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Qi Xuanlou grabbed Ning Ye and asked, "Ning Ye, what do you mean?"

Ning also lowered his eyelids: "It's not interesting."

"Last time you transferred without saying a word. After leaving for four years, I told myself that we are still young and you can't bear it. I can understand. I worked hard to become stronger and clear obstacles. I saw that you were also working hard. Don't rely on family, I think you have the same idea as me, and we can discuss this matter when we don't need to rely on others and have enough ability to stand up. Now that you and I have done it, what do I mean to you? I know." Qi Xuanlou was a little angry as he spoke, he really didn't understand why Ning Ye was so fickle, "Then explain to me why this time is the same as last time, when I thought you were going to accept me When the time comes, can you immediately turn your face and deny anyone? What do you think of me?"

Ning also wrapped himself in a coat, speechless.

He really didn't know what to say, no matter what he said, he knew that now he was the one who was scumbag and the one who was wrong.

Self-preservation is not wrong, but selfishness is.

Greedy for the happiness brought by the warmth and ambiguity, but unable to give Qi Xuanlou a corresponding response. For Qi Xuanlou, how cruel is it to waste six years?

Ning Ye's voice was very low, he couldn't lift his head up in front of Qi Xuanlou like this: "I'm sorry... I'm too selfish. It's very unfair to you. I thought it would be over. If we don't meet again in the future, maybe it will be over." ..."

"Stop it." Qi Xuanlou interrupted him, "Ning Ye, stop it."

Ning ignored him: "...Even if it's over. I admit that you are easy to be tempted, but I have thought about it carefully for a long time, I can no longer be with you, I can't accept it."

Qi Xuanlou pushed Ning Ye against the wall and growled, "Shut up!"

A young man with thick eyebrows and handsome eyes, but his eyes are full of sorrow.He gritted his teeth: "Can you fucking stop talking?!"

Ning also raised his eyes to look at him, his eyes were deep, and there was an inexplicable sadness and reluctance in his brows and eyes that he couldn't see through.Qi Xuanlou couldn't figure out how Ning could do this, obviously he just dumped himself as soon as he said it, and just played with himself casually, so why would he feel wronged?

"Stop talking." Qi Xuanlou lost completely, and at this moment he really held his pride and made Ning Ye step on it again and again, "I don't want to hear it, and I don't want to know. Don't move Just saying we're never going to see each other again, I don't want to hear it."

Hearing what he said, Ning was about to shed tears.

What went wrong?

Obviously from the very beginning, he just wanted to protect his heart.

The two returned to the room in silence.Ning also watched TV programs for half the night, and played with his mobile phone for a while; Qi Xuanlou took a laptop and read documents all night, and barely talked.

Before going to bed, Ning also went to take a shower, his hair was still wet when he came out, Qi Xuanlou glanced at him, turned and went into the bathroom.Ning also thought that he had gone to take a shower, so he sat on the edge of the bed and wiped his hair while changing channels, and just listened to the news when he switched to any gossip program.Suddenly, he saw Qi Xuanlou coming out of the bathroom again, holding a hair dryer in his hand.He plugged the hair dryer by the bedside table, pulled the cord and stood beside Ning Ye, turned on the wind to test the temperature, grabbed the towel from Ning Ye's hand, and dried his hair silently.

It can't be said how gentle, but the strength of his hand is quite strong, Ning Ye's head has to be shaken with his hand even after pulling twice.It would be better to dry your hair by yourself after being blown so violently, and Ning didn't really want him to do it for you, so he reached out and motioned him to pass the hair dryer to her.

Qi Xuanlou stroked Ning Ye's hair, spread his five fingers to fix Ning Ye's head, and the sound of the hair dryer hummed: "Don't move around."

"Let me do it myself." Ning also said.

Qi Xuanlou turned off the hair dryer, and only the sound of TV programs remained in the room.He seemed to pause for a moment, and asked Ning Ye: "I can't be with you anymore... Please explain to me what the first one means again."

