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The days of reunion are always limited, and the year is almost over, and Tao Ran is about to set off to go back.

He came with one suitcase, but when he returned, it turned into two suitcases. The old mother happily packed him a suitcase of things that she thought were much cheaper in New Zealand than in China, as well as clothes and shoes that she usually bought for her son on a whim.Tao Ran really wanted to say that I don't need so much, I will come back next year, why don't I buy fresh ones when the date comes, but Mr. Tao exchanged glances with him in time, and he shut his mouth wisely.

Tao Zhi's new car can't fit two 29-inch boxes, so he can only use the family car.The mother and son started arguing over who should pay for the parking fee. The mother said whoever drove the car should pay, and the baby said whoever drove the car should pay.

"You really don't want to pay Zhizhi's living expenses?"

Mr. Tao smiled slyly: "Your mother really won't give it. I often stuff him with some. Starving to death is unlikely, but he always has no money to buy wine and pick up girls. His child feels that he has no face and is not good."

"Does he have a source of his own?"

Mr. Tao skillfully made a cup of caramel latte on the counter, and handed it to Tao Ran: "He has a scholarship, and he is still helping others write codes. We don't need to worry about that. When you go to college, you will find your own way of life." .”

I have long been used to my parents' way of letting go and teaching you how to be a human being. Tao Ran stopped talking about Tao Zhi. He lowered his head and wanted to have a sip of coffee, but suddenly found that the latte art his father made for him was in the shape of a heart.

Sure enough, before he swallowed the first mouthful, Mr. Tao started to talk about the main points.

"I heard that you found another colleague?"

Not caring about scolding Tao Zhizhi for being a traitor, Tao Ran cheered up and dealt with it first: "It hasn't started yet."

"What are you hesitating about? You don't want to separate public and private anymore?"

"That's not it. I don't care if my colleagues work differently." , what’s the difference? What’s the difference? If it’s all the same, why bother to start.”

Inherited by blood, Tao Qin's father followed Tao Ran in the same way, but more ruthlessly: "Hehe, you know in your heart that it must be different, otherwise you would have started long ago."

That's right, an indifferent relationship means that it can start easily and end decisively.This indecisiveness is the real heart.

Tao Ran was speechless, and after a long silence, he could only sigh: "Dad, it's a bit weird to talk about this topic with you."

"Don't interrupt, your mother insists on asking me to care about you..." Mr. Tao's old face lasted for a long time, and he almost couldn't let it go: "Your mother means to ask me to tell you something, maybe you used to Do not know at all."

Tao Ran used his gaze to show that he was listening.

"When we were young, we didn't like children at all. Every time we met a bear child on the street, your mother would mention it specially. We must insist on DINK. Then your grandfather fell ill, and the doctor said that it would only last for a year or two at most. The old man insisted that he wanted to see his grandson, so I softened my heart, so I discussed with your mother whether to have one. Then with you..."

Tao Ran looked at him and smiled: "With me, you still don't like it? I don't believe that my mentality will change when I have it."

Unexpectedly, the old man in front of him, whose spirit and body seemed to be fixed at the age of 40, and who had been youthful all his life, suddenly sighed heavily at him, and said with great reluctance: "Later, we are actually better than we thought... love you more."

Realizing what he really wanted to say, Tao Ran immediately fell silent.

"I don't want to persuade you, but I just want to remind you, don't be too self-righteous. You are only a young man, let alone you, but when I think about it now when I am 50 years old, I still feel that many things are not done properly. .Why do you use your limited past to speculate on a longer road in the future?"

Tao Ran still didn't speak.In fact, he didn't know what else to say.

Every man has a special feeling for his father in his heart.Tao Ran was raised free-range since he was a child, and his parents didn't accompany him much, but his father really cared about him, and he knew it very well.When I was young, I always felt that my father was a peak surrounded by clouds and mists on the spiritual level.Later, when he grew up, his parents no longer blocked the troubles of the world, and he began to understand his father gradually.In the past few years, he has been able to take good care of himself. His father seldom talked to him in depth. He thought his eyes had shifted to Tao Zhi, but unexpectedly...

What a tiny speck of dust a person is in time.Fate is so impermanent, and halfway through life, the confusion that neither side can see has fermented into a ridiculous stubbornness.

And this stubbornness itself is nothing more than the superficial experience of the previous years.

There is no need for a heavy hammer to beat the drum, and Tao's father knew that his family education was successful when he saw that he was silent.He opened the door of the cupboard, pretended to be a small plate of raisin cookies for Tao Ran, placed it in front of him, and patted him on the shoulder lightly: "Don't let it break, but let it mess you up."

Tao Ran nodded involuntarily.

So Mr. Tao went away to mediate the daily quarrel between his wife and youngest son. The three of them were laughing and arguing half-truly in the living room, and no one came to pull Tao Ran into this battle.

In the golden summer sun, Tao Ran was sitting at the table, quietly watching the squirrels visit the garden, and curiously pawing at a large mess of plants on the ground.My mother loved flowers and plants but didn't take care of them persistently. My father insisted on planting some ordinary vegetables. The garden looked horrible, but it was strangely full of vitality and deep greenery.

