don't force me

After the formalities were completed, Du Jiancheng never went home again, and the school officially closed for winter vacation. Du Xuan said to Zhou Man: "You go to your class, and I will pack my things at home."

Zhou Man looked at Du Xuan hesitantly.

"You have to deduct money for leave," Du Xuan said with a smile, "We need money very much now, go to work quickly."

Zhou Man reached out and rubbed his son's head, and went out with his handbag.She wore a slim long down jacket with a thin cashmere skirt inside, put on very delicate makeup, and even redone her nails.When she turned to leave, the hem of the long skirt made a beautiful ripple from under the down jacket.

She will be better off from now on.

With a bang, the door closed.Du Xuan stood in the living room, waiting for the lingering sound of the closing door to dissipate slowly, and the room returned to silence again, then let out a soft breath, and the forced smile dissipated in an instant.

This small two-bedroom house carries all his memories, and the depressive and depressing years have become more intimate now.Leaving here means saying goodbye to "family" and "father and son".It was a heart-wrenching farewell. Du Xuan felt that she was being torn in two. One half cried and said "no", while the other half calmly said "look forward". Emotion and reason are always natural enemies. Many unsatisfactory things in the world seem to come from this.

Du Xuan stood stiffly in the living room until a few minutes later there was a hasty knock on the door.The first thing Lin Tingan did when he slipped in was to hug Du Xuan: "I miss you."

Du Xuan patted him on the back, put his chin on Lin Tingan's neck and took a deep breath: He is here, great.

"Your house was so messy last week that I didn't dare to come up to you." Lin Tingan felt aggrieved.

"It will be fine, I'm fine now." Du Xuan pushed Lin Tingan away a little, and said with a smile, "Come and help me with my work, I have to pack a lot of things."

"Where is your new home?" Lin Tingan asked, "Is it far from my home?"

"It's a bit far away. The houses nearby are all in the school district, and the rent is extremely expensive. We rented a house on Wuhua Road."

"Tsk," Lin Tingan sighed, "You have to take the subway to go to school."

Du Xuan reached out and stroked Lin Tingan's eyebrows: "Isn't this right? I get off the subway at the gate of the community every day, and then we can still go to school together."

Lin Tingan thought for a while: "But if you sit like this, you will make a detour."

"I'm happy." Du Xuan said bluntly.

Lin Tingan stuck to Du Xuan relentlessly, and hugged his waist tightly: "Can I go to your house to find you?"

"at any time."

"Du Xuan." Lin Tingan called softly.

"Huh?" Du Xuan pressed a kiss on his lips.

Lin Tingan fell silent, and said after a while, "What do you need me to do? You must tell me, I can do it."

Du Xuan tightened her arms and said softly, "Don't leave me."

"Okay. What else?"

"Help me pack my things." Du Xuan tried to say with a smile, "I have a heavy workload and I need your help."

Lin Tingan let go of Du Xuan, rubbed his eyes and said, "I'm here to work for you, how do you clean it up?"

Du Xuan took a look around this small bedroom, most of which were all kinds of books. "The new home doesn't have such a big space for books, let's put a part of your house." Du Xuan said, "Your bookshelf is quite empty."

Lin Tingan nodded: "It just happens to improve my room a bit."

Du Xuan squinted her eyes: "I just bring some reference books, and I will put some other messy little things with you first."

"It's all right," Lin Tingan waved his hand, "Anyway, your stuff will still be put in my house in the end, it's okay to be a few years in advance."

Du Xuan pinched his neck and shook him, showing a real smile.

Lin Tingan slowly stretched out his hand to grab Du Xuan's clothes, and said extremely wronged: "I..."

"what happened?"

"It's a bit nasty to say it, but I really love you very much."

Du Xuan gently rubbed Lin Tingan's side face, and whispered: "It's okay, really, it's actually a good thing now, so I feel more at ease."

Lin Tingan dragged Du Xuan and did not let go, looking even sadder than him.

Du Xuan sighed and slapped her hands: "Okay, let's be serious. I'll pack the clothes and you will pack the books. How about it?"

Lin Tingan sniffled, took a deep breath and tried to cheer up.He glanced at the bookshelf, shook his head resolutely, "No! You come to collect the books, I saw that it is easy to have a heart attack."

