don't force me

Lin Tingan yelled in the room with his mobile phone in his arms, and there was a buzzing echo in the whole room.Ma Jing sat in the living room looking at her son's closed door restlessly.

Ji Dong asked casually, "What is he calling?"

Ma Jing shook her head and asked tentatively, "Don't you think he has been very excited these days?"

Lin Yi thought for a while: "It seems to be a little... Probably because Du Xuan did so well in the exam, he was a little stimulated."

Ma Jing clicked his tongue: "Is he being stimulated? He is obviously happy for Du Xuan...and he is too happy. I don't think he will be so happy now when he takes the exam next year. !!!."

"It should be," Lin Yi said with a smile, "The two of them have been buddies for so many years, and it's normal for them to have a good relationship. Besides, Xiaoxuan did very well in the exam. I'm so happy for that child."

Ma Jing rolled her eyes, unable to explain to a numb person like her husband.

At this time, Lin Tingan came out of the room, his face was flushed, and his eyes were still shining.

"Xiao An," Ma Jing called out to him, "What were you yelling about just now?"

Lin Ting'an: "Aunt Zhou agreed with Du Xuan to be admitted to Beijing Medical University, and she also gave Du Xuan advice." When Lin Ting'an said this, his voice rose another octave.

Lin Yi said with a smile: "Okay, Zhou Man finally figured it out. It was originally, after all, studying is the child's own business. He can study well if he misses something. Why force him to study a major he doesn't like. "

Ma Jing didn't care what major Du Xuan applied for, she only cared about Lin Tingan's reaction.The more excited Lin Tingan was, the more obvious the weird feeling in her heart became, faintly leading her thoughts to a very scary direction.Ma Jing forced herself to calm down, always feeling that she was thinking too much.

However, although Ma Jing kept comforting herself, Lin Tingan's performance made her more and more flustered: near the end of the period, Lin Tingan's review became more and more nervous. I went to self-study.Sometimes Ma Jing would deliberately mention Du Xuan, and then Lin Ting'an would say with bright eyes how good Du Xuan's job as a teaching assistant was, how well-organized his lectures were, and there was a second-year junior high school student just two weeks after he started work. Parents asked him to talk about tutoring.

Every time Lin Tingan would sigh and say, "Tell me, why is he doing so much better?"

Ma Jing was terrified and dared not answer, but Lin Yi would smile and say, "That's why he can take the city's No. 2 exam. Ability comes from training. If you don't work hard, you will never know what level you can achieve. "

Lin Tingan said with a smile: "Then I have to learn from Du Xuan, he is really good in this respect."

Lin Yi didn't see his wife's ugly face at all, and nodded vigorously: "It should be, that is, you are too busy studying now, otherwise you should really be a teaching assistant with your brother Xiaoxuan this holiday, even if you don't Earning money for nothing? It’s also good to have more knowledge.”

Lin Tingan agreed with his father's words, and took the opportunity to talk about the trip to the seaside.Lin Yi fully agreed, and he said, "It's better for Xiaoxuan to be thoughtful and set a goal for you, so that you will be more motivated. Study hard and strive to enter the top ten in the class."

Ma Jing looked at Lin Tingan with a pale face, but still didn't say anything.

The next day, Ma Jing quietly went to No. [-] Middle School, under the banner that the deadline was almost over, and she wanted to know about the child's study status.Teacher Xu received her very warmly. First of all, she praised Lin Tingan well, saying that he has been studying very well recently and his grades have improved steadily.On the one hand, Ma Jing thanked the school, and on the other hand, she promised to cooperate with the class teacher. Finally, she said unintentionally: "Mr. Xu, there is one more thing I have to ask you. It's also kind of weird...well...I mean, do you think he has a puppy love?"

This was not the first time Ma Jing asked this kind of question. Teacher Xu thought about it seriously: "I don't think so. He's been busy doing his homework in school recently, and he hasn't seen any girls in contact with him."

Ma Jing bit her lower lip, and changed the way of asking: "Then...who does he usually have a good relationship with, can I ask him about it?"

"It's easy. He has a lot of friends, but I think Zheng Ziyan and Du Xuan are the only ones who really talk to each other. Hmm... Zhou Chen should have a good relationship, although they usually fight a lot."

Ma Jing clenched her fists, her nails were deeply embedded in her flesh, she controlled her trembling voice and asked, "Is he... has a good relationship with Du Xuan?"

Teacher Xu looked at Ma Jing strangely: "Aren't your family and Du Xuan's neighbor?"

"Yes." Ma Jing said bitterly, "But... I didn't know that they have such a good relationship."

"It's really nice. You can often see them going to lunch together and going to the library together."

Ma Jing closed her eyes lightly, feeling that she was about to lose her breath.

Teacher Xu: "Anyway, the four of them are often together."

"Four?" Ma Jing asked immediately.

"There are also Sun Rui and Zheng Ziyan, but relatively speaking, Lin Tingan still has a better relationship with Du Xuan."

Ma Jing bid farewell to Teacher Xu in despair, and before leaving, she did not forget to ask Teacher Xu not to tell Lin Tingan that she had been here.

Teacher Xu said: "Don't worry, Lin Tingan's condition is very good recently. We all believe that he can get a good grade in the final exam, so the starting point for the third year of high school is also higher."

Ma Jing reluctantly smiled and said goodbye.

The final exam was coming soon, and the school issued a notice of the exam arrangement. In previous years, Lin Tingan never took this paper with the school's official seal at home, and Ma Jing never looked at it.Anyway, it is nothing more than three o'clock in the afternoon after school, so parents should pay attention to the time when students arrive home.But this year, Ma Jing took her heart and went to Lin Tingan to ask for a notice the day before the exam.Lin Tingan said in surprise: "I just threw it away after sending it out. Why do I need it?"

