don't force me

Du Xuan goes home every Saturday morning and returns to school on Sunday afternoon.Zhou Man told him more than once that he would come home if he had no class.

Du Xuan said: "There are too many classes in freshman year, and there are also many clubs. I also work as a coach in the chess and card club. I'm really busy."

Zhou Man sighed: "I knew that when you go to college, you won't start a family anymore."

Du Xuan: "I come back every week, don't say that."

Zhou Man: "can you take on two tutors now? Can you quit one? Mom is afraid that you will be too tired."

Du Xuan smiled: "The class of the second year of junior high school is not too tiring. The little girl is also quite obedient and easy to teach."

"Girl, that's okay..." Zhou Man suddenly thought of something and asked, "Do you have a girlfriend?"

Du Xuan shook his head.

Zhou Man: "You are old now. If you meet a girl you like, go after it. If you really talk about it, bring it back for mom to see."

Du Xuan forced a smile: "Let's talk about it."

Zhou Man paused, and said, "Xiaoxuan, your father and I are still a minority, and most people still need to form a stable family."

Du Xuan didn't speak, and after a while, she slowly said, "Let's talk about it later."

Zhou Man looked at Du Xuan with some distress. This child has undergone earth-shaking changes in just four months, and this change happened overnight.It seems like the kid who just got out of high school yesterday and was jumping at everything just sank overnight.Apart from working part-time, he reads books at home every day, and a thick four-level vocabulary list was quickly torn apart.He often stares at the plane on the desk in a daze, or looks at it with his mobile phone in his arms. Every time he approaches, he will silently put away the mobile phone and put on a stiff smile.

Zhou Man doesn't know what's wrong with Du Xuan. In fact, this child has seldom talked with him since junior high school. In high school, the conversation between mother and child hardly involves anything other than grades.This cold situation did not gradually improve until the family broke up, but before she could allow herself to enjoy the intimacy between mother and child, Du Xuan was about to leave home.He is almost 19 years old, but he may not know as much about him as Sun Rui.Zhou Man thought to himself that maybe in a few years, he would take a girl and say, "Mom, this is my fiancee, and I want to marry her."

Then the child is completely out of his own world.

Zhou Man realized sadly that in this life, she gave birth to a very good son, but in the final analysis, she was still alone.

Zhou Man said flatteringly, "Xiaoxuan, if it's what you like, mom will support it."

Du Xuan's brows twitched slightly: "All support?"

Zhou Man hesitated for a moment: "Mom will give you some advice, I hope you can adopt it, but... you still have to make a decision in the end. After all..." Zhou Man smiled bitterly, "You may not listen to what I say, I I can't beat you either."

Du Xuan smiled politely: "Thank you mom, I hope you will really support me then."

At the end of November, Teacher Xu specially called Ma Jing, and Teacher Xu said worriedly: "Lin Tingan has been under too much pressure recently, we suggest that you go back and relieve him appropriately. There will be entrance exams for key schools in December. We are all a little worried about his current state."

All kinds of tragic pictures flashed through Ma Jing's mind, and she asked anxiously: "What's wrong with him? Is he in a bad state of mind?"

Teacher Xu shook his head: "It's not that bad, it's just that he was too excited. He pushed himself too hard. Learning is a gradual process..."

Ma Jing didn't pay attention to what was said later, her mind was full of Lin Tingan's thinner figure and his eyes that were dimming day by day.

After returning from school, Ma Jing walked into Lin Tingan's room.

Lin Tingan is not a person who knows how to clean up the house. His room is very messy, but the writing desk is very neat, and the entire shelf next to it is full of Du Xuan's notebooks.Lin Tingan protected these notebooks very well, and he even wrapped each notebook in a leather.There is also a small Lego airplane model on the bookshelf. Lin Tingan stopped playing this kind of thing after the fourth grade of elementary school, but this small model has been on his bookshelf for many years.Ma Jing vaguely remembered that it should have been given by Du Xuan. Lin Tingan laughed at its childishness, and carefully placed it on the first shelf of the bookshelf, so that it could be reached by hand.

There is a stack of draft paper by the table, which is full of various graphics and calculations, with English words mixed in the middle.Ma Jing flipped through it casually, and saw a few lines written sporadically on it. In fact, there was only one sentence repeated over and over again:

Du Xuan, I miss you.