Du Xuan raised his eyebrows: "Supposedly it shouldn't be, didn't you do well in the final exam?"

"It's ironic to say that from the mouth of the second in your grade." Lin Ting'an opened Du Xuan's closet and whistled into it, "Luxury."

Du Xuan glanced at it: "I won't be able to wear it any more soon, and I'll go to the tailgate market more from today on."

"Don't look down on the tailgate market. They have decent clothes, all branded." Lin Ting'an said, and his hands were not idle, and he pulled out Du Xuan's clothes very neatly. Fold one by one on the bed.

He picked up a hoodie: "I like this."

Du Xuan glanced at it: "Take it away."

Lin Tingan honestly rolled it up and put it aside.

Du Xuan said: "You really want it, this one is old, I don't wear it anymore, you can change it."

Lin Tingan shook his head: "I want the old ones, and wear them next to your body as pajamas, it's comfortable."

Du Xuan paused under his hands for a moment, then suddenly threw a stack of books on the ground, walked over and pressed Lin Tingan directly on the bed.Lin Tingan lay down among the clothes without any resistance, looking at Du Xuan with bright eyes: "Hey, what does the handsome guy want to do?"

Du Xuan pinched Lin Tingan's shoulder and kissed him,

He couldn't control himself at all, he knew that his fingers were firmly pressing on Lin Tingan's collarbone, and he also knew that his teeth must have hurt Lin Tingan's tongue, and he knew that he was pressing on Lin Tingan's chest, making it difficult for him to breathe.But he just couldn't control it, he had to try harder and harder to be sure that he finally had something.

All Lin Tingan could do was to relax himself, hug him tightly, and rub his fingers gently on his back, like a mother coaxing a child.This is a role that Lin Tingan has never played before, but he found that it is actually very easy to do, as long as he hugs him.

After an unknown amount of time, Lin Tingan felt that Du Xuan gradually relaxed his strength, and his whole body softened. He left his lips, buried his face in his neck, and took a long breath.

Lin Tingan patted him: "Du Xuan, I will never leave you."

Du Xuan didn't speak for a while, but Lin Tingan felt a drop of hot liquid across his neck, followed by more tears.

Du Xuan, who swore to herself that she would never cry again, finally cried.But he was very happy, only Lin Tingan saw his tears.

Early Saturday morning, the moving company's car was parked downstairs.Lin Tingan heard the bang of a car door opening, and then heard a loud male voice say: "Sister, there is no elevator on the third floor, you need to pay extra."

Lin Tingan suddenly laughed. Did Du Xuan hide under the window in the scorching heat two years ago, listening to himself jumping up and down, and listening to the complaints of the moving workers?At that time, I was full of excitement, and I didn't even know what stepping into this building would mean to my life.But now, standing in the window, listening to the commotion downstairs, he is very clear about what he will do in the future and what the future will hold.

I don't know when I started to think about "the future", and I am no longer that middle school boy who eats and sleeps. It may be painful to grow up, but if I have that person by my side, everything will be fine.

Lin Tingan put on the down jacket and said to Ma Jing, "I'll go and do a favor."

Ma Jing looked at Ji Dong in embarrassment, and Ji Dong sighed: "Go, pay attention to safety."

When Lin Tingan pulled open the door, Zhou Man came down carrying a box. Through a door, everyone looked at each other and froze.

Du Xuan came down from upstairs and said calmly, "Good morning, uncle and aunt."

Ji Dong was the first to react: "Ah, morning. Let Xiao An help you."

Zhou Man wanted to say something, but before he could speak, Du Xuan said: "That's just right, there are a lot of things. Thank you, uncle."

"This kid, what can I thank you for?" Lin Yi said with a smile.

Now that the words have reached this point, there is nothing to avoid. Lin Yi naturally took a cardboard box from Du Xuan's hand: "I'll move this, and you and Xiao An will go up and be responsible for putting things together."

Ma Jing: "I...I cook a bowl of wontons, I must have something to eat this early in the morning."

Everyone dispersed quickly. Zhou Man stood alone in the corridor and was a little dazed. She really wanted to leave quietly early in the morning. Anyway, this is not a glorious thing. Why bother her neighbors? Do you know everything?But now the situation made her a little at a loss again, Lin Tingan followed Du Xuan upstairs, just like going back to his own home; Lin Yi moved the box down and turned back, his face was calm and calm, as if he was Helped bring a handful of coriander and a catty of green onions; no one asked "what's wrong" or "is it okay", and no one said "don't be sad" and "look forward", and no one said "Your old Du It’s really not a thing” and so on.This Saturday, except for a little hectic, is no different from any other Saturday.

