remnants

Fu Mingjie’s story begins here:

I was born in [-].I think you already know this.

My father died in [-].After reading my file, Nie Qing should have understood this matter.

However, because I still don't know which step you have investigated, in order not to confuse you, I'd better explain the cause and effect as clearly as possible.

The source of all these incidents should start from the summer of [-].

That year, I was in the second year of junior high school.

I just finished the final exam, and I was playing wildly outside every day during the summer vacation, but I didn't want to bump into the scene where my dad was dating another woman one day.

I still remember the expression on my dad's face when he saw me.

It was like seeing a ghost.

In fact, he didn't even think about it, what was he afraid of?I should be the one to be afraid.

When a child at that age accidentally finds out that his father is cheating, it feels like the sky is about to fall, and he is so scared to death.

It's just that I've always been a strong person since I was a child. In front of my dad and that woman, I didn't cry or make a fuss, but I calmly threatened my dad, either you break up with her right now, or I will Go back and tell mom.

My dad is afraid of my mom, I know that.So I thought my threat was going to work.

But what I didn't expect was that my dad didn't agree to go with me.Instead, he knelt down and took my hand and told me that he couldn't leave that woman because they already had a child, a boy, my younger brother.

If I said that when I first learned that my father was cheating, the only emotions I felt were fear and anger, then after I heard that he had another child with that woman, what I felt was intense jealousy and resentment .

Why did you betray your mother?Why did you betray me?Why would you want to have a baby with another woman? ?Could it be that he is not satisfied with me alone? !

I was really going crazy at that moment.

Driven by such strong emotions, I couldn't control myself at all, let alone calmly think about the consequences of all my actions.So, I left my dad and that woman, ran all the way home, called my mom's work unit, and sued her aggressively.

The result...is predictable, isn't it?

My mom and dad had a complete falling out, and they had a huge fight at home.

My dad felt wronged, so most of the time it was actually my mom who cursed him unilaterally. He didn't say a word, and he didn't fight back when he was beaten. At most, he took a step back, and then took a step back. At that time, he suffered silently.

At that time, I hid from the side and looked at them, and looked at my dad, thinking why he was so useless and hateful.Let's live a good life, but if he insists on going outside to steal chickens and dogs, he even finds a seed, and the good home is ruined by him.My mother beat him and scolded him lightly. He asked for it. He deserved it. He shouldn't be forgiven. People like him will definitely die badly.

Yes, that's what I thought at the time.

Don't look at me like that.

Don't think that children are naive because they don't understand anything.

In fact, you are wrong.Just because he doesn't understand anything, because he doesn't know the consequences of doing things and doesn't need to care about gains and losses, he is more pure and decisive than adults when he is malicious.

At that time, my dad lived in the endless scolding, punching and kicking of my mother all day long, and seemed to have given up all arguments and resistance, but there was only one thing he insisted on all the time, that is, he refused to tell my mother the address of that woman. Let my mother find her.

He just protected her, protected them, protected a mistress and her child.

I was so angry at that time.

I thought to myself that it is absolutely impossible to just let it go. I cannot let that woman and her son have a good time. Why should our family be messed up by them, but they can live a peaceful life without being disturbed? This is too unfair.

So, I started to look for it, went to the place where my dad and the woman ran into that day, wandered back and forth in the nearby neighborhoods, and asked people in the surrounding canteens, restaurants, supermarkets, and vegetable markets about the existence of the mother and child— —I have to say, I should have had the potential to do investigative work since I was a child... Hehe.

Unfortunately, this is not a blessing.

In just two days, I found out where they lived.Also, I managed to track that woman to her home once, so the address is confirmed.

When I got home, I felt like a general returning from victory, and the woman's address was my prize.

I can't wait to ask my mom for credit, can't wait to tell her everything I found out, and can't wait to hope that she can mess up their lives too, at least worse than ours, and I'll be happy.

However, what I never expected was that a real general kills people before victory, but for me, after victory.

……

What happened that day, until today, when I think about it, it still feels unreal.

Based on the address I gave her, my mother rushed directly to the woman's house, and my father took me in a taxi to catch up, but unfortunately it was still a step late.

When we arrived, my mother had already wrestled with that woman. Everything in her house, from water glasses, mirrors, remote controls, to TV sets, was smashed, and other things were thrown in a mess. I don't know what fragments it is, and some have some red spots on it, like someone's blood.

I was terrified.My dad told me not to stay there, and told me to go downstairs quickly, and then he went to fight by himself.

But I didn't know what happened at the time. I was obviously scared, but I didn't want to leave, so I wanted to find a place to hide first.

I took a fancy to the corner next to the sofa that was staggered from the refrigerator. There were two sofa cushions piled up on it. It seemed that there should be a triangular area underneath. I thought it would be safer there, so I walked over there.

However, after I passed by, I found that there were already people there.

A thin and small boy, huddled in that corner, stared at me who suddenly appeared in his field of vision with a look of horror.

That was... the first time I saw Xiaonuan.

***

Fu Mingjie's narration stopped here temporarily.

He clasped his hands in front of him, and slowly rubbed the tiger's mouth of his right hand with the thumb of his left hand, as if recalling, as if nostalgic.

