remnants

Outside the corridor, the sun is shining brightly.

Although Pingcheng's climate has always been known for being like spring all year round, but at this moment in October, even if it is a sunny day, you can still feel a little cool when standing outside.

Su Ji was still wearing the same black suit that he had attended the funeral the day before yesterday, but he took off his coat at this time, only wearing a shirt, and his figure became thinner and thinner.

Nie Qing was only wearing a single shirt at the moment. Seeing him standing with his arms folded, he asked, "Are you cold? Do you want to go back and get some clothes?"

"No, it won't be too cold to stand here for a while." Su Ji lowered his arms and leaned against the metal railing, "What do you want to ask me?"

"Hmm..." Nie Qing turned around and faced him sideways. Even so, Su Ji could still see that his expression was extremely serious.

"Secretary, I want to ask, is it possible for a person to be intermittently blind?" Nie Qing finally asked this question that had been circling in his heart for many days.

He asked every single word, which was extremely difficult.

After Su Ji heard this question, he couldn't help being stunned for a few seconds, and quickly thought of a person in his mind.

Could it be that all his strange behaviors before were due to this reason...

"Nie Qing," Su Ji considered silently for a moment, and finally asked: "Intermittent blindness is certainly possible, but there are more than one reasons. Is there any special manifestation of the kind you mentioned? What are the specific symptoms?"

"Specific symptoms..." Nie Qing frowned tightly, trying to recall: "He usually sees things normally, but occasionally... Occasionally his performance makes me feel that he seems to be unable to see anything... But It seems that I can see a little..."

"You mean the rest of your life?" Su Ji's expression was also a little dignified.

"Secretary..." Nie Qing suddenly grabbed a few handfuls of his hair indiscriminately, and his brows were twisted into the word "Chuan". After a while, he said: "I don't know what to say, let alone what to do... You know, the night I just found him this time, I took him home and we had an argument - no, I got mad at him... and then I left him alone and went to I went to the bathroom to take a shower. But when I came out of the shower, I found him sitting alone in the bedroom with no lights on, so lonely, alone in the dark... I was... I was really— —”

"Nie Qing," Su Ji lightly held Nie Qing's shoulders, and persuaded him in a low voice, "Don't think too much, I won't blame you for the rest of my life."

"I know he won't... But I didn't realize the problem with his eyes at that time... I will think about it later, thinking that he might not be able to see anything at the time, when a person was waiting for me in the dark... "Nie Qing clenched his hands into fists, unable to speak.

Su Ji couldn't help sighing silently, and patted him on the shoulder, "Nie Qing, the matter of Yu Sheng's eyes is not confirmed yet, is it? Don't worry, tell me in detail why you suspect he is intermittently blind? When did you find out?"

"Actually, I really thought about this, which is what happened in the past two days..." Nie Qing squeezed the center of his brows, lowered his head and said: "When we went to Director Hong, he first proposed to wear sunglasses. At that time, I was just a little suspicious, but I didn’t think too much about it. But after that, he was injured suddenly again. When I came to see him again, I felt that his expression was always in a trance, his eyes were slack, and it seemed difficult to focus ...But his mind is clear and lucid, he doesn't seem to be unconscious...That's why I wonder if there is something wrong with his eyes..."

"In addition..." Nie Qing took a deep breath at this point, and said: "Ah Sheng had a high fever a few days ago, and the child named Lian Xu next to him seems to be very worried... Secretary, fever can also affect vision. ?"

"For ordinary people, unless they have a persistent high fever above [-] degrees, it is possible to cause irreversible damage to the optic nerve. But..." Su Ji paused subconsciously, and saw Nie Qing's expression tense for a moment, " However," Su Ji continued, "if your guess is correct, and if the symptoms of intermittent blindness really exist for the rest of his life, then his optic nerve may have been damaged...and most of the neurological damage to the brain will be accompanied by There are other complications. And the most obvious one of these is headaches."

"Headache... He often has sudden headaches recently, and he still has medicine for headaches..." Nie Qing said while pressing his temples with his fingers fiercely, as if he was the one who had the headache.

Su Ji looked at him, also looking worried, "Look for a chance later, show me the medicine he is taking now, so that I can judge what his symptoms are. But Nie Qing, since you are so worried about him, why don't you directly How about asking him?"

Nie Qing was taken aback when he heard this, and after a while, he lowered his head and said, "If I ask him...will he tell the truth? Since he came back this time, he has concealed many things in front of me. If I ask him casually, He will talk about him from left to right, and can drag the topic as far as he can. And if I keep asking, then we will probably have to fight again, and we will definitely break up in the end. To be honest, I feel right now His questions are only a lot more than when we first met, but I don't know how to speak anymore."

