take care of

There was a blinding light above his head, and he was lying on the cold table, listening to Tao Henghuan's rustling and busy work.

"Are you afraid of pain?" He asked him gently.

"I'm not afraid." There's nothing scary about a child who's been beaten all the year round.

"Call me if you feel pain."

Tao Henghuan pressed his neck and pushed the medicine into his body.Tao Shuangyao couldn't shout at all. At that moment, he couldn't utter a single sound. All the blood in his body poured into his brain, and every inch of his bones was smashed and reassembled.He thought of every moment when he was beaten, compared with this pain, it was as slight as the wind blowing through his hair.He thought of the words his mother yelled frantically when he hit him--I almost died of pain when I gave birth to you, what happened to hitting you a few times!

I don't know which one is more painful, injection or childbirth.he thought vaguely.It's a pity that he is a man with a handle, and it's a pity that no matter whether he wears it or not, he can only rely on the simulator to experience giving birth now.

"No." Tao Shuangyao sat up from the bed, sweating profusely.

The pain in my memory is still there, but my body is still fine, nothing happened.He's only taken one small step on his way to becoming Gaia, and he's left with this hangover.He will always return to the past memory constantly in his dreams, and it is semi-random and not controlled by him.

"Fuck it." Tao Shuangyao cursed again, looking at the rain outside the window.

Zeller has been raining endlessly, and he doesn't know how many times he has to watch that painful moment. Tomorrow night, he must turn on the air conditioner to stay away from that temperature.

On July 2022, 7, the weather was rainy and the temperature was 12 degrees Celsius.

Others wear watches when they go out, while Tao Shuangyao wears a thermometer when he goes out.He pulled one side of his face and laughed at himself, put on his pants and went to work.When I walked to the entrance, I found a note left by Tao Henghuan on the door——

Worth the big night, do not return.

"Not coming back again," Tao Shuangyao sighed, "it doesn't matter if you come back or not."

Tao Shuangyao got into the driverless car and walked out.He is now in charge of the logistics department of Gaia Academy, and he will take care of all trivial matters in the end.In fact, he wanted to only take care of the cafeteria, but the college was very large when it was first established, and there were no trustworthy people to do many things, so he couldn't rest assured. It is said that Chen Yubai's infiltration into Gaia College started from the logistics.As Lu Qian's eldest brother, he cannot watch this kind of tragedy repeat itself.

He got out of the car with an umbrella, and the next moment, someone from the sports department rushed up like crazy: "Mr. Tao, please send supplies!!"

Tao Shuangyao exploded in minutes.Chen Qi's father did something wrong, he had to cancel the currency, and now there is no unified credit currency, the army is in chaos, and the ultimate solution is the most primitive barter.

"Give me the notebook, and I'll fix it for you this afternoon." He replied holding back his temper.

"One o'clock in the afternoon, the swimming pool is waiting for you!"

"And me!" The cafeteria staff also came.

"Me, me, me!" Okay, from the teaching department.

"Waiting for you!" they said in unison, and then dispersed.

Wait until you are paralyzed.Holding a pile of lists, Tao Shuangyao cursed secretly in her heart, can this damn life pass!It's better to go back to his biological parents and be a cook.

In fact, I can't go back.His father and his mother had already gone to the countryside to buy land with the money that Gu Qing gave them back then, they don't know how happy they are now.

He came from a very tough background.His parents are smugglers, and there are several children in the family. They can't support him, but they have to support him. He has a bad temper and can't speak soft words, so he is his parents' hard work.When I was a child, there was a joke-playing Doudou while eating and sleeping.He is that Doudou, or King Kong Bean, who has been beaten for three or four years and has not been damaged, and he has never been in the hospital even once.

Thinking about the use of these old millet chaff, the work that should be done still has to be done.After working all morning, Tao Shuangyao was so tired that she fell asleep on the chair with the stack of papers in her arms.

