Canary [Rebirth]

This year in Anzhizhou was no different from usual.Most of the family's expenses are used to see a doctor for Anzhen, and there is not much money left. Even on New Year's Eve, they only add two dishes, so there is no need to be too busy.He and An Zhen had nothing to say, so after lunch, they went downstairs to Grandpa Chen's house.

Zheng Xia didn't come back, he was in the rising stage of his career, and on such an important festival as New Year's Eve, he must attend the party.Just now, Zheng Xia took time out of her busy schedule to send a text message to An Zhizhou.

"An'an, take care of grandpa for me, and I'll give you a big red envelope when I come back!"

Comes with an unpainted face.

An Zhizhou looked at it and smiled for the first time today.

He was the only one at Grandpa Chen’s house, and Zheng Xia couldn’t rush back to accompany him, so he had to order a table of New Year’s Eve dinner to be delivered to his home, and the delivery time was very early. An Zhizhou helped him clean up the table, and the table was full of various meals. , but there were only the two of them at the table.

The TV was wide open, and the behind-the-scenes tidbits were playing back and forth. Grandpa Chen was only interested in Zheng Xia. He wanted to sigh at first, but thinking that today is New Year's Eve, he held back. An Zhizhou on the side said: "Our Zheng Xia's parents are both good-looking, and he is very good-looking. He was joking with me, if he didn't genetically resemble me, he wouldn't be able to get into the current circle by relying on his appearance. But there are What's the use?"

Grandpa Chen paused, "He will be 28 after the Chinese New Year, and his classmates are all married. I don't have much hope, I just hope that he can find a good wife, have a child, and have a complete family in the future. all good."

An Zhizhou stopped packing his things, feeling an inexplicable soreness in his heart, he nodded following Grandpa Chen's words, but did not speak.

What can he say?

Grandpa Chen continued to talk about his troubles with An Zhizhou, "I don't know those friends at work. He has a good relationship with you. Zhizhou, you can also help me persuade him. No matter how busy you are at work, you should have a girlfriend." gone."

An Zhizhou forced a smile, said "Oh", put the food away, filled it up, and handed it to Grandpa Chen, "Grandpa Chen, it's time to eat."

Grandpa Chen always felt that something was wrong. How can I say that Zheng Xia was too kind to An Zhizhou, a bit too kind to his character.At first, she said that she felt sorry for him and needed to take more care of him, but later on, she paid more and more attention to him, and even mentioned a lot of An Zhizhou's words to herself on the phone, so she should treat him well.

Zheng Xia's character is not like this.Although he has a good personality, everyone seems to be his friend, but in fact, no one can really talk to him and let him take it to heart.

Thinking of this, Grandpa Chen felt that maybe he was worrying too much.He also seems to be used to the New Year without Zheng Xia, but with An Zhizhou as his company today, he should be happier and eat more food.An Zhizhou ate a little with him, and after the meal, he received a red envelope containing lucky money.

An Zhizhou restrained himself, did not shirk, and accepted it.When I got home and finished cooking for An Zhen, this was the only day in a year that the two of them could eat at the same table without talking.

An Zhizhou thought to himself, finally, he and An Zhen finished another day of mutual torment.

The snow outside has not stopped, and the weather is very cold.It's rare for An Zhizhou to go to bed early, swiping his phone under the quilt.The TV is in Anzhen's house, and he hasn't watched it for a long time.In order to watch tonight's show, or tonight's Zheng Xia, he specially bought traffic, and now he is checking the latest news on Weibo.

Because his only follower is Zheng Xia, all the pushes on the homepage are related to Zheng Xia.Among them was an affair between Zheng Xia and another popular female star. An Zhizhou watched the short video and didn't believe it at all. He thought to himself, if Brother Zheng really wanted to be nice to someone, it wouldn't be like that.But Brother Zheng is so good, no matter where he is, there must be someone who likes him.

But he remembered what Grandpa Chen said just now, 28 years old is indeed the age for ordinary people to get married.

An Zhizhou lay on the pillow, thinking silently, will he get married?When will it end?

Okay, don't tie it up yet?Wait for yourself.

