not lonely

Since they broke up that day, the two seem to have fallen into an unknown vicious circle, secretly watching each other, but pretending not to care.During the meeting, I deliberately sat on the farthest opposite corner, but inadvertently peeked in the direction of the other party.

Occasionally, I met eyes, and immediately looked away, but the person who was already laughing in his heart turned his back on his back.

Laugh at your own posturing.Laugh at the other person's moodiness.In short, they are two fools.

So Fool Shen consciously lowered his face and sent WeChat to Fool Zhong,

"Don't be angry, Director Zhong, can I compensate you here?"

Zhong Qianyi replied with a pouting expression.

Shen Lu knew that this was a sign that the two of them had finally turned their fighting into friendship, so he happily made up a wechat and sent it over.

"I'll invite you to watch a movie tonight and apologize to the old man, okay?"

"Another day, I have to work overtime tonight."

"What's wrong?" Shen Lu frowned.

"It's not about the listing of subsidiaries yet. Our old friends brokers and auditors are coming again."

It was just in time for the Dragon Boat Festival holiday, and many colleagues from other places came to the company with their suitcases on that day.Ready to rush home non-stop after work.Zhong Qianyi didn't have any family members, and didn't plan to take advantage of the Dragon Boat Festival to go out for a walk. Thinking that the brokerage firm would come after the festival, she planned to work overtime for a few days to review the things she had to prepare.

Financial work is indeed boring, but after doing it for so many years, he has long been content with it.I kept flipping through the voucher report in my hand, and slowly forgot the time.

By the time he recovered from the work in hand, it was already dark outside.Only then did Zhong Qianyi feel hungry, so she got up and went to the box next to her to get a piece of bread and started to eat it.

Probably because it was stored for a long time, and Zhong Qianyi didn't pay much attention to the production date when he took it out. In short, it was too hard to swallow.Reluctantly swallowing the bread in his mouth, Zhong Qianyi was going to get a cup of coffee to refresh himself.

Passing by the office area of ​​the product center, only to find a slight light shining through the director's office.

Could it be that Du Mingcan hasn't left yet?

So Zhong Qianyi walked over in a strange way, and quietly peeked in through the slightly opened door.

Due to design, Du Mingcan's office was decorated in a unique style.Next to the desk is an irregular-shaped floor-to-ceiling bookcase, which is neatly filled with books. Next to the bookcase, there is a sunflower floor lamp. The soft light shines down on the rocking chair next to it.

At this moment, Du Mingcan was sitting on the rocking chair, lost in thought with a picture in his hand, his brows were slightly frowned, and the corners of his mouth drooped slightly.And the slight light he saw just now came from the sunflower floor lamp.

It was only then that Zhong Qianyi suddenly remembered that, except for the face-to-face meeting during the meeting, there was no news of Du Mingcan all day today.No meeting, no phone calls, no WeChat, not even msn for work.

Is Du Mingcan particularly busy today?But in the past, when he was so busy that he didn't even have time to eat, he would send Zhong Qianyi a WeChat message to report what he was doing when he was drinking water or going to the bathroom.

Something is wrong with Du Mingcan today.Thinking of this, he knocked lightly on the door, opened it and walked in.

Du Mingcan tilted his head when he heard the voice, saw Zhong Qianyi, and sat up from the reclining chair.

"Have you left yet?" Du Mingcan was a little surprised, and looked up at his watch, "It's past ten o'clock."

"You didn't leave either." Zhong Qianyi walked to him, watched him stand up, and said.

"Ah..." Du Mingcan smiled, "I'm a bit busy today, so... tomorrow is a holiday, I thought you wouldn't be working overtime."

"What are you looking at?" Zhong Qianyi looked down at the photo in Du Mingcan's hand.

That photo should be a bit old, and the edges are a little yellow.The image inside is not very clear, it is a young woman leading a child about seven or eight years old.The woman has a generous demeanor and smiles sweetly.Her delicate features, her gentle and virtuous appearance, were vividly captured through the blurry photos.

"This is..." Zhong Qianyi took the photo from Du Mingcan.

"My biological mother..."

