not lonely

Monday morning is the regular business meeting time, today Shen Lu needs to do business analysis at the meeting, so he came earlier than usual.Turn on the computer and projector, plug in the USB flash drive, and get all the work done before getting bored to pick up the coffee.

During the period, he passed by the office of the general manager in charge of finance, and suddenly Zhong Qianyi's name floated out of it, which aroused Shen Lu's curiosity for no reason, and stopped in his tracks.

Inside were the voices of the two bosses talking, which came indistinctly.

"I used to have Xiaoyi staring at me, so I didn't feel that there were so many things going on. Now that he's sick, and the few below are not very successful, I'm under a lot of pressure here." The voice of the chief financial officer was a little tired.

"By the way, how is his condition? Didn't you go to see him before?"

"Hey, the situation is not very optimistic. I had a fever when I went there, and I was so thin that I didn't look good."

The coffee in Shen Lu's hand suddenly fell to the ground, and the splashed liquid stained his shoes.He pushed open the leader's office door regardless of everything, and said in what he thought was the most plain tone, "You just said... Zhong Qianyi... what's wrong?"

Obviously, the voice was too trembling to be heard, but he still lied to himself that he must have heard it wrong.

The leaders were taken aback. Looking at the panicked Shen Lu in front of them, it took a while to realize that he was asking Zhong Qianyi, "Aren't you on good terms with Zhong Qianyi? He didn't tell you?"

Shen Lu remembered the situation when Zhong Qianyi said goodbye to him that day, the expression on Du Mingcan's face when he said to him, "No matter what, Zhong Qianyi hopes you are well", and Du Mingcan hid in the smoking area with packs of cigarettes. look.

I didn't expect such a reality to reach my ears in this way.

The whole world knows, only I am a fool.

Zhong Qianyi, how could you treat me like this?

He quickly dialed the string of numbers, and he wanted to ask that person why he did this to him.

The phone rang for a long time before it was answered, not the voice he had missed for a long time.

"Hi, Shen Lu, I'm Mingcan."

"Where's Zhong Qianyi?"

"It's not convenient for him to answer the phone right now, is there something wrong?" Mingcan's voice was a little hoarse.

"Ask Zhong Qianyi to answer the phone, I have something to ask him." Shen Lu finally shouted out impatiently, as if he wanted to drive away the ever-growing fear in his heart.

"I'm sorry, it's really inconvenient for him now. If you have anything to do, you can tell me first. If it's okay, I'll hang up first."

"Du Mingcan!" Shen Lu suddenly yelled into the phone, "You and Zhong Qianyi, you bunch of liars, how long are you going to hide from me?"

Mingcan on the phone was stunned.

"I already know... Mingcan...I beg you, let him answer the phone." Shen Lu was on the phone, sobbing uncontrollably.

It took a long time, so long that Shen Lu thought that Mingcan on the opposite side had hung up the phone, only then did he hear a rustling voice through the microphone, Du Mingcan's voice with a whimper.

"Shen Lu, if you want to see him, come to the People's Hospital. Right now...it's really inconvenient for him to answer the phone..."

An ominous premonition rushed straight into Shen Lu's mind, and he rushed out without even thinking about it.

In the hospital, Mingcan walked into the ward after hanging up the phone, looked at his lover who was motionless and asleep on the bed, tears rolled down his cheeks, as if he was expressing endless despair.

Zhong Qianyi has been in a coma for a whole week.A strong sense of unease surrounds Du Mingcan.He didn't know when his little art would wake up, or if he would wake up again.

"I really can't hold on anymore, Xiaoyi, I have been holding on before, I told myself that I can't be too sad, I told myself that I want to set an example for you, a strong example, let you Hold on, but I really...really can't hold on anymore...Xiaoyi...I'm scared, I'm going crazy with fear."

From the moment he learned of Zhong Qianyi's condition, Du Mingcan was going crazy.

"Xiaoyi... get up, can you get up? I beg you... Zhong Qianyi... get up..." Du Mingcan grabbed Zhong Qianyi's knuckle-protruding hand and spoke intermittently.

He intermittently talked about the infinite panic in his heart, he knew that if his Xiaoyi could hear his voice, he would not be willing to leave him so easily.So he kept talking about the past, the present, and the future.