This is an inexplicable idea, I don't know where it came out, but I can't forget it no matter what.An Zhizhou even compared the ages of the two, and there was an 11-year difference, and he was too young.Why did he think about this, An Zhizhou buried his face in the pillow, he couldn't even breathe.

He thought about it vaguely for half the night, only watched Zheng Xia's show, and sent a happy new year message to Zheng Xia at midnight.

This year he met Pei Xiangque and then met Zheng Xia. It seemed that his luck suddenly changed. So, next year will be even better.

An Zhizhou slept well that night, and woke up before dawn the next day.He is very self-aware, instead of making trouble in front of Anzhen on the first day of the new year, he steamed the dumplings and ran downstairs to pay New Year's greetings before he ate them.

Zheng Xia opened the door.He was wearing loose pajamas, his hair was messy, and he was yawning. He couldn't even open his eyes, but he seemed to recognize who was in front of him without looking. "Is it my An'an? Happy New Year."

Thoughts from yesterday flooded into my mind in an instant, such as marriage, age difference, I hid under the covers and took it for granted, but I was always extremely ashamed in front of the person involved, An Zhizhou didn't dare to look up at Zheng Xia, his tone was dry , "Brother Zheng, Happy New Year too."

Zheng Xia rubbed his head hard, and pulled him in, "What's the matter, it's only the first day of Chinese New Year, why are you unhappy?"

An Zhizhou staggered two steps forward, "What's the matter?"

Zheng Xia arrived home early this morning, and was woken up by An Zhizhou early in the morning, so it was not good to go back to sleep on the first day of the new year, so she accompanied An Zhizhou to make dumplings.He was clumsy and couldn't help much, so he tentatively wrapped a few, but couldn't even wrap the stuffing, so An Zhizhou calmly and disgustedly persuaded him to leave.

Grandpa Chen also laughed at him.

He touched his nose, seeing the two people, one big and one small, laughing happily, he laughed too.After eating the dumplings made by An Zhizhou, Zheng Xia pulled him into the room and first gave him a red envelope.This one was different from the one Grandpa Chen gave him last night, it was very thick when he touched it, so An Zhizhou shied away a few words.

Zheng Xia is a tall man, so he stuffed it directly into his pocket, "It is said that giving red envelopes should be proportional to one's own financial strength, An An, do you look down on my ability to make money? I am very rich."

An Zhizhou: "...Oh."

When he spoke like this, he really looked like the mentally handicapped second man in an idol drama. An Zhizhou thought to himself, could it be that after so many years, Zheng Ge still couldn't get rid of the influence of the first role.

In addition to the lucky red envelopes, there is also a down jacket, which is a brand endorsed by Zheng Xiaxin, and the advertisement has just been launched a few days ago.But unlike the silver and white that Zheng Xia wore in the ad, this one is fiery red.

Zheng Xia compared the clothes to him, and said: "The manufacturer wanted to give it to me after filming the advertisement, but I have too many clothes to wear, so I took one of your number. I don't know if it is Is it too young?"

An Zhizhou's back of the neck was touched by him inadvertently, the touch made him startled all over, and he dodged to the side, "But this is the red one!"

Zheng Xia's tone was full of how you, a child, are so ignorant, and put it on An Zhizhou directly, "An An, this is what you wear for the New Year. Who wears white for the New Year, and red for celebration."

An Zhizhou didn't expect Zheng Xia to be such a traditional person in his bones, obediently obeyed his wishes, and put on this dress.He was born with white skin and tender flesh, but with the fiery red coat, his skin was whiter, thinner and more attractive.

Zheng Xia's heart skipped a beat, and she boasted casually, "This color looks good on you, it's white and tender, a bit like a little bride who is about to get married."

An Zhizhou froze for a moment, but did not refute the joke, looked at the mirror opposite, and zipped up.

The two quarreled in the room for a while, and Zheng Xia said that his movie was released today, and it was midnight.Grandpa Chen originally wanted to go, but Zheng Xia refused to let him, saying that it was snowing outside and it was night, so it was better to stay at home and accompany him the next day.

Grandpa Chen thought about it for a while, and he thought it was true. Anyway, his grandson was at home, so he didn't need to go to the cinema to watch it however he wanted.

But An Zhizhou received a text message, "An An, see you at the old place at ten o'clock tonight~"

It was getting dark soon, An Zhizhou hesitated for a long time, and finally put on the fiery red down jacket that Zheng Xia gave him.