"Ah..." Zhong Qianyi nodded, "The kid next to you is you. No wonder you look like a human being. It turns out that you have inherited good genes from your aunt."

Du Mingcan smiled, but said nothing.

"Have you eaten yet?" Zhong Qianyi returned the photo to Du Mingcan, "I treat you to dinner. I choked to death after eating a mouthful of bread. I really miss the kimchi soup at the Korean restaurant at the street corner."

"Director Zhong treats guests, even if I eat, I can have another meal."

"Be careful of becoming a pig, Du Mingcan." Zhong Qianyi laughed at him, and took the car keys from his desk. "Go with your car."

"it is good."

Du Mingcan ordered a table full of Korean-style fatty beef, pork belly, kimchi soup, bibimbap, and rice cakes. He wanted to eat Zhong Qianyi back to before liberation in one meal.

Zhong Qianyi propped his head on his hands in silence, watched Du Mingcan return the menu to the waiter with unsatisfactory expressions, and then turned around and ordered two bottles of soju with the waiter.

"He came by car, why are you drinking?" Du Mingcan stopped him.

"You drink, I open."

Du Mingcan was taken aback for a moment, then smiled.

The Korean beef was roasting sizzlingly in the grill pan, shining with spots of oil. Du Mingcan kept turning them over, while Zhong Qianyi ate rice with kimchi soup.

After a while, the meat was roasted. Du Mingcan took a plate and put the meat next to Zhong Qianyi, and he also picked a few pieces to eat.

During the whole process, Du Mingcan didn't say a word, suffocating Zhong Qianyi who was full of doubts and worries.

For a long time, the Du Mingcan he was familiar with always seemed to be in the deep tropical sun, without any shadows all over his body, but today, he made people feel like the cold wind and thick clouds before the typhoon passed through.

Facing him like this, Zhong Qianyi was flustered, worried, and at a loss.

"Mingcan...are you...unhappy today?"

Du Mingcan stopped the hand holding the meat, looked up at him, "So obvious?"

Zhong Qianyi nodded.

Du Mingcan picked up all the cooked meat and put it on Zhong Qianyi's plate. Instead of adding new ones, he picked up the wine glass next to him and drank it all in one gulp, as if he wanted to swallow up all the emotions that haunted him all day. Digest it in the stomach.

"It was a little bit, but because you cared so much about me...so much better."

"Mingcan...what's wrong?"

"Xiao Yi, ten years ago today, I lost someone who was very, very important to me..." Du Mingcan took a sip of his wine, lowered his head and said calmly.The shadow cast by the mottled light covered his face, Zhong Qianyi couldn't see clearly, and he didn't know that he was crying quietly.

But for some reason, seeing Du Mingcan who lowered his eyebrows and said nothing, Zhong Qianyi felt that the pain of loss also burned him.

"Xiao Yi, you can't imagine that when I was young, I was such a withdrawn person. I didn't like to smile, and I wrinkled my face every day. The classmates in school were afraid of me and didn't play with me. Because it was lonely without friends at that time, I often mischievously hoped to get everyone's attention. So the teacher didn't like me. I remember a classmate fell down the stairs when I was in school, and I happened to be beside him. So the teacher thought I was the one who pushed him down, but I didn't admit it, I didn't admit my mistake, so they called my parents to the school.

"They told my parents fiercely that I would affect other students at school, saying that I was a hindrance to the school. I tried my best to explain, but no one believed it. My father apologized to that classmate and paid for the medical expenses. The whole process was livid Face, I know, I embarrass him, he has never been so embarrassing.

"But my mother didn't. When we went home, my father was so angry that he wanted to beat me. My mother stopped me. She said that she believed in her son and would not do such a thing.

"My mother is not in good health, so she can't take good care of me like other mothers. She can't even hug me for too long. My father is busy with work. I grew up with a nanny. In fact, I hate it a little Hers. But at that moment, she was the only one in the whole world who believed in me unconditionally.

"Xiaoyi, do you know why I like you? I remember the first time we met, your unconditional trust in Liao Tongxun made me so familiar...I'm jealous, I'm going crazy..."

Du Mingcan raised his head, his normally radiant eyes were now full of tears.He poured another glass of wine and swallowed it whole, and wiped the tears from his face with his hands.