How could he leave all of this so easily.

Not long after, Liao Tongxun's voice sounded at the door, seeming to be arguing, Du Mingcan didn't want to pay attention,

"You go, Shen Lu, my brother doesn't want to see you." Liao Tongxun supported the wall with one hand, blocking Shen Lu's way.

"Liao Tongxun, get out of the way, I have something to ask him."

"He can't answer you now, maybe in the future...he won't be able to answer you either..."

Shen Lu felt his whole body froze, and after a long time, he asked persistently, "Liao Tongxun, you... what do you mean?"

"Brother Shen Lu...Brother Xiao Yi...he has been in a coma for a week..."

"I can't save him, I can't save him...I can't save him..." Liao Tongxun beat the wall hard with his hands, tears streaming down his face. "He doesn't want you to know, he's afraid that you're worried, he's afraid...he's afraid that you're unhappy..."

"Don't make him worry, okay? Let him feel at ease, okay? He might...he might..."

Shen Lu couldn't hold it anymore and fell to the ground.

He didn't dare to think about what would follow after the so-called "he might".

"I've given up. I won't force him to be with me anymore. As long as he is good, I will admit that he likes Du Mingcan. As long as he can be good..." Liao Tongxun also sat down on the ground as if exhausted, and continued the preface He said without saying anything.

"I only have this wish, why... why can't it be fulfilled..."

No fighting or grabbing, as long as he is good.I am willing to bet my good luck in this life, even if I hide in this shabby room, have no food to eat, no sleep at night, no cover for life, no hole for death.I also wish him well.

"Let me take a look at him, just one look, and I'll go. Just pretend...just pretend I never knew about it..."

After a long time, the door of the ward opened,

"Come in, Xiaoyi is waiting for you."

It was Du Mingcan who spoke, just now, Zhong Qianyi quietly opened his eyes.

When he opened his eyes and looked at the emaciated lover in front of him, Zhong Qianyi really thought that he had already lived with him until he was an octogenarian.

I have a dream of being a white-haired fisherman with you. If it cannot be realized, at least let me wave goodbye to you personally.

Shen Lu sat in front of Zhong Qianyi's hospital bed, looking at the person he loved for a long time.

Thin pale cheeks, bloodless lips, bony hands.He didn't like Zhong Qianyi in front of him at all.

"If you were like this when I knew you, I would definitely not have taken a fancy to you." Shen Lu shook his head suddenly and said.

Zhong Qianyi grinned feebly, he didn't have the strength to say too much.

"I know you just woke up, you have no strength, you don't need to talk, just listen to me." Shen Lu moved his head closer to Zhong Qianyi, "Xiaoyi, don't worry, I will be fine and talk to Song in a down-to-earth manner." Hai Chuan is together, work hard and make money. As for me, I want to be the best buddy of your life, the kind who come out to drink and sing together when I have nothing to do. It’s not the kind of drinking and meat friends around Liao Tongxun. I just want to talk and resolve. The troublesome kind."

Zhong Qianyi nodded slightly.Listen to Shen Lu continue.

"If you have trouble with Du Mingcan...Of course, it is unlikely that he will follow you like that...I can scold him with you, or beat him. Look at you, you are not taller than others, If there is a fight, I still need my help..."

Zhong Qianyi chuckled.

"Also..." Shen Lu sniffed, turned back unnaturally to wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and did not look at Zhong Qianyi with wandering eyes, for fear that he would see his reddened eye sockets. The boss is still talking about you, saying that you are a flower in the finance department, a pillar. Those people under you can't stand up to the table. I also find it very difficult to communicate with them. When will you return..."

Zhong Qianyi stared at the way Shen Lu was holding back his tears, but finally couldn't bear it, and stretched out his hand to hold him, "Shen Lu...I'm sorry."

Shen Lu heard his voice that he had not seen for a long time, but the voice that was so pleasant in the past, now sounded as if he was angry.

Tears, finally unable to bear the loneliness, slipped down.

"I'm sorry, but it's not enough to make up for the harm you did to me, Zhong Qianyi," Shen Lu sniffed, wiped his tears with his hands, and deliberately put on an unforgiving look, "When you get better, I will You picked an auspicious day to invite guests from all over the world to apologize to me face to face. Do you think saying sorry will cover up your crime of lying to me without saying goodbye?"

