not lonely

Zhong Qianyi washed his face with cold water in the bathroom, trying hard to concentrate.

He wanted to go to Shen Lu to get some information required by the audit agency. Since it was marketing data, the marketing department needed to provide it.

Ever since he and Shen Lu started talking at KTV that day, the two haven't had much contact for a month.Things at work can also be made responsible by others, so let others be responsible.This time, because the managers and employees were exhausted from dealing with the audit, he went to ask Shen Lu himself.

Standing at the door of Shen Lu's office, Zhong Qianyi vigorously shook his dizzy head again.

After this period of audit is over, I really have to take a good rest.Zhong Qianyi shook her head with a wry smile and knocked on the door.

Shen Lu was sitting inside staring at the computer, when he saw Zhong Qianyi coming in, he was slightly taken aback, and continued with his work without saying hello.

Zhong Qianyi didn't urge him, she sat on the sofa and waited.

Keeping her head down and scrolling through Moments, she didn't notice Shen Lu's eyes turned several times and his hesitant expression.

After a long time, Shen Lu got up from his seat, handed him a document on the table, stared at his face for a while, and then said, "Your face is not very good, have you not slept well recently?"

Zhong Qianyi looked at Shen Lu flattered, God knows how long it has been since Shen Lu didn't take the initiative to talk to him.

"No, I just worked a lot of overtime recently."

Shen Lu nodded clearly, but still didn't smile, "Why don't we have lunch together."

Then Zhong Qianyi nodded like pounding garlic.

In fact, Zhong Qianyi had had a low-grade fever for more than half a month at that time, and it happened that Du Mingcan was on a business trip.I also took antipyretics, but it still didn't help.Zhong Qianyi knew that his situation was getting worse and worse, but he couldn't find any other way except to hold on.

Putting the materials back into the office with Shen Lu, Zhong Qianyi felt dizzy before he walked out of the company's gate, and Shen Lu in front of him became more and more blurred.I wanted to stretch out my hand to hold him, but I finally lost the strength and fell to the ground.Before his consciousness disappeared, he only saw Shen Lu's anxious face looking back, as expected of the person he had been secretly in love with for so long, so fucking handsome.

When I woke up, I was already in the hospital.Shen Lu's delicate sleeping face was beside him, breathing evenly.

Zhong Qianyi moved his hands lightly, not wanting to wake him up, but accidentally touched the IV bottle, the needle fell off his arm directly, and he made a "hiss" in pain, but it was self-defeating and woke up Shen Lu.

"Are you awake?" Shen Lu immediately lifted his spirits when he heard the voice, and turned to see the back of Zhong Qianyi's hand that was bleeding, "Why did you pull out the needle? The IV hasn't been finished yet." He said quickly Ring the call bell.

"I don't want to disturb you. I forget about it when I move."

Shen Lu looked at Zhong Qianyi's gloomy face, and he couldn't get angry. He was almost 30 years old and didn't know how to take care of himself.Making himself like this seemed to make Shen Lu look distressed on purpose.

"I'm old and young, how long do you have to worry about me?" Shen Lu glared at Zhong Qianyi, picked up Zhong Qianyi's mobile phone and handed it to him, "Your Du Mingcan called just now, and I answered it. I didn't say anything What happened to you in the hospital. Don't you tell him?"

"Don't tell him anymore." Zhong Qianyi took down his phone, "He is so far away, and he won't be able to come back in a while, so don't let him worry about it. Shen Lu, you can stay with me."

Shen Lu saw Zhong Qianyi's expression, which was pitiful and slightly coquettish, and knew that he must be very uncomfortable.Sighing lightly, he helped Zhong Qianyi to sit up. "Want something to eat? I'll buy it for you."

Zhong Qianyi shook his head lightly.

"I remember the first time I was hospitalized, when I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was you."

Shen Lu nodded, took an apple from the table and peeled it for him, and listened to him continue.

"At that time, I was very scared. Everything I saw was different from what I thought. I even regretted it a little. I thought it was not good at all to be able to see. Until you talked to me and I heard your voice, I just felt safe."

"And that time when I was in a car accident and almost died. When I couldn't get out of the car, the first thing I thought of was you. I wanted to call you, because I knew that as long as I heard your voice, I would I'm not afraid of anything anymore. I know I'm selfish and what I said to you on the phone made you so angry that you didn't even come to see me in the hospital."

Shen Lu continued to lower his head to peel apples, and buried his head very low so that Zhong Qianyi would not see his red eye sockets and twitching corners of his mouth.

