I rely on pheromones

The video was still playing on the screen, and because he couldn't believe it, Lin Zhou froze there, motionless.

At this time, he heard the sound of someone pressing the password.

Then, the door opened.

There were footsteps approaching slowly, one step at a time, but Lin Zhou didn't turn his head, he knew that it was Ning Zong.His eyes were still fixed on the screen, but his mind was not on it at all.

Ning Zong paused, he found that Lin Zhou was watching the video from last night, he sat next to Lin Zhou and turned off the video.

Ning Zong closed his eyes and said a word.

"Ah Zhou, you know."

Lin Zhou found out what was on his mind.

Lin Zhou's body shook, he suppressed his thoughts, and turned his head to look at Ning Zong.

"elder brother……"

In the next second, Ning Zong leaned over and covered Lin Zhou's eyes with his hand, covered in darkness.Lin Zhou noticed that Ning Zong's palm was a little cold.

Even though it was scorching hot summer outside, the temperature in his palm was so low.

Drowsy, Lin Zhou heard Ning Zong's self-deprecating voice.

"Don't look at me like that."

Lin Zhou's heart skipped a beat.

The air was silent for a while, Ning Zong still covered Lin Zhou's eyes with his hands.At this time, Lin Zhou noticed that Ning Zong was approaching his ear, and his breath came.

Ning Zong's voice was neither soft nor heavy.

"Do you know what I'm thinking every time you look at me like this and call me brother?"

Ning Zong seemed to be smiling lightly, but the words he uttered were not as soft as his tone, like a gentle pervert.

Every word in his suppressed voice reached Lin Zhou's ear.

"I want to fuck you, possess you..."

Every word Ning Zong said weighed on Lin Zhou's heart, the darkness magnified the sense of hearing, and made the hidden desire clamoring and surging in the bones.

Lin Zhou's breathing became heavier uncontrollably, and his heart was beating heavily.

"You are my younger brother, but I like you like crazy, what the hell is this?"

Many times, Ning Zong didn't want to hear the word "brother" in Lin Zhou's mouth, but without this relationship, there seemed to be nothing left between them.

"I never thought that I fell in love with my younger brother, so I was deliberately indifferent to you, and I exiled myself for four years."

Ning Zong had closed the darkness in his heart for many years, but the moment he returned to China and saw Lin Zhou, a corner of the sky that was about to crumble was lifted up.

Straightforwardly analyze his heart, so that nothing can be hidden anymore.

Lin Zhou's body was stiff, he heard Ning Zong say to exile himself, could it be that Ning Zong left for him?

Thinking of this, the emotions in Lin Zhou's heart grew wantonly like weeds, covering his whole body.

At this time, Ning Zong put down his hand, the light pulled Lin Zhou's sight, he opened his eyes, and looked into Ning Zong's dark eyes.

Ning Zong looked at Lin Zhou without blinking, and said in a deep voice.

"During the four years abroad, I asked myself over and over again, must you?"

"The answer is the same every time, it never changes..."

Ning Zong held Lin Zhou's hand very lightly, put it on his lips and kissed it, he was still looking at Lin Zhou.

"That's my answer, do you understand?"

Lin Zhou's heart beat faster, he even felt that his heart was about to jump out of his throat.

"I came back to China to see you. I specially asked you to pick up the scene of "In the Clouds", just to get closer to you step by step."

"I want to know, is it possible for me to make my brother fall in love with me in this life."

Ning Zong stared straight at Lin Zhou, because of their identities, he deliberately treated Lin Zhou with indifferent words, forcing himself to stay away from Lin Zhou.

At that time, he didn't know that there are thousands of difficulties in the world, and the most invincible thing is his heart.

Ning Zong's words pierced into Lin Zhou's heart word by word, so clearly that those shadowy pasts were all revealed in front of him.

Ning Zong said so much just now, but he didn't mention the word "like".I like these two words. When the lips are opened and closed, they can clearly emerge between the teeth.

But if it is so easy to say it, how can it be called liking.

Lin Zhou's heart was surrounded by waves of unprecedented emotions. He never knew that one day his heart could beat so fast.

Lin Zhou suddenly thought of what Ning Zong had said.

――Have you really understood me?

—— Ah Zhou, I can't afford to bet.

——I will tell you everything after the film is finished, do you dare to listen?

——I came back for you.

Lin Zhou remembered that after Ning Zong returned to the country, the two had an argument, and Ning Zong looked at him with complicated and unclear eyes, and said helplessly.