Zhong Qianyi grinned, "Sure, as long as I don't choose an auspicious day to invite guests from all over the world to marry you, everything will be fine..."

"Zhong... Qian... Yi..."

I'm not a doctor, I can't cure your pain, I'm not a god, I can't keep you happy and safe, I'm not a lover, I can't keep you day and night.I am just the friend beside you who cares about you, and I just want to give you the most appropriate love at a distance that is not too far away.

Like the stars at night, they are clearly far away, but they are still far away.

We are all, little stars in the sky.

Every time Zhong Qianyi wakes up with difficulty from sleep, it seems to switch the appetite of the elephant.

Because the doctor emphasized that Zhong Qianyi's various organs became very weak after his narrow escape this time, and he could only eat light and digestible food such as rice porridge and noodles, so Liao Tongxun deliberately ran home to use his poor cooking skills Cooked clear soup noodles for Zhong Qianyi for three days.Not to mention the clear soup with little water, the appearance is really unsightly.

On the fourth day, Du Mingcan finally couldn't bear it any longer, so he had to let Liao Tongxun here to stare at Zhong Qianyi, and he went home to make delicious food for him.

Liao Tongxun pouted in anger, complaining that Zhong Qianyi had no conscience, and that he was disgusted by others after working hard in the kitchen.

Zhong Qianyi smiled and said nothing, turned around and took out something at the bedside, and handed it to Liao Tongxun.

"what is this?"

"Look for yourself. Let you know if your brother and I are really heartless."

It was the real estate certificate of Zhong Qianyi's house, and the name of the holder was Liao Tongxun.

"People say that elder brothers are like fathers. Although I am not your real brother, I really treat you as my real brother. When you get married in the future, I will give you a big gift no matter what... After all... I owe you... and you My sister has such a big affection..." Zhong Qianyi scratched her head, "Although you are not short of money now, but brother knows that the entertainment industry is not good. If you can't bear the pressure someday and don't want to do it, at least There is a place to live…”

Liao Tongxun stared blankly at the small notebook in front of him for a long time before shaking his head.

"Zhong Qianyi, what do you mean? You're about to explain the funeral, right? You arrange Shen Lu, me, and Du Mingcan, and you'll have nothing to worry about, and you're ready to die, right?"

"Tong Xun, you have misunderstood. In fact, this house will be yours sooner or later. It is better for me to give it to you now than to give it to you later..."

He said it very implicitly, but Liao Tongxun immediately understood what he meant.

Very good, Zhong Qianyi really knows what words hurt people the most, and he is the best at stabbing people in the bottom of their hearts with a knife.

"Yeah, who wants to live in a house where someone has died? Is that what you mean?" Liao Tongxun sneered and stood up, "I'm telling you, Zhong Qianyi, don't always make up your own mind. Frozen to death on the street penniless, I don’t want you to make any bullshit will, I’m not your younger brother, and I never treat you as an older brother..."

"Tong Xun..."

"What do I need, don't you know?"

How could he not know.But the manpower is too small, he is afraid that what he needs, he will not be able to do it in the end.So I can only pick the easiest thing to do, to alleviate my debt to him that I can't repay.

Zhong Qianyi's distressed expression stung Liao Tongxun's eyes, and he could only shake his head helplessly.

What else do you care about?Right now that person is already sick like this, he can arrange whatever he likes, he can do whatever he likes, how long he can do as he pleases.

"Okay, Brother Yi, I'll listen to you. I'll listen to whatever you say. We won't argue or quarrel anymore." Liao Tongxun stepped forward to hug Zhong Qianyi, his nose and tears fell on his sick number take it.

Zhong Qianyi hugged him back, and patted his back comfortingly. His ailing body seemed to be much more comfortable.

Probably this is the last thing he can do for Liao Tongxun.Even if it was cruel, Zhong Qianyi hoped that he would accept it.

He owed him, owed him for a lifetime.

Not long after, there was a knock on the door. Liao Tongxun opened the door with red eyes, thinking that it must be Du Mingcan who came over after cooking, so he lowered his head for fear that he would see his embarrassing appearance.

Unexpectedly, it was a strange face.

"Who are you?"

