Canary [Rebirth]

The light flickered on and off for so long, and finally couldn't hold on anymore, it suddenly went out, it was already late, and there was no more light around.The two faced each other and were very close, but they couldn't see each other's expressions clearly.

An Zhizhou raised his chin slightly, his neck was stretched very long, and he was also very thin, so thin that even his bones looked bony, but he was very beautiful.

It's a pity that Zheng Xia couldn't see it.He didn't know how An Zhizhou had been for so many years, whether he was happy or not.

Maybe it’s good on the surface. An Zhizhou is good at reading. He went to college and got rid of An Zhen’s burden. No one knows his past. Zheng Xia gave him another sum of money. An Zhizhou should be like a fish in water. Have a great future.

But only An Zhizhou knows how he is going.

An Zhizhou's whole body was trembling uncontrollably, he tried his best to restrain himself, and bit his lips tightly, but his eyes were still red.

Zheng Xia still stood in front of him, motionless.

After a long period of silence, An Zhizhou coughed twice, and hid himself into a slight cry, which only he could hear clearly.

"No, it's not all your fault."

"When I graduated from high school, I wanted to break with the past," he said.

An incident happened in the second semester of the third year of high school. The old residential area where An's family was located was demolished. At that time, An Zhen was dying of illness. For myself, and connected by blood.

An Zhen scolded that man out.

In the end, he was too sick to speak, just waiting to die.One day, he regained his strength and said a word to An Zhizhou. He said: "What are they? I will give you all the house demolition money. You should study hard in the future and don't think about doing those messy things. I'm sorry for the last name."

After Anzhen passed away, the house was demolished, and a large amount of demolition money was obtained. The relative still didn't give up, and came to the school to make trouble a few times, even beating and rolling, and asked An Zhizhou to give up the demolition money.

Fortunately, the college entrance examination was coming soon, and An Zhizhou escaped from the entanglement of that family.But An Zhen died, Zheng Xia and Grandpa Chen moved out, Pei Xiangque went to Huai City, Xu Xu went abroad, and there was no one related to him in this land.

An Zhizhou is determined to break with this place completely, and the teacher also knows about his family's situation, so he keeps the news of An Zhizhou secret, and will not tell it easily.

An Zhizhou pinched his palm, pretending to be understating, "So, no, it's not Brother Zheng's fault. I don't want to go back."

Zheng Xia was stunned for a moment, "An An, there is no way, I am..."

He paused, his stiff body swayed, half-kneeled down, and reached out to touch An Zhizhou's cheek. The skin at that spot was soaked in the rain, and he lifted his fingers upwards. That's An Zhizhou. The corners of his eyes were warm and moist.

Zheng Xia seemed to have swallowed a large piece of ice, but it was completely cold in such a sweltering summer.He said slowly, "It's all my fault. An'an, don't forgive me easily."

Zheng Xia knows An Zhizhou too well. He didn't get much love since he was a child, and grew up alone. On the surface, he is cold and indifferent. In fact, he has a good personality. He always shoulders responsibilities that he shouldn't bear, and he forgives others too easily.

It shouldn't be like this.Why should An Zhizhou recite his fault.

Maybe An Zhizhou didn't think there was anything, but Zheng Xia couldn't bear it.

An Zhizhou tilted his head slightly, rubbed Zheng Xia's fingers as if coquettishly, and sighed again, "For many years, I have always thought and knew that you like me so much, but I didn't know you could How long have you liked me?"

His personality is introverted and indifferent, it is difficult to speak the truth, even in front of the person he likes.At about this time, I was excited and couldn't see the other party, so I dared to confide a few unclear words.

He is a long-lasting person, it is rare to fall in love with someone, and he seems to be hanging on it all his life, but his toes are still slightly on the ground, neither dead nor alive.

The sea of ​​suffering is boundless, he can only suffer like this, until he no longer likes it, maybe he will be relieved.

But there is no end in sight for Anzhizhou.

He hoped that the other party would not suffer such pain and forget himself soon, but secretly hoped that Zheng Xia would still like him.

Zheng Xia's knee was still on the cold ground, An Zhizhou went to pull him, Zheng Xia was tall and burly, An Zhizhou was not his opponent, so he couldn't pull him.

An Zhizhou had no choice but to squat down too, and said, "Don't forgive you? Why don't you forgive me? We have been separated for seven years, and you are in your 30s. If you drag on for a few more years, most of your life will have passed. Do you want to live?"

Why did he hesitate in the boat instead of going ashore after he had crossed the sea of ​​bitterness and endured it to the end?

An Zhizhou's hands and lips trembled together, but he still climbed onto Zheng Xia's neck, and kissed Zheng Xia's chin heavily, only to hear Zheng Xia laugh twice, "An An really has grown up and knows how to Dislike me for being too old."

He wanted to kiss An Zhizhou on the lips.

An Zhizhou's courage stopped at that kiss. He stood up tremblingly, pushed Zheng Xia away, his face flushed, and he pushed back dryly, "Light, the light is off. I'll go and see what's wrong, you just stay here .”