He felt bad the moment he fell asleep.He is very afraid of sleeping. It would be fine if he had an exaggerated virtual nightmare like a normal person. Those nightmares of his are all real events, and they are things that he can't forget even if he wants to.

During the short breaks between naps, he dreams about when he was a baby.The sky was terribly cloudy, and the mother who had just given birth carried him back and forth in the half-person-high grass, and the thorny grass tips scratched back and forth on his newborn skin, and she kept crying sadly, saying that no one was there. want to hear the lament of poverty.She wanted to put him down many times, and held him back in her arms with trembling hands. After several times, a car drove up in the distance, and the headlights swept by, and the short light fell on his red and swollen body. He ran home.

Tao Shuangyao took a long breath to get out of memory, and subconsciously looked at the weather.The rain outside stopped, and the clouds piled up, and it would rain again at any time.He glanced at the air conditioner again, and pressed the remote control when he fell asleep, causing the temperature to be too low, so he returned to that time.He closed the computer and cursed again in his heart.

Is today a hard day?Do not want to see together?

He collected the orders, went to the cafeteria to eat, and finally saw Tao Henghuan who hadn't seen him for two or three days.There was a bowl of Malatang in front of him, his lips were red from eating, and the fundus of his eyes behind the glasses were also red, as if he had been bullied by others.He must have been bullied, this period of time is the time when Gu Qing spends with Leon every day - things like washing in the morning and body massage, Leon's suspicious and petty mind has to do it himself, and he will never let Tao Henghuan do it.It's not that I was bullied, I stayed by the side of the person I liked for the first year, and the only physical contact I had was when I gave him an infusion.

He discovered that Tao Henghuan liked Gu Qing a long time ago.

He was two jobs for a long time.In the psychological clinic during the day, I went to work overtime at Gu Qing's place at night. I couldn't see his sincere smile when receiving patients during the day. When I came back every morning, I was always smiling, as if I was not going to work overtime, but to go on a date with my lover.

At that time, Tao Shuangyao was itching with hatred.If it's his father, then what's the point of leaving him at home?After he became sensible, he summed up the truth from the TV series: he is not his son, but his original partner, he and mistress came back happily, and he had to bring him a bowl of porridge.

"Can you stop eating the spicy food?" Tao Shuangyao walked over to bring his bowl.

"Bring it back to me." Tao Henghuan glared at him, because his glasses blocked him, and his voice was soft, like a spoiled child.

"No." Tao Shuangyao sat down with a smile, and snatched the chopsticks together, "What do Fujian people eat spicy?"

"It's not big or small." Tao Henghuan glared at him again, took the cookie next to him and ate it slowly.

"I'm 27, not too young." Tao Shuangyao replied after taking two bites.

"Leave me a mouthful of wide noodles." Tao Henghuan pretended not to hear.

"Is this one?" Tao Shuangyao ate it into his mouth, "Why is it going to be a big night again today? Why is the creditor's heart so crazy?"

"Don't be weird," Tao Henghuan frowned, "something is not right with Leon recently. I don't know what I saw. When I woke up, I felt that he was in a trance. It's better to lie in the machine. Today I said that I would have a baby with Professor Gu." Child, isn’t this nonsense? What problem can having a child solve?”

"I'm going to stay... I'm afraid I'm going to die for my love?" Tao Shuangyao said, "It's the end of the debt we both pay."

"Strange yin and yang!"

"Let Qianqian ask later, Leon and he like to tell the truth." Tao Shuangyao coughed, "I don't think he should die, or we have to raise his children before we can pay off the debt."

"Lu Qian has already gone." Tao Henghuan snatched Mala Tangsheng back, "I think it's awkward, forget it, and I don't know who blocked him back then."

"I just don't want him to die. If he dies, both of us will be sinners all our lives, and we won't even have a chance to be forgiven."

"Too lazy to listen." Tao Henghuan found a short strip of wide noodles from the bottom of the bowl, and quickly stuffed it into his mouth.