Zhong Qianyi froze in place, feeling as sad as a needle prick in her heart.He twisted his face and reached out to grab Du Mingcan's clenched fist on the table. He was so choked up that he couldn't speak, he could only murmur the name of the person in front of him.

He called him, "Mingcan..."

He didn't answer, and continued to speak lightly.

"Later I told her that I had no friends and that I was lonely. She explained that Chan, you have to smile often, you are very handsome and warm when you smile. If you smile more at others, they will like to make friends with you very much.

"Then I slowly started not to keep a straight face all day long. I slowly chatted with others with a smile, and slowly told some jokes to my classmates that I saw everywhere, and sometimes I even heard interesting things and saw them. Funny scenes will make you laugh out loud without any image.

"During that time, I really had a lot of friends. We played basketball and ran together. Some little girls even secretly gave me gifts and love letters. It was a wonderful feeling to be with someone who missed me.

"Later, her condition became more and more serious. When she was dying, she told me not to cry. He said that my smile was very beautiful, and it was the sunniest smile she had ever seen. No matter how sad things are, don't cry. ...I really didn't cry after that...when he left...I didn't even cry...

"But I really want to cry now, Xiaoyi...I miss her so much..."

I don't know if it was the effect of alcohol, or Du Mingcan's longing was too tormenting, so he lay down on the table and sobbed.

In the human heart, there is sunshine on one side and sadness on the other.Du Mingcan turned the sunshine into a smile that was always on his face, but hid the sadness in his heart.Zhong Qianyi looked at Du Mingcan who was trembling, how could he not feel distressed.

He stood up and walked behind Du Mingcan, bent down and pressed against Du Mingcan's back silently, put his hands around his waist, put his face on his shoulder, and hugged him in his arms.

"Ming Can," Zhong Qianyi stabilized his tense tone, he wanted to say something to comfort him, but when the words came to his lips, he didn't know how to say them.

He had heard Du Mingcan say so many love words, tactful, straightforward, affectionate, and angry, but at this moment, he couldn't find a word that could make the person in front of him no longer so sad.

He suddenly hated his clumsy language.

"Ming Can," Zhong Qianyi whispered into his ear, "You don't have to laugh all the time. You cry when you're sad, curse when you're angry, don't talk when you're tired, and don't talk when you're embarrassed." Don't force yourself. You are Du Mingcan, it doesn't matter if you laugh or cry, you are fierce or silent, as long as you are Du Mingcan, someone who really likes you will never leave you, and will not be willing leave you alone."

If he loves you, loves you from the bottom of his heart, even if you hide a knife in your smile, it will be like a spring breeze to him.Even if you are unsmiling and seem to reject others thousands of miles away, he is willing to travel thousands of miles to make you happy.Even if your sharp words hurt his heart, he is willing to warm your cold words with the fullest warmth from the bottom of his heart.

He loves to laugh at you, cry at you, get angry with you, and make trouble for no reason.He loves you, every one of you.

So you can cry to him, lose your temper, make trouble for no reason, and ignore him.He will never leave you.

But is there such a love in this world that is inclusive of everything?

Of course, for example, the woman in the photo is in love with Du Mingcan.

Another example is the love they can give each other after a long, long time.

Du Mingcan was so moved that he turned his head and hugged him back. Because Zhong Qianyi was standing bent over, Du Mingcan sat on the chair and poked his head just to touch his shoulder.Due to his height, Du Mingcan never looked up to Zhong Qianyi.At this moment, he suddenly felt that Zhong Qianyi in front of him, who was obviously thin and thin, was unusually warm and tall.

"Then do you like me?" Du Mingcan leaned his head on Zhong Qianyi's shoulder and asked softly.

Like it?

That night Zhong Qianyi finally replaced the answer with silence.

Later, Du Mingcan thought about it more than once, remembering what Zhong Qianyi said that night.She wondered if Zhong Qianyi could answer him at that time, would she not be willing to leave him, would not be willing to let him be alone in the end.

Zhong Qianyi is a liar through and through.

"Xiao Yi... accompany me home for the Dragon Boat Festival..."