don't force me

Lin Tingan went home and told his parents about the track and field team.Ma Jing said a little worriedly: "But training will indeed affect performance."

"I know, I want to try it."

Ma Jing: "In this matter, you have no chance to try."

Lin Tingan: "But, I like running."

Ma Jing: "What you like is what you like. Sometimes it is necessary to give up some hobbies for a certain purpose. Look at Du Xuan, he gave up more, so his current achievements are even greater."

Lin Tingan shook his head and said, "Actually, he was very sad to give up those things, so he supported me quite a bit. He said 'like' is the most important thing."

Ma Jing was a little anxious: "But your foundation is much worse than Du Xuan's, and besides, you want to take the test of Beihang University."

Lin Yi waved his hand to stop his wife, and he solemnly said to Lin Ting'an: "This is very important, you must think about it yourself, you may not be able to get into Beihang University if you concentrate on it, it will take half a year of spare time to train, then ..."

Lin Tingan nodded: "I've made up my mind."

When she was about to go to bed at night, Ma Jing complained to her husband: "Why did you let go."

Lin Yi: "Boy, it's a good thing for him to learn to be responsible for his own future. He deserves it even if he regrets the decision he made in the future."

"But what should I do if I really want to regret it? It's a matter of my life."

Lin Yi smiled: "If it doesn't work, let's stick to the original plan and make a special move. Besides, since he has discussed it with Du Xuan, it is basically impossible for you to persuade him to come back. He is quite convinced by Xiao Xuan. "

Ma Jing was silent for a while, then lowered her voice and asked, "Old Lin, do you think Xiao An listens to Du Xuan more than what we say?"

Lin Yi disagreed: "Didn't he always listen to Du Xuan? It's easier to communicate with peers, and it can arouse more emotional resonance."

Ma Jing said slowly: "But I am a bit disappointed as a mother. Compared with my mother, my son actually listens to my brother more."

Lin Yi laughed: "Be content, Du Xuan has saved you a lot of trouble, otherwise it would be difficult to manage your adolescent son."

Ma Jing pouted: "That's my son."

"No one is robbing you of your son." Lin Yi said, "You can just enjoy it. Now I'm worried that when Xiaoan is in her third year of high school, Du Xuan won't be able to take care of him when she goes to college... Tsk, we won't have a headache to death."

Ma Jing glared at her husband, frowned slightly, and couldn't help sighing: "I also know Xiaoxuan is a good boy, but I still feel awkward."

Ji Dong sneered, "Worry for nothing", and took out his mobile phone to play Fight the Landlord, leaving Ma Jing sitting on the bed with a frown in a daze.

During the training the next day, Lin Tingan stood in front of the queue with his vocabulary in his pocket and yelled: "Stand up, stand up, first two kilometers, and the last two push-ups."

Someone in the queue lazily complained: "Isn't it the last one? Why is it changed to two today?"

Lin Tingan muttered: "Because I'm in a bad mood today."

"Fuck!" Someone flew out from the team to catch Lin Tingan, and Lin Tingan ran away, and the "warm-up" of the entire track and field team began.Hu Kun stood at the side of the running, smiled and looked at the group of children running wildly, and then shouted: "Song Yang, lift my feet up and run."

Song Yang ran two steps to catch up with the team, and howled behind Lin Tingan: "What happened today?"

When Lin Tingan ran past Hu Kun, he didn't look sideways, and his steps were not chaotic at all.Don’t regret what you have decided, and lose if you lose. Opposite Beihang University, there are University of Geosciences, Beijing Language and Culture University, Beijing University of Science and Technology, and University of Mining, Forestry, and Agriculture... how can I get into one? .Lin Ting'an thought, with Du Xuan's words at the bottom, he has the courage to take no matter how big the risk is.

After the eighth class, Du Xuan wandered into the corridor and looked out the window. The location of the third year of high school was not very good, and he could only see a bend in the playground. The big people are very conspicuous...

Sun Rui leaned against the window sill and sighed: "Can you do it, can you do it, you won't lose two catties if you don't look at him?"