"Have you really understood me?"

Why did he never think about it at that time, Ning Zong had no choice but to bear it secretly.

He fell in love with his younger brother, they stood very close, but he didn't dare to say a word.

Lin Zhou remembered that after he was allergic, Ning Zong anxiously hugged him and took him to the hospital.

He stayed in the courtyard for three days, and Ning Zong came for three days.At the time, everyone was telling him that your brother was really nice to you.

Why didn't he think deeply at that time, how many secret desires are hidden behind this goodness.

Lin Zhou also remembered that on New Year's Eve, amidst the fireworks and firecrackers, Ning Zong stood beside him calmly.

The phalanges seemed to stick to him inadvertently, but they never moved away.

Only now did he know that under this small movement was his brother's subtle and hidden heart.

Lin Zhou still remembered that when he came to Ning Zong's house and saw that Ning Zong had bought his album, he was shocked and went to ask Ning Zong.

At that time, Ning Zong's face was pale for a moment, feeling as if his secret had been discovered.

His brother said at the time: "Ah Zhou, I can't afford to gamble."

Why didn't he wonder at that time, for a proud person like Ning Zong, his brother couldn't afford to bet on anything.

Only now did he realize that what Ning Zong had been betting all along was only his own heart.

It's about his heart, that's why Ning Zong is so cautious.

……

The more Lin Zhou thought about it, the more violently his heart beat in his chest. He clearly remembered every scene of their relationship.

Don't want to forget, dare not forget, don't want to forget.

Life is so long, and ten years is only a blink of an eye, but such pure feelings after so many years are too hot.

Thinking of this, Lin Zhou's whole body tensed up, and his heart felt slightly chilled.

In the past so many years, how did Ning Zong come here?

Just thinking about it like this, he already felt that his heart was being clenched tightly, and he was very uncomfortable, but his brother has truly passed through these years.

The more I think about it, the less I dare to touch the deep feelings behind it.

Lin Zhou opened his mouth, only to realize that he seemed to be hoarse, unable to speak.

It took him a long time to utter a word hoarsely.

"elder brother……"

"If you call me brother again, I want to kiss you again."

Ning Zong said softly.

Lin Zhou said in a strange way: "You have already kissed."

The air became quiet.

The curtains are half open, the hot summer wind blows in, the branches are scattered and the cicadas chirp a few times, and the sun shines on the silent ground, making it slightly hot.

Lin Zhou collected himself and asked, "When did it start?"

Ning Zong took a deep look at Lin Zhou: "When you kissed me for the first time."

Lin Zhou narrowed his eyes, which was the first time he had truth or dare.

Lin Zhou thought that that incident was the trigger for the relationship between the two to drop to a freezing point, but now he finds out that it was the time when his brother first became acquainted with each other in a hurry.

There was a shy smile on the corner of his lips, that's why.

Those insincere words and unmoved indifference are all because of liking.

At this moment, Ning Zong approached suddenly, the moment his eyebrows approached, Lin Zhou subconsciously closed his eyes, and his heart hummed again.

He found that he didn't resist Ning Zong's closeness at all, and even liked it very much.

Ning Zong's kiss fell lightly on the bridge of Lin Zhou's nose, his voice was tense.

"Ah Zhou, who is kissing you now?"

Lin Zhou hoarsely said: "Brother..."

After knowing what Ning Zong was thinking, every nerve in him was boiling for his brother's approach, and he didn't want to reject Ning Zong at all.

Lin Zhou's answer was within Ning Zong's expectation, he whispered two words.

"wrong."

Why?Lin Zhou opened his eyes and looked at Ning Zong in a daze.

"I know you're in a mess right now."

Ning Zong's gaze seemed to be able to see everything: "Would you agree no matter what I say now?"

"Including me kissing you."

Lin Zhou pondered for a few seconds, then nodded.

Ning Zong smiled helplessly, rubbed Lin Zhou's black hair, and continued.

"But I want to make sure that your feelings for me now are the feelings of a younger brother's dependence on his elder brother, or the feelings of your boyfriend."

"Boy friend?"

Lin Zhou muttered, these two words were a little strange to him.

Ning Zong leaned over again, this time, his lips fell on Lin Zhou's.After only a light touch, Ning Zong straightened up, but did not leave.

There was only a thin layer of air between their lips.

Ning Zong asked again, with a little deep meaning.

"Who is kissing you now? Brother or boyfriend?"