Zheng Xia raised his hands in surrender. He knew that An Zhizhou was shy, so he let him go, and stopped obsessing about apologizing and forgiving. Anyway, the future life is more important.

An Zhizhou didn't know how to read the electric meter, so he fiddled with it, but he didn't see anything wrong.I took out my mobile phone, switched the number, and sent a message in the group, saying that the circuit in the old dormitory was old, and every summer when there was a problem, it could be repaired tomorrow, and today the power was cut off for a day.

Then there's no way.Not only the lights, but even the air conditioner, An Zhizhou asked, "Why don't we go outside for a whole night?"

Zheng Xia refused firmly, "No, I want to sleep on An An's bed."

An Zhizhou: "...Oh."

He thought to himself: Zheng Xia's appearance is probably a model of getting better and better.

Zheng Xia is interested in all the life of An Zhizhou that he has not participated in. He has too many questions, and An Zhizhou is also patient, answering them one by one.His profession, his experience, and the large sum of money.

An Zhizhou supported his head, half-closed his eyes, and said casually: "I donated all the money for the demolition, to the orphanage I was in when I was a child."

Zheng Xia felt sorry for him, "Why donate it? You were only a little old at that time, and you didn't have any relatives to support you, so you can live better by saving more money. Are you stupid?"

An Zhizhou smiled slightly, nonchalantly, "He, he asked me to promise not to do those things. But I can't help it, I like you, I can't change it, and it's meaningless to hold that money. Besides, I have your money and it's enough .That money can make me live well."

He has been short of money since he was a child, struggling for money, but when he got the huge amount of demolition money, nothing changed.

Because what he lacks is not money, but a home.

It turned out that he was supposed to grow up in a warm Anjia, but because of an accident, everything was ruined.Later, only Zheng Xia could give him a home.

So far, finally got his wish.

The two of them were talking, but there was a knock on the door, accompanied by a heart-piercing call, "Zhizhou! Zhizhou, open the door! I'm back!!!"

It was An Zhizhou's roommate who would never come back.

An Zhizhou and Zheng Xia were busy inside, and managed to hide it with great difficulty. An Zhizhou managed to calm down and opened the door.

An Zhizhou pretended to be unintentional and asked: "What's wrong with you? It's not that you won't come back."

The roommate came in with trousers, and complained, "Zhizhou, why are you so indifferent? I have become like this, you don't care about me? It's really unlucky today. I sent my girlfriend back to school and was about to go home, but the car It broke down, I ran back from outside, and I just came back to stay for one night."

An Zhizhou comforted him, "...it's quite unlucky."

He is even more unlucky...

The roommate has an unrestrained character, and has been holding on to An Zhizhou, telling in detail about today's unfortunate experience, and by the way, he ordered a meal and took a shower. Fortunately, An Zhizhou was quick-witted, and went in first to pack Zheng Xia's clothes , By the way, tell the roommate the news of the power outage in the dormitory.

With a howl, the roommate came out of the bathroom, glanced at An Zhizhou's bed, and suddenly asked, "Zhizhou, why did you bring the thick quilt up? It's a hot day, and there's no air conditioner."

An Zhizhou lied calmly, "It rained a little and caught a cold, so I took it out."

The other party always felt that something was wrong, but because there was no light, he couldn't see clearly, but he had some doubts in his heart, and asked again, "Then why don't you go up to rest, go to sleep."

An Zhizhou continued to fool around. He usually does not lie, but once in a while, no matter how outrageous what he said, his credibility is quite high. "I have a paper that is on the deadline, and I must finish it today."

He also muttered and asked: "You still have unfinished papers that have reached the deadline? No way."

The roommate was busy outside for a day, and didn't pester her anymore. She tidied up and chatted with her girlfriend for a while.An Zhizhou felt like he was sitting on pins and needles below, he couldn't read the book, and couldn't deduce the results of the experiment. His mind was full of Zheng Xia stuffed under the thick quilt.

Finally, there was a slight snoring sound from the opposite bed, and An Zhizhou got on the bed lightly, and opened a small slit in the quilt, revealing a pair of sparkling eyes.

Zheng Xia was covered in sweat, and the quilt was soaked with his sweat, but he didn't care, he pulled An Zhizhou into his arms tightly, locked the slender An Zhizhou with his arms, and buried the quilt cover.

An Zhizhou wanted to struggle, but Zheng Xia whispered in his ear, "An An, if you wake up your roommate and find me in your bed, what will be the news headlines tomorrow? Do you know?"

An Zhizhou held his breath, and didn't dare to make too much noise. He couldn't help but glared at Zheng Xia, but fell silent.

Zheng Xia smiled contentedly, and wrapped An Zhizhou in his arms, it was his lost and recovered treasure.

June in Huaicheng was the hottest season, it was raining sultry outside, there was no air conditioner in the house, the two of them were nestled under the thick quilt, sweating profusely.

An Zhizhou was very relieved, he closed his eyes for a long time, maybe he fell asleep, maybe he didn't.