Ning didn't respond either: "What did you say?"

Qi Xuanlou turned on the hair dryer again, and the hot air blew on Ning Ye's hair, making it very comfortable.And he stopped talking.

Ning also thought about it carefully, and shivered in the hot wind.

Qi Xuanlou felt it keenly.

Ning Ye's hair is short, and it won't take long for her to blow it out.After Qi Xuanlou helped him blow it, he went to take a shower by himself, and when he came out, he saw that Ning was leaning on the bed and playing with his mobile phone, and the TV was still on, so he dried his hair again, tidied up briefly, and went to bed bed.

Ning also asked, "Are you ready to sleep?"

"Why, do you have anything else to do?" Qi Xuanlou was arranging the quilt while talking. It is still cold in winter. Although the air conditioner can raise the temperature, it cannot dry the wet and cold quilt.

Ning also shook his head, turned off the TV, put away the phone, turned off the bedside lamp on his side, slipped into the quilt and closed his eyes.

Seeing that he was really going to sleep like this, Qi Xuanlou became angry for nothing that night.He didn't want to wait so vaguely for Ning Ye to pretend to be peaceful again in the morning, and he also lay down, with the quilt covering his chest, his arms outside the quilt, and turned around to face Ning Ye: "Hey, don't pretend to be asleep. Now, turn around and talk to me."

Ning didn't want to chat with him either: "Sleep and stop talking, you're sleepy."

"Sleep late today and wake up late tomorrow, can't you?" Qi Xuanlou held Ning Ye's shoulders to make him turn around, "Anyway, it's a holiday, and I don't have to get up early to work."

Ning was also shaken by him so that he couldn't sleep at all, so he simply broke the jar and turned around to face Qi Xuanlou.The bedside lamp on Qixuanlou's side was still on, while the one on Ningye's side had already been turned off. The hazy yellow light hit Ningye's face through Qixuanlou, with a kind of softness.

He looked straight at him, and he seemed to be non-aggressive.

Qi Xuanlou stretched out a finger and slid it across Ning Ye's face, the lines were not very pretty, but he didn't know why it was so fascinating.

"I thought about it all night, you have never been with me, why did you say you can't be with me anymore." Qi Xuanlou's voice was not high, deep and magnetic, and his emotions were not very agitated, like It's small talk, "Tell me, when did you feel that you were with me? At that time, I was young, and I didn't know how to read people's faces and take care of people's emotions. Did I accidentally hurt you? "

Ning also sighed secretly, talking to Qi Xuanlou, he really couldn't miss a single word.

He didn't talk much all night, but he still thought about it.

Ning also shook his head: "I must have said something wrong, I mean that I can't be with you, there is no such thing as never again."

"Really? Then with your personality, you have already admitted that I am very attractive to you. Now you want to tell me that what you can't accept is the eyes of outsiders. Are you afraid that they will say that you like a man?" Qi Xuanlou stared at Ning Ye, with his back to the light, has eyes as sharp as an eagle, but is covered by his slightly squinted expression, "Even Ji Shaoheng has the courage to insist on long-distance relationships after coming out of the closet, don't you?"

Ning Ye also put his hands under the quilt, wrapping it so that only his head was exposed, and answered frankly and directly: "Yes, I don't."

…have no courage to be with you, much less courage to make your family sad because of you.

Qi Xuanlou said: "Why would you rather lie than talk to me frankly. How can you be so unfair to me?"

Ning also shook his head: "I won't lie to you, I really can't."

"How long do I have to wait?" Qi Xuanlou said, "Ten years? 20 years? Or a lifetime?"

Ning was also amused by the fact that he talked about a lifetime for granted, and smiled with a smile on his lips: "What do young people talk about for a lifetime..."

Qi Xuanlou leaned over to kiss him, and said in a superficial way: "Don't underestimate me. At worst, we will be bachelors for the rest of our lives, then I don't care. If I can lie with you like this for the rest of my life, I won't do anything. I feel very happy. Who said that only between men and women can be platonic."