Lin Zhou opened his mouth, but didn't answer.

He calmed down.

As Ning Zong said, his mind is very confused now, because he doesn't resist Ning Zong's closeness, so now he will only follow Ning Zong's words.

Ning Zong looked at Lin Zhou, he knew that Lin Zhou had opened up his heart for him, but he wanted to give this relationship a clear definition.

His hand lightly stroked Lin Zhou's chin, and the two of them got very close, nose to nose.

Ning Zong's dark eyes were deep: "Ah Zhou, I'll give you time to think. To you, am I a brother or a boyfriend?"

"Come to me after you think it over." Ning Zong took a deep look at Lin Zhou before getting up and saying a word.

"I'm waiting for you."

Ning Zong left, and Lin Zhou sat on the sofa alone.He raised his hand in a daze, and touched the place Ning Zong kissed just now.

Ning Zong left him a question, let him think clearly, to him, Ning Zong is his brother or his boyfriend.

As soon as the word boyfriend passed through Lin Zhou's mind, he felt a little excited.To him, this identity is mysterious and also secretly joyful.

Lin Zhou took a deep breath, he understood what his brother was thinking, and he also wanted to clarify this issue.

Lin Zhou pondered for a while, and suddenly thought of a question. Last night, Ning Zong asked him if he had made an overseas phone call on his 20th birthday.

If his brother asked that, it must have happened.

Lin Zhou had an intuition that something must have happened that day, and he wanted to know why he had no memory of that day, as if he had deliberately forgotten it.

Every year when Lin Zhou celebrates his birthday, Kong Xuxiang will record a birthday video for him.

Lin Zhou thought it was too naive, but Kong Xuxiang insisted.

She believes that every birthday is a good memory and should be recorded. Kong Xuxiang insisted, and Lin Zhou did not object.

Lin Zhou stood up and went to find the video tape.He found a video of the year of his 20th birthday and put it on TV.

He clicked on it and looked at the screen seriously.

Lin Zhou was 20 years old that year. As the birthday star, he sat in the middle, surrounded by many friends, but he had a sombre face, staring at the cake and the flickering candles without speaking.

Song Qingyuan smiled and said, "Ah Zhou, today is your 20th birthday, what are you doing with such a sullen face?"

"Yes, Ah Zhou." Xin Shen added, "Smile more, you are so unhappy, are you waiting for someone's blessing?"

Everyone laughed, only the corners of Lin Zhou's mouth sank.

Lin Zhou subconsciously went to look for Ning Zong's shadow on the screen, but he couldn't find it. Then he realized that when he was 20 years old, Ning Zong had been away for two years, so of course he wasn't by his side.

Lin Zhou stopped thinking and continued to read.

In the video, after everyone celebrated his birthday, they left one after another, and he was the only one sitting there silently.

Lin Zhou poured himself a glass of wine, and he poured another glass after drinking one. He obviously didn't hold enough alcohol, but he drank it numbly.

The whole person seems to be hidden in the darkness, without any popularity.

Seeing this scene, Lin Zhou suddenly felt a dull pain in his temple, as if something was about to come out.

I don't know if it's because that winter was too cold, but he felt his heart was aching even though he hadn't experienced the scene at that time.

Lin Zhou in the video sat alone for a long time. He looked at the air and choked up.

"Brother, it's been two years, and it's time for you to come back, why don't you go home?"

These words pierced Lin Zhou's ears heavily, and his pupils suddenly widened.

After three years, the deliberately forgotten memories suddenly came back to his mind.

Lin Zhou's face turned pale in an instant, he finally remembered what happened that night, and he finally understood why he deliberately forgot that night.

He remembered that cold winter night, he remembered that there was a patter of cold rain that night, the rain was not heavy, but it was fine and dense, but it seemed to have no end.

Lin Zhou's lips trembled slightly, he suppressed his thoughts and continued to look down.

In the video, he tried his best to restrain his emotions, but the corners of his eyes were slightly red, and his thin figure was outlined in the dark night.

Lin Zhou heard what he said at the time.

"Even strangers are better than our relationship... Brother, what do you hate about me?"

"Brother, today is my birthday, have you forgotten my brother?"

A sound in the video pierced his ears, Lin Zhou turned off the video, he let out a slow breath, and leaned against the sofa.

There is no need to read the rest, because the scenes are completely replayed in his mind.

