After I was kicked out by the benefactor

The one who left first was Zhong Wentian. Xu Shuming looked at his back and didn't make a sound for a long time. When Zhong Wentian completely disappeared from sight, he still didn't ask Zhong Wentian to stay.

He knew, as long as he called out Zhong Wentian's name.

The man will turn around and return to his side.

But Xu Shuming couldn't.

The end of the corridor was empty, except for occasional lively voices from downstairs. After Xu Shuming finally confirmed that Zhong Wentian would not go upstairs, he leaned against the wall, bent down slowly, and lowered his head deeply.

After the banquet that day, Xu Shuming accompanied Yan Shuling back to Hong Kong. When he got home, he was lying on the bed, staring at the white ceiling, unable to fall asleep.

He obviously has a splitting headache, but his spirit is very excited.

Really unable to sleep, Xu Shuming still got up, took a bath again, changed his clothes, and went to the hospital to visit his father.

When he went, the nurse was still there. When the nurse saw him coming, he told him about Xu's father's recent situation.Xu Shuming sat on the side of the hospital bed, stretched out his hand to hold his father's slightly cold hand, and listened carefully to the nurse's words.

He lowered his eyes and looked at his father's sleeping face. Suddenly, his heart ached. He lowered his head and buried his face in his father's hands.

"Aunt Zhang, I want to talk to my father, can you come over later, please?" Xu Shuming said in a muffled voice.

Aunt Zhang stopped talking, she saw that Xu Shuming's mood was not right, and knew that he had something to say to Xu's father.

As a nurse for many years, she knows that taking care of patients who are almost in a vegetative state and the family members are also very fragile, so she nodded when she heard this, stretched out her hand and squeezed Xu Shuming's shoulder and said, "Then I'll come over later, Mr. Xu, you are filial enough , your old man will wake up."

Will you really wake up?Xu Shuming no longer dared to have such great confidence.When his father's heart stopped suddenly last time, he already only hoped that his father would be with him as long as he is now.

When he is free and wants to see his father, he can see his father's face instead of just staring at a cold photo.

He looked at Xu's father's stretched eyebrows for a long time before he bent his eyes, lowered his head, opened the wallet in his pocket, and took out the photos of the family of three when he was a child.

This photo has accompanied him for many years. When he went abroad to study in the early years, it stayed in his wallet. Fortunately, he was lucky and was never robbed or lost.

He smoothed the slightly wrinkled corners of the photo and laid it flat next to his father's pillow.Xu's father in the photo is only over 50 years old, and his temples are not as gray as he is now, standing with his mother smiling.Between the two of them was Xu Shuming who was holding a certificate of merit.

Adolescent Xu Shuming has a strange temper and is difficult to deal with, but he is an obedient child. He can take part in competitions on behalf of the school and win prizes. Xu's parents and Xu's mother would catch him to take pictures whenever they have the opportunity.

Xu Shuming in the camera is very young, with immature brows and eyes, but his appearance is already very outstanding.His expression was a bit reluctant. He was an older child, and after winning the prize, he had to take pictures with his parents in public, which made him somewhat embarrassed.

"Dad, do you still remember this photo? It was my No. 1 prize for participating in the physics competition in the middle school group. You and your mother were so happy that you must grab me to take a photo. I said that I broke my hair two days ago. It’s so ugly, I don’t want to be on camera. My mother doesn’t allow me to take a photo, forcing me to stand among you. She grabs one of my shoulders, and you press my other shoulder to prevent me from running away. Under your coercion, this photo of you smiling and me full of sorrow was born. After the photo was developed, my mother liked it very much, and asked the master in the photo studio to wash a few more, so that we can have a hand Let’s put another one at home.”

Xu Shuming's voice was very soft, as if speaking to Xu's father, but also as if he was talking to himself, he continued: "You said at the time, since I like physics, I will choose physics, or astronomy, and observe astrology in college. , Studying the universe, what a romantic life. My mother disagreed, saying that I am not bad at mathematics, why should I go to see those immobile stars? Make a contribution."

He paused, and then said, "However, in the end I didn't listen to what you two said, so I went to study accounting. I will deal with money for the rest of my life. You couldn't understand it at the time. I just explained that you said that this major is easy to graduate, and it's also good." Employment. Actually not at all, I had no ideals at all, and I didn’t want to study the stars, and I didn’t want to observe the direction of the wind. I just wanted to leave home quickly, leave Hong Kong, and stay away from you…”

He blinked, took a breath, and said, "I'm sorry, Dad, I didn't tell you the truth. I was afraid of letting you down. I know you wanted to give me the best when I was very young. Try to raise me carefully, don't want me to suffer, let me have the opportunity to choose the future when I grow up. I can see your hard work, and I have always wanted to repay you, but I am not capable enough, and, when I was fourteen That year, I discovered that I didn't seem to like girls, I had no feelings for them, and my gaze was more on boys of the same gender than on girls."