Ma Jing held the stack of draft paper in a daze, and after a long while staggered to call Lin Yi: "Old Lin, I want to talk to you, I think...you are right."

The joint entrance examination for key schools is the nightmare of every middle and high school student. Lin Tingan still remembers Du Xuan's efforts to get a good ranking in the entrance examination.Since December, his sleep time has been delayed until 01:30. He has carefully analyzed his own strengths and weaknesses, specific to each knowledge point of each subject, and then made a detailed review plan according to the situation. It's too late to mark it and put it aside, and solve it as soon as possible after the exam.Busy every day, I was thinking about English composition while eating, and my whole body lost weight quickly.

Ma Jing worriedly made a lot of delicious food every day, staring at Lin Tingan to eat it, but it didn't work.Sometimes Lin Tingan would go downstairs for a run, and every time he ran until he was almost out of strength, he would come up. Ma Jing said that he should not run when it was cold.But Lin Tingan said that he is used to running, and once he stops, he will easily gain weight. Besides, running also exercises his body to prevent illness.

Ma Jing knew that he was lying, and her heart was in a mess, but she didn't dare to say anything.

The joint exam is scheduled for two days, December 27 and 28. After the exam, the papers will be graded one day, which coincides with the New Year's Day holiday, and there will be a four-day rest and adjustment period before and after the exam.For these four days, everyone cheered up, but Lin Tingan was in a mess.

When he walked into the examination room, he told Ma Jing that he didn't feel very good and that his grades might not be satisfactory.

Ma Jing said: "It doesn't matter how bad you are in the exam, just sleep for two days after the exam and then talk about it."

Lin Tingan rubbed his eyes: "Let's talk about it later."

Ma Jing sent Lin Tingan away, turned around and asked Lin Yi: "Is this really okay?"

Ji Dong nodded: "Yes."

Ma Jing: "I'm a little worried."

Lin Yi: "It doesn't matter, even if there is something in the future, Xiaoan still has us anyway."

Ma Jing found Lin Tingan's cell phone that had been idle for a long time from the drawer of the big wardrobe, and rubbed it lightly: "Tell me, why is he so stupid?"

Lin Yi smiled: "When encountering such a thing, how many are smart?"

"But what will we do in the future? How difficult it is for them."

"No matter how difficult it is, it's better for two people to face it together than to fight alone." Lin Yi sighed, "I think, if Du Xuan can accompany him, it should be much easier. If it's not possible... It's not worth it. Is there us?"

On the afternoon of the 28th, Lin Tingan returned home with a splitting headache, and threw himself onto the sofa as soon as he entered the door.Ma Jing asked, "Are you hungry?"

Lin Tingan lay flat, closed his eyes and shook his head: "Tired."

Ma Jing sat on the sofa and said, "Xiao An, it's almost New Year's Eve."

"Ah."

"Let's go out to eat tomorrow."

"Ah."

Ma Jing was silent for a while, and took out the phone from under the coffee table and put it on Lin Tingan's chest.Lin Ting'an struggled to open his eyes and glanced at them, then sat up awkwardly, his eyes that had been dull just now were brightened up: "Mom..."

"The day after tomorrow is the official day, and people will also celebrate the New Year, so let's not join in the fun. You don't have class tomorrow... anyway, go and ask... Du Xuan to come over for dinner and celebrate the New Year."

Lin Tingan let out a breath very slowly, feeling pain all over his body. He was familiar with this kind of pain. It was the soreness after the muscles were highly tensed and then relaxed.However, now he doesn't care about whether it hurts or not, he just asks in a low voice: "Mom?"

Ma Jing patted his son on the shoulder heavily: "Lin Ting'an! You bastard!"

"mom?"

"Lin! Ting! Ann!" Ma Jing cried a little, and her hands became more and more serious, as if she vented all her worries and unwillingness through patting.Patted and clapped, she simply clenched her fist and hammered Lin Tingan's shoulder hard: "You silly child, forget it!"

Lin Tingan mobilized all his nerves to capture Ma Jing's voice. He always felt that all this was too incredible. He couldn't believe every word he just heard, but he hoped that every word was true.

"Mom! Mom!" Lin Tingan asked hoarsely, "Do you mean you agree? Did you agree? Du Xuan and I, you agreed, right?"