"How many days do you take the exam, and what time do you leave school every day?" Ma Jing asked.

"Three days, every day at three o'clock in the afternoon."

Zhou Man said: "Go home early after school and pay attention to safety."

Lin Ting'an answered honestly, a little surprised why his mother thought of asking this.

The next day he took the Chinese and physics exams. In the morning, he was dizzy, his heart was beating and his hands were trembling like Parkinson’s, and in the afternoon he was refreshed and calm, as if he was walking in a garden. What kind of expression can Du Xuan put on to express the mood of wanting to live every day at this time.Lin Tingan dawdled in the school for a while, watching the campus gradually empty before walking out slowly.Du Xuan was at the fried chicken shop in front of the school, and saw him come out and order a chicken steak and a cup of milk tea, and put it in Lin Tingan's hands.

"Did you do well in the exam?"

"Looking at Chinese alone, it's not good, but looking at physics, it's pretty good. Together... it's okay." Lin Tingan took the chicken chops and milk tea, and touched Du Xuan's ear, moving quickly and skillfully. It looks like a master of hooliganism.

"Take your time, don't rush." ​​Du Xuan didn't bother to respond to Lin Tingan's tricks that appeared anytime and anywhere, and just said, "Tomorrow you will have an English and math test, and I will tell you about composition."

Lin Tingan held the straw in his mouth and looked at Du Xuan sideways: "Are you also worried that I won't get into the top ten in the class?"

Du Xuan snorted: "I'm being passionate."

Lin Tingan approached Du Xuan, stared very closely into his eyes, and said with a smile, "Isn't it? Why do I feel that you regret setting me a top ten standard now?"

Du Xuan slapped him on the face: "Next time I will make the top five."Lin Ting'an laughed and got tired of it, leaned closer to Du Xuan and hugged him, and the two of them walked forward noisyly.

Not far behind them, Ma Jing sat in a taxi with an expressionless face.

Ma Jing returned home and went straight into Lin Tingan's room.

Since Lin Tingan had his own room, Ma Jing, out of respect for her son, never searched for anything in Lin Tingan except for cleaning.

But today is different.

Starting from the desk drawer, Ma Jing searched every corner of Lin Tingan's room, and finally found a large pile of Du Xuan's notes.

It is really a note, written clearly and neatly, marked with pens and note papers of various colors, indicating the key points of the exam and typical sample questions.Ma Jing sat on the edge of the desk, carefully flipped through the entire organic chemistry notebook, there was everything that should be there, and there was nothing that should not be there.

Ma Jing gritted her teeth, unwillingly went to Lin Tingan's wardrobe and the glove box under the bed, but still found nothing.Her gaze slowly moved across the small room, and finally landed on the mobile phone charger on the bedside table.

That night, Ma quietly entered his son's room, the phone was placed next to the pillow, and the indicator light was flashing green.Ma Jing stared at the phone as if she was staring at a bomb. She hesitated for a long time, and finally took the phone over by gritting her teeth, and lightly touched the HOMO button to Lin Tingan's right thumb that was resting on the outside of the quilt.

"Crack." The screen lit up.

Ma Jing quickly buckled the phone on her lap, blocking the light from the screen, and then tiptoed out of Lin Tingan's room.

It was already very late at night, and Ji Dong had already fallen asleep, and his snoring could be heard in the living room.Ma Jing sat on the sofa alone, staring at the cell phone in a daze.Her finger rested lightly on the screen, and a few millimeters away from her fingertip was the green WeChat icon.The screen is always on, and Ma Jing has a feeling that if you press it, the whole world will collapse, if you don't press it...

Ma Jing gritted her teeth and pressed the green icon.

Floating on the top is the word "Du Xuan", and the head is an airplane.Ma Jing was very familiar with this plane. She remembered that Lin Tingan had been working on it for a long time, and she complained that making this kind of thing was a waste of time and delayed her studies, but Lin Tingan said that she wanted to take it to the district to participate in the competition.

Obviously Xiao An lied.

There was only one [animated emoticon] prompt in the information bar, Ma Jing tremblingly clicked on the dialogue bar.

The emoji was sent by Du Xuan, it is a moon with eyes closed.

And the last sentence was said by Lin Tingan, he said: Good night, I love you.

Ma Jing felt a piercing pain, she wasn't sure whether it was from being angry or simply distressed, in short, the pain made her fall down on the sofa involuntarily, and slowly curled up into a ball.She breathed hard, trying to calm her frantic heartbeat, although every breath would make her chest feel a piercing pain.

The clock in the living room was ticking, and Ma Jing was alone. This was a desperate situation of isolation and helplessness. She felt cold all over her body, so that the pain that pierced her heart gradually became numb.She barely supported herself and put the phone back on Lin Tingan's pillow.Looking at the hazy moonlight outside the window, Ma Jing saw that Lin Tingan was sleeping very peacefully.He is like a child, hugging the pillow on his side, with his long legs curled up.

The child grows up, and slowly begins to have his own choices and reasons, and will plan for his own future.Ma Jing thought that she could calmly watch her son's tall and mature back leave day by day, but now she knows that there are still some things that make it impossible for her to let go.

After dinner the next day, Ma Jing dragged Ji Dong into the bedroom.Ji Dong was terrified by his wife's expression, and asked stupidly, "What's wrong with you".

Ma Jing said: "Don't worry about it, I just want to ask you something, I want to move back to the south, is that okay?"