"Nie Qing, are you worrying too much?" Su Ji sighed softly, "I don't have a say in other matters about why Yu Sheng kept it from you, but this matter, I think what's on his mind. It's not hard to guess. If he doesn't tell you, it must be because he doesn't want you to worry."

"I know that, but don't you think his thinking is too immature?" Nie Qing raised his head suddenly, his eyes seemed to be burning with tiny flames, "We are all adults, I know how to choose to be with someone What is the responsibility that people have to shoulder when they are together, but does he know it? He chose to hide it because he was afraid that I would worry, so when does he want to wait until he lets me know? Will he wait until he is completely blind?? Will he tell me at that time, I'm not worried anymore?!"

Su Ji was questioned by him with a look of helplessness, "What's the use of being anxious with me? Since you think so in your heart, why don't you tell him these words directly?"

Nie Qing pressed her lower lip tightly, "Even if you tell him, it's useless—"

"How do you know it's useless? You've already said it?" Su Ji stared at Nie Qing with indifferent eyes, "It's true that Yu Sheng has been secretive about you, but can you be called 'honest' to him? Don't you also have reservations about him?"

"I——" Nie Qing's pupils shrank suddenly when he heard this, but before the word "no" blurted out, he swallowed it back.

He really...had not been able to be honest with the rest of his life.

Su Ji had already seen through his thoughts, and after two seconds of silence, he said: "Nie Qing, it is impossible for two people to have no secrets. The longer they are adults, the more things they can't help themselves, and the more they think about it. Talk less and less. If you really want to solve the problem between you and Yu Sheng, both of you must be willing to communicate. Don’t you love him? If you don’t even want to ask after you find out about his eyes One sentence, who else will ask him? Who else can he say to?"

Listening to Su Ji's words, Nie Qing felt as if a tiny ice needle had been pierced in her heart, which was cold and painful, sinking deeper and deeper.

He put his arm on the railing, pressed his forehead against his arm, and waited for a while before speaking, "Secretary, I understand what you mean. I will ask, but not now, nor today. I want to know now, What is likely to cause intermittent blindness for the rest of your life and can it be cured?"

Su Ji looked at him silently for a while, finally turned his face to look into the distance, and said, "As I said just now, there can be many reasons. But for intermittent blindness, the most likely cause is the brain. Trauma, which resulted in damage to the optic nerve. Are there any marks of injury on the head for the rest of your life?"

"Yes." Nie Qing still lowered his head, and said in a low voice: "There is a scar a little above his right temple. I asked him how he got this scar before, and he told me that he accidentally knocked it on. But no matter how I look at it, I think it's a gunshot wound..."

"... shot in the head??" Su Ji's face turned pale when he heard that, "You can hold your breath and not ask him to understand?!"

"You should say that he can hold his breath and don't explain it to me." Nie Qing clasped his hands tightly.

Su Ji seemed to feel unbelievable, staring at him, and said after a long time: "Nie Qing, I really don't understand your thoughts. What do you think about Yu Sheng..."

"Let's not talk about this now." Nie Qing suddenly stopped him, and asked again: "I have a question just now and you didn't answer me. Can he be cured like this?"

"...I don't know." Su Ji turned his head and stopped looking at him, "Neural damage is often irreversible. Even if the initial damage is not serious, it may gradually deteriorate in the future. If you don't If you are in a hurry, you can wait a little longer, maybe one day you will be completely blind for the rest of your life, and then you can take him to the hospital and ask if he can be cured."

"...Secretary." Nie Ting heard Su Ji's dissatisfaction with him, and finally raised his head.

"Do you think I don't care enough about Ah Sheng?"

"No." Su Ji replied lightly, "I think you care too much about him, to the point where you don't know how to care. Haven't you heard a saying that too much is too much, and that's how you treat him now."

Nie Qing looked at Su Ji in a daze, waited and said, "No matter how much I want to care, he must cooperate. If he refuses to tell me anything, why should I ask again and again? I begged him to tell me again and again? He was missing, he was injured, he was almost blind, and I didn’t listen to him take the initiative to confide a word to me. I ask again? Then my feelings, my feelings... are so worthless Is it?"

After listening to Nie Qing's astringent voice, Su Ji didn't say anything for a while.

Seeing that the dazzling sun just now was slowly covered by a thick cloud, the sky gradually turned gray in broad daylight.

got windy.

"Nie Qing."

After maybe four or five minutes, Su Ji turned his head to look at his friend who was staring at the clouds in the sky with a lonely face, with a slight desolation in his eyes, and asked softly: "If Yu Sheng is not injured right now, Will you still treat him as calmly as you do now?"

"I don't know..." Nie Qing lowered his eyelashes, and said again after a few seconds, "I really don't know."

"Pretend I didn't ask anything." Su Ji withdrew his gaze and turned to the direction of the ward.

"Go back. It looks like it's going to rain again in a while."

"……it is good."