"Ah... you kid, you should be... Liao Tongxun." The visitor looked like he had met him late, and patted Liao Tongxun's shoulder familiarly, "I often hear Brother Xiaoyi mentioning you... .As expected... very cute..."

After all, he couldn't put it down and pinched Liao Tongxun's cheek. In fact, he himself was about the same size as Liao Tongxun.

Liao Tongxun slapped his hand off with a quick reaction, "Who is so... who is cute... tell me clearly... who are you, you... are we familiar... why are you pinching?" My face?" I'm obviously handsome, okay?Sword eyebrows and star eyes, sharp edges and corners, white teeth and bright eyes, these are the adjectives to describe me, okay?Cute, what the hell is cute?

"I'm not familiar, but I'm familiar with the person on the bed." The visitor walked sideways into the ward, and walked towards Zhong Qianyi who was on the bed.

"Happy!" Zhong Qianyi didn't seem surprised at all, she opened her arms on the bed to give the man a hug, but unexpectedly, the man was pulled away by Liao Tongxun's quick eyes and hands.

"Hey, hey, stay away from my brother, and be careful not to press him down."

The visitor was not annoyed, he stepped forward and shook Zhong Qianyi's hand, sat on the side of his bed, looked at Zhong Qianyi carefully, then curled his mouth and frowned, and wrinkled his face. She asked with a sad face, "Brother Xiaoyi, why have you lost so much weight..."

Zhong Qianyi looked at his wrinkled face, couldn't help laughing, and didn't answer his question, "Get down to business."

"You tell me, it's done. Only then did Gao Huan remember the main purpose of this trip, and said with a sigh.

Zhong Qianyi leaned forward happily, not looking sick at all, "Where is the thing?"

"Seeing how anxious you are," Gao Huan rolled his eyes at him, "I'll send it over tomorrow, why don't I come over to see you first if I'm not in a hurry."

Zhong Qianyi smiled embarrassedly, Liao Tongxun looked at him with a shy smile, thinking where did this moth come from?Didn't brother Xiao Yi empathize with each other?Are you planning to dump Du Mingcan?Of course he was happy to dump Du Mingcan, but he couldn't take advantage of this nigger?Which onion is he?

"Thank you, Huan."

"You have to thank me very much. You know that I have used all the beauty tricks for you. How many things have been ruined for me."

But for your last little wish, I am not afraid to overcome obstacles.

It just so happened that Du Mingcan brought food here at this time, so Zhong Qianyi sent Gao Huan back to the hotel to catch the jet lag, and also sent Liao Tongxun to take Gao Huan to eat some local specialties nearby.

As for Zhong Qianyi, she was eating a sweet lunch made by her lover and fell asleep soundly.

Du Mingcan tiptoed out of the ward, closed the door gently for Zhong Qianyi, and walked to his attending physician's office.

When the meal was delivered just now, we met each other.Looking at the lunch box he carried with him, the doctor knew that it was for Zhong Qianyi, so he told him to come to him when Zhong Qianyi finished eating.

"Doctor Zhao," Du Mingcan gently knocked on the door.

"Mr. Du." The owner of the hospital, who is nearly fifty years old, looked up from the case, "Come, come and sit."

Du Mingcan opened the door and entered, and sat down beside Dr. Zhao.

"Why did you come to me? Is it because of Xiaoyi's illness..."

"Mr. Du, it's like this. Xiaoyi came to see me today and told me a lot..." Dr. Zhao poured a glass of water for Du Mingcan and put it in front of him, "I've known Xiaoyi for so many years. It's not just the relationship between a doctor and a patient, it's more like a friendship between two year-end friends..."

Du Mingcan nodded.

"When you were away yesterday, we had a chat, and we chatted in the most rational way." Dr. Zhao thought about his words, fearing that too aggressive words would be the last straw that broke the camel's back, and he immediately gave a speech to the person in front of him. The man made a fatal blow, "You know, Mr. Du, I'm a doctor, and I know my patients best, and Xiao Yi knows everything about her own situation. He's afraid that you won't be able to bear some facts, so he pretends to be Everything is fine, but we all know that his narrow escape this time is a miracle at all. I can't guarantee whether there will be a next time, nor can I guarantee that if there is a next time, he will be like this time, Turning bad luck into good luck, but if there is such a day, his last days are spent in the hospital, will he be very regretful?"

