Canary [Rebirth]

The night is very quiet, there are thousands of stars outside the window, and the one inside the window belongs to Pei Xiangque and Lu Yu.

This is so heartwarming.

Lu Yu never mentioned his childhood to anyone, not even He Yuan, the psychiatrist, or even Pei Xiangque from his previous life.Although they were very close at that time, they didn't know each other well, so it was not surprising that there was such a result in the end.

His illness didn't show until he was about ten years old, when he was abroad, and no one knew or cared.By the time Lu Yu's illness was so serious that He Yuan found out that something was wrong, he was already sixteen or seventeen years old, and he was forced to see a psychiatrist, but no one could pry his mouth open and let him tell the cause of the disease.

As for childhood and mother Qiu Zihong, those are very long memories.

However, Lu Yu has a very good memory. He was precocious since he was a child, and he still remembers the past clearly. At this time, facing Pei Xiangque's eyes full of curiosity, he recalled the past with leisurely, "My mother, she died very early. .”

For some reason, whenever he thought of Qiu Zihong, Lu Yu always wanted to smoke a cigarette for no reason.

Pei Xiangque blinked. He had a deep affection for his mother, so he felt sad when he heard that Lu Yu's mother also passed away very early.

Lu Yu seemed to be smiling, and said casually: "Don't be like this, Ah Pei. I'm different from you. She died when I was nine years old, later than your mother. Besides, I don't have anything to do with her Feelings, not sad."

He planned to tell Pei Xiangque this incident as a bedside story.

"Their marriage stemmed from an accidental love." The "they" here refers to Lu Chengguo and Qiu Zihong. Lu Yu didn't even bother to call them, "Inexplicable, sudden love."

Pei Xiangque listened carefully, but remained silent, without saying a word.

Lu Chengguo and Qiu Zihong met in university.Before that, Lu Chengguo was a playboy who was merciful everywhere, and seemed to be obsessed with Qiu Zihong, who was beautiful and had excellent grades.It took him two years to coax Qiu Zihong into agreeing to associate with him.Excessive excitement and desire to conquer dazzled Lu Chengguo's mind. He even married Qiu Zihong as soon as he graduated from university, but his life after marriage was not wonderful.

Qiu Zihong was born in an ordinary teacher's family. She didn't understand what the life of a so-called wealthy family was like. She had no friends, and she was unwilling to make friends who laughed at her behind her back. Qiu Zihong, who had nothing to do, had to devote all her attention to To Lu Chengguo.

The more he invested and the more he loved, Qiu Zihong became more and more unable to extricate himself from falling in love with Lu Chengguo.

But Lu Chengguo is different from the school. He has grown up and should take on the family business, but Qiu Zihong can't help him bear these burdens, and he has to make endless calls to ask about his whereabouts. He is extremely annoying.

He began to regret, regretting being so young and frivolous, marrying Qiu Zihong despite his parents' opposition.

Love is like this, when you meet the wrong person, you will only grow and disappear, and finally the two will be tormented.

Lu Chengguo was tired of this kind of life, tired of Qiu Zihong, and started to provoke flowers and plants outside again.Qiu Zihong's love is not satisfied, and she has no ability to satisfy her desire.

She didn't think she was at fault, and she couldn't find the reason. It happened that Lu Chengguo gave her a ready-made one. Because she couldn't bear children, that's why he had a lover and an illegitimate child.So Qiu Zihong went to toss the child again, and gave birth to Lu Yu after a lot of hard work.

But after Lu Yu was born, Lu Chengguo showed no sign of turning back. He didn't even like Lu Yu because he thought he was born by a crazy woman.

Lu Yu continued lightly: "So, she is really crazy."

Under the long-term and huge mental pressure, Qiu Zihong, who may have mental problems, really went crazy. She was stubborn and stubborn. She felt that she was not wrong at all, but she couldn't bear to blame Lu Chengguo, so she had to blame Lu Yu.

Who made him come so late?That's why I lost Lu Chengguo's love.

Pei Xiangque shook his body, leaned towards Lu Yu, and asked hesitantly, "Well, did you get better after that?"

"It's not good, and it won't be until death." Lu Yu replied softly.

Perhaps the mental illness of the past can be controlled and treated, but no one is willing to let Qiu Zihong see a doctor.Lu Chengguo was ashamed to let the outside world know that he had a wife who was really crazy, his mistress and illegitimate child were happy to see her, and Qiu Zihong himself did not admit that he was crazy.

Lu Yu recalled for a moment, "She always loses her temper, can't sleep, quarrels with everyone, and she likes to scold me the most, because she hopes that I will be better than other children, much better. When she goes crazy, she will want to kill me When I was young, I learned painting, calligraphy, and many things," he paused when he said this, and counted a lot of talents, which seemed a bit pity, "It's just that he didn't learn music. If he learned piano at that time, he could accompany you gone."

Pei Xiangque shook his head. Actually, he didn't really understand the feelings of others when they spoke, but suddenly he felt sad from the bottom of his heart.

Lu Yu was startled, and moved closer to Pei Xiangque, "She will feel better occasionally, when she wakes up, she will tell me to stay away from her and not approach her."