On the other side, Zheng Xia tidied up in the room for a while. Although he knew that he was good-looking, he hoped that he would be extra good-looking today so that he could catch An An's eyes right away.After tossing and tossing for a while, I finally decided on a set of clothes and was ready to go out.

It's just that he doesn't know that the sound insulation effect of the old house is very poor, and the elderly can't sleep well and always wake up easily.As soon as he stepped out of the house, Grandpa Chen got up from the bed, settled for a moment, put on a thick dress, and went out.

An Zhizhou waited for a fully armed Zheng Xia at the stairs.However, unlike summer, in the cold winter, no one feels strange even if a full set of hats, masks and scarves are on the battlefield.

Zheng Xia's voice came from behind the thick mask, "An An, take you to the movies. Have you seen my movies?"

An Zhizhou nodded, "I just haven't seen it in the cinema."

There are very few people in the middle of the night, snowflakes are flying under the dim lights of the street lamps, the path is covered with a layer of pure white snow, occasionally there are a few strings of footprints, as if leading to an unknown place, everything is romantic and silent.

The movie theater is not far away, Zheng Xia drove the car and arrived at the destination very quickly.

In addition to pursuing romantic couples, the late-night movies are fans of fans who star in the movie.And for this movie, Zheng Xia had so many fans, there were not even a few empty seats.

None of them knew that Zheng Xia was by their side, only An Zhizhou knew.

Only I know.

Since it is a Lunar New Year film released during the Chinese New Year, it must be a big family production.Zheng Xia is too handsome to be suitable for comedy movies, but his acting skills are outstanding, which caused bursts of laughter from all around.

An Zhizhou also couldn't help laughing after seeing Zheng Xia's face covered in mud and exaggerated expressions, and he still couldn't stop smiling at Zheng Xia.

Because the contrast is too great.

Zheng Xia is a little melancholy, can this be okay? It seems that the confession is to choose literary and romantic movies.But forget it, it's rare for him to see An An so happy.

That's all he wanted.

An hour and a half passed quickly, and the movie was about to end after all.Zheng Xia's fans were still reluctant to leave, waiting to see the easter eggs, Zheng Xia herself was sitting in the distance, and when the people finished walking, the aunt who collected the garbage came in and dragged An Zhizhou out of the dark theater.

The street was empty and the snow hadn't stopped yet. Zheng Xia walked ahead and An Zhizhou was two steps behind. The shadows of the two were stretched very long, one in front of the other, reflected on the snow.

Zheng Xia deliberately slowed down her pace, she was always eloquent in front of the camera, but suddenly she didn't know what to say, she just asked, "Well, is the movie good?"

An Zhizhou silently stepped on Zheng Xia's footprints. Zheng Xia's feet were bigger than his own, and he could completely accommodate him. Hearing this, he gave a soft "hmm", "It's very beautiful."

Zheng Xia is in her 20s, and suddenly she has a childish temper, "That's right, I look good in the movie, or I look good now."

There was a slight friction sound from the snow and footsteps, An Zhizhou paused, and answered him seriously, "Of course, Brother Zheng standing in front of me looks good."

"really?"

"Really." Added another sentence, "Although they are all beautiful, the one standing in front of me is the prettiest. No star can compare to you."

In fact, An Zhizhou is talking nonsense with his eyes open, because the whole movie is full of funny and ugly appearances, and even Zheng Xia's fans can't say without conscience that his brother Zheng is as handsome as usual.And now that Zheng Xia was fully armed, she only showed two eyes, no matter how hard she looked, she couldn't see anything.

But Zheng Xia was very happy to be coaxed by these two words,

They finally reached the open parking lot. There were not many cars around, and there was no one else but the two of them.Zheng Xia seemed to be driving in front of the car and unlocked it, but he didn't open it after poking it a few times, but suddenly turned around, pulled An Zhizhou to the car door, and fell on it lightly.

An Zhizhou's eyes widened, and he didn't know why, but Zheng Xia pulled off one side of the mask, revealing a handsome face that had just been praised.

He clenched his fists and put them in front of his lips, seeming to be smiling forcefully, "An'an, what you said just now was so nice, I really, can't bear it... I want to kiss you, will you let me?"