"You mean...let us leave the hospital?" Du Mingcan asked with a trembling voice.

"From a doctor's point of view, I would definitely refuse you to leave the hospital. Even yesterday, before he came to me, any idea of ​​letting him be discharged would be rejected by me righteously," Dr. Zhao choked slightly, speaking There was a strong nasal voice, "But do you know that even as a doctor with decades of clinical experience, my perception and understanding of the disease will never be equal to the patient's..."

"I used to think that science was the only and the most effective way to treat illnesses, but yesterday I found out that I was wrong...Xiao Yi is in pain now, really very painful, suffering from illness, torture from treatment, and watching The torment without hope is constantly torturing him. But he can't tell you, and he can't tell the other kids, if he hadn't known him for so long, he probably wouldn't even be able to tell me..."

"Why...why did this happen...?" Du Mingcan clenched his fists tightly, his knuckles turning white.

"Actually, for him, the current treatment is just to passively maintain his vital signs. However, for this, he has to bear the side effects of many treatments. In fact, we all know in our hearts that such passive procrastination is just to continue his pain. Extending it will not solve the essential problem at all.”

"Really...Really...There is no other way..." Du Mingcan was stunned for a long time, then swallowed with difficulty, and asked in a hoarse voice.

Dr. Zhao sighed in embarrassment, and shook his head, "Actually, after Xiaoyi came to me yesterday, I was very conflicted and embarrassed. On the one hand, the doctor's professional ethics does not allow me to tell you this. Now his situation, he is discharged from the hospital. , It's really too dangerous... But... But that child is so young, I really can't bear to let him waste his last time in the hospital..."

After hearing this, Du Mingcan sat in a daze for a long time, then stood up staggeringly, nodded to Dr. Zhao, bowed slightly, opened the door and walked out.

His mind was filled with two voices, constantly circling.

Do you pursue the momentary pleasure desperately, or stick to the unpredictable salvation step by step?To give up, or to persist?

How can, how can give up.

If there is no such person as Zhong Qianyi in this world, how will those memories, those loves, those reveries about the future be put away?

Du Mingcan ran out of the hospital building as if fleeing, and wept uncontrollably in the corner of the garden.

Not far behind him, Gu Zeyang looked at Du Mingcan's figure twitching from crying, hesitated for a long time, and finally stepped forward, hugged him from behind, softly called his name, and told him, Mingcan, it was me.

I am where you can see when you turn around, but you never look at me.

Du Mingcan took Gu Zeyang to visit Zhong Qianyi in the ward. He had just heard the news of Zhong Qianyi's illness, so he immediately flew back to the country, put down his luggage and rushed over.Zhong Qianyi yelled to eat dragon fruit, so she called Du Mingcan to buy it, but actually just wanted to have a few words with Gu Zeyang alone.

Zhong Qianyi was very happy to see him, and pointed to the stool beside the bed for him to sit on.

The first time they met after a long absence was actually in the hospital, which made both of them a little bit embarrassed.Gu Zeyang pursed his lips and wanted to hug him, but he was confused by the IV stand next to him and didn't know what to do, so he gently shook his free hand.

"Brother Xiaoyi..." Gu Zeyang felt sad, but he didn't know what to say when he opened his mouth.

"Daredevil, didn't you lose your luggage this time?" Zhong Qianyi teased him, "Every time you get off the plane, you rush to the hospital. You really take care of this."

"You still have the nerve to say it? Think of me as the head of the house, come in and live here every now and then. You can also follow Du Mingcan's example, or I can also follow my example. The strong one is like a cow, born to break The hospital’s source of income. Not like you, old and weak, contributing to the hospital all day long.”

Zhong Qianyi laughed at him, he was skinny and cow-like, at best he was a snail.

Still a snail.

"Actually, I'm quite envious of you, Zeyang."

"Ah?" Gu Zeyang was lowering his head to peel oranges for him, when he heard this, he looked up at him.

"Actually, it's all my fault. If I hadn't been too unsteady at the beginning, maybe you and Mingcan could both be happy. I don't have to be as timid and afraid as I am now, like an ostrich, not daring to move forward."

"What are you talking about..." Gu Zeyang stopped what he was doing and frowned.

