The world's number one girl attack [Rebirth]

Seeing that he didn't respond, Xia Zhiyan leaned closer and hugged him from the side.

He hugged Xue Shu and pressed his hands on Xue Shu's back with great force.He felt Xue Shu's body temperature and heartbeat, which were as familiar as engraved in his bone marrow.The taste is also reassuring. Even if the other party still has a faint smell of tobacco and is a little strange, the person is still that person.Xia Zhiyan's heart has been hanging on the tip of a knife all day long, and he doesn't know when the knife will fall off.But when he hugged the person in front of him, he was finally able to exhale a foul breath.

He is not afraid of anything now, but he is afraid that Xue Shu will try to kill him.

Just by imagining it, he felt his brain was buzzing and his mind was bewildered, and he couldn't accept this kind of thing to happen again.

"So, that is to say, in a short time, you can't kill him, and he can't kill you, is that true?" Xia Zhiyan wanted to confirm this.

"Are you sure who I am now?" Xue Shu didn't answer but instead asked, with a difficult voice.

——This was the first hug between them after he took the right to wake up.

Xia Zhiyan was taken aback, and said bitterly, "I'm sure."

He hugged Xue Shu even harder.

Xue Shu's body was stiff, and after a while, he turned around slightly, tried to bury his head into Xia Zhiyan's neck, buried it for a while, and retracted a little, as if he had been in the dark for a long time. Can not adapt to the same light.

After a long time, he responded in a low voice, which was the answer to Xia Zhiyan's question just now.

He also pulled Xia Zhiyan into his arms, more forcefully than Xia Zhiyan.Both hands tightly imprisoned Xia Zhiyan, as if absorbing the heat from Xia Zhiyan's body.There was an inaudible sigh in the air, as if he could finally get some compensation for years of difficulty.

Hearing his answer, Xia Zhiyan finally breathed a sigh of relief, and the big stone in his heart was finally able to move a little bit away.If it is said that the relationship between the two personalities is a relationship of loss and loss, then no one can make the other disappear.Even if they kill each other, the result cannot be distinguished.

In this way, the remaining problem to be solved is——

Xia Zhiyan turned his head and kissed Xue Shu's earlobe, feeling that the other party was a little stiff, but he didn't let go, and said softly, "Then you promise me one thing."

Xue Shu asked: "What?"

Xia Zhiyan paused, and said, "I can't see you getting hurt."

The world seemed to be silent suddenly, Xue Shu was a little startled, and his heart was violently restless.He swallowed down his throat, like someone who has suddenly got a sweet, he didn't know how to respond to this sentence, so he waited stiffly and quietly for Xia Zhiyan's next words.

"So promise me, stop taking that drug, and stop trying to kill your teenage self."

Xue Shu's heart fell straight down, like falling into an ice cellar.

He wakes up, and then what?All the misunderstandings from the previous life have also been resolved, but then what?When he finally stood in front of Xia Zhiyan with his own identity, Xia Zhiyan kissed him for the first time to test whether he came back.The first time Xia Zhiyan hugged him was to keep him from killing himself.

"When he wakes up, I'll tell him..." Before Xia Zhiyan finished speaking, Xue Shu let go of him suddenly, and the disappointment and anger in the other party's eyes instantly froze the entire carriage.The atmosphere is extremely cramped.

"What's wrong?" Xia Zhiyan didn't dare to say any more, and asked anxiously.

The expression on Xue Shu's face could freeze people to death: "You only care about him?"

Xia Zhiyan said, "I care about you."

Xue Shu sneered: "Is what you say now what you think in your heart?"

Xia Zhiyan said: "You and him are one person."

Xue Shu said, "What if it's not?"

Xia Zhiyan was in a hurry: "Why not?"

Xue Shu's dark eyes were cloudy and cloudy, and his whole body exuded a dangerous aura. He said, "Did you make a mistake? Although the two personalities can't kill each other, they can make each other die for five or ten years." It only came out once. If I say, I want to occupy this body forever, that me is in front of me, there is no chance of winning—"

His words stopped suddenly, because Xia Zhiyan lowered his head, suddenly at a loss, and his face was pale.

Xue Shu: "..."

Xia Zhiyan felt that Xue Shu stared at him for a while with a complicated expression, almost piercing the top of his head, his eyes were icy cold, like love and hate intertwined.It was as if the emotions accumulated for a long time finally broke out, desperate and angry.After a while, Xue Shu didn't say a word, opened the driver's door, got out of the car and left.