"Let's go watch a movie together, 007 is new." Tao Shuangyao said to him.

Tao Henghuan shook his head: "I'll go see him in two hours, I'm afraid he might make a mistake."

As expected, he was already numb.

"Anyone's heart is heart's flesh." Tao Shuangyao sighed.

"I'll accompany you to the sports department." Tao Heng laughed happily, "Qin'erle is probably crying while holding a smart basketball hoop."

"Let's go." Tao Shuangyao picked up the bowl.

In the middle of Tao Shuangyao's work, Tao Henghuan left.He felt a little lost, but he still pulled himself together to deal with these matters.When sleeping at night, Tao Shuangyao checked the weather forecast as usual——

Windy at night, sunny, night temperature 22 °.

Windy, sunny.Tao Henghuan cursed secretly, took out earplugs from the box next to the bed and plugged them in, then adjusted the air conditioner to 28 degrees.He was worried about seeing that day, he didn't want to see that day.

But when did God let him go?

He opened his eyes and saw Gu Zhun who was ill at the time, and asked him if Dr. Tao was there.

That was the time when he hated Gu Qing the most.Tortured by his own memory for years, he deliberately ignored that he took Lu Qing's money to get the injection, and only got one injection before running away.When Gu Zhun walked in, he discovered that he was Gu Qing's younger brother.Not only did the two of them have the temperament to look down on mortals, but also Tao Henghuan repeatedly went to Siemens to peek at him, and because of him, he also provided free psychological counseling for Siemens employees.

Gu Zhun wanted to die with all his heart, and his tone was very bad, and he also wanted to make a sigh of relief, and let Gu Qing know how he felt about being tortured.Gu Qing has always been aloof, constantly torturing him and Tao Henghuan, so he should be taught a lesson.He gave him the medicine behind Tao Henghuan's back, and he was happy that there was no day, and he was still suffering from constant pain when he slept that night.

When the effect of the medicine was about to end, Mo Xiaolai questioned his father with the expression of killing him written all over it, while Tao Henghuan slapped him in the face with the expression on his face that he wanted to kill him.

—Do you know what you did?After Mo Xiao left, Tao Henghuan asked with tears streaming down his face, he gave you and me the present life, how could you treat his only younger brother like this?I thought you were just bad-tempered, but you are all bad-tempered.

——Isn’t he good at everything?What is this?Wouldn't it be enough to come and save my younger brother by myself?Isn't he the best at taking injections and taking medicine?

Tao Henghuan slapped him again.

--what do you know?Professor Gu was busy, so he entrusted his brother to me to take care of him, and what about you?You trap me in injustice.

——That's great, you don't have to love him anymore.We are all relieved.

——I didn’t teach it well.Tao Henghuan knelt on the ground in pain, it was my fault.

When Tao Shuangyao woke up, he could still feel Tao Henghuan kneeling on the ground, the pain in his heart, and then he also regretted that he was so young.If he didn't give Gu Zhun that kind of medicine at that time, but asked Tao Henghuan to give him a good treatment, he wouldn't have to be forced to throw himself into the sea, and he and Tao Henghuan wouldn't have been wasted for so many years, and they couldn't even say "like" mouth.

It was not yet eight o'clock in the morning, and the room was very cold, and the air conditioner had been turned on.Tao Shuangyao jumped up from the bed and ran out of the house. At the beginning of the day, Tao Henghuan was lying in the middle of a pile of wine bottles and had been drinking for a while.He looked up at him, and smiled vaguely: "The air conditioner is so high, isn't it hot?"

"What's wrong with you?" Tao Shuangyao walked over to hold his head.

"It's nothing." Tao Henghuan touched his face: "You're almost 27 years old."

"Yes," Tao Shuangyao frowned even deeper, "Did you eat before drinking? I'll make you some fried rice."

Tao Shuangyao stood up and went to the kitchen, and Tao Henghuan followed him: "Do you remember when we first met?"

