don't force me

Du Xuan stood at the door of the bedroom and saw that the drawer of the big wardrobe was open and turned into a mess inside. He asked with some difficulty: "What happened?"

Zhou Man wiped his eyes, patted the sofa beside him and said, "Xiao Xuan, come here, I'll ask you something."

Du Xuan walked over: "What?"

Zhou Man took a breath, cheered herself up and asked, "if father and mother divorce, who will you live with?"

Du Xuan took a sharp breath, and the sudden and sharp pain overwhelmed his whole body. He felt that his heart was falling rapidly, and he couldn't pull it up no matter what.

"Xiaoxuan?" Zhou Man said to himself, "If I can bear it, I want to bear it until you finish the college entrance examination, but..."

Du Xuan was so torn by her falling heart that she couldn't stand, and after shaking a few times, she still sat on the edge of the bed.

He looked at his mother, Zhou Man's eyes were full of ruins, and the ashes of the world's collapse were endless.Du Xuan breathed a sigh of relief and wanted to say something, but she couldn't speak after opening her eyes.

Looking at her son's silent and blurred face in the rain of tears, Zhou Man couldn't help but panic. She thought of the most terrible consequences.So he grabbed Du Xuan's arm and shook it violently: "Du Xuan, Du Xuan, who are you talking to? Du Xuan, you can talk to your mother. Only your mother loves you the most. You heard what I said. Yet?"

Du Xuan was awakened by the pain from his arm. He stabilized his body, trying to calm down his confused brain: "What's the matter? What happened?"

Zhou Man stopped shaking and tried to calm himself down, but finally he hugged Du Xuan into his arms and cried again.

Du Xuan sat there in a daze, letting Zhou Man hug her and cry uncontrollably.The crying gradually became high-pitched and sharp, drilling into his brain like an electric drill, causing pain in the whole brain.

Du Xuan wasn't sure if the family would break up, but he was 100% sure that he would be wiped out soon.

"Buzzing..." The sound of the cell phone vibrating a few times penetrated into his ears amidst the sharp cries, and the slight vibration from his legs opened a gap in the heavy cloud that had been pressing on Du Xuan's heart.

Lin Tingan!It must be Lin Tingan!

Du Xuan took two quick breaths, threw off Zhou Man's grip and took out her cell phone regardless.

On the screen, the reminder of Lin Tingan's WeChat message flashed: "My mother agrees, hahahahahaha."

Du Xuan stared at the phone, and it took a few seconds to realize what Lin Tingan was talking about: final exams, winter vacation, hot springs, parties... All these beautiful plans were still dreamed up by him a few minutes ago, to make him happy and happy.At that time, his only worry was how to arrange his time more reasonably, but now, he didn't know what other arrangements he could make.

What else can be arranged?After all, this family can't even maintain the false peace.

Zhou Man grabbed Du Xuan's hand holding the mobile phone, and shouted almost hoarsely: "Xiao Xuan, did you hear what my mother said? You did talk. Who are you with? You are with mother, right? You are with Is mom okay?"

Du Xuan blinked, and was surprised to find that she couldn't cry. Even if her heart was full, she couldn't shed a tear from her eyes.

He closed his eyes, and a sharp pain came, and he suddenly felt that he was very ridiculous: Two days ago, he brazenly said to Lin Tingan, "Don't pretend to be peaceful", but now the reality is in front of him, but he is just a Anxious bereaved dog!

Where does the lost dog have the confidence to say "I will persuade them to separate"?How ridiculous!

Zhou Man was frightened by Du Xuan's silence, and she yelled hysterically: "No! You have to be with me, the children are with the mother! I'm going to sue him, and the law is usually awarded to the mother." Zhou Man pushed Du Xuan away and stood up. After turning around the room angrily, he stood there blankly.

There was a short silence in the room, just a few seconds of silence made Du Xuan calm down, and he was finally able to say to himself quietly and clearly: This family is broken up!

These words smashed into his heart slowly and heavily, occupying all his consciousness. When he finally accepted this reality unavoidably, he also

Finally calm down and think about a question:

Mom and Dad divorced, with whom?

In fact, there is no need to think too much about this question. In fact, from the very beginning when he had this idea, he never thought about what it would be like to live with his father.

Her mother is strict and even harsh, stubborn and paranoid, but in Du Xuan's memory, there are only two things in her mother's life: either work, or manage herself very strictly.That kind of management made him bored and collapsed. More than once, he imagined that one day he could live freely without the shackles of his mother. Now, the opportunity came, but he had no intention of leaving.

Only at this time did he realize that his father was a stranger existence compared to his mother, especially in the past few years, he couldn't even imagine what it would be like to live with his father.A lonely figure appeared in his mind, walking lonely and desolately behind the happy family of three, that was Zhou Chen!

Shocked, Du Xuan swallowed hard, his dry throat hurt a little, and he said, "Mom..."

A soft word made the stagnant air flow again, Zhou Man looked at him stiffly, his lips trembling.Du Xuan saw obvious fear on her mother's face, like a prisoner waiting for the death sentence.

"I..." Du Xuan licked her lips and said softly but firmly, "I'm with you."

Zhou Man's gray eyes suddenly lit up, she rushed over and grabbed Du Xuan's shoulder: "You, you say..."

"I'm with you." Once he opened his mouth, there was no chance of redemption or retreat. Du Xuan found a channel to relieve his stagnant heart. He felt that his breathing became much easier. "I will only turn eighteen next year. So, I... follow you."

