fast food love

"How's work going?" Brother Grasshopper asked after sitting down separately, "Wang Yongli didn't make things difficult for you, did he?"

"No, I'm fine." I said, "How about you, brother? How is the new company doing?"

"There's still time to worry about it." He shook his head helplessly, "At this stage, money is being spent like water..."

"Take your time, it will get better and better." I comforted him, "It's like this at the beginning."

"That Gu Jia, did you bother you again later?" He looked at me.

"No..." I shook my head, "It's already stopped."

"That's good." He took a sip of his wine and stopped talking.

I looked at his slender fingers, a little lost in thought.

"Brother, you came out to me today, do you have anything to say to me?"

"It's okay, I just... just want to see you." The orange light of the restaurant shone on his face, and his whole person softened.

My heart was beating uncontrollably, as if I could hear the chaotic voice in my chest, boom, boom, boom...

"Oh..." I lowered my head.

"Eat quickly." He put a chopstick of food into my bowl, "Why are you in a daze?"

"Okay." I blushed and took small bites.

Out of the restaurant, we walked on the street for a while.I don't know what to say, we didn't talk much when we ate just now, and we were enveloped by subtle embarrassment - it felt really different from before.

Brother Grasshopper accompanied me to the bus stop, "I'm sorry, I didn't drive today, so I can't take you off."

I shook my head quickly, "It's okay, I'll just go back by myself... It's only a few stops away."

There happened to be a No. 85 bus coming, Brother Grasshopper glanced at the bus, "The bus is coming, get on it quickly."

"Okay..." I agreed, but my feet stuck to the concrete floor. .

Brother Grasshopper didn't urge me.

— In fact, he didn't say a word.

The car stopped in front of me and put down a few passengers.Seeing that I didn't intend to get in the car, the driver closed the door and left.

"That..." What should I say?

"Would you like to sit with me?" Brother Grasshopper looked at me with sharp eyes that made my heart tighten.

He hailed a cab, took my hand and got into the back of the car - and... he held it like that until the car reached its destination.

I didn't resist the whole process, but my heart was extremely contradictory.

What's going on here?When did the two of us start to be like this.Why is my heart throbbing for him, and I can't bear to leave?

He took me into the room and turned on the light.I didn't have the heart to look at the furnishings in the room at all, my heart was tightly held there, and I didn't even dare to look at him.

"What do you want to drink?" He walked over to open the refrigerator.

"No... no more." I stammered.

He stood there, looking at the refrigerator in a daze, sighed, and took out a bottle of beer.He came back, sat next to me, opened the can and took a few sips, then lay back on his back and closed his eyes.

He lay there motionless for a long time, as if he had fallen asleep.

"Brother, are you tired?" I couldn't help asking.

He opened his glasses and stared at the ceiling in a daze. Suddenly, without any warning, he came over and hugged me tightly in his arms.

My heart was shaking, and I didn't know where to put my hands. "elder brother……"

"Don't talk, let me hold you for a while." He said.

I was buried in his tobacco and faint smell of alcohol, unconsciously holding his back with trembling hands.

Isn't it hard to go out and work alone?Are you tired? ——However, I dare not ask these questions, because I am afraid that if I make a sound, this moment of stillness may be broken.And I, at this moment, just want to hug that person and give him some warmth.

It was already late when I left Brother Grasshopper's house.This time he insisted on driving me off, and I didn't refuse. He has been to my house several times and he is already familiar with it.

The road conditions were exceptionally good in the middle of the night, he held the steering wheel with his left hand, and naturally reached out with his right hand to hold mine.Now almost whenever he touches me, no matter where it is, even if it just touches my shoulder, I will become uncontrollable and can't help but move closer to him.

Even so, there is still a string in my mind, and that is Lin Jinghui.

I know Grasshopper does too.He cared about me, and all we could do was hug and shake hands.

From the moment I started to have feelings for Brother Grasshopper, I was cheated.Mentally, I miss another person all the time, and this has undoubtedly betrayed Lin Jinghui.

However, I still couldn't restrain my feelings.How Mai Zijie and I came to this point is unknown.It seems that every little moment in life, good and bad, has him involved.

I never knew that it was possible for him to like boys, and I didn't even dare to think about it.When he cast a strange look at me, I kept telling myself that it was the love between friends, and the rest was to cover up and pretend to be stupid, for the sake of those who didn’t want to hurt—until now, I can no longer deceive myself and others.

He parked the car, sat in the car for a while in silence, and then said to me, "Is it possible for us...?"

The contradiction in my heart cannot be described in words——Lin Jinghui, the caring and warm Lin Jinghui, what should I do with him?I can't let it go either...

"If it's too difficult, don't answer." Brother Grasshopper looked ahead, "Not everything needs an answer."

"You said... Can one person love two people at the same time?" My eyes were red.

"Of course it's possible." Brother Grasshopper smiled wryly, "But...it might be difficult."

"Brother, I'm very confused now. I can't see my heart clearly." I lowered my head and said softly, "Can I answer you after thinking about it?"

He turned his head and looked at me gently, "I said, it doesn't matter if you don't answer."

I looked up at him and couldn't help but put my arms around him, and he responded softly.After a while, we regained our composure, and I opened the door, got out of the car, and waved him goodbye.

The white Mazda drove away slowly, and after a long time I could still see his face in the rearview mirror, looking at me motionlessly.

I went back to my little apartment alone.Doomed to sleepless tonight, with countless guilt and sadness in my heart, some for Lin Jinghui, some for Mai Zijie.

In a relationship, no one can be the party of justice forever.In the past, others hurt me, but now, it is I who hurt others.