Leaving Xia Zhiyan sitting alone in the carriage, almost suffocated.He didn't know how long he sat there, struggling violently in his heart, half wanting to escape, half wanting to catch up and say something to Xue Shu.But even if he stood in front of Xue Shu, he didn't know what to do.

He totally screwed up.

He originally thought that he could try to persuade this Xue Shu not to kill that Xue Shu, and when that Xue Shu came out, he could also persuade that Xue Shu not to kill his other self.Even if the two personalities cannot coexist peacefully, at least Xue Shu can be kept safe until a good solution is found to solve this problem——

Xia Zhiyan couldn't accept that any one of them disappeared.But he found that it was futile for him to do so, but it could only make the fire burn even more crazy.

Xia Zhiyan was extremely discouraged, buried his head in front of the car and leaned against it for a while, unable to calm down his noisy heart.The typhoon passed through the country at the end of May, and soon there was heavy rain outside, washing the front windows of the car.

Xia Zhiyan pulled out the car key, and just as he was about to get out of the car, he saw the sensor light under the apartment turn on, and then Xue Shu strode over in a raincoat, his slender figure blended into the night, and the rain was hanging on his black eyelashes I can't see his expression clearly.

He walked to the side of the car and knocked on the window silently.

Xia Zhiyan lowered the window of the car, and threw an umbrella outside, rolled around and landed on the driver's seat.

Before Xia Zhiyan could pick up the umbrella, he could only see Xue Shu's back.

Xia Zhiyan picked up the umbrella, feeling so irritable, pushed the car door to get out of the car, and entered the apartment as well.Standing at the door of the elevator, the red light of the elevator is facing upwards, and it has stopped on the twelfth floor.Xue Shu didn't wait for him.

When the next elevator came down, Xia Zhiyan returned home with a sullen head.

The door was reserved for him, and clean slippers and towels were placed in the entrance for him to dry his hair.

But Xue Shu had already returned to her room, and the door was tightly closed.

Xia Zhiyan's phrase "Let's sleep together tonight" was a waste of words, and was used and cursed by Xue Shu as premeditated.

That's right, Xia Zhiyan also wanted to strangle himself to death.

Time went by little by little, and Xia Zhiyan returned to his room.He and Xue Shu bought the apartment two and a half years ago. The sofa, TV, and all the decorations were discussed together by the two of them.Xue Shu never got tired of it, and while Xia Zhiyan was filming, he bought a lot of gadgets to decorate his home.

However, the two of them did not express their feelings to each other at that time, and they still slept in separate rooms.

Xia Zhiyan returned to his room, feeling that time was hard to bear.It seemed like a long time had passed, but when I looked up at the wall clock, it turned out that only four, five, 10 minutes had passed.He glanced at his phone from time to time and found that Xue Shu hadn't sent any text messages either.He couldn't resist opening the door, walked to the door of Xue Shu's room, touched the doorknob with his fingers, but failed to push the door in.

He didn't know if Xue Shu had fallen asleep.

Xia Zhiyan's headache was about to explode, so he wiped his face and went back to his room.Lie down for a while, still tossing and turning.

He felt that he couldn't wait like this, he had to do something, so he found Xue Shu's psychiatrist's contact information, and made a call.After the call, Xia Zhiyan realized that it was late at night, and the other party might have already rested.But fortunately, the call was quickly connected——

He briefly introduced his reason for coming, but the other party immediately became interested and asked him to meet and talk.

"Now?" Xia Zhiyan turned on the computer and searched. The other party was very famous. He was a famous professor in dissociative disorders. Hearing his tone, every time Xue Shu in the previous life woke up, he should talk to him. He has been connected.

Xia Zhiyan didn't dare to neglect, put on his coat, lightly turned off the lights and closed the door, hurried downstairs, and drove away.

Xia Zhiyan didn't know if it would be useful, but he couldn't just do nothing if a dead horse was treated as a living horse doctor.

The meeting address was in the university office. The professor of psychology was Li Xi. He was a man in his 30s, wearing a casual sweater and jeans, and looked very young.He sat across from the desk, and when the door was pushed open, he looked up at Xia Zhiyan.

Xia Zhiyan didn't have the heart to chat with others at all, and immediately got into the topic as soon as he sat down: "Did you give Xue Shu's medicine?"

Li Xi tilted the pen on the table in his hand, looked at him with interest, and said, "He's a celebrity, aren't you afraid that he will hit the headlines tomorrow, and will there be a famous male professor at an artist night party?"

Xia Zhiyan: "..." He frowned, his anxiety undisguised.