Du Xuan turned around, leaned back against the windowsill and said with a smile: "If you don't look at him, why don't you look at you? I've seen you for 12 years, that's enough."

Sun Rui snorted and said, "Pay attention to your mother, extreme joy begets sorrow."

"My mother doesn't care about me now," Du Xuan took a long breath, "It's so strange, but the third year of high school has become the most relaxing year for me."

"Where is it so easy? Isn't it also a matter of death? Your mother's request that you are not allowed to be in the top five of the grade makes my liver hurt. I am now stuck in the top [-] of the grade. I am thankful to the Bodhisattva."

"That's different. In the third year of junior high school, she stared at me like a thief every day. I had to watch TV twice, read a magazine, and talk to Lin Ting'an. I was under too much psychological pressure. Now, she can at most ask me about my monthly exam results after work. As long as I don’t rank in the top five, it’s easy to talk about.”

"The top five are still called 'easy to say'?" Sun Rui shook his head, "But your goal of Beijing Medical University is to have this ranking." Sun Rui lay on the window sill, looking at the playground that was gradually darkening under the setting sun, and whispered: "But you still have to be careful."

"Sooner or later." Du Xuan said calmly, "I don't intend to hide it forever, and I can't hide it, but I have to talk about it in two years."

"That's right, this kid will only take the college entrance examination next year." Sun Rui saw Lin Tingan leading the track and field team around the corner, stepping on the brown-red track with all kinds of dazzling running shoes, it seemed that youth only stayed in the first, second and third years of high school Nothing but test papers...

Oh no, there is also Lin Tingan!

Lin Tingan turned his sophomore year into a "prospective senior year". In order to finish his homework, he took half an hour to eat and rest at noon, and the remaining one hour to do homework and ask the teacher questions.After persisting for two weeks, Teacher Xu excitedly called Ma Jing and praised Lin Ting'an as the "future star" of the No. [-] Middle School.Ma Jing hung up the phone, and said to Lin Yi worriedly: "You said that he is working so hard now, what if his stamina is not enough? He just learned this way in the second year of high school. If he gets tired of studying, wouldn't it be worse in the third year?"

Lin Yi sighed: "You worry about your son not studying, and you also worry about studying. I have never seen such a difficult mother like you."

Ma Jing also told Lin Ting'an that persistence is the most important thing in everything, and the water should flow long and long, not to catch fish.

Lin Tingan said, "Ah? What kind of fish is there?"

Ma Jing was so worried that her hair turned white in an instant.

Lin Ting'an went back to the room and taught Du Xuan the words, and Du Xuan couldn't help laughing on the other end of the phone: "You idiot, the word 'draining the pond and fishing' is in the list of common idioms in the college entrance examination, haven't you memorized it?"

Lin Tingan said: "Maybe I have forgotten it."

Du Xuan: "Aunt Ma means that it's great that you study so hard now, but persistence is more important. There are two years left, and she is afraid that you will not be able to persist."

Lin Ting'an snorted: "You really underestimate me. I have been running five kilometers every day for three years."

Lin Tingan hung up the phone, stared at the phone for a while, and then picked a photo from the photo album: the photo showed the runway rendered pale gold by the sun, and Du Xuan in a white shirt was standing at the far end of the runway with his back to the camera. His hair shone with the luster of the sun.

Lin Tingan opened the editing software and wrote a line on P on the photo: Get closer to you.

Then he set this photo as his desktop.

Facts have proved that the endurance of people who can insist on running five kilometers a day is really not to be underestimated. When Lin Tingan took the midterm exam report card on the table, Ma Jing was really shocked: "No. 18 in the class?"

Lin Tingan snorted and raised his head proudly.

Lin Yi carefully looked at the results of each subject: "However, Xiaoan, your Chinese and English scores are lower than the class average. You will be in trouble when you are in the third year of high school. You need 150 points for these two subjects, and only 300 points for the three subjects."

Ma Jing patted her husband: "My son did so well in the exam, he should be encouraged more, let's talk about the third year of high school."