Ma Jing gritted her teeth, pressed her painful fist against Lin Tingan's shoulder, and nodded with sobs.

"Then... can I... can I go to him?" Lin Tingan said eagerly, "Go to him now, can I?"

Ma Jing didn't speak, just wept silently.

Lin Tingan grabbed his phone and rushed directly to the door.

Ma Jing shouted: "Xiao An."

Lin Tingan stopped at the door and looked at her nervously: "Mom?"

"... Be safe and come back early."

"Thank you, Mom!" The last word disappeared in the sound of closing the door, and Lin Tingan ran out before Ma Jing could think of regret.

Lin Tingan ran quickly to the gate of the community, and turned on his mobile phone while running. It was actually fully charged, and his nose felt a little sore.It was not yet the rush hour, and it was easy to take a taxi, but the one-hour journey from home to Beijing Medical University made him feel very tormented.

In the speeding car, he called up Du Xuan's WeChat countless times, and closed it countless times.He imagined [-] kinds of words he would say when he appeared in front of Du Xuan, but those were not important. What was important was whether there was a corner in Beiyi where he could hug Du Xuan and kiss him.

In winter, thousands of trees in Beijing Medical University are withered, but it is just in time for dinner, and the campus is full of people, so it doesn't look bleak.Lin Tingan didn't calm down until this moment—he didn't know where to find Du Xuan.

Maybe Du Xuan went home today?

Lin Tingan panicked in an instant, he frantically dialed Du Xuan, and the voice of "beep beep" on the other end made him anxious.

Soon, the familiar voice said softly with obvious trembling: "Xiao An?"

"Du..." Lin Tingan choked up as soon as he said a word. He inhaled hard, trying to squeeze out another word.But Du Xuan was ahead: "Xiao An, where are you, Xiao An? Talk to me, Xiao An!"

Lin Tingan looked up at the sky, wanting to stop the tears from falling crazily. The voice he had listened to for five years touched all his emotions and reason.

"Du Xuan..." Lin Tingan said, "Come here, I, I can't find you."

"Where are you? Are you Beijing Medical University? Tell me where you are, send me your location, fuck me! Lin Tingan, you idiot, you are talking, where the hell are you!" Du Xuan almost roared, his voice shaking Lin Tingan felt pain in his eardrums, but he was reluctant to move the phone away.

"I, I, I'm in Shaw Building." Lin Tingan looked around in a panic.

"Shaw Tower..." Du Xuan took a deep breath, "Stand still, I'll find you."

"No no no, where are you?" Lin Tingan said, "Tell me where are you from?"

Du Xuan: "I'm in the dormitory, wait..."

"Don't move!" Lin Tingan yelled, regardless of the students passing by, "Just don't move in the dormitory. I'll look for you. Which building?"

"Building 2, right next to Shaw Building, I'll pick you up at the gate of the building."

"Get the people in your house to get out! Get out!" Lin Tingan yelled, hung up the phone and rushed to Building No. 2.

It's very close. Building 2 is probably the closest dormitory building to Shaw Building. Lin Tingan felt that Du Xuan's familiar and tall figure appeared in front of him in just a few breaths.Lin Tingan ran wildly all the way, as if stepping on a hot wheel, but the moment he saw Du Xuan, his hot wheel suddenly turned into a foot wrap, causing him to stumble and fall forward.

"Xiao'an!" Du Xuan ran two steps forward, catching Lin Tingan's fallen body.

"Du..." Lin Ting'an plunged into Du Xuan's arms, tightly hugging his shoulders, and bent into a hugging posture.

The fragrance of lemon, Du Xuan's family has been using lemon-flavored laundry detergent, and this smell has been smelling for many years.Lin Tingan took a deep breath and murmured, "Du Xuan."

"..." Du Xuan tightened her arms and hugged him vigorously.

At the entrance of the dormitory building, during dinner time, there is no place on campus with more people than here.Lin Tingan let go of his hand quickly, and looked at Du Xuan embarrassedly, but there was a trace of blood in his eyes.

"Follow me." With a hoarse voice, Du Xuan turned around and led Lin Tingan into the dormitory.

The dormitory is on the second floor, within two steps.Du Xuan opened the door without a sound, and grabbed Lin Tingan. The moment Lin Tingan stepped into the door, he was pressed against the door panel. With the sound of closing the door, Du Xuan's fiery lips also pressed down. down.