"He has love anyway." Ning also retorted, "I don't like you, what are you doing with Plato and me? You can count as two bachelors at most."

"Just talking nonsense." Qi Xuanlou raised the corners of his mouth, "You admit that I moved your heart, what is it if it's not love?"

Clinging to this sentence endlessly, right?

Ning also said: "You are really good at self-discovery, you have now understood my rejection of you, I am not with you just because I want to have a spiritual relationship, and I don't want to have a physical relationship with you. is that so?"

Qi Xuanlou thought about it for a while, then nodded: "It's about the same. I thought about it all night, and I can't think of any other reason."

Ning Ye clasped the top of the quilt with his hands, rolled it in, and tucked the quilt so that it would not leak out: "I'll give you a reason and you listen to it. We fell in love smoothly in the previous life, but after a long time, you cheated , I'll assume it was a car accident when I died. So I will never be with you in this life. What do you think of this reason?"

Qi Xuanlou disagreed: "It's not good. I won't cheat. And our last life should be in the Qing Dynasty or the beginning of the Republic of China. How could cars be so popular."

"Who knows?" Ning also said, "Ji Shaoheng's high school boyfriend dumped him as soon as he entered college, and it wasn't a peaceful breakup. He cheated on him."

Qi Xuanlou still disagreed: "No, I'm sure I'm not that kind of person. Hey, don't you think it's too much to plan for a rainy day, because you are afraid that I will cheat in the future, so you refuse to fall in love with me, is that what you mean? But if you choose whoever you want to fall in love with, the other party may still cheat, how can you know that other men except me will never cheat."

I don't know about others, but I only know about you.

Seeing that Ning didn't speak, Qi Xuanlou felt that why he had to discuss this issue with Ning Ye, and it was not right to discuss cheating with him before dating: "Anyway, I don't know."

"Your father gave birth to that child outside, what's the situation now?" Ning also changed the subject.

"He's raised at my house." Qi Xuanlou mentioned his younger brother with no expression on his face, "When you transferred to Yucheng for the winter vacation, he was hugged by his mother to look for my mother when he was just born. My dad didn't think it was a big deal. , my mother should understand him. He and my mother promised to let that woman go, but he wanted the son, so my mother had to take care of the child herself. My mother is weak, and I persuaded her to divorce, but she refused, and my father wanted to I never thought that my mother would ask him for a divorce one day. Later, my mother took the child back and took care of it very carefully. I don't know if she feels that she can't count on me. "

"What about your dad? Your dad doesn't mind if you confess your sexuality to your family?" Ning Ye asked.

This time Qi Xuanlou smiled mockingly: "How could he not mind? But he also wants face. I have been the object of his showing off since I was a child, and I won the gold medal in the Olympiad. He talked about parenting and education in front of people. When I got home, I pointed at my nose and scolded me for messing with men. Didn’t your dad get promoted later? He wanted to use your family’s network but couldn’t get online. Later, he made up his mind to ask me to mention it to you, but I didn’t agree. , he scolded me for being useless, and no one wants to sell my ass. I went home twice in four years of college, and then started doing business in Luoan. I was spending money every day. When it was the most difficult time, I couldn’t even afford the next month’s salary, so I had to work hard. Later, my mother gave me some money, and my father didn’t need insurance this time. Someone gave me a loan, and finally got on the right track and started to see profits.”

"You probably won't believe me if I tell you." Qi Xuanlou thought of something and smiled, "I was just a little bit richer when you celebrated your freshman birthday, and I bought you a car with all the money on hand. You should save some for it. But at the time, I thought you would like that car, so I didn’t think about anything else when I bought it. Hey, what about that car?”

"In the garage at my parents' side." Ning Ye said casually, still thinking about those things after he left.

Qi Xuanlou pursed his lips again, and this time he smiled sincerely: "Last time you insisted on refunding me the check and said that the garage was sold. I thought you really sold it, but it turns out that you haven't."