take care of

"He knew I loved him and left me after taking everything from me. There are too many things in this world that are more terrible than death."

The rain outside kept pattering, Leon seemed to be unable to speak any more, he buried his head on the head of Gu Qing's bed, and stroked his hand.

"I should first kowtow to you for my father-in-law who is in prison for eternal life, the great villain of the century, the loser Chen Yubai." Lu Qian was about to kneel down as he said that.

"Knock harder." Leon patted him on the shoulder.

Chen Yubai is Chen Qi's biological father, Lu Qian's father-in-law, and the instigator of many tragedies including the two of them.He did not know where he got the news about Gaia back then, and used Lu Qian's father to send Chen Qi to Gu Qing's side.He originally wanted to rely on his son to obtain first-hand information, but Chen Qi insisted on returning to his childhood sweetheart Lu Qian, gave up Gaia's future and chose to return to China.Leon was almost killed twice, both by his pawn Catherine, in order to get rid of Leon and prevent him from taking Chen Qi's place.

Chen Yubai is a person greedy for power. He thought that everyone wanted Gaia's inheritance, but he never thought that it was not like that.

"Didn't you guys see each other again in the next few years?" Lu Qian pretended to kneel down and asked carefully.

"From the age of 12 to 15... It's not that I haven't seen him at all. He occasionally comes to see Professor Darcy, and I still see him. But I will try to avoid seeing him. So it can be said that until we go to Gaia Academy, we We never really met again."

"It's hard to figure out." Lu Qian looked up, "He loves you, you love him, and then we don't see each other again after that. It's not like what Professor Gu would do."

"I used to think of a lot of excuses for him." Leon sighed, "I'm busy at work and think I'm young, but I can't help thinking, 'He's just tired of me', 'He just wants to get rid of me' It's just me'."

"Professor Gu Qing will not be that kind of person."

"Then what kind of person is he?" Leon asked him, "In your heart, is he the kind of person I told in the story?"

Lu Qian shook his head and replied, "I never thought he was such a gentle person." Lu Qian thought for a while, "I didn't expect him to be such a cruel person."

Leon nodded: "I didn't understand it at the time, but I understood it later. What kind of person Gaia wants to be depends on their mood."

"How did you survive those years by yourself?"

"I don't know how I survived it. It may be the same as now, and I survived it by time."

At the beginning, I dreamed of him every night, and after waking up, I would walk around the room all night.The California sunshine he had been thinking about not only did not heal him, but also made him anxious every day like a bright torture lamp.In the middle of doing something, he often suspects that he came out naked, and others are laughing at him as a shameless thing that was abandoned by others.Later, he refused to do outdoor activities. After returning to the basement, everything gradually got better. He was with the machine every day, was with Darcy who also didn’t go to the ground, and talked to Dodd on the computer. Much more comfortable.

For maybe half a year, Mingyue dragged the two of them back to the ground, and the three of them watched the vast coastline together, watched the boats go by, the planes went back and forth, and slowly got better.

"So when I saw it back then, were you taking revenge on him?"

"Yes." Leon nodded, "Because I have waited for too long, I don't know whether it is love or hate, so I think if I let him experience my experience and understand my feelings, maybe..."

"Maybe what?" Lu Qian asked blankly.

"Maybe, he is willing to start over with me." Leon smiled again, "Isn't it very stupid?"

Lu Qian burst into tears suddenly, and big tears rolled out of his eyes. He wiped and said, "Why are you worse than me and Chen Qi?"

"Hey, hey, why are you crying?" Leon threw a stack of tissues to him, "Don't cry, I don't want to be picked up by Chen Qi in the middle of the night and ridiculed."

"Oh." Lu Qian blocked the lacrimal gland with two balls of tissues, and asked him again: "How did Professor Gu find out that you have been killed so many times?"

"I don't know. He said that he installed a camera in the house, but I think it's more than that. It might be somewhere on my body, but I can't find it. When Gaia loves someone, he is honest and mysterious. It is too difficult for us ordinary people. Refused."

"Well," Lu Qian nodded sympathetically, "I can't refuse, and it's useless to refuse."

"You are also half Gaia, what are you pretending to be an ordinary person?" Leon threw him with a small box.

"Don't dare to be, don't dare to be, after listening to Professor Gu's story, I don't dare to be at all." Lu Qian shook his head while blocking his tear ducts.

"No, you haven't finished crying yet?" Leon wondered.

"I can't help it..." Lu Qian's tissue was wet again, "It's so poignant, especially during the snowy night, it's pretty good that I didn't cry at that time!"

Leon smiled sincerely this time: "It's much better to chat with you, some people cry for me and others laugh for me."

"Did you see that day in Professor Gu's memory?"

"No," Leon shook his head, "I haven't seen it before. But because I have seen a lot of past events, I can guess a general idea. At that time, he was going to the United States to do Gaia's inheritance work, waiting for the crisis to break out at the end of 12 years. It’s time to save the world, and then think that I don’t have a few years to live, so I don’t want to be with me.”

"Then why did you do that?" Lu Qian frowned, already deeply immersed in the past.

"I don't know." Leon smiled, "Maybe I still want to get it once, after all, life is so hard, and I was a beautiful young man at that time."

"Don't say such self-defeating words, can you show this smile that is worse than Qin Qiong's?" Lu Qian glared at him, and then sighed, "What if he told you his destiny as Gaia earlier?"

"The story would have been more outlandish, and I would have asked to be with him when I was about 10 years old."