Zhou Man remembered that Du Xuan once said "why care about others", isn't that the truth?The more you care, the sadder your life will be.Zhou Man let out a breath slowly, the life is his own, and the most important thing is to live with a clear conscience and comfort, and the other comments and expressions are all false. What 17-year-old Du Xuan understood, 44-year-old himself just now understood.

She even felt that when she went to work on Monday, she could dress brighter. Why should a 44-year-old be more low-key and depressed than a 24-year-old; You can also be more calm and calm when you are a newcomer. After all, you still need nearly 20 years of work experience to match me, even if you are a doctoral student!

With the help of the Lin family, the moving work went much faster. Ma Jing cooked a big pot of wontons, and the three workers who helped move also sat down and had a hot breakfast with great hospitality.

Lin Tingan said: "I'll go to your house with the car in a while. When will you pack it up by yourself? Besides, you're going to attend biology training on Monday, so where's the time to pack it up?"

Du Xuan squinted at Lin Ting'an through the big bowl: "Okay."

Zhou Man didn't say anything about Lin Tingan jumping into the van automatically and consciously, after all, it might be useless to say it.

Zhou Man rented a house with two bedrooms and one living room, and the contract was signed for one year.Du Xuan said that it is fine to rent a smaller one, but Zhou Man disagreed, saying that you need a good learning environment and you must have an independent space; Du Xuan said that you can rent it for two years at a stretch, and the rent can be cheaper. Zhou Man also disagreed, saying that you will be studying in the second semester of the third year of high school in a year, and I would like to change to a house closer to your school when it is critical.

Zhou Man said: "Xiaoxuan, you don't need to worry about family affairs, you just need to study hard. Mom can earn back the tuition fees and cram school money. That 30 is enough for you to study abroad."

Du Xuan sighed: "Mom..."

Zhou Man: "Stop talking, there is nothing to say about this matter, what I ask of you is to study hard and have a great future in the future."

Du Xuan thought: This time I didn't mention the major of finance and economics, and I didn't mention the Central Finance and Tsinghua University, so it can be regarded as progress.

Lin Tingan was not very satisfied with Du Xuan's new home. The house was a tower building with a bad orientation. The room was a bit dark and damp, and the room was much smaller than before.He felt that his Du Xuan had been greatly wronged and suffered a great crime, and he wished that the Diaoyutai would be vacated for Du Xuan to live in.

"It's too small," Lin Ting'an said, "I can't turn around here. Where do you put your chess table? And your writing brush... Du Xuan..."

Du Xuan looked around the room: "It's pretty good, there is a bed and a table, that's enough. Besides, I almost don't have time to play chess and write calligraphy."

He touched the piano placed in the corner next to the bed and said: "My mother insists on this piano. It is expensive to maintain and takes up space. Why bother?"

Lin Tingan lightly pressed a white key, and the piano made a clear and melodious sound. He said, "I really like watching you play the piano. When I was in the second grade of junior high school, I often hid in the complex building to listen. A corridor is full of resonance, which is very nice."

Du Xuan said, "You said this a few days ago."

"Yes, you also said that there will be no more programs in the New Year's Gala." Lin Tingan thought for a while and added, "You also said that you will play it to me every day in the future."

Du Xuan pressed the keys with her slender fingers, and then stroked the entire row of keys, and a smooth sound sounded.He took a deep breath, sat on the piano bench, and pressed down hard after he collected himself.

It was a piece of music that Lin Ting'an had never heard before. It was a little sad at the beginning, and the sound was soothing and deep. Gradually, the sub-melody was added, and the rhythm became cheerful, from sadness to joy, from bitterness to sweetness.

Lin Tingan looked at Du Xuan's back, it was as straight as it was two years ago, and it seemed that it had never bent.

Lin Tingan rubbed his eyes and asked, "What song?"

""MySoul", "Du Xuan gently closed his eyes and said, "it has a Chinese name called "Sorrow or Happiness"."

Du Xuan stopped, looked at Lin Ting'an seriously and said, "I choose to be happy."