Zhou Man trembled, all the strength in her body was gone, she limply leaned her head on Du Xuan's shoulder and cried out with a headache.Du Xuan put his arms around her shoulders and supported her.At this time, Zhou Man realized that Du Xuan, who had always been a child in his mind, had grown up, and his shoulders were enough to support him.

Du Xuan hugged her mother and made her cry happily.Then he helped her sit on the edge of the bed and asked, "Why?"

Zhou Man was crying a little weakly. She leaned against Du Xuan, blinked her red and swollen eyes slowly, pointed to the open drawer and said, "I don't go to work in the afternoon, and I want to go to the training department to grab you a place in the boutique class. I have a holiday." If you don’t sign up, you won’t be able to grab it.”

Du Xuan smiled wryly, yes, it's time for a holiday, and the New Year is coming, how will we spend this New Year?

"The high-quality class costs more than 8000. I don't have that much cash on hand, so I want to get a passbook." Zhou Man choked, "Usually your father manages the money at home. He said that he wants to manage money, so I don't ask much. It’s enough to have enough monthly cash to spend. But I know that there should be a passbook in the drawer, which contains 8 to [-] yuan, which is a backup for emergencies.”

Du Xuan glanced at the messy drawer and said with difficulty: "Is there any more?"

"There are more than 1000 left." Zhou Man said, "I didn't think too much about it at the time, so I called your father directly. He said that there was a problem with the previous project and he needed to manage it up and down, so he took out all the money. I... I believe it."

Du Xuan: "Then why..."

"I believed it at first," Zhou Man looked at his son and said with a bit of anger, "Your father said that wechat transfered thousands of dollars to me to pay the tuition first, and also said that the Chinese New Year is coming soon, and the family's expenses are huge. , let me spend less. I am a little surprised, my income and your father's income are not low, and this problem has never occurred in previous years, so I want to check all the savings at home... those Passbooks are gone."

Du Xuan said, "Did he transfer all the money?"

"I went to the electronic bank, and he changed all the passwords. At this time, I felt that something was wrong, so I checked everything in the house. You know, all the valuable things in our house are in this drawer, except money. The jewelry I often wear is still there, and the diamond ring and two necklaces that I don’t usually wear are gone.”

Du Xuan gritted her teeth: "Didn't you pay attention before?"

Zhou Man nodded: "We have been married for more than 20 years, and half of our lives are over. I actually always thought that there was someone outside him, but I never thought that he would be able to do so. I called him, and I asked him all the money. Where is it, he...he said he wanted a divorce. "

Du Xuan was silent for a while, then said, "What do you mean?"

Zhou Man shook his head: "What's the point of living like this?"

Du Xuan hugged her mother's shoulder: "Then leave, don't worry about me."

"Xiaoxuan, mom just feels sorry for you."

"Actually, it's pretty good, but it's even more sad when the seemingly incongruous life happens." Du Xuan looked up at the home where she had lived for more than ten years, and asked, "What do you plan to do next?"

Zhou Man leaned on her son and seemed to have found strength. She said, "Xiaoxuan, we have nothing."

"Not at all," Du Xuan smiled lightly, "At any rate, I'm still there."

Zhou Man looked at his son, tears welled up in his eyes again.

"Leave, don't worry about me." Du Xuan said, "Don't get entangled with him, don't end up with him for a few money, if you want to leave, just hurry up."

"But..." Zhou Man said with hatred, "Why!"

Du Xuan sighed: "This house is a public rental house of my father's unit. We have no property rights. The money in the family is gone, and it is troublesome to prove it. Why bother?"

Zhou Man was stunned for a while: "You're right, but I'm just not reconciled."

"There's nothing to be reconciled to. He's done everything. You know, there's nothing else in the house except a car. What's the value of a car that costs 10,000+ after seven or eight years?"

Zhou Man slowly widened his eyes: "Why do you..."

Du Xuan shrugged: "I've thought about all this before...Mom, I said I'm not a child anymore, I can understand these things watching TV."

Du Xuan hugged Zhou Man, and Zhou Man suddenly felt that she had great courage. She found a branch in the vast ocean that she could stand on. With this branch, Zhou Man believed that she could survive.

Du Xuan asked Zhou Man to wash his face, and sat on the edge of the bed staring blankly at the phone. Lin Tingan's string of "hahaha" seemed to be something from another world.Du Xuan's thumb slowly slid across the screen, and smiled slightly: what kind of winter vacation is this!

He typed a few words slowly: I can't go to the hot spring during the winter vacation, I have to find a home for myself first.

Lin Tingan replied triumphantly: What kind of home are you looking for?Am I not your home?

Du Xuan: My parents are going to divorce.

……

Lin Tingan didn't reply for a while, and then the phone rang quickly.

Du Xuan picked up the phone, and before Lin Tingan could speak, he said, "I'm fine."

"Ah, then what are you going to do? What can I do? I don't need to participate in the Winter Games, I will accompany you."

Du Xuan breathed a long sigh of relief, this is Lin Tingan, he will not chase after asking "Why", nor will he say "Don't be sad", those are meaningless, Du Xuan doesn't need these now.Lin Tingan would only ask him "what to do next", this is only looking at the future and not the past, the boy who has always been inexplicably confident is telling him, no matter what happens to you, don't try to get rid of me !

Go to heaven or earth, climb to the top or fall into the abyss, anyway, I will accompany you.