He couldn't forget it at all, even if he didn't get the Gaia injection, he didn't forget it either.

Tao Henghuan, a teenager, eats his family’s takeaway every day, fried noodles, fried cakes, fried rice noodles, and always sees him twice a day.One day his parents had just finished beating him and asked him to serve fried pancakes to Tao Henghuan. Tao Henghuan held his bruised and swollen hands and asked him quietly, "Call the police for you."

When he was four years old, he knew that calling the police was not a good word. He threw fried pancakes on the table and yelled at him: "Don't mind your own business!" Bring small gifts and teach him how to please his parents.For a few months later, he didn't come. Tao Shuangyao thought it was just like that, and the flat peaches in the sky would be annoying, not to mention the unhygienic pancakes his parents made.

On a sunny spring afternoon, he suddenly came back.The moment I saw him, I smiled happily: "I'm here to save you, but you may be wronged, but you won't be beaten, and you will become a scientist in the future. Would you like to?"

Tao Shuangyao nodded immediately, but he didn't hear what was behind at all, he only heard him say "I'm here to save you".

Tao Henghuan gave his parents [-] euros, and from that moment on, he was no longer a beating Doudou, and he had a new name—Shuangyao.

"You will become a greater figure than a saint in the future," said Tao Henghuan in his youth, with a gentle and quick tone, and his words were like a dreamlike existence. "It is a guiding light for all scientific researchers in the world, and a new lighthouse on the way to find the truth. "

At that time, he half-understood, thinking that he was describing his future, but later he realized that what he was describing was what his ideal person looked like at that time.He came to buy him because Gu Qing needed an apprentice with a little quality.

"Remember." Tao Shuangyao said while cutting Jinhua ham, "Did you back then? Eating fried noodles every day made you not as tall as I am."

"What happened after that?"

"I got an injection and then ran away. In order not to let me be arrested and brainwashed, so that I can live well, you became my guardian. You were eighteen and I was four years old."

"Then, in order to avoid Professor Gu, I went to a psychological clinic."

"Yes, you have been a psychiatrist for many years. Although it is not your strong point, you have done a good job."

"It was 2010 when Gu Zhun was almost killed. Professor Gu Qing went back to China once, and he didn't blame me when he saw me, and continued to entrust Gu Zhun to me."

"You are about the same age as his brother, but he will protect his relatives." Tao Shuangyao said: "After that, you have been doing follow-up treatment for Gu Zhun until 2012."

"At the end of 2012, the two of us returned to Celle. After that, Professor Gu Qing fell into a deep sleep and has not woken up yet."

"It's the summer of 2022. He has been sleeping for almost ten years, and you and Leon have been taking care of him for almost ten years."

"Why do I feel like time has stopped?"

"I am 26 years old, and you are 40 years old."

Tao Henghuan suddenly squatted on the ground and cried, "What have I done all these years?"

"You raised me up, and you overcame the problem of hormone prediction. Now you are trying to wake up the most important person in the world." Tao Shuangyao put down the kitchen knife and squatted beside him and said, "You have done enough."

"But I hurt you."

Tao Shuangyao touched his ear and said softly, "This sentence is the opposite."

"To this day, I still feel like I was in a dream and didn't wake up."

"That's great. I'm 26 today, and you're 31 this year. I call you Brother Heng, and you call me Shuang Shuang."

He looked up at Tao Shuangyao sadly, and started crying again.

"Oh." Tao Shuangyao hugged his head.

After he cried enough to sleep, Tao Shuangyao put him on the sofa, feeling as if he was being stabbed.He touched the cigarette a few times, put it aside, took a deep breath and called Lu Qian.

"Dive."

"Brother Yao," the first thing that popped up on the other end of the phone was about logistics, "I think our college will add another biology practice base, so that Joshua can come back soon..."

"It's easy to say," Tao Shuangyao frowned and asked, "Do you know what happened to my man today? Why did you come back from the creditor's house crying?"

