[Yuri on Ice] Pursuit

"Don't Leave Beside Me"

Writer: Yuuki

01

Victor looked at the ring tightly clenched in his wrinkled old hands, his body trembled uncontrollably, he opened his mouth, and finally couldn't say anything except "Yuuri, I miss you so much".

The boarding announcement at the airport rang, and Victor sighed, pulling his suitcase and walking into the distance.

Perhaps, in the eyes of outsiders, he has lived a more brilliant life than ordinary people. He has everything he should have, money, power, and it can really be called fame and fortune. It can only be regarded as a tragedy.

After finally finishing work, he was able to take Yuuri to travel to the city he wanted to visit, but in the end, a fire broke out in the hotel where he was staying because of a sudden earthquake.

When escaping, Yuuri, who has always been gentle, was tough once in a while, but it was to leave him the last place in the escape elevator, and he, who could not wait for rescue, slept forever under the rubble, separated forever. .

I still remember at this time 30 years ago, he went to Yuuri’s grave with little Vincent, their adopted child, since he started working in the company day and night, most of the Vincent was by Yuuri's side all the time.

"...Are you sad... that you didn't have much time to be with Yuuri in the last days?" These were the only words that the always taciturn child said at the grave.

Time has passed for so long that Victor can no longer remember what expression he had at that time. The only thing he remembers in his heart is that he did not speak, his behavior as if pleading guilty, as if he wanted to keep reminding himself of how big a mistake he had made Usually, head down.

Victor felt that he was an idiot, but for him like this, Yuuri's last words were just one sentence, "Victor, thank you for being by my side for the past 20 years."

When did it go off the rails?In the beginning, it was just a coincidence that someone invited me who had achieved nothing at that time to start a business together. At that time, it was obviously just to enable Yuuri to live a happy and happy life, not just saving money for daily necessities like ordinary people.

He picked up the lunch box distributed by the stewardess and put it down again, trying to force himself to eat some, but there was still not a grain of rice missing in the bowl.

Really, I can't eat it.

Looking at the two rings hanging on the necklace, his eyes were empty, and then he didn't know what happened, and fell asleep while leaning against the pillow while crying.

Victor had a dream about the log cabin where they lived together for many years.Next to the house, in front of the big tree that can only hug five people, Yuuri lay on the grass and fell asleep peacefully.

Walking towards him in a daze, Yuuri seemed to have noticed it, and slowly opened his eyes, with the most beautiful smile Victor has ever seen in his life, he said softly, "Victor, I love you."

After waking up from the dream, tears flowed down uncontrollably, and I felt as if I could hardly breathe. Even if I grabbed my collar and panted hard, it still couldn't alleviate the pain in my half-distracted heart.

"Yuri, it's been 30 years since you left. During these 9000 days and nights, I haven't forgotten you for a single moment. Love, our love only lasted 20 years. It's only 50 years, it seems very long, but it's actually very short, really, very short..."

"For the past 30 years, I have been comforting myself. Maybe you are still in this world, Yuuri, but you can't find me. You still want to continue. Even if I wait for you in this world for another 30 years, it doesn't matter, but , this time may be coming to an end now."

"The doctor said that because I worked too hard when I was young, I left a lot of problems on my body, and I have to go abroad for treatment. Although it's not a major operation, I'm afraid I can't survive it with my current body..."

While talking, Victor cried softly again in a corner, but before he finished his confession, the plane exploded.

At the last moment before leaving this world, without complaining, Victor just showed a familiar smile, "I wanted to live hard no matter what, even if I was staggering forward, because this is what you expect from Yuuri, but if it is That's all right, I have a legitimate reason to leave here and go to your side."

02

April 6

I have been married to Yuuri for ten years, and recently I have become more and more suspicious, is Yuuri's love for me dying?

When the two of them were together, he would often be in a daze, as would his eyes, which were completely different from when they were in love, without any brilliance at all.

Sure enough, I'm tired of it.

Perhaps, Yuuri loves me when I was young, that Viktor who is full of vigor and can stand on the podium like a king.

But people have no way to control themselves from getting old, hair loss is getting more and more, and some problems that fell during the previous training are now often committed, and when I am with Yuuri who is still full of vitality, I often can’t keep up Rhythm.