Li Xun put away his carelessness, opened the diary and began to record, saying: "Xue Shu told you about me? The first time he woke up was three or four years ago, and he woke up again this time?"

"Wake up." Xia Zhiyan almost couldn't hold back the anger in his heart, and asked, "How could you do such a thing as helping the second personality kill the No.1 personality?"

Li Xun said: "It can't be killed. I gave a very light dose. I just did a simple experiment to see the derivative relationship between the two personalities. But I didn't expect that his situation is so complicated. Under normal circumstances, the The second personality, most of the reason is that the No.1 personality has been stimulated, such as childhood shadows, not being able to ask for a lover, etc., but his situation seems to be born."

Xia Zhiyan nodded: "So No. 1 personality doesn't know the existence of the second personality."

"At the beginning, I wanted to find the difference between the behavior patterns and motivations of his two personalities, but I found that there was no way to find it. I have never encountered such a situation before." Li Wei said: "From this aspect Looking at it, I judge that his two personalities are the same person, that is to say, his situation cannot be regarded as a split personality."

Xia Zhiyan said wearily: "Maybe you don't believe it, but his second personality is him from the previous life."

"He told me, I believe it." Li Wei raised his eyebrows and said: "This situation is difficult to explain, so there is no way to treat his case with split personality. None of them worked. None of them were figments of the imagination, they were real."

Xia Zhiyan asked: "Then there is no other way?"

Li Xun said: "The key lies in you."

"I?"

Li Xi said: "I call his condition mixed memory. It can be explained in this way. His main personality has lost a memory about his previous life, and that memory has formed a second personality. Since there is no way to kill one of them Personality, then the two personalities will eventually merge. It’s just that the time period can be long or short, and the damage to people can be great or small. If the knot of the two personalities is untied, the fusion will be smooth.”

Xia Zhiyan asked: "Fusion?"

Li Xun explained: "It is equivalent to memory recovery, allowing him to remember things from his previous life."

When Xia Zhiyan heard these explanations for the first time, his heart was in a mess. For him, Xue Shu in the previous life and Xue Shu in this life couldn't let go.And both of them are the same person, but they have memories of different time periods.If Xue Shu can have all the memories, then he is the complete him.

Xia Zhiyan asked: "So, how to untie the knot?"

"It depends on you." Li Xi's eyes fell on Xia Zhiyan with a half-smile, and he said, "Have you ever thought about why Xue Shu came to me for medicine and killed himself in his youth. Normal No one would do this, his level of madness is beyond the scope of normal people."

Xia Zhiyan: "..."

Li Xi said: "It's because of the desire to monopolize you. He wants to monopolize you."

These two words were shocking and touching. Xia Zhiyan was embarrassed and fell silent. After a while he cheered up and said bitterly: "I don't know how to face him. I don't quite understand why. He can attack himself without mercy, and he can't understand why he must be jealous of another self."

"It's easy to understand." Li Wei explained: "You can try to think about it from his perspective, have you read the story of the mermaid?"

Xia Zhiyan was stunned for a moment, and said, "I've seen it."

Li Zi said: "Think in another person, you are a mermaid, you like a person, you have done a lot for him, but after he opened his eyes, he stopped looking at you. What he saw was another person, even if that person It's you too, but you can only watch him laughing and joking with that person. Are you happy? You're jealous of yourself, but there's nothing you can do about it."

Xia Zhiyan was speechless.

If it were him, what would he think, why didn't he meet me?Why don't you like me?

Xia Zhiyan was silent for a long time before asking: "Then what do you think I should do?"

Li Xi said: "To put it plainly, it is to satisfy desires. You keep mentioning the young him in front of him, showing your concern and love for the young him, which will only make him sicker. It will make him more possessive. If this goes on, there is absolutely no way to end it. You have to show that you care about him and like his personality. Let him have all the things he never got, and cancel his obsession."

Xia Zhiyan felt terribly uncomfortable, but after hearing what Li Xi said, he felt that Xue Shu's symptoms could improve and would definitely be cured.

He drove the car back home overnight and went to Li Xun's place, which only took four hours.

It was already four o'clock in the morning when he got home.

Xia Zhiyan was drenched all over, but he was so anxious that he wanted to see Xue Shu earlier and do something.

Standing at the entrance and taking off his coat, he grabbed the towel and wiped his hair. His stomach was hungry, but his thoughts became clearer.He remembered that the day before the senior high school entrance examination, when all the tables and chairs in the school warehouse were smashed down, the one who protected him turned out to be Xue Shu from the previous life.The more he thought about it, the more he wanted to slap himself.