"In fact, I knew my situation well from the very beginning, so I didn't dare to start a relationship rashly. I was just afraid that in today's situation, neither of us can withdraw freely. When my mother left... ...I know how broken my dad is. If it weren't for me at the time, I guess my dad wouldn't be able to last that long..."

Gu Zeyang didn't speak, and lowered his head to hold back the sadness in his heart.

"Mingcan is an emotional person. He always smiles on weekdays, but the more sunny he looks, the easier it is to bury his emotions in his heart. These days, I see him being haggard every day, but he still faces it with a smile. The way I look, I feel distressed..."

"Brother Yi, you have to persevere, and for Mingcan, you have to persevere... You two still have a long way to go together, don't let go, you can't let go..."

"Zeyang," Zhong Qianyi shook his head, and suddenly burst into tears, "You know, I'm actually very reluctant, very unwilling. I've actually planned a lot of things we're going to do together in my heart, and I really want to I have been walking with him. I am actually very small-minded. I don’t want anyone to approach him, and I don’t want anyone to like him. I think he is only me. I am the only one who knows how good he is. I actually envy you very much, especially Jealous of you, why you can be with him for so long, why you can continue to be with him, watch him, stay with him, even if it is not a lover, but just a friend, but I... but I... just It can only pass in a flash in his life, and after a while, there will be no shadow left..."

"But seeing his forced smile, all I thought was, it would be great if I didn't know him, it would be great if I didn't start, and it would be great if the person next to him was you..."

"I know I'm very selfish, and I've never considered a single thing for you, but Zeyang, as my brother's only request, you stay with him, love him well for me, and give him everything I can't give him. Give it to him, okay?"

Unable to restrain the great pain in his heart, Gu Zeyang got up and sat on Zhong Qianyi's hospital bed, wrapped his arms around his neck, rested his head on his chest, wiped the messy tears on his face on his clothes, and the tears stopped Can't stop falling down.

"Don't talk about it, Zhong Qianyi, no one can help you watch him, your own people, you take care of yourself, stay by his side with your eyes wide open and take care of him... I don't have the ability, the energy, or the energy. Take care of him for you, you have to be good, do you hear, you can't just throw him to me, I don't want you to give him to me, if I like it, I will grab it myself, I will fight with you, Don't be smart enough to throw him at me, I don't want... Zhong Qianyi, did you hear me, I don't want..."

Outside the door, Du Mingcan fell down on the floor of the corridor, biting his lips with sobs, bleeding from the bite, and stopped the crying that was about to burst out.Today, Zhong Qianyi's heart, he only fully understands the truth.

Why does he hesitate to accept his feelings, why does he suddenly burst into tears while watching a movie, why does he push himself out intentionally or unintentionally, why does he always worry about gains and losses.

He always felt that in this relationship, the love he gave to Zhong Qianyi was much more than what he received. It belonged to the selfishness and possessiveness in love, which only existed on his side, but he didn't expect that Zhong Qianyi In fact, Yi is also in love with him equally. That selfish, domineering, exclusive heart of Du Mingcan is only surrounded by layers of his worries about the future, which Du Mingcan cannot see or guess.He was left alone and helpless, bearing silently.

Because I love too much, I dare not love.

But Zhong Qianyi, do you know, you don’t need to envy, don’t be jealous, don’t need to be reluctant, don’t need to be unwilling, don’t let anyone look at me for you, don’t worry that you won’t be able to walk with me and stand, don’t be confused, know the destiny, ancient times, don’t Worried that I will forget you after I leave. .

Because I only need you, and I only have you, because I will never leave you, and I really can't leave you,

Wherever you go, I follow you.You are small-bellied, you are selfish, so apart from you I cannot let anyone approach me, no one else likes me, and it is even more impossible for anyone to accompany me.

I am your Du Mingcan, only yours.

After more than three months, Zhong Qianyi got his wish and returned home.I don't know why Du Mingcan suddenly enlightened his soul and agreed to let him go out of the hospital, but he can't think so much for the time being, so let's let him go.Right now, smelling the familiar smell at home and looking at everything that Du Mingcan has carefully crafted for him, he regained the feeling of being alive again.

Except for the shorter time of being together, in fact, he has no regrets.

"Mingcan, please draw me a picture." Zhong Qianyi took his hand and said.