At that time, Lin Zhou was drunk, very drunk, and the drunkenness stimulated people's hearts, which not only gave birth to drunkenness, but also a deep love.

Then, he made an overseas call to Ning Zong.

The phone was connected, but he didn't speak. He had never called Ning Zong before, and he dared to do this behavior because of his drunkenness.

He finally dialed the number, but didn't have the guts to say it.He was a little apprehensive, and his breath was a little anxious.

He was waiting for Ning Zong to speak first.

After a long time, Ning Zong finally spoke: "You..."

This familiar voice flooded into Lin Zhou's ears, but Lin Zhou hung up his cell phone as if his secret had been discovered, and fled in a hurry, and the cell phone rolled to the floor.

He didn't seem to notice.

The phone just happened to die.

Lin Zhou sat on the ground for a long time, the rain gradually became heavier, and the torrential sound could be heard through the window, and the sound of the wind passing by the window lattice.

Lin Zhou's voice was so low that it was hidden by the wind.

"Why are you my brother, I have never hated a person so much..."

"I hate you so much, but brother, I'm so..."

He hesitated to speak, even though he was drunk, he still dared not say the rest of the sentence.

The memory ends.

Lin Zhou closed his eyes, and after a long while, he smiled self-deprecatingly.

Only he knew what the remaining half of the unspoken words were.There will be no second answer except for that most inconceivable reason.

That hesitating sentence is...

"I hate you so much, but brother, I like you so much."

Everything in the past was clearly displayed in front of Lin Zhou.

He likes his brother, and he has already been tempted by the person who surprised him all the time when he was young.

Lin Zhou could no longer deny that he had been trying his best to accommodate his little self in his brother's indifferent world.

He could no longer lie to himself. When he was filming with his brother, the short few months when they lived opposite each other became the most memorable time in his life.

Lin Zhou half-closed his eyes, the light cast from the gap reflected on his face, half-bright and half-dark.

That untimely overseas phone call three years ago.

During that drunkenness that no one knew about, he was drunk for a while, and for the first time, he unscrupulously threw away all his self-esteem and pretense.

After waking up, he was still the arrogant person, completely hiding his thoughts in his heart.

No one knows what happened that night, and no one will expose the illusion of self-deception.

Not knowing where to start, Lin Zhou had a taste of a secret love for the first time, but the person he had a crush on was his elder brother.

The reality ruthlessly taught him one thing, liking his brother is the original sin, and the sin is unforgivable.

After that, Ning Zong's indifference without warning turned into a knife hanging in his heart, forcing the young man to bow his head to reality.

Therefore, Lin Zhou chose a method that was most beneficial to both of them.

If he can't like his brother, then let his brother hate him. He deliberately provokes Ning Zong again and again, deliberately stabbing his brother with more ruthless words.

He naively thought that only hating could last for a long time, just like his brother hated him.

Liking has always been the opposite of disliking, and in this way, two people who look at each other and hate each other can be superficially connected together.

He and Ning Zong both fell in love with their brother, and they agreed to this way by coincidence.

In the past ten years, they have perfectly implemented this principle. They are indifferent to others and ruthless to themselves. They have always done a good job.

Lin Zhou's lips were tight, he and his brother, one always kept silent, the other always deceived himself and others, so many years have passed in circles.

Lin Zhou glanced at Ning Zong's room, the door was tightly closed, like a clear line, just like that, sealing them off from each other's world.

He stood up and walked over.

The door was opened, the curtains were open, and the light shone obliquely, dissipating the gloom in the room, and pushing the door open was like pushing away their past.

Lin Zhou looked at this place seriously.

Ning Zong left for four years.

In the past four years, Lin Zhou has never been here.He would let people clean this room frequently, he lied to Ning Zong that his mother made him do it.

In fact, it was obviously him, who had been secretly looking forward to the day when his brother would be able to return to this family.

Lin Zhou's mood surged.

Although he seldom came to his brother's room, just standing here, even with his eyes closed, he could still trace the traces of his brother's life here.

He sighed softly.

How long did he observe his brother silently before he could deeply remember every detail in his heart.

If his brother didn't break through this layer of paper, how long would he want to deceive himself?

They are both too mature to deceive all their innocence, that's why the road to each other's side is so long and tortuous.

Lin Zhou suddenly remembered something.

On Ning Zong's 18th birthday, his mother Kong Xuxiang asked Ning Zong a question: "Ah Zong, what birthday present do you want?"

He was also there at the time, subconsciously looking at Ning Zong.