What, what?

An Zhizhou only felt dizzy for a while, and then heard a sentence that made him dizzy, like words in a dream. His usually shrewd and domineering head couldn't handle such a simple sentence, so he could only rely on instinct to ask: "You, brother Zheng ,speak……"

"Forget it." Zheng Xia put both hands on An Zhizhou's side, it was freezing cold, but her heart was hot.He lowered his head and saw that An Zhizhou was in such a panic that he couldn't even speak clearly, but his lips were redder than the color of his coat, and he muttered to himself, "Kiss first, then we can talk."

He leaned down, kissed An Zhizhou's slightly opened lips, and put the words into another person's mouth.

The breaths of the two merged together in an instant, and An Zhizhou's lips were much softer than he thought.

An Zhizhou's face was red, and he didn't even know how all this happened, so he could only bear it passively.His hand instinctively rested on the shoulder of the intruder Zheng Xia, his arm was tense, but he was reluctant to push it away.

The untimely kiss kept deepening.

Zheng Xia used to secretly laugh at those colleagues in the entertainment circle who were photographed by the paparazzi because they had close contact with the public, but when it was his turn, he finally understood that feeling, fuck him, his paparazzi, get out of his news Toutiao, he just wants to kiss his beloved right now, no one can stop him.

After waiting for a while, Zheng Xia finally had enough kisses, and was willing to let go of An Zhizhou, looked at his flushed face, and even squeezed again, "Okay, enough kisses, now, you can hit me .”

An Zhizhou held his forehead, covered his eyes not to look at Zheng Xia, only felt that his mind was not sober, confused, unable to think or speak, and asked in a daze, "Why did you hit you? Why kiss me."

Zheng Xia smiled, "Because I like you. Don't you know? My An'an."

He originally planned to confess his love today, but there was an accident, and he kissed him roguely first, satisfying his long-cherished wish, and then said the confession.

"because I like you."

An Zhizhou was about to explode, and he was repeatedly infected by Pei Xiangque, so he could only stammer, "Why, why, what are you talking about?"

After all, Zheng Xia is almost 30 years old. Even if he was dazzled by love, he quickly calmed down and spoke the truth to An Zhizhou in front of him.

"I still remember, when I saw you for the first time, I thought, why is this child so beautiful? You scolded me at that time, didn't you?" Zheng Xia recalled the scene at that time, "But I suddenly fell in love .”

Being tempted is just a momentary thing, but liking is slowly accumulated from many moments.Maybe it was just a heartbeat at the beginning, but with little contact, Zheng Xia was hopelessly attracted to An Zhizhou.

Love is the most inexplicable thing in the world.

Zheng Xia never thought that she would fall in love with a boy who was 11 years younger than herself.

"Actually, I have never been in a relationship. I didn't meet anyone I liked when I was in school, and I was too busy to find someone I liked after work. So the first time I saw you, I thought, I like him."

An Zhizhou never knew about this, he just closed his eyes and listened, his beating heart slowly calmed down.

Zheng Xia really has no experience in dating. When he confessed, he didn’t talk about how to treat each other well in the future. Instead, he kept talking about his own mental journey. , I really want to grow older. I also thought about whether I should confess my love to you. After thinking about it for a long time, I still decided to confess my love selfishly."

"It's been almost 30 years since I met someone I like. If my An An runs away, how long will I have to wait for the next one? I don't want to wait anymore."

Governor Anzhi's long eyelashes trembled uncontrollably, which was very cute, and even his voice trembled, "You haven't said it yet, why?"

"Because you are so cute and brave," Zheng Xia couldn't help touching his cheek, it was just a cheek, but it was close enough, "Because I really like you."

After a long time on that rainy night, Zheng Xia finally understood why she felt so sorry for An Zhizhou when they met for the first time, because he was so cute, and because her heart was moved, she fell in love with An Zhizhou who was drenched in the rain.

The snow was still falling, Zheng Xia covered An Zhizhou under his body, a thin layer of snow had already accumulated on his back.

An Zhizhou wanted to say that he was actually not brave at all. For example, he didn't even dare to respond now.

I dare not reply that I like you.