Yu Sheng lowered his gun slightly, glanced at Nie Qing, and found that he was engrossed in listening, so he continued to wait quietly.

Fu Mingjie was silent for about two or three minutes, and after a long sigh, he resumed the conversation just now.

***

After discovering Xiao Nuan, I froze and stared at him blankly.

And he seemed to be very afraid of me, he was shaking all the time, until tears came down, but he still bit his lip and dared not make a sound.

I felt very strange in my heart at the time.

Looking at this boy who was much weaker than me, I realized that he was my younger brother—even though he was born in junior high school, he was really my blood-related younger brother.

Hehe...Speaking of it, I was probably a superficial junior high school student who liked to look at faces at that time.

Xiaonuan looked really good-looking when she was young.

He is more like his mother, white and clean, although thin, but the contours of his face are very delicate, with a pair of big eyes that are round and bright.Especially when he looked at me with tears in his eyes, I actually had a desire to protect him.

So, I squatted down in front of him, and said to him as if I were an older brother, don't be afraid, the quarrel between adults will end in a while, and it will be fine.

Xiao Nuan still stared at me blankly after hearing this, and finally called timidly after waiting and waiting, "Hello, brother."

In fact, I later thought that Xiaonuan didn't know who I was at the time, he just called elder brothers to boys who looked older than him.But at that time, after I heard him call me that, I felt a sense of responsibility in my heart, as if I had really become a big brother, and I must take good care of my younger brother.

Do you think I'm weird?

To be honest, I feel weird myself too.Does this unreasonable desire to protect really come from the family affection where blood is thicker than water?

This kind of thing is really unclear...

Ugh.

However, when I was still immersed in the pride of being upgraded to the big brother, something happened on the balcony.

The first thing I heard was my cowardly father, who suddenly called my mother by his name loudly.It was as if a shovel of water was suddenly thrown into the oil pan that had been heating steadily, and it exploded immediately.

I heard him yelling almost heart-piercingly, Zhang Ling, let her go!You will kill people like this!You let her go! !

Immediately afterwards, I heard two women screaming at the same time, and one of them seemed to be extremely terrified. I couldn't tell whether it was from my mother or the woman. I only knew that after the two screams, Another dull bang came from outside the house.

A second passed... two seconds, or ten seconds?I have forgotten.

The world suddenly became very quiet, and there was no sound around, as if I was the only one left in the world, and I was deaf and dumb.

But suddenly, the world is noisy again.

Countless people were screaming, arguing, chattering, and countless windows were suddenly shut and opened.

I don't understand what happened, Xiaonuan is still huddled in that corner, not daring to move, and I am a little afraid to go to the balcony, I am afraid of seeing some terrible scene...

But I can't not go.

Because no one came out, I had to go and see.

So, I settled Xiaonuan, let him stay still, and then walked to the master bedroom, which led to the balcony.

When I just turned into the door of the master bedroom, I found my mother sitting on the balcony floor with her back to me.One of the balcony windows was wide open, the screens had been removed and thrown aside, but my father and the woman were nowhere to be seen.

I was terrified, and ran over to try to pull my mother up, but my mother seemed to be nailed to the ground at that time. No matter how hard I tried, she remained motionless, and her eyes were still fixed on the open window.

Mom, where's my dad?I asked.

In fact, someone was already shouting outside the window at that time, someone jumped off the building!Call an ambulance quickly!Call the police!

However, the word "jump off a building" is too harsh for me.

I didn't dare to go to the window and look down, but I still had a glimmer of hope and asked my mother, where is my father?Where is my dad?

Unfortunately... I have never been able to ask an answer...

until the police come.

At that time, I learned that the woman died on the spot and that my father died on the way to the hospital from the police who came to inquire about the situation.

My whole mind was in a daze, and I even forgot to cry.

And my mom, after the initial breakdown, started describing the situation to the police.

She said that it was the woman who pushed her first. It was the woman who wanted to push her downstairs. My dad wanted to stop her, but he suddenly slipped on the soles of his feet and lost his center of gravity. Then he fell with the woman in his arms. go down.

No one really saw the specifics of what happened at the time, and no one could prove that what my mother said was true or false.

Due to the lack of eyewitnesses and obvious traces of slipping and falling at the scene, the police determined that the incident was an accident.

A farce that ended in tragedy ended like this.

……

After the on-site investigation and questioning were completed, the police would take my mother and me to the Public Security Bureau to make notes.

And at that moment, I suddenly thought of Xiaonuan again.I haven't seen him since the police came. I heard that he has been taken away by the police. I need to help him confirm other relatives, so as to decide who should raise him next.

In our family, it is obviously impossible.

I know that my mother already hates that woman, Lin Miaoqing, and I hate her too, I wish I could kill her again if she came back to life.

But I can't hate Xiao Nuan.

He is innocent.

A person has no way to choose his own birth, and it is impossible for him to predict in advance when he is reincarnated, knowing in advance that he is about to become the product of an affair between two irresponsible adults.

Of course, even I can figure out this truth, and my mother naturally knows it too.