I don't know how much of Yuuri's love for me came from his longing, and that admiration, with the passage of time, has long since disappeared.

There is no doubt that it will disappear slowly and completely, the relationship that Yuuri and I can no longer maintain.

April 8

When I woke up in the morning, I looked at myself in the mirror, patted my face subconsciously, and forced an arc, thinking at least not to face Yuuri with a bitter face, but I opened the bedroom door and wanted to go out It was only then that Yuuri had left.

Ice Crystal Butterfly·Q·Zimengxue Yashangxue is a women's singles player. Although she is only in her early twenties, she is already the world champion who has won the World Championships for seven consecutive times. She is even called the "King on Ice" I, Victor, only won six consecutive titles until I retired.

By the way, because Ice Crystal Butterfly is like a fairy far away from the world when skating, she is refined and extraordinary, so she is also called "the fairy on ice" by the media and fans.

I don't know why, but since about two months ago, Yuuri suddenly got very close to the Ice Crystal Die Ling, and last night he even mentioned his plan to travel with the Ice Crystal Die Ling.

When I first heard the news, I was very sad, there was disappointment with Yuuri, and there was also despair of this relationship.

I always thought that although we are well aware of the current relationship status quo, we have a tacit understanding of not revealing it because we still have feelings for each other, but, in this case, why not keep it for a while... Maybe, already It's time to say it's over...

03

Yuuri was confused, why did Victor break up with him as soon as he got home from the trip?And even though he looks very angry on the surface, he can't help but cry. What's going on? This kind of Victor hasn't appeared in the past ten years except for seeing him once a long time ago...

"What's going on with you and Ice Crystal Butterfly Q Zimengxue Yashangxue?" With a muffled voice, Victor asked gloomily.

"Ah? So this matter..." Yuuri heaved a sigh of relief when he realized that it was because of the ice crystal butterfly spirit. This is easy to explain, easy to explain...

Wait, it seems hard to explain...

What he promised himself, until the time limit expired, he would not tell anyone, especially Victor, to reveal his affairs, and such a person suddenly appeared out of nowhere, it would be difficult for ordinary people to accept, right?

Rubbing his hair, which was already a little messy from being pillowed everywhere on the plane, Yuuri subconsciously looked away.

It's good that Yuuri didn't respond, and it's not impossible to pretend to be nonchalant and continue living together as before, but this guilty expression really made Victor completely give up, anyway, it wouldn't be the truth.

Unable to bear it any longer, Victor curled his lips sarcastically, and then threw out a sentence in a self-defeating manner, "I'm going to move out for a while, so let's calm down for a while."

"Okay." I thought that even if it was just a superficial effort, Yuuri would hold back his intentions, but unexpectedly, he just bowed his head and thought carefully for a moment before agreeing, "Victor really needs to calm down now, but Victor I don’t need to move, let me go.” After saying that, he dragged his unopened suitcase and left the house, leaving Victor alone who was completely stunned.

04

April 9

Yesterday, Yuuri dragged his suitcase and turned around and left, leaving our home... oh, it can't be called home anymore, I should know, a house without "love" is just a house now .

I thought I was very angry at first, so let’s go and don’t come back, but when I calmed down, I realized that there was still an indescribable sadness permeating my chest.

Admit it, I actually don't want him to leave, but I don't know how to keep him, after all... there is no reason, after all, I have already said that kind of thing...

If I could go back in time, I might say this, Yuuri, don't leave, stay by my side...

April 11

Today is Yuuri's birthday, I bought him his favorite food and set it up on the table, but when I finished it, I realized that Yuuri is no longer here.

I ate this meal alone, without Yuuri's company, it was a little tasteless, maybe Yuuri doesn't know, it's because of this, I'm afraid, I can't imagine a day without Yuuri, I'm not just used to it It's a simple question, just like the American poet Emily Dickinson's poem "I could have endured the darkness, if I had never seen the sun", because of Yuuri's appearance, I don't want to go back to being alone anymore.