An Zhizhou is very timid emotionally, probably because of his childhood, he had a little friend he liked very much, and he never came back to see him after he was adopted away.He used to love his adoptive parents very much, but they died on his first birthday.

Too much, too much for him to respond to a new relationship, or to be safe only by curling up and not letting anyone else get in touch with his heart.

But the Zheng Xia in front of him was different, he was too tempting, An Zhizhou had never met such a nice person, so he didn't dare to respond, and he couldn't bear to refuse.

If she refuses, there will never be such a good Zheng Xia, the Zheng Xia I like.

An Zhizhou said in a low voice: "Brother Zheng, let me think about it again, think about it again, okay?"

He'll figure it out soon.Only when he is really brave can he live up to Zheng Xia's wishes.

Zheng Xia can tell that An Zhizhou likes her too, but the two are of the same sex, and the age difference is so big, he is usually so sensible, he should think about it more, although Zheng Xia is a little disappointed, it is not despair.

He said: "If there is anything you don't understand, just ask me. There is nothing that two people can't solve together."

An Zhizhou turned his head, still not daring to look at him, and responded dryly.He treats Zheng Xia completely differently now, shy and timid.

After that day, Zheng Xia stayed with An Zhizhou all day long.In his words, he is in the pursuit stage, how can he not please his future object?An Zhizhou really has no choice, because he also likes Zheng Xia.

They were only separated by half a layer of window paper, which could be pierced when An Zhizhou figured it out.

On the day of leaving, Zheng Xia put a finger on An Zhizhou's lips, then kissed him, and smiled innocently, "If you want to kiss him in a legitimate way, don't make me wait too long."

An Zhizhou avoided his gaze slightly, but at the moment Zheng Xia turned around, he suddenly leaned forward, touched his chin, took two steps back, and said, "Safe journey."

Compared with Zheng Xia, who is naturally optimistic and dazzled by love, An Zhizhou, who should be ignorant of the world, thinks more.

What will happen if you are with Zheng Xia?

It was a vague, but promising future.

On the second day after Zheng Xia left, An Zhizhou knocked on the door of Grandpa Chen's house as usual.

Unlike the usual smiles, today's atmosphere is particularly dignified.

Grandpa Chen sat opposite him at the square table. An Zhizhou could clearly see the deep groove on the old man's face. He sighed and first apologized, "Zhizhou, it is our family who is sorry for you. How could Zheng Xia... you still child."

He got it.

There was only this sentence in An Zhizhou's mind, and he murmured, "No."

Then, there was a long and dead conversation.

It was impossible for Grandpa Chen to agree. He was just retreating, saying that these were all Zheng Xia's faults, but the actual meaning was to let An Zhizhou leave consciously.Zheng Xia should not be gay, with a boy, his family, his career, will not allow it.Grandpa Chen hoped that Zheng Xia would have a healthy and complete family in his mind.

All the words fell on An Zhizhou's body like hailstones. He was in so much pain that he could only muster up all his courage, "But Zheng Xia likes me, and I like him too."

What does it matter if you like it?Especially likes that shouldn't be generated.

Grandpa Chen waved his hand, his cloudy eyes no longer had the usual kindness, only deep disgust, "Go back and ask your grandpa, if you insist on being stubborn, disregarding others, and doing this kind of thing, will he What I do is mine.”

An Zhizhou returned home in a daze.

An Zhen was waiting for him directly opposite the door, and when he saw him come in, he poured hot water on his face, "I really didn't expect that our An family could produce something like you, and you would fall in love with a man. And let people come to your door, don't cling to it when you see that it has done you some good. Are you still a human? Only animals can do such things that violate human ethics."

Speaking of this, An Zhen coughed violently, "You bastard is still surnamed An, as long as you are still surnamed An, don't do any scandal to our An family."

An Zhizhou glared at An Zhen viciously, his eyes were frighteningly bright, completely different from usual, as if he had had enough, "I don't want to be named An, not at all. I would rather not have been adopted at the time, and I would rather die in that car accident The person is me."

"...There are no such things now."

For him, life is too difficult, even if there is only a little hope, it will be torn to pieces immediately, or in the most cruel and hopeless way.