"How can you remember so many things, you have been a genius since you were a child."

"A lot of things I actually can't remember. I saw related things in his memory later, and then slowly recalled them. In terms of memory alone, I should not be as good as Mingyue."

"So you forgive him."

"I forgive him." Leon smiled at him. "At the end of last night, I saw him say 'he loves me' to that pervert. If I could get this answer, I would be satisfied."

"But..." Lu Qian continued to hesitate.

"It doesn't matter if he can't wake up, I'm satisfied that he didn't die like Juan," Leon said to him, "He took me alone back then, didn't he bring me up too? What's more, there are you now and Chen Qi."

"Hey... help others take their children's lives."

"Why don't you two have a baby?"

"Chen Qi doesn't want it. When I was young, I said how many children I wanted to have. Now I don't mention it anymore." Lu Qian rolled his eyes, "Married, nothing counts."

"That's right, you help me raise it." Leon said to him with a smile.

"Ah, okay..." Lu Qian pretended to sigh sadly, "Everything the master's wife says is right."

The two chatted all morning. After lunch, Dr. Tao Henghuan came to take over, and Leon sent Lu Qian out.

"Why do you suddenly feel weird seeing Doctor Tao?" Lu Qian asked in a low voice.

"Probably never thought that he is my rival in love?" Leon also answered in a low voice.

"What happened to them, I can't think of it even if I think about it."

"They? I think you want to talk about the previous generation?"

Lu Qian laughed twice: "No, it's all for a lifetime."

The sky briefly showed a clear bottom, and Lyon rode a bicycle to the river for a circle.There were a lot of students by the river on weekends, some of them played cellos and violins, playing melodious classical songs like silk.

Leon rode a little farther, found a secluded place, took out his harmonica and began to play the piece that Gu Qing played for him.He really wanted to go back to when he was six or seven years old. At that time, Gu Qing had no defense against him. He didn't deliberately play the role of father or Gaia. He was just a lonely person who said things to a child that adults couldn't understand. Speculate, and then wait for the child to forget by himself.

It's so funny, just a few hours after leaving Lu Qing's memory, he already misses him very much.

"Professor Gu?"

Leon was in a trance, only to realize that this was calling him.

"Hello."

"I'm a student in your mechanics class," the kid said with a smile, "Can I treat you to a meal?"

After human beings have lost their fertility, the concept of minors seems to have disappeared, and children in their early 10s have long been able to invite others to dinner openly.

Leon smiled and shook his head at him: "Sorry, I have an appointment with my lover."

"Oh..." The kid seemed extremely disappointed, "How old is he? Is he younger than me? I'm very popular."

The smile on Leon's face slowly disappeared, he raised his eyebrows and said to the ignorant boy: "What annoys me the most is you kids, who dare to ask for anything without knowing anything. Your student number, I will give you 20 seconds to disappear."

The child froze for a moment and ran away.Leon smiled and shook his head, very happy.He runs away when he encounters a strong force. He is a good boy who knows the current affairs.He shook the "Melancholy Poet" in his hand, and thought to himself, if Gu Qing had treated him like this at the beginning, would he not have those thoughts that he shouldn't have later?

It's a pity that he loves him too, and he can't bear to treat him like this.If people could really walk away like wild animals rearing their young, maybe there wouldn't be so many troubles.

Leon started playing his harmonica again.A few minutes later the vanished child returned.

"Teacher, are you thirsty for playing the harmonica? Drink an iced Coke!"

Leon smiled and waved to him.The child sat beside him kindly, looking at him with a smile.

"Do you have a teacher named Chen Qi?"

The child's face collapsed at a speed visible to the naked eye: "What are you doing..."

"Is there? He is my good friend, and it is said that he is especially good at teaching people."

"Well, Professor Gu, I'm going back to prepare my homework, goodbye."

This time it really went far away, but the iced cola obediently didn't take it away.

Leon went around for a while, and entered Lu Qing's memory as usual after returning.

The magnolia in Lu Qing's memory always blooms and falls, and the soft petals are spread all over the ground, like new snow and light feathers, it is too beautiful to behold.Leon walked up to the tree step by step and grabbed a branch.

The snow-white flower scene passed by in a flash, and what caught my eye was the peach blossom forest under the moonlight of Gaia College at that time. Everything was silent, and there were no birds in the sky.The tall and tired Gu Qing stood opposite him across the wooden door of the dormitory. They were already almost tall, and they had to lower their heads to see each other's face through the low window.He frowned and looked at Gu Qing, who lowered his head and asked him, "Can I go in?"

Leon seemed to be pinched hard in his heart, and he could only hold his breath.

At the end of 2012, after spending three boring years in the United States, Gu Qing brought all the laboratory members to the deep mountains of southwest China to do the final finishing work of the artificial human project.He organized a place called Gaia Academy, and then recruited the first batch of students, including Chen Qi, who he regarded as an imaginary enemy back then.

After three years of no communication between the two, they lived in the same building again.Leon would see him in the cafeteria, he would see him in the elevator, and he would see him at the queen's regular meeting.Because of seeing him frequently, Leon began to dream of him often again. The pain and unwillingness were almost the same as when they first separated in 2009.

After so many years, he finally saw the day of his "revenge" in Lu Qing's memory, which was also the last day before he fell into a deep sleep.

The author has something to say:

Wherever we dive, there will be laughter.

The last part is coming soon, and then I will write a few strokes of Henghuan Shuangyao.

What do you want to watch?Or should I read what I write? (call me confident and cold)