When he was in active service, the media always said, "Victor is such a lucky person, he is always surrounded by so many outstanding women."Maybe it's the same as what they said, there is never a shortage of women by my side, but it's a pity that there are so many women, and none of them can make me fall in love. Only Yuuri is alone.The same goes for friends, it seems that everyone has a good relationship with everyone, but there are really few who can really open their hearts, and facing Yuuri, I am sure that more than 90.00% of things can be happily shared with him, because He understands me enough.

It is precisely because Yuuri is so unique in my mind, so I cherish it, and that's why I don't want to let go, but Yuuri, you seem to have never noticed it.

I did a very stupid thing yesterday.After marriage, Yuuri usually does housework at home. Ever since I got angry and said that I would move out of the apartment alone, I ordered takeaway every day, and I was so tired that I almost lost the taste.Yesterday, I wanted to try cooking on a whim out of the attitude of improving food, but a porcelain bowl in a cabinet committed suicide.

Maybe, I really can't do without Yuuri.

April 12

This is the first time since he and Yuuri became lovers that he kept a diary on a day other than the 29th.After marriage, Yuuri has always been taking care of me, which made me very lazy. I thought about spending time with Yuuri every day, but in order not to forget important things, I slowly started to have a monthly meeting. 29. Journaling the journaling habit.

Tomorrow is my birthday. In fact, Russia doesn't care much about birthdays, but after being with Yuuri, every birthday must be celebrated.

Yuuri has been away for a long time, and I never expected him to prepare a gift for me. My only wish is to see him tomorrow, that's all. I don't know if God can fulfill my wish.

I still want to go back to the previous life, the sweet and happy married life of two people.

05

"Victor, I'm back,"

"Happy birthday, Victor."

The moment he opened the door and saw Yuuri standing at the door dragging his luggage, Victor's mood can only be described by the word "shock".

"You... why are you back?" Just after saying this, Victor regretted it, as if he didn't want Yuuri to come back.

However, Yuuri didn't seem to care about Victor's slip of the tongue at all, "My lover's birthday, I will definitely be back." The answer was so natural, and he acted like he didn't care, even his smile was much brighter than usual.

"Hmm..." Hearing this, Victor nodded. It is undeniable that he is a little at a loss now. He wanted to say a lot to Yuuri at first, but it was only then that his throat seemed to be blocked and he couldn't speak.

As if sensing Viktor's depression, Yuuri took out the box in the suitcase and handed it to Viktor, "This is your birthday present, didn't you say that before? Said that you like Tchaikovsky, especially Tchaikovsky I still remember his "Swan Lake", I found these when I was traveling with Ice Crystal Butterfly in an old street selling classical music, and all of them were pure classical music."

"You specially looked for it for Victor. Before preparing your birthday present, I thought about it with the Ice Crystal Butterfly for a long time..."

I wonder if Victor will like it.I was thinking about this question when I was choosing.

Yuuri sincerely hopes that this gift will put Viktor in a better mood, otherwise he might feel a little depressed when he talks about those things later.

Not noticing the subtle change in Yuuri's expression, Viktor just wondered, what the hell did he mean by coming back today?Is it compensation for neglecting him for so long?Thinking of Yuuri's indifferent behavior a few months ago, Viktor is a bit self-absorbed.

But, sure enough, Yuuri is still the same Yuuri, and December 12th was a thought that lingered in the mind of 25-year-old Viktor Nikiforov.

06

After packing up the suitcase and returning it to the closet, Yuuri knew that the knot in Victor's heart was still not untied when he saw Victor's eyes still dim. He knew that it was about the Ice Crystal Butterfly.

Thinking in a blink of an eye that the previous promise had also been fulfilled, Yuuri didn't hesitate, after all, it had already been decided, and he would tell him as soon as the dust settled.

He took Victor's hand and sat on the sofa with him, "Does Victor still really care?"

As if he didn't expect Yuuri to ask himself so bluntly, he froze for a moment, then Victor nodded honestly.

"In that case, let me briefly talk about her, no, his business before cutting the birthday cake."

07

To be honest, Victor never believed that there was such a thing as time travel, let alone that this kind of thing would happen to him, but it just happened.

In that mortal air crash, he crossed over just like that.

But... why, why did he dress up as a girl...

