owe you, and it is my responsibility.I'm sorry for everything that happened afterwards.

will you forgive me

Do you still have expectations of me?

Would you still like to invite me to the dance?Would you still like to take me to see the setting sun by the Kadu River?Are you still willing to go to the Aegean Sea with me again, and tell me the stories of ancient Greece, the love, hate, love and sorrow of the gods one by one?

Back then, when Malfoy told me that you suspected that I would hurt students from other houses, I denied it.How foolish I was at that time, I didn't know that gossip was like a sharp knife!

What follows is what you don’t know, my grievance——

Later, at midnight one day, when I was about to turn off the lights and go to sleep (callitanight), Marvolo quietly came to my room and lit a candle in a candlestick.

He sat on the edge of the bed with his hands on my waist.He called my name, far away but full of temptation

"Professor Slytherin, my headmaster..."

He says,

"I have something to tell you, right now."

I shrink back.The candle flame dazzled me, and I buried my head in the feather pillow and waved for him to come back another day.

"I said it, and now I'm going to tell you." His voice became low and full of compulsion.Before I could answer, he rolled over and grabbed my arms, imprisoning me so that I couldn't move.

At that moment, I woke up like a dream.I suddenly realized that I gave him so much power that he didn't know who he was, and I gave him so many opportunities that he didn't know who I was.

Godric Gryffindor, you must know that not everyone can hurt me as wantonly as you.I will not allow that to happen.Salazar Slytherin has served no one in his life but you.Even for you, my heart has given up on love.The person I hate to the bone, my body will never miss again.