"Leon?" Lu Qian thought for a moment, and said to him, "You know he's looking at Professor Gu Qing's memories, right?"

"I know. Why, if you see something related to my man, you have to stimulate him once? I was the one who hurt his uncle, and I was the one who didn't want to be someone like Gu Qing back then. Why didn't he come to me directly to argue?"

"Brother Yao," Lu Qian said softly, "You also have his phone number, didn't you scold him directly?"

"He is the darling of the creditor, how can I scold him?"

"After so many years of life and death, he can't scold you, let alone Dr. Tao."

Tao Henghuan unpacked the cigarettes one by one, and threw them out the window: "My man is an intellectual, careful, and likes to keep things in his heart. Can he stop talking about him? We didn't ask him to forgive us for what we did wrong. Haven't you been paying your debts?"

"How can it be so serious?" Lu Qian's voice was still hoarse after talking for so long, unlike just waking up, "How could he say Dr. Tao, I will go to him in a while and ask you in detail."

"Okay," Tao Shuangyao nodded, "I'll also think of a way to get that big bastard back. Why is your voice hoarse? Let me just ask, don't give me dog food for both genders, I won't eat it."

"I chatted with Chen Qi all night yesterday, that's all."

"It's still dog food. Hang up."

"Brother Yao, Brother Yao!" Lu Qian shouted hoarsely again, "There will be thunderstorms tonight!"

Tao Shuangyao smiled and said, "You can give me a piece of candy. Go to your Chen Qi, hang up."

Tao Henghuan was sleeping at home sobering up, while Tao Shuangyao still had to go to work.It can be said that all of them can ask for leave, but Tao Shuangyao can't for a day.He took the time to go home at noon, Tao Henghuan had already gone to work, the new sticky note, the new value would not return at night.

After he grew up, many times when he had sperm on his head, he wanted to just press him to the ground and kill him, but when he thought about Gu Zhun, he became sober.A person can act fiercely for a while, but then he has to make up for it with actions that are a hundred times more difficult than that. No one understands this truth better than him.

When returning to the academy in the afternoon, I bumped into Leon once.He drank a bowl of mung bean water in despair in the cafeteria, and his mental state could not have been worse—if the creditor knew what his heart looked like, he would definitely sit up immediately without any medical treatment.

Gaia is a cruel title.After returning to Celle, I met Lu Qian, and learned from him that the reason why he was so painful that he refused to give another injection was because he had not found an anchor; but later I vaguely heard that before the creditor met Leon, it seemed An anchor has never been found.From this point of view, the creditor is the most ruthless of them.

Is that why Tao Henghuan is attracted and cannot extricate himself?

He wanted to go up and ask Leon what was wrong, and send him back by the way.As a result, I received a call from Lu Qian.

"Brother Yao? Are you in a place that won't explode?"

"If I had exploded, it would have exploded," Tao Shuangyao rolled his eyes, "Tell me something quickly."

"I asked Leon. He forgave you and Doctor Tao for Professor Gu, and by the way, confessed for you."

"What?!" Tao Shuangyao still exploded.

"I mentioned it cryptically, but you also said that Dr. Tao is an intellectual, so he must be able to understand it."

"So it wasn't just for Gu Qing that he drank so much yesterday?" Tao Shuangyao suddenly wanted to laugh.

"Congratulations to you in advance." Lu Qian said briskly.

"Accepted in advance." Tao Shuangyao said to him: "Hang up."

On the highly anticipated night, I really dreamed of Tao Henghuan.

He was eight years old at the time, and Tao Henghuan had just learned to knit a sweater to relieve stress, so he made a super beautiful white sweater that matched his body.He went out to play in that sweater, and was ridiculed by a group of idiots on roller skating downstairs, saying that he was sick and had been wearing a sweater since September.He couldn't run away from the war. He fought with seven or eight people alone, and then he was almost pressed to the ground and rubbed.The clothes were torn to pieces when he got home. He took advantage of Tao Henghuan's overtime work and sat in the living room to mend them. If he couldn't mend them, he cried and cried. Don't think about it.