"I'm not dreaming..." Victor couldn't help but muttered to himself while thinking about all the possibilities.

As if he knew his doubts, as soon as he finished speaking, a voice rang in his ears: "Because Victor, your body has disappeared after that plane crash, and only your soul is left, which can allow you to return to the present way. It’s not easy to come to this world, so just be content.”

Victor was startled, but after thinking for a while, he felt that there was nothing surprising, as he was still dead.

"Back to this world again? What do you mean?" Frowning his eyebrows, after thinking for a while, Victor still honestly raised his own doubts. Although everything in front of him seems to be a scam, there should be no deception. Transform a man into a woman from the inside out.

Ignoring Victor's question, the electronic voice still introduced the situation of this world on its own, "If you think about it, it's scary for someone you know to suddenly change their personality, and there is no such thing in this world that you can use Therefore, this system fabricates a virtual body, because it is a non-existent person. After your time limit is over, the system can easily erase your traces in this world. To be honest, this body has been used in previous missions It’s not bad, and you are worthy of being called the “King of Ice” in this world.”

"So, you should have a question in your mind right now, why? Will I come back to this world? The answer is very simple, because this system is here to help you realize your wish, and realize your 30-year long-cherished wish-want Goodbye, Yuuri."

Realizing that the electronic voice completely ignored him and just talked about the precautions according to the instructions, Victor also gave up communicating with him, but his heart skipped a beat when he heard about his wish.

Meeting Yuuri has been a wish that has persisted for the past 30 years, and he has never wanted to give up for a moment, so when Victor suddenly heard the news, he felt illusory, and then the uncontrollable ecstasy immediately spread throughout his body.

Does he still have a chance?Say goodbye to the most important Yuuri!

"It's your time now," without pausing, and without paying too much attention to Victor's emotional changes, the electronic voice still stated quickly, "You have a total of six months to realize your wish, once the time limit is up , you still have to leave this world, this is a given, you need to be clear about this."

Although a little reluctant, Victor still nodded helplessly, indicating that he heard it.

"Then, you have to be careful not to come into contact with Viktor Nikiforov in this world. Although the body is different, the soul in the body is the same. According to the theory of time and space, multiple selves meet in the same time and space. , will easily cause the collapse of time and space, you must pay attention to this."

The electronic female voice disappeared after explaining everything, and has never appeared again. This world is not like that written in ordinary time travel strategy novels. There is no system. Perhaps it is for the convenience of Victor to fulfill his wish. None of Wan's attendants bothered him, only showing up when Victor needed help.

In this way, Victor wandered for a while in a strange but familiar world.During this time, Victor gradually discovered that this world was similar to the one he lived in before, but different.

The difference is that in this world, Yuuri and I are figure skaters instead of office workers in the past.

The meeting with Yuuri went smoothly. Although he didn't like this Mary Sue's body, but being a figure skater also made it easy for him to get in touch with the lover of this life.

It's probably the only unexpected thing that Yuuri recognized him before he revealed his identity.

Slowly, as the time between the two grows, Victor feels a little strange. He is obviously different from the Victor of this world, and he does not have many common hobbies with Yuuri of this world, but Yuuri still treats him very well. Unbelievably good.

Finally one day I couldn't help asking him, Yuuri just shyly touched his head like a big boy, "For me, Victor is just Victor, there is no difference, and if it was me in that world, I would I will definitely hope that Victor will always be happy."

Hearing this, it would be a lie to say not to be moved, Victor even felt an urge to kiss Yuuri, but before he could actually act, reason stopped him.

The Yuuri of this world belongs to Victor of this world, and the Yuuri of the former world belongs to me. Although I didn't cherish it, at least I can't cross the line.

Thinking of this, Victor bent his lips helplessly, gave Yuuri a very warm embrace, and said what he always wanted to say, "Thank you, Yuuri, thank you, if you can stay with me forever It's good to be around..."

Although Victor didn't say it clearly, both of them knew who they were speaking to, so Yuuri returned Victor's faint smile.

I just don't know Yuuri in that world, can he hear it?