"You guys would make jokes about not dating girls and delaying my studies. But I've never dated girls. There are older siblings in the neighborhood, and you're going to tell me, let me date girls. When you are friends, you must choose those girls who are gentle and generous, and don’t be like the young people today. They make one girlfriend today and change another one tomorrow, and never establish a stable relationship. When I was a little older, my mother Said, in the future, if I get married and have children, and my wife and I don’t have time to take care of the children, we will hand over the grandson to her, and let her and Dad come to enlighten the little grandson or granddaughter.”

When Xu Shuming said this, his eyelashes blinked very slowly.After a long while, he continued to speak softly: "You and mother love children so much, dozens of children in the class won't make you feel upset, and they also take good care of the children in the neighborhood when they go home. How dare I tell you , your sons will never have children, and you will never have the opportunity to be grandparents."

"This is cruel to you, but I can't force myself to change my orientation, so I can only run away, far away, until one day, I want to understand, and then I will explain it to you, so that you can accept it slowly. His eyes were a little wet, but his voice continued: "...Dad, I have no chance to confess everything to my mother, please give me a chance to confess to you? - I really miss you, please Can you not leave? I only have you, do you really want to leave me alone in this world?"

Father Xu was still lying on the bed peacefully, indifferent to Xu Shuming's words, as if he was having a wonderful dream.Xu Shuming showed a bitter smile, then raised his head to keep his tears from falling. He didn't lower his head until his emotions stabilized, and put his father's hand back on the bed sheet.

The ward was very quiet, or after talking to his father what he had been wanting to say, the emotions accumulated in his heart were released a lot, and he sat in his seat for a while, feeling a little sleepy.

Xu Shuming looked at the time, and it was not time for rounds, and Dr. Lin would have to wait a while before coming over.He rested his head on curled elbows, resting his forehead against his father's fingers for a moment.

After such a short nap, I unexpectedly started dreaming.In the dream, it was when he was a teenager. His mother smiled and grabbed his arm, forcing him to take pictures. His father was holding a camera and stood aside watching the tug-of-war between mother and son. It was a tie, so I found a parent and asked him to take a family portrait for their family of three with the sweet-scented osmanthus tree on campus.

"Our Shuming is so old, but we are still shy." Mom said with a smile.

The father came over, and cooperated with the mother with a pair of big hands, grabbed Xu Shuming's thin shoulders that were still characteristic of a young man, and held him back from running. He said with a smile, "He is not shy, he thinks we are too old-fashioned and embarrassing him."

"What he said was that I wore this red dress to go out in the morning, and he also said that I don't want to wear red now." Mother was still exposing Xu Shuming's shortcomings.

The little boy is most concerned about the stage of face and appearance. If his hair is cut a little short, he will be unhappy for half a month.

Xu Shuming was choreographed by his parents, and immediately became unhappy, and said loudly: "Dad, Mom, do you want to shoot or not? If you don't shoot, I will leave. The teacher is still waiting for me."

As he spoke, he turned his head and stared at his father and mother who didn't give him face, and asked the parent who took pictures of them to laugh at him together.

It was still hot summer that day, and the outdoor sun was extremely strong. Xu Shuming felt that the water on his body had been dried after being exposed to the sun for a while, but his father and mother were very happy.Under the big sun, I also want to watch his performance. No matter how strong the sun is, it is not as good as they cheer for their son.

When he saw them on the stage, he felt a little embarrassed, but he seemed to have confidence in his heart, and he was not afraid of doing anything.

Ever since it was announced that Xu Shuming's group was the winner, the smiles on the faces of the parents hadn't gone down. When their son finally got off the field, they immediately grabbed him beside him, gave him a good rub, and then hurriedly took a photo to commemorate it.

How could they miss such a precious moment?

Facing the camera, the hands of his parents on his shoulders are so gentle, and Xu Shuming knows that as long as he looks back, no matter which side it is, he will give him a big smile.

In the end, Xu Shuming, who was awkward in his real memory, didn't smile. In his dream, Xu Shuming, his father and mother, a family of three faced the camera and showed bright smiles together.

He smiled and woke up suddenly from his dream with a cold face on his face.

He opened his eyes and was about to get up from the bed when he felt a gentle touch on his face.

Xu Shuming's whole body shook, and he suddenly raised his head to look at his father's face, but he could see a pair of warm eyes looking at him that were almost the same as in the dream.

"Dad...Dad!" Xu Shuming's tears welled up in his eyes. He didn't have time to smile at Xu's father, so he ran out of the ward with his legs and shouted loudly: "Doctor Lin—doctor, my father is awake!"