Tao Henghuan came back at two o'clock in the morning and went crazy when he saw him like this, and was about to take him to find justice.People of yellow race were not easy to get along with in Germany. He didn't want to trouble Tao Henghuan, but he still knocked on the door of each family, found the parents of those seven or eight people, and taught them a lesson.

Before that, he always thought that he was just something that Tao Henghuan couldn't return. From that day on, he knew that Tao Henghuan really cared for him.The two of them went out and quarreled, and when they got home they were hungry. They cooked two packs of instant noodles, and there was no soup left.The two of them looked at each other across the dining table and laughed until tears fell.

Tao Shuangyao woke up in a good mood in the morning, and wanted to have breakfast with Tao Henghuan after get off work, but Tao Henghuan didn't come back.Although he cared about himself, but with Lu Qing is called love, right?After crying, I don't have a long memory, so I have to go to Gu Qing's place to give him injections, comb his hair and tell stories.

What is the head of this kind of day?Tao Shuangyao took an umbrella and got into the car.After going on like this, it may really be necessary to support the creditor's son and grandson.

Another very busy day.Tao Shuangyao had just dismissed the person in charge of the cafeteria, when the people from the construction of the new playground came over again.Resisting the urge to curse, he stretched out his hand to stroke the braid on the top of his head, and suddenly realized that he hadn't done that hairstyle in a million years.When he first returned to Cele, he was a teenager, fantasizing about putting a penis in his braid, and the moment he saw Gu Qing, he died with him.

Now he is working in Gu Qing's sphere of influence with peace of mind, and sincerely hopes that he will wake up as soon as possible.When Tao Henghuan scolded him for not knowing what to do, he was not convinced.Now that he is almost 30 years old, he gradually understands a lot: without Gu Qing, he would not be able to become the current Mr. Tao who can speak three or four languages.Maybe selling fans or robbing, the best ending, he was not beaten to death by his parents, took over their pancake stall, and became a hot-tempered peddler.

There is a difference between low and high in life. Even if he is often tortured by the past, his life now is still much better than that time.It was a gift from his creditors.

"Okay, okay, okay, okay, I must go see it tomorrow." Tao Shuangyao patiently sent him away.

He went home with the packed food. Tao Shuangyao had nothing to eat after get off work in the morning, and that bastard Gu Liang didn't eat by himself, thinking that people all over the world drank dew to live.For so many years, I haven't seen him give his man a bite to eat, and sometimes ask his man to bring him food.

Today's Tao Henghuan came back very early, he brought a red blind cake, and sat in front of the dining table with red eyes.

"What did that bastard tell you again?" Tao Shuangyao burst into flames immediately.

"No," Tao Heng smiled and shook his head, "Gu is awake."

Tao Shuangyao's arrogance disappeared immediately, and he frowned and asked, "What did you say?"

"Professor Gu is awake." Tao Henghuan smiled again.

"That's great," Tao Shuangyao thumped his palms, his brows loosened and then frowned, "When he's asleep, you watch him every day, and when he wakes up, you leave. What's the reason for that?"

"Tao Shuangyao," he smiled even wider, as if peach blossoms were in full bloom, "let's go to the movies together when you have time."

For the first time, Tao Shuangyao had the energy to look at the cake in front of him. Those red things turned out to be rose petals, which had been soaked in sugar and left on the cake for a long time, so they were a little wilted.

"Have you been waiting for me for a long time?" Tao Shuangyao realized for the first time that she could speak so softly.

"No." Tao Henghuan said to him.

"Now." Tao Shuangyao also laughed. He had been waiting for too long, and he didn't want to know the history, cause and effect. "Tao Henghuan, let's go to the movies now, 007 is still in theaters."

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The green hills remain unchanged, and the green water flows forever. See you next time.