Du Mingcan responded with a smile, without a trace of hesitation, without a trace of fear, he was relieved after he had figured it out.

Whether he was discharged from the hospital or painting, whatever Zhong Qianyi thought of, he did what he wanted.As long as they can't be separated, there will be no ghosts, monsters, ghosts, ghosts and snakes in this world that can defeat them.

"Mingcan, let's go on a trip and take a lot of photos~"

"Okay, haven't you been clamoring to go surfing?"

On the way to the airport, Zhong Qianyi had already fallen asleep in the back seat, and Du Mingcan looked back at him from time to time while driving.

He knew that it was a gamble that he agreed to bring Zhong Qianyi out.A bet that won't win.

The place that Zhong Qianyi misses, the place that he would regret for the rest of his life if he didn't go there, the place where he said he would stay in his next life.

The beautiful memories of that moment are vivid in my mind, but it has become a knife stabbed in my heart at this moment.

"No surfing, no name tags together, no kissing at sunrise, no twin shells found at the bottom of the sea. Du Mingcan, we still have a lot of things we haven't done."

"We'll come back next year and make up for everything we haven't done."

"A word is settled!"

This beautiful island town has been endowed with so much love that it is hard to bear to leave.

Zhong Qianyi, you can't leave.

The plane was turbulent for three hours, and Zhong Qianyi lay on Du Mingcan's shoulder to catch up on sleep.Right now, he doesn't have much strength to stay awake, and he spends almost half of the day in a coma.But he still has to support himself, because there are many agreements with Du Mingcan that have not been completed yet.

If staying together for a long time is a promise that is doomed to be unfulfilled, we can only make his memories more beautiful before leaving.

"Xiaoyi, wake up, we are here." Du Mingcan woke up his lover who was not sleeping soundly.

"Where is this place?" Zhong Qianyi rubbed his sleepy eyes, looking around the dark surroundings.

"The Tower of Dawn. You didn't want to watch the sunrise."

"Yes, I'm looking forward to it." With that said, Zhong Qianyi was about to walk up the tower.

Du Mingcan stretched out his hand to hold him.Instead, she walked up to him and bent down slightly.

"I'll carry you up."

That's right, the tower is so high, Zhong Qianyi's current situation is absolutely unable to climb up by himself.

Zhong Qianyi gently lay on Du Mingcan's body, wrapping his arms around his neck. "Are you physically strong? Can you move me?"

Du Mingcan smiled wryly, obviously he was already so light that he seemed to have no weight at all.

Climbing up the stairs, each step echoed with a hollow echo.

Zhong Qianyi rested her head on Du Mingcan's shoulder, feeling his steady steps.Take him to the top step by step, as if walking to heaven.

On the top of the tower in early autumn, it was somewhat chilly. Du Mingcan took off his coat and put it on Zhong Qianyi, leaning his head on his shoulder. "Close your eyes and sleep for a while when you're tired. I'll call you at sunrise."

"Okay, remember to wake me up."

Du Mingcan stared sideways at his lover's sleeping face, the more he looked, the stronger the sense of happiness laced with fear.Strong enough to hold back the tears for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back the wanton venting.

There are lofty mountains in the distance, but he and Zhong Qianyi are in a corner.Just stay together like this, waiting for the time to clear the clouds and see the sun.

I am obviously very happy, but I am afraid that this happiness will be so short-lived, and I will not be able to hold him in my hand.

Time you wait for me, wait for me to love him well.Longer, longer.

"Xiaoyi, wake up..."

"Sunrise?"

"Well, look, how beautiful..."

"Ming Can..." Zhong Qianyi stared at the sun that was gradually rising above the ground in front of him, and turned to look at him, "When you see the sunrise in the future, remember that I love you."

He looked up and kissed his lips.

They went to the famous local Marriage Mountain in the afternoon of the second day, and there was an elegant pavilion of Gudu on the mountain.There lived an old couple who were nearly a hundred years old.They have lived on this mountain all their lives, and their descendants are full of children and grandchildren, loving each other and loving each other.Behind the pavilion is an ancient tree nearly a hundred years old, which was planted by the old couple when they were young. The tree is full of marriage signs of good men and believers, most of which are begging for a happy marriage.If you are in a good mood to drive the old couple, you can write your name and let them make a sachet. The two people engraved on the sachet can be carried together forever.