When this question was asked, Ning Zong froze slightly.In the next second, he slowly turned his head and looked at Lin Zhou, but his vision was not clear.

In Lin Zhou's memory, it was the first time his brother watched him silently for such a long time.

Obviously the person Kong Xuxiang asked was Ning Zong, but Ning Zong looked at him.

In that hot and noisy summer day, Ning Zong didn't say or answer, but just looked at Lin Zhou quietly.

The sun cast a sharp and slender shadow on Ning Zong's body, and it cast a pale tone on his lips.

Lin Zhou still remembers that Ning Zong's complexion was very bad.

Just like a glassware that might fall over at any time, a simple external force can make cracks spread all over the inside and the pieces collapse.

Ning Zong looked at Lin Zhou, and said something in a low voice, with a sad tone: "What I want..."

For some reason, he didn't continue talking.

The corners of Lin Zhou's eyes were slightly astringent. Looking back on the scene at that time, those unspeakable emotions were hidden in every detail.

What does Ning Zong want?

Such a superficial answer had been vaguely shown to his brother when he was 18 years old, and his brother had already said that answer.

From beginning to end, the only thing his brother wanted was him.

He should have known by now.

Lin Zhou tried his best to calm down, now that he knew what he wanted, he was eager to let Ning Zong know too.

He dialed Ning Zong's number, held the phone to his ear, and was picked up soon after.

None of them opened their mouths, only the sound of each other's breathing knocked against their ears.

It was only then that Lin Zhou knew that if he liked someone, even if his breath came through the phone, it would still make his heart flutter.

Lin Zhou took a deep breath and said, "Brother."

"En." Ning Zong's voice was a little hoarse.

Lin Zhou's tone was very serious: "I have something to tell you."

He said emphatically, "Don't come here, I'll go find you, I want to talk to you face to face."

It wasn't serious enough to say on the phone, he wanted to tell his brother himself.

He likes the title boyfriend.

After a few seconds of silence, he heard Ning Zong's hoarse voice.

"I'm waiting for you."

When the phone was hung up, Lin Zhou felt his ears were hot, he thought, he couldn't wait to tell Ning Zong what was on his mind.

He obviously waited for so long, but now he felt very tormented in just a few minutes.

Lin Zhou changed his clothes, went downstairs immediately, and drove to Ning Zong's home.

The weather is very hot, and along the way, there are prosperous dark green tree shadows, and the light and shadow fall on the branches.With his hands on the steering wheel, Lin Zhou glanced out.

Mottled and old corners, clinging to green plants.

Ten years ago, only tender green leaves grew.Ten years later, this dark green without temperature has grown so grand that it can extend to every corner touched by the sun.

Just like what happened between him and Ning Zong in the past ten years, the more they are separated, the closer they are, they are like two inseparable plants, even if they are entwined with thorns and thorns.

But each of their senses trembled for the other.

They were born to be together.

Lin Zhou stepped on the accelerator suddenly, and the car was speeding on the road. He couldn't wait to see his brother.

Lin Zhou squeezed a lot of time, and finally arrived at Ning Zong's house. When the car stopped, Lin Zhou suddenly became a little nervous.

He is 23 years old now, long past that youthful, frivolous and unrestrained age.

But at any time, as long as his brother said something lightly, he could recklessly abandon all unnecessary persistence.

Go to his brother's side and say something.

"Brother, I like you too, maybe even more than you like me."

Lin Zhouping regained his breath, got out of the car, and walked towards Ning Zong's house.

As soon as he walked for a while, he caught a glimpse of a person, and he almost hung his eyes on that person.

What came into his eyes was the noisy green, but Lin Zhou only saw that slender figure.

At this time, in the hot, windless long street, where the cicadas were constantly singing, Ning stood tall, with a familiar white shirt, and clean and cool eyes.

Just like before.

His brother's indifferent glance easily ignited his whole youth that was in chaos because of throbbing.

Lin Zhou asked Ning Zong not to come, but Ning Zong really stood there, watching him quietly, neither moving forward nor retreating, waiting for him to approach.

They have such a tacit understanding that they already know each other's mind without saying anything.

Lin Zhou felt that he seemed to have become that young man who had a crush on his brother secretly but held on to the last shred of pride in his youth.

However, now is different from before.

Lin Zhou smiled lightly.

The hoarse cicadas, the greener branches, and the scorching sun are enough to start a new journey.

The story of him and his brother will start again this summer.