It may not be false to say that it is unintentional.

The phone call that I didn't receive when I turned off the phone years ago haunted Chang Zheng's mind inexplicably, and after five or six days of boredom, it almost became a heartache.

There are too many ways Tao Ran can leave a message for him, e-mail, company internal system, SMS, chat software, he checked them all, but found nothing.There are only two possibilities for this matter, either it is an irrelevant business matter, and it will not be too late to talk about it after work, or it is the kind of late night phone call last time... a sudden need to talk.After that time has passed, there is no need to mention it again.

Thinking of what he might have missed, Chang Zheng felt short of breath for a while.

The plane back early in the morning arrived at noon, and Chang Zheng called Tao Ran while he was waiting for his luggage.

"When did you come back?"

"Yesterday. What about you?"

"Just landed. I brought you a lot of local products, and they are quite heavy. Shall I send them to you?"

Tao Ran's side has been very quiet, but for some reason, Chang Zheng felt that he stopped what he was doing and was thinking about how to answer.

"Go back and put your luggage down first. Will you come to my place for dinner tonight?"

The date came too easily, Chang Zheng was very puzzled.The airport was still some distance away from where he lived, so he rushed back to take a shower and changed clothes, opened the box and counted out the things for Tao Ran, and it was almost time to go out again.

What he wants to bring is not too much, but it is a bit miscellaneous, besides food, there are also useful things.One of them was a wine warmer with a rather innovative shape. He also specially prepared two small cups, which were wrapped in a lot of packaging, and finally he carried it into the car after hugging his arms full.Because he was careful not to hit or fall, after finishing everything and sitting in front of the steering wheel, Chang Zheng found that his breath began to become chaotic.

He was extremely fortunate that when he went back to Tao Ran's house and felt that he was a little embarrassed because of the dishes in the kitchen, he saved him in time.Because he was sitting in the car at the moment and hadn't pressed the start button for a long time, he finally felt the same hesitation.

The things in the trunk were not just bought during the Chinese New Year.The subtleties are the most visible, and when Tao Ran sees these, he will definitely feel a lot of self-evident thoughts.

A sincere heart is like an innocent baby, holding it in front of others, whether it is picked up or strangled to death, it is really up to you.

In this strange world, people gradually feel that not caring is the best gesture.Everything is about winning or losing, and about winning effortlessly, but things are not that simple.

Thinking of this, Chang Zheng glanced back at the wooden box containing champagne on the back seat.When he came out, the gods and ghosts took it with him. Now that things have happened, he must take a gamble.

The two have worked together for a long time, and their eyes tend to fall on one spot.When Tao Ran saw Chang Zheng, his first glance fell on his face, and his second gaze fell on the bottle of champagne.

He didn't say anything, and of course Chang Zheng didn't mention it.When entering the elevator and going upstairs, Tao Ran walked in front and carried most of the things. Chang Zheng managed to snatch a couple of things from inside and carry them by himself, while holding the bottle of champagne with the other hand.

The sound of the wine colliding in the bottle was like his own dangling heart.

When the door was opened, Tao Ran went to the wall to touch the switch. The fluorescent lamp in the outer hall had only one long tube, and the light flickered and then went out.Tao Ran tried a few more times, and had no choice but to turn around and say, "Be careful, put the wine against the wall first, and then we can talk when you come in."

While doing so, Chang Zheng listened to Tao Ran take a few steps inside, and groped to put the cardboard box in the corner at the other end.

There were no windows in this room, and when the lights were out, there was only a little light from the porch lamp outside.Tao Ran's gloomy back seemed to be frozen in the movement of bending over, and time was lost. Chang Zheng looked at him, and suddenly couldn't control himself, and didn't want to control himself.

The door was slammed shut by the wind, and there was a loud bang that broke the room, and the room became pitch black.

"Go slowly, pay attention to your feet, if I knew it, I would have left a light inside..."

Chang Zheng hugged him from behind, Tao Ran's voice stopped abruptly.

The heartbeat reached the tympanic membrane in an instant, and the sound of blood rushing was loud. Chang Zheng was also taken aback by his actions, but he didn't regret it at all.

The person in his arms was motionless and did not struggle.

Instinctively, Chang Zheng tightened the arms around his waist, and a kiss naturally wrapped around his ear.

"Tao Ran..."

In view of this intimacy, Chang Zheng knew what he should say, but he was dumbfounded like never before: "We..."

Tao Ran seemed to chuckle, but he didn't.Because he turned around and kissed Chang Zheng, the memory of all this began to blur from this second, and it was impossible to trace back.

It was only when the lips of the two of them touched that Chang Zheng realized that he was too nervous to breathe steadily.

Tao Ran's hand quickly landed on his back, deepening the dusty hug.Chang Zheng finally saw what was in his heart, a tree blossoming.

The author has something to say: I should have read the phrase "true like a baby" when I was very young.Because I don't remember the specific wording, I can't find the source.If anyone knows, please do let me know and I'll note it here.