Only at that moment can Lu Yu feel a little bit that she is his mother, the person who brought him into this world.

But there are too few gentle and sober Qiu Zihong, just like the mist in the morning, when the wind blows and the sun shines, it disperses silently.

Pei Xiangque tightened the cotton cushion on the soft chair, his lips opened and closed, as if he had been thinking for a long time, but he couldn't speak.

Lu Yu deliberately told Pei Xiangque about the past, and there was no lie in a single word, but many details about Qiu Zihong's treatment of him were blurred.

He wanted his little sparrow to laugh for him, cry for him, and feel sad for him.

Maybe this should be a painful memory for others, but Lu Yu seems to be born differently, so he can't realize it.

"In the end, she was so crazy that she committed suicide. She died when I was nine years old."

Qiu Zihong did commit suicide, but she chose a different place. She put sleeping pills in the family's meals that night, and then hanged herself next to Lu Yu's bedside.Lu Yu slept well. He woke up early in the morning. It was deep winter outside, and it was still snowing. Thick curtains were drawn around him. He just got out of bed, but saw a pair of dangling legs.Lu Yu raised his head and saw a pale face. Instead of screaming, he bypassed Qiu Zihong's body. Instead, he ran over and knocked on Lu Chengguo's door, saying that Qiu Zihong was dead and his body was hanging beside his bed.Lu Chengguo didn't believe it, thought that Lu Yu was playing a joke on a child, and continued talking to Lu Hui.Lu Yu had no choice but to ask the housekeeper to go to the room, but the housekeeper almost fainted from fright.

At Qiu Zihong's funeral, Lu Yu didn't cry either, he acted nonchalantly.Lu Chengguo was a little horrified to find that Lu Yu seemed to be mentally ill just like his mother.So after the funeral, Lu Yu was sent out of the country quickly, and it was best not to see him for the rest of his life.

At the funeral, Lu Yu thought about whether Qiu Zihong was sober or insane when he died.But he couldn't think of an answer, whether she was sober or insane, she hanged herself on the head of his bed.

The result is the same.Lu Yu couldn't fall asleep at first. At first, he just slept lightly and would wake up when there was slight movement. Later, it became more and more serious, and it became more and more difficult to fall asleep.

But this can't be told to Pei Xiangque, otherwise the bedside story will turn into a moment of horror.

Lu Yu propped his forehead, and seemed to have some headaches, "It was only when I went abroad that I discovered that I might have inherited her and suffered from sleep disorders. Seeing many doctors was useless, but fortunately, I met Ah Pei."

He had to restrain most of his desires, gently grabbed Pei Xiangque's hand, put his fingers together, as if confessing seriously, "I was worried at that time, would I be like her, getting sick step by step?" Aggravated, and finally died of this disease. I was lucky to meet you."

It's a pity that Pei Xiangque's attention was all on the first half of the sentence, and he didn't hear the second half of the affectionate sentence. He held Lu Yu's hand tightly, his fingertips were tense, his palm was full of sweat, and he was panting. Angrily, he asked hurriedly and stammeringly: "What, why did you die? See a doctor, what did the doctor say?"

This kind of tone is very unusual for Pei Xiangque. Lu Yu realized that he was probably amused just now, so he had to make up, "No, not now. You think, my mother started because of sleep I had a handicap before it developed into a serious illness. But I can sleep now, little sparrow, and you sing for me."

When Pei Xiangque was excited, it was even more difficult to understand the words. Lu Yu repeated it several times before Pei Xiangque blinked and asked cautiously: "If I keep singing, will Uncle Lu's illness be serious? "

Lu Yu solemnly promised, "No, never. As long as you stay by my side."

In a sense, Lu Yu was indeed very similar to Qiu Zihong, and Lu Chengguo was right.He inherited Qiu Zihong's persistence, stubbornness, and almost crazy possessiveness.

Pei Xiangque, Lu Yu's canary, the bird in the cage, his most beloved cage.

Lu Yu used to satisfy his possessive desire in the most extreme way, but it is different now.Pei Xiangque had died once, and Lu Yu himself had died once too. Looking back, he seems to be able to restrain this obsession, at least for now, he can still do it.

Although Lu Yu comforted her for a long time, Pei Xiangque seemed to be frightened by his words, and hurriedly urged Lu Yu to go to sleep.He didn't even have time to rush back to the house opposite, but let Lu Yu go to his bed, and sang a long, long song before going to bed.

Lu Yu originally wanted to wait until Pei Xiangque fell asleep, but Pei Xiangque's singing was so clear and soft that he couldn't restrain his drowsiness, and fell asleep drowsily.

Pei Xiangque finally breathed a sigh of relief, leaning on the head of the bed and looking at the profile of Lu Yu's profile, feeling a sense of peace in his heart.He thought, in the future, Uncle Lu can no longer be so self-willed, knowing that he is sick, and often stays up late to work.

He hoped that his Uncle Lu could live a long and safe life.

The author has something to say: Xiaoque: I want Uncle Lu to kiss, hug and hold her high!Choo Choo Choo!

Da Pei: ... Where's your face! ! !

Xiaoque: Don't you want to?

Da Pei: I still... think about it.