But she couldn't forgive.

She couldn't accept bringing her husband's illegitimate child back under her nose to raise her.

Later, I heard that because Lin Miaoqing was an only child, her parents had already passed away, and my grandma was the only one left on my dad's side, and my grandma had to be raised by my mother, so how could she agree to take Xiaonuan back... So However, Xiao Nuan could only be sent to a public welfare institution opened by the government at that time.

I really didn't expect that just because of one address, just because of an address that I found out, two lives would be lost.

You wait - don't interrupt me yet, I know what you want to say.

That's right, thinking about it now, the deaths of my father and Lin Miaoqing at that time could not be completely blamed on me.Even if I didn't find out Lin Miaoqing's residence, my mother would find out one day, they would go there one day, and they would still have conflicts one day. Then such a tragedy may be inevitable after all, no matter how form to achieve...

But I didn't think so at the time.

In my opinion, if I hadn't done such a thing, if I hadn't caught up with my dad's affair and told my mom about it, and finally even revealed Xiaosan's home address, my mom wouldn't have come to her. If I won't get entangled with Lin Miaoqing, my dad won't try to break the fight, and I won't fall downstairs with Lin Miaoqing during the back and forth pushing and shoving. The two of them won't die, and my mother won't lose her husband. I will not lose my father, and Xiao Nuan will not become an orphan from now on.

It's all because of me that we lost all of this.

The only good thing for me is that I still have my mother and a relative who can depend on each other for life.

But Xiaonuan has nothing.

I was the culprit who made him an orphan.

***

After finishing these words, Fu Mingjie's head was deeply lowered, and he didn't raise it for a while.

Yu Sheng's gun also came down. Although the insurance hadn't been closed again, he no longer aimed directly at Fu Mingjie.

"So, it's because of this incident that you felt guilty towards Lin Nuan, so you've been taking care of him and trying to make up for him, right?" Yu Sheng asked after waiting for a while.

Fu Mingjie nodded slightly, but then he shook his head lightly and said, "Not entirely."

"What do you mean?" Yu Sheng looked at him inquiringly.

Fu Mingjie smiled wryly, "Don't even think about it. How old was I when Xiao Nuan was sent to the orphanage? I was 14 years old and hadn't graduated from junior high school... At that time, even if I wanted to make up for him, I could do it again." What? Our family was not considered wealthy. After my father passed away, the family was supported by my mother alone, and the situation was even worse. Besides, my grandma was not in good health, and she was so stimulated that she almost died every few days. Go to the hospital, and basically live in the hospital in the end. The medical expenses are too high. So many things and such a heavy burden are borne by my mother alone. In one year, my mother looks at least ten years older. She is already miserable, how can I bear to let her know that I am still thinking about the son of Xiaosan who made her into what she is now? "

After finishing speaking, Fu Mingjie sighed heavily, as if he fell into the dilemma that made him fall back then.

"Captain..." Nie Qing took the words at this moment, and asked with considerable consideration: "Then did your mother also suffer from depression at this time?"

Hearing this, Fu Mingjie looked up at him, and shook his head silently after a while, "Depression, I'm afraid it will be later. This is a subtle process, the pressure will accumulate little by little, and the human spirit will also be gradually weakened." Sliding to the brink of collapse. When I began to notice that my mother's emotions were a little erratic and occasionally hysterical when she scolded me, I didn't realize that these were signs of depression. Later I took her to the hospital for diagnosis. Her condition is already serious."

"However, I heard that patients with depression are often depressed, feel that there is nothing worth cherishing in life, and are prone to suicidal thoughts. Didn't your mother commit suicide before she was diagnosed? ? If so, wouldn't you take her to treatment sooner?" Nie Qing asked.

After hearing this, Fu Mingjie had a rather complicated expression on his face, like sadness, but also like pride, and there was even a sense of relief in it.

"My mother is a very fragile yet very tough woman." Fu Mingjie said slowly.

"After experiencing such a tragedy, one can imagine the grief in her heart. But for me, for my grandma, and for this family, she has been fighting against her own pain. Maybe after suffering from depression, she Countless times I have thought about letting go like that, countless times I have thought about leaving everything behind and getting rid of the many sufferings in this world, but she can't let us go, she can't bear to leave me and grandma, the old and the young, She couldn't walk steadily, so she endured them one by one.

"I still remember that a few days before she committed suicide, that is, when I was just promoted to the captain of the criminal investigation detachment, when I got home, she prepared a meal and waited for me, saying that she would celebrate for me. She said to me at the time , 'Your grandma has left, and now you are promising, and I can take good care of myself in the future, so I can rest assured'. After listening to her words, I have actually realized what she wants to do, so I I paid close attention to her, and even hired a nanny to accompany her around the clock, just for fear that she would do something stupid. But I didn't expect that she had prepared the rat poison in advance, and when I went out to handle the case a few days later, she put He locked himself in the bathroom at home, took medicine and committed suicide."

Fu Mingjie's tone was very calm when he said this, but both Nie Qing and Yu Sheng could see that in the darkness, some bright things were slowly slipping from the corners of his eyes.

"If she is really free, I will be happy for her."