In fact, he didn't need to worry so much, whether it was Xue Shu in the previous life or Xue Shu in this life, they were the same person after all.

He stood in the living room for a while, but Xue Shu's door was still tightly closed.

Xia Zhiyan didn't turn on the light either, and walked to the door of Xue Shu's room, intending to knock on the door and enter, but was afraid that the other party was fast asleep.He hesitated for a while, then sat down on the floor at the door of Xue Shu's room, as if he had relieved himself, his whole body was extremely tired.

Close your eyes, everything is as clear as yesterday.

During the days when he and Xue Shu were together, the other party sat at the door of his room for a whole night.At that time, Xia Zhiyan actually guessed it. Since his debut, he has been careful to take care of his self-esteem. When he has no scenes to shoot, he secretly promotes himself, but he does it in an extremely secretive way so that no one will find out.

It must be Xue Shu.

At that time, he just couldn't fall in love with Xue Shu.

Sometimes, in front of Xue Shu's subordinates, he leaned forward and hugged Xue Shu provocatively. Seeing Xue Shu blushing and stiff, embarrassed and awkward, he felt that while he was relieved, he also felt very interested.

Thinking about it now, Xia Zhiyan felt that if he hadn't had an accident in his last life, he would have fallen in love with Xue Shu sooner or later.

It's just a matter of time.

……

The sky lightened up little by little.

Xue Shu didn't fall asleep all night, waiting for Xia Zhiyan to come to him, but he didn't come to him at all, and he felt extremely unwilling.After a whole night, he found that his body was not occupied by the master personality, and he didn't feel very happy, so he just sat up from the bed indifferently.

Xue Shu put on his clothes and went to the window, opened the curtains, and the typhoon had already passed through.He touched his trouser pocket, only to realize that the pack of cigarettes he bought downstairs in the hospital last night had already been smoked.On the tea table next to the floor-to-ceiling windows and in the ashtray, there were cigarette butts all over.

Xue Shu put on his coat and wanted to go downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, but when he opened the door, his heart skipped a beat and he froze like a stone.

Xia Zhiyan sat at his door, leaning against the wall and fell asleep. He was still wearing the sweater and trousers from last night. They were all soaked and dry, and his hair was messy, as if he had picked up waste at night. , messy and damp.One hand was hanging on the ground, the sideways face was extremely embarrassed, and there were bruises under the eyes.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Xia Zhiyan also woke up, looked up at Xue Shu blankly, and suddenly woke up.

Both of them had bloodshot eyes.

Xue Shu froze for three seconds, bent over and picked him up horizontally, then threw him onto the bed in the room in one go.After finishing this matter, his expression was still very cold, he turned around and walked away.But before he could walk away, Xia Zhiyan grabbed the hem of his clothes tightly.

"Don't go." Xia Zhiyan said, "No matter which one you are."

"..."

Xia Zhiyan tried to delve into the mermaid theory that Li Xi said last night, and tried to understand Xue Shu's mood, but he found that as an outsider, he couldn't fully understand it.But he tried very hard to solve Xue Shu's crux.

He said: "What I want to say is that if we didn't die in the previous life, I would eventually tell you that I love you. It's just a matter of time. So, no matter in the previous life or this life, I like it You. I'm just a little slow."

Xue Shu finally turned his head to look at him, completely stunned, almost dazed, as if he had seen a ghost.He tried to regain some sanity, but found himself too stiff to move.

Xia Zhiyan let go of Xue Shu's back clothes, Xue Shu's expression darkened suddenly, but in the next second, Xia Zhiyan held his palm again, interlaced his ten fingers, clasped his fingers tightly, and pressed his palms against each other.Whether Xue Shu wanted to break free or not, Xia Zhiyan didn't give him this chance.

Xue Shu wondered if he had some delusions.

"If you still care about it, let's fall in love. Treat the present as the last life, and we will continue to talk about the love in the last life, and make up for everything that can't be made up." Xia Zhiyan tried his best to express his meaning clearly.

Xue Shu looked at him with deep eyes, complex and difficult to distinguish in his dark eyes, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Do you know what you are talking about now?"

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2008/05/20

Big Brother's Diary: I can only come out once every three years, why can't I when I was a teenager? :)

The author has something to say:

Would it be exciting to fall in love with Xue Shu from the second life?

Xia Zhiyan: I don't know if I should say MMP or not.

A certain spring: Hold back! (Then he was slapped on the head by the boss, and then slapped on the head by the sober Coke)