"I'm taking precautions before they happen." Lin Yi said, "After all, the college entrance examination is based on the total score, and if you are not good at Chinese and reading skills, you will not be able to understand the questions in the future."

Lin Tingan was dizzy and could not laugh or cry when his parents' "red and white faces" said it hot and cold.But Mr. Xu is very good. He praised Lin Ting'an at the parents' meeting. Ma Jing sat below, and for the first time had the urge to run over to show off to Zhou Man.

Lin Tingan was over excited but calmed down. When Du Xuan checked his papers and asked him to analyze himself, he said: "Mathematical calculation ability is too poor, careless. Physical comprehensive ability is not good. When doing electrical problems, the concept of mechanics is used. Not good, chemistry is not bad, biology just learned is not a problem. Chinese and English..."

Du Xuan nodded: "Okay, the analysis is clear and logical, and I don't even need to explain the paper to you."

Lin Ting looked at Du Xuan calmly: "I can learn by myself, you take care of yourself, you want to be admitted to Peking University."

Du Xuan said, "Don't worry."

Lin Tingan flipped open Du Xuan's notepad on the table. After resigning from the student union, Du Xuan's notepad was full of homework.In the gaps between homework in various subjects, Lin Tingan still saw many heart-pounding small sentences. On the last page, it read: He said, he wanted to get closer to me.

Lin Tingan laughed softly, pointed to the line and said, "I talked a lot that day."

Du Xuan touched his cheek: "I like this sentence the most."

"Then do you like the phrase 'I like you'?" Lin Tingan blinked and said heavily, "I like you."

Du Xuan sighed, curled his fingers around Lin Tingan's chin and pulled him over to kiss him. Lin Tingan couldn't help laughing. He held Du Xuan's neck and pressed him tightly.

Du Xuanzai licked Lin Tingan's lips carefully, ironed every corner with the tip of his tongue, and touched Lin Tingan's waistline with his palms into the skirt, Lin Tingan was so restless that he almost jumped up!

"Stop! Stop! Stop!" Lin Tingan pushed Du Xuan away, panting, "What time does your mother get off work?"

Du Xuan shrugged: "There are about 10 minutes left."

Lin Tingan said desperately: "Oh my god, even kissing is not reliable!"

"Who told you to come to my house." Du Xuan smiled and touched Lin Tingan's thin waist, Lin Tingan quickly avoided.

"It's rare to have a little time today, and there is no other place to go." Lin Tingan couldn't sit still, so he stood up and jumped, and knocked Du Xuan's biology notebook when he sat down. On the open page, Du Xuan The beautiful pen writing came into view: black notes, red highlights, typical questions in fluorescent colors, biological structure diagrams in colored pencils, and various post-it notes filled with relevant test points.Lin Tingan remembered the chemical knowledge structure table that Du Xuan made for himself in the second grade of junior high school, which shook the entire second and fifth grades of junior high school.

"Your notes... can be printed and distributed in the future." Lin Tingan bent down and picked up the notebook.

Du Xuan smiled: "Who knows which of your knowledge points has loopholes, if you don't remember clearly, how will you use it next year?"

Lin Tingan's hand that was turning the pages of the book froze, and he said in surprise, "For me?"

Du Xuan patted the thick, hard-covered notebook on the edge of the table: "Speaking, Mathematics, Physiology and Chemistry, my crystallization of wisdom for three years, how can you thank me?"

Lin Tingan looked at Du Xuan's smiling eyes, and the fire in his heart was faintly burning again. He rushed over and hugged Du Xuan's waist impatiently and said, "Thank you for your kindness, I think..."

"You don't have to 'thank you', but you have to express it?" Du Xuan pinched Lin Tingan's shoulders and pressed him on the bed. He said condescendingly, "My birthday is coming soon." Then he kissed Lin Tingan almost fiercely. He, the whole body pressed up, chest pressed against chest, lower abdomen pressed against lower abdomen, lips and teeth intertwined, limbs entangled.In Lin Tingan's sight, breath, touch, hearing... the whole world is full of Du Xuan!

At the end of November, Du Xuan passed away.