08

Ever since they sat on the sofa and started talking, Victor, who was standing on the opposite building, kept his eyes on this house, seeing himself in this world holding Yuuri in his arms, Victor seemed to see Yuuri and himself many years ago.

These days, he clearly realizes that the Victor in this world is the same as himself, but very different. He likes Yuuri as much as himself, but he also understands the importance of Yuuri, and knows what he really wants. Get it wrong.

Victor was relieved.

He finally won't make another irreparable mistake.

09

A few days later, in a dark alley with no one around, Victor slowly slid down against the wall and sat down. Looking at his increasingly transparent body, a helpless smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

Accompanied by two drops of warm and moist tears, the soul of Victor, who did not belong to this world, was finally shattered. Thousands of soul fragments fluttered in the air, slowly falling down like jewels with dark blue luster.

Time is up.

In the blink of an eye, it was another departure, but this time, unlike the plane crash, Victor left with the fulfillment of his wish.

10

I don't know why, after Victor left, the evidence of his stay in this world didn't disappear completely at the beginning, but disappeared little by little later.

After we parted ways with Yuuri that day, until another week passed, no one saw the shadow of the ice crystal butterfly spirit. At first, some people were worried that something happened to her. Later, after a long time, no one went to Pay attention to these things, people who have known her before recall such a character after a long time, and may ask, Ice Crystal Butterfly?Who is that?

11

The only ones who remember this incident are Victor and Yuuri.

In Yuuri's heart, it is impossible to say that there is no sadness about the departure of Victor in that world, but Yuuri also understands that leaving is the best choice for him. Although he is also Katsuki Yuuri, he is not in Victor's heart after all. That, and without his lover, Victor, in his eyes, the world would have no color, and even if he was alive, he would probably be a walking dead.

And Victor in this world is honestly very grateful to his other self, because he made him understand the meaning of "don't leave and stay with me".

Before, he had never thought so deeply about what Yuuri meant to him, maybe it really verified that sentence, only by losing can people know the importance of the people or things that are always by his side to him sex.

At the same time, the Victor of this world also feels very fortunate that, unlike that Victor, he still has a chance to redeem himself.

12

Time passing like running water brought a special memory to Victor and Yuuri. When the story ended, a sentence remained in the hearts of the two forever.

"Don't leave my side", this sentence is very important to the two pairs of lovers from two worlds, it is a kind of regret and remorse for the older Victor and Yuuri, but it is a kind of regret for the young Victor and Yuuri before. Saying is an oath that has always been with you.

However, after experiencing this incident, due to the further maturity of the mind, I now have a lot of understanding of the interpretation of this sentence, and I no longer just stay on the surface of the oath.

It's also different from the season when Yuuri and Victor fought side by side for the first time. At that time, it was just the name of a show. Even after Yuuri understood his feelings, it became a kind of expectation. It can't be compared with now. Now , because he was infected by the excitement brought by the story of the guest from another world, and because Yuuri did not choose to cheat but would rather not tell and confess afterwards, Victor deeply understands that the two of them should trust each other more when they get along, This sentence has gradually become a representative of the fusion of unprecedented deep bonds, the highest trust, and a lifelong oath.

After all, no matter what happens, I will be by your side and never leave.

The author has something to say:

The more than 6000 manuscripts before were basically scrapped, and my heart was full. The new version of the manuscript has no cars, and there will probably be meat dregs in the future, um.This chapter really made me feel exhausted. I revised four editions. From the first edition to the second edition, more than 1000 words were added, because it was originally intended to be a spoof, and then there were some interesting plots. I changed my style of writing, but I didn’t become happy, and people said that I despise Mary Sue just like straight men despise danmei, so I changed it, because I have an obsession with Mary Sue, and I like this meme very much, so the third edition is Yuuri dressed as Mary Sue and then had a daily life with Victor. Although the fun was in place, it was overturned later, and there is now the fourth version.

After the second year of high school, I added night self-study and early homework. I was very busy, and I could only change it on weekends.

Then let’s talk about the problem of fake changes, because I am prone to typos and wrong sentences when I type quickly, so I have to change them when I find them, but there is no way for me to update them as soon as I change them. I hope you can understand the obsessive-compulsive disorder and don’t change them. I feel sick all over.