"It's probably a habit. Every time I feel uncomfortable, as long as you are by my side, I feel at ease."

Ever since Shen Lu got drunk and uttered all the words in his heart to Zhong Qianyi that night, the two of them seldom spoke so confidingly.Zhong Qianyi understood that at this moment, he really shouldn't talk about this with Shen Lu, and he shouldn't let the relationship between the two of them become blurred again.But probably sick people are more fragile, he just wants to seek the most insignificant comfort, to comfort his painful and swollen body.

He was just afraid of that Shen Lu who always ignored him.

"Oh? What about Mingcan?" Shen Lu handed him the apple, controlled his emotions, and asked him pretending to be relaxed.

"He," Zhong Qianyi suddenly smiled sweetly, as if thinking of something happy, "Actually, for a while, I was conflicted. I didn't know if he was my salvation, but I was afraid that I would become his karma. In love, people will become fearless, but they will also become cautious, tolerant, caressing, selfless, and selfish. Love without desire and desire , But greed and monopoly is also love. I used to be very afraid, but now I am not afraid...We cherish the beauty and ugliness in those loves, even if we are not together, we can be strong to each other."

Shen Lu has never been able to forget Zhong Qianyi's expression when he said that sentence, a man who was too persistent and firm, and his feelings were too sincere and beautiful.So much so that Shen Lu often played back Zhong Qianyi's appearance at that moment in his heart, describing the happiness that did not belong to him.Every word and every sentence that is so vivid seems to have happened yesterday.

A long time later, he described the words of Zhong Qianyi to Du Mingcan. I don't know if the feelings were too sincere, or Shen Lu's description was too sensational. Du Mingcan couldn't help crying after hearing it.

That's right, even a supporting role like myself couldn't stop crying, let alone the protagonist of that story.

On the second day of hospitalization, Zhong Qianyi was asked by the attending physician to have a full body examination.

Since Shen Lu has been with the hospital all night, Zhong Qianyi forced him to go home to catch up on sleep, so at this moment, he is very glad that he is the only one in the ward right now, and he can make any killing decisions for himself .

"Didn't you check it this year, why are you still checking it?" Zhong Qianyi sat cross-legged on the bed and smirked at Dr. Zhao, who was familiar with her, "Check all those things, forget it..."

"What do you think I said about you?" Dr. Zhao took the medical record folder and gave Zhong Qianyi a blow. Think of a way to bring down the fever, just to be on the safe side, I suggest to have an examination. Find out where the problem is so that you can prescribe the right medicine."

Zhong Qianyi knew that the root cause of the disease was hard to find, and the right medicine was even more difficult to find.Even if found, I'm afraid it's a palliative, not a permanent cure.

Zhong Qianyi's physique has not been very good since she was a child, she often has a fever easily, and it is not easy to get old.Mom and Dad took him to the doctor, who suspected a blood disorder caused by a genetic problem.The incubation period is longer, and it is easy to have a fever and catch a cold.When the onset period occurs, there will be a long-term low-grade fever.A series of complications will follow, eventually leading to coma and organ failure.

His mother also died of the same illness.

"Doctor Zhao..." Zhong Qianyi was a little downcast, "When my illness first started, didn't I just have a persistent low-grade fever. The current situation...you say...does this mean...my disease...finally came to me Mom is at that level..."

Dr. Zhao sighed, a little helpless, "I can only say that the condition is getting worse and worse, but it's not completely hopeless...You can't give up, Xiaoyi..."

"It's useless, my dad doesn't know how many places and countries I have taken my mom to, but there is no way to cure this disease, so... let's not waste our efforts." Zhong Qianyi bitterly smile.

"Xiaoyi..."

"Doctor Zhao..." Zhong Qianyi shook his head and interrupted the doctor, "Tell me, how much time do I have with conservative treatment? Can I last a year? Or half a year?"

Dr. Zhao, who has passed the age of knowing his destiny, has been in the medical industry for a long time, and has seen too many life and death illnesses. Zhong Qianyi is the one he cares more about.He suffered from such intractable diseases at a young age, he didn't complain about others, and he could accept everything calmly, as if he was out of it, and seemed to look down on everything.

More or less, it makes people feel distressed.

"Don't say that, Xiaoyi... If you cooperate with the treatment well, there is still hope..."

Zhong Qianyi nodded. He could see that Dr. Zhao cared for him sincerely, not only from