An Zhen was amazed that he dared to talk back to him, and thought that as a man, he actually fell in love with a man.He has no relatives, if he doesn't even have face, what is he doing in this world, just say, "I just say this, if you keep going, I will die in front of you, let our An family die because of you Die. The old man downstairs said the same thing, you can judge for yourself."

For them, it doesn't matter what they like, but violating the human relations in their hearts is a shameful and ugly thing that can't be seen by others.

To An Zhizhou, that night was like a frivolous dream, just a dream, which would be extinguished as soon as it was blown.

An Zhizhou thought for a long time. Even though Anzhen was on the verge of collapse, Grandpa Chen was still rational. Maybe no one would die because of this incident, but he didn't dare to bet.

Even if he wins the bet, will Grandpa Chen give up?He won't.

Everything will be turned upside down, and no one will be at peace.

An Zhizhou was in a dilemma, and what finally made him make up his mind was a sudden "accident", even in just three days, Grandpa Chen couldn't wait, accidentally broke his leg and was admitted to the hospital, Zheng Xia came back overnight to take care of him.An Zhizhou had never seen Zheng Xia like this before, his face was full of stubble, sad and guilty.

He said: "I didn't take good care of my grandpa. After my parents passed away, my grandpa is my only relative. I can't, I can't lose him again."

An Zhizhou didn't hug him, but comforted him, "It won't happen in the future." In fact, Grandpa Chen told him that there would be a next time.

But never again.In this kind of persecution, whoever softens his heart first loses, An Zhizhou loses, he can't bear Zheng Xia to be so sad.

Zheng Xia's only relative at that time.

An Zhizhou flinched, he left the hospital and sent a text message.

"After the hospital, I calmed down. Brother Zheng, I still can't accept men. I want to grow up and have a home of my own. I'm very sorry, I don't like you."

Zheng Xia called him many times, and An Zhizhou answered the last one, repeating these words again.

Zheng Xia said on the opposite side: "Okay, I understand."

He won't call again, An Zhizhou knows.

An Zhizhou has been in love since he was a child, and he is very nostalgic for the past. He is reluctant to give up what he once held in his palm.For example, because his adoptive parents treated him very well that year, he could persist in taking care of An Zhen for so many years.

He might like Zheng Xia for the rest of his life.There is no excuse, he is too timid.

Later, Zheng Xia sent him the last message.

"It doesn't matter if you don't like me, and I can accept it. But you are still young and your parents are gone. I hope you can accept the money, treat yourself well, and grow up well. When you are capable, Give me back the money again. Goodbye, my Ann."

The money transferred is enough for his four years of university tuition and living expenses.

And An Zhizhou's love has not started yet, it is over.

The author has something to say: In fact, this paragraph is long enough to write, but considering that it is a sub-cp, I wrote it briefly for the time being. As for An An and Zheng Xia, wait until the extra episode.How to put it, it is still too young.

You may have misunderstood what I meant. I meant that the development after the deputy cp was put in the side story, but the friendship between Pei Pei and An An will still be written in the main text.It was also written in the article that for Pei Xiangque, his good luck started when he met Lu Yu, and then he met An Zhizhou.An An is very important to Pei Pei, and there will definitely be An An's appearance.

I am very sorry for the comments on this chapter. In the process of writing An An’s story, I was indeed affected by the comments, because some readers said that I wrote this sub-cp to cheat money, which led me to rashly decide to write this paragraph. The story is divided and written separately.Because they don't like this story, I don't think it is necessary to force others to spend unnecessary money to buy articles they don't want to read, and the idea of ​​cheating money also makes me go to extremes in dealing with An An's story, because I really don't want to see this again Terrible statement.But generally speaking, An An's story actually follows the plot I originally expected.However, such sloppy writing has caused many problems, including the fragmentation of the plot, the incompleteness of the characters, and the inadequacy of the foreshadowing. I am really sorry for causing you an unpleasant reading experience. I will try my best to modify and expand the relevant content of An An Fragments of the story, making up for one's mistakes.I’m very sorry, but in any case, it’s my fault that I can’t handle the text well, and there’s nothing to justify. Thank you for your support all the time. When I’ve finished all the revisions, I’ll post the chapter number, hoping to make up for it a little bit. The shortcomings in it.

Thanks to the cute little mines, thank you for your comments and nutrient solution, good night, memojiu!