Du Mingcan took the stick in his hand, solemnly wrote down the names of the two people, and childishly drew a heart in the middle of the names.

"Du Mingcan Zhong Qianyi, hand in hand until old age."

Turning around to see what Zhong Qianyi was secretly writing on the bamboo stick, she couldn't help being curious.As soon as she was about to poke her head to look, Zhong Qianyi put it away and hid it in her arms.

"What did you write? Don't let me read it."

"I won't show it to you, let you, a curious baby, guess it yourself."

"It's just something like 'Du Mingcan loves Zhong Qianyi for a lifetime', 'forever united', 'grow old together' and the like. You can guess with your toes."

Zhong Qianyi was noncommittal, and smiled without answering.

"Mingcan, let's make a sachet."

"it is good."

The golden concubine's small flower sac is frowned, and the old fragrance is worn out on the chest.Whoever solves it for the king will have a lifetime of grudges.

I am a little selfish, I want you to always remember me.But I am a little scared, afraid that you will not forget me after all.

"The wish is fulfilled, let's go down the mountain." Zhong Qianyi carefully hung the sachet on his and Du Mingcan's clothes, like a child who has eaten candy.He happily took his lover's hand.

"Okay." Du Mingcan took him into his arms and hugged him tightly.

When the wind picked up, Du Mingcan felt the person in his arms tremble from the cold, so he took thick clothes from his backpack and helped him put them on, and carefully buttoned the buttons one by one, before supporting each other and walking down the mountain shuttle bus.

The wind blew up the bamboo stick that had just been hung on the tree, and Zhong Qianyi's delicate handwriting appeared vividly on it.

May all the gods in the world take care of my lover, be free from disease and calamity, and be safe every day.

On the last day of their stay on the island, they went to see the sky that they hadn't seen last time.Due to physical reasons, Zhong Qianyi's longing for surfing failed in the end.

"Go for me from now on." Zhong Qianyi comforted the frustrated Du Mingcan.

Du Mingcan pushed the wheelchair without saying a word.

"Ming Can..." Zhong Qianyi turned her head to look at her lover who was pushing her back, "Don't you want to know what I wrote on the stick on the mountain?"

"Oh, are you willing to reveal it?"

"Ah, because I think I may have to ask you for something."

Du Mingcan let out an "oh", stopped pushing the cart, walked sideways in front of Zhong Qianyi, squatted down and looked up at him.

"There is also a time when Director Zhong asks for help? Let's hear it."

Zhong Qianyi took out a thick A4 booklet from the backpack he was carrying, and handed it to Du Mingcan.

"This is the [-] most beautiful places in the world that people say. I took the pictures from the computer and put some text introductions next to them. In addition, I wrote some strategies. Of course, I found them all on the Internet. You... .Will you take a look for me?"

Du Mingcan immediately understood what Zhong Qianyi meant, and instantly felt a tearing pain in his heart.The issue that they had been avoiding was finally put on the agenda ruthlessly by time.

"Oh, okay. Let's go together when we have a chance next time."

"If...I mean if...I can't make it, you must do it for me, okay?"

Zhong Qianyi was afraid that if she left, Du Mingcan might lose hope of living.He always has to find a reason to persevere, and then let his obsessions fade away as time goes by day by day.

How could Du Mingcan not understand what he meant.

But he can't, he can't do it, the promise he made with himself, the promise he made to Xiaoyi in his heart, can't just be abandoned like this, he said he would always be with him, how could he be forced to live like this The shackles that go down, will not rest in peace in the tomb of longing?

"Don't treat me like this, Xiaoyi." Du Mingcan took his hand, "I can't take it...I really...will go crazy..."

"Just stick to it for me, okay?" Zhong Qianyi held his hand instead, and reached out to stroke his face, which was getting thinner, with distressed eyes. "There are too many beautiful things in this world, you can't give up, and you won't give up, right?"

Du Mingcan's tears flowed down silently, and he was unable to reply for a long time.

There are many majestic famous mountains and rivers in this world, magnificent sunset and sunrise, long history and culture, magnificent sea and blue sky.

But without you, the mountains and rivers have no spring, the sun and the moon have no brilliance, history has no roots, and the sea has no source.me, just