secretly

The third time was in the city center.

Saturday was full-time make-up classes as usual, and Zhou Ran took the same bus with Lou Yuchen after school.I thought that Lou Yuchen would still get off at the stop of their house, but at the stop, Lou Yuchen didn't move.Theoretically, Zhou Ran should hurry back to show his dad the store, but he didn't get out of the car by accident.

Lou Yuchen was originally sitting by the window, but he stood up and gave up his seat once, and then stood at the back door.

Zhou Ran sat in the last row. After all, this was a planned stalking. He lowered the brim of his peaked cap and put on the hood of his sweater.When Lou Yuchen got out of the car, he followed silently with his head down.

Zhou Ran didn't expect that Lou Yuchen would come to the city center to go shopping, first at the beverage store, then at the snack shop, then at the shopping mall, and finally at the large supermarket on the first floor.Zhou Ran followed from a distance of more than ten meters, finding a bunker to hide from time to time, acting suspiciously.

Lou Yuchen didn't push the shopping cart or pick up the shopping basket. He started to browse slowly from the first row of shelves, and occasionally stopped to look at the products, but he didn't intend to buy them. After shopping half of the supermarket, he was still empty-handed.

He spent the longest time in the dessert section, Lou Yuchen took a bar of hazelnut chocolate from the shelf, and quickly put it back.There were a lot of people out shopping on weekends, and the customers behind him came and went. Lou Yuchen lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking, standing there motionless seemed awkward.After a while, he took down the bar of chocolate again and held it in his hand.

Zhou Ran appeared suddenly. He grabbed the back of Lou Yuchen's neck with one hand, and held a ham sausage just taken from the freezer in the other hand. On the lower back: "Hey, you're under arrest."

Lou Yuchen originally wanted to say "Why is it you again", but after thinking about it, he felt that it was meaningless to ask such a question, so he simply didn't say anything.His hand was empty, the bar of chocolate was gone.

Zhou Ran pushed the "gun" forward, and continued his second speech: "Hurry up and hand over the things, let me tell you, be frank and lenient."

Lou Yuchen still didn't speak, but he didn't struggle, and he looked very obedient. Zhou Ran tried to search him, but he obediently let him do it.

Zhou Ran was very addicted to drama, and he did enough drama, the "gun" in his right hand was still on Lou Yuchen's waist.

Zhou Ran's long arms and legs pawed over him, and Lou Yuchen felt as if he was hugged very intimately from behind.

Zhou Ran touched him up and down, and finally found it in the sleeve of his right hand.The design of the school uniform is very spacious, with plenty of space. Lou Yuchen stuffed the chocolate in from the cuffs, because the cuffs are designed with elastic, so even if you shake your hands, they won't fall out.

Zhou Ran touched the bar of chocolate through the fabric: "I found it."

Lou Yuchen pressed his hand on his hand, and Zhou Ran said again: "Hey, take it out."

Lou Yuchen didn't move, Zhou Ran sighed, with a coaxing tone: "This is not my small shop, the alarm will go off when you go out here."

After a few seconds, Lou Yuchen slowly withdrew his hand.Zhou Ran took this action as a kind of promise, and asked tentatively, "Then I will take it?"

His fingers pressed on the back of Lou Yuchen's hand, reached into the cuff, moved up to his wrist, and then up to his forearm.how to say?The touch of the skin...is a little strange, not very smooth, and a little wet?

Zhou Ran pressed against Lou Yuchen's back, feeling that he was trembling.Zhou Ran panicked for a while, and quickly pulled his hand out of his sleeve, and looked down to see a small piece of blood smeared on his fingertips.

"Fuck! What are you doing, brother?!"

Half an hour later, Zhou Ran came out of the pharmacy with a handful of band-aids and a bottle of disinfectant alcohol.It was past eight o'clock, and instead of looking at the store at home, he actually took care of the president of the student union who had self-harmed in the park.

Ha, ha, ha, toxic.

Lou Yuchen was ordered by him to sit on a bench in the park and wait. When Zhou Ran returned, he was actually doing his homework by the dim street light, so Zhou Ran scolded sincerely: "Crazy!"

Zhou Ran was born to be impatient and careful. He sat down on the other side of the bench and roughly rolled up the sleeves of Lou Yuchen's school uniform.The sleeves were also stained with blood, and a few red spots were blurred.

Zhou Ran put one foot on the bench to support Lou Yuchen's arm.Lou Yuchen bumped him with his knee: "Destroying public property."

At that time, Zhou Ran was twisting the cap of the alcohol, annoyed, and glared at him fiercely: "What the hell! Are you still deducting my class quantitative points?" Then he shook out most of the bottle.

Zhou Ran pulled Lou Yuchen's arm to disinfect him.It is estimated that this is not the first time this psychopath has done this, and it is really a cruel person who can pinch himself to bleed.Lou Yuchen's arms were covered with mottled, deep and shallow scars, and some scabbed wounds were obviously scratched again.

Zhou Ran thought that the alcohol must be painful to apply, because he saw Lou Yuchen clenched his fist silently.He wanted to talk to distract Lou Yuchen's attention: "Hey, I have a gossip question for you."

Lou Yuchen rested his right hand on his lap, and flipped through the English book with his left hand to recite words: "..."

"I'm your benefactor, so I can't gossip?!" Zhou Ran's sinful hand controlling the alcohol added some strength, and in the next second he successfully heard Lou Yuchen's hissing sound.

"Is your dad really Lou Kai?"

"……Um."

"Damn, are you really the mayor's son?!"

"..."

"Why do you go to my place? Where do you live?"

"Go make up lessons."

"What kind of make-up class? You still need make-up class?"

"math."

"How many days a week?"

"three times."

"That's okay, I thought this kind of make-up class should be taken every day."

"One, three, four mathematics, two, five, six physics."

"Oh, what day is it today? Saturday, why didn't you go to class on Saturday?"

"...it's warped."

"You? Just you? You still skip class?" Zhou Ran's hands trembled in shock.

Lou Yuchen's eyebrows twitched in pain, and he withdrew his hand: "Okay."

"It's not good, the Band-Aid hasn't been put on yet." Zhou Ran grabbed his arm and pulled him over. The most curious one couldn't ask, not knowing what to say, "Why...?"

But Lou Yuchen understood. He closed his English book and thought for a while: "I don't know."

"Is that so..." Zhou Ran tore off the wrapping of the Band-Aid.

Lou Yuchen looked a little confused, and said something strange: "I just... want to disappear."

Zhou Ran paused for a moment and didn't reply.

"I don't want to be seen, I want to disappear from this world." Lou Yuchen raised his head and looked at the swaying tree shadow above his head, "The first time I did this, I was terrified, but it was also... very happy, Because no one notices that I'm doing bad things, no one sees me. Don't want to be seen."

I can't tell when it started, it may be that the model test slipped out of the top ten in the grade. After returning home, the first thing Lou Kai said when he saw him was "Why do you still have the face to come back?"

It may be that I lost a speech contest to the girls in the next class.Yu Shuting came to watch the game that day, and left after hearing the results.It was raining heavily that day, Lou Yuchen didn't bring an umbrella, and he didn't have a mobile phone on him.After the event, he waited at the entrance of the auditorium for an hour, and borrowed a passerby's mobile phone to make a call. He called Yu Shuting several times but did not answer.He knew that this was some kind of punishment. He walked home alone in the rain that day.

It may be after countless times of "who are you worthy of doing this", "are you worthy of me", "are you worthy of what we have done for you".

I feel really sorry, and I don't know how to be sorry.

"Then there was the second time, and the third time. I couldn't control it at all." Lou Yuchen closed his eyes.

Zhou Ran listened to him quietly, and intentionally or unintentionally touched the criss-crossed scars on his arm with her fingers: "No, you controlled it."

"I can't control it, otherwise I wouldn't have bumped into you three times." Lou Yuchen smiled.

Sometimes it is to restrain myself before doing it, and sometimes it is to punish myself afterwards.In short, it has become less and less effective.

Zhou Ran pressed the edge of the Band-Aid tightly. Turning his head, he saw Lou Yuchen's side face covered with a thin layer of clear light by the street lamp. Sweep to the corner of the mouth.

So Zhou Ran's eyes were fixed on the corners of his mouth, which were a pair of natural, attractive cat lips.

"Do you want to do bad things and don't want to be found out? Have you ever thought about... changing to a less risky way." Zhou Ran seemed to be bewitched by something, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, and what he said was out of his control , "For example, secretly, kiss with me, try?"

Lou Yuchen turned his head with a look of surprise, so half of his face was caged in the shadow of the swaying tree.

Zhou Ran's head was about to explode, she hastily pushed Lou Yuchen's arm away, and laughed twice: "Ha, I'm just kidding, just kidding."

He took out the bar of hazelnut chocolate from the pocket of his sweater. He paid the bill with the chocolate and the sausage pistol before, and now it comes in handy: "Eat chocolate."

"Don't eat." Lou Yuchen said.

"Why don't you eat it? Are you allergic to chocolate? I found that you have a lot of troubles." Zhou Ran opened the package, broke a box and stuffed it into his mouth, "Do you want to eat ham? It's not cod."

Lou Yuchen looked at Zhou Ran sitting next to him and eating.His hair was still long, uncut, and fell down when he lowered his head, covering almost half of his face.So from Lou Yuchen's perspective, he could only see his restless mouth chattering endlessly.

Too noisy.

So Lou Yuchen leaned up to kiss him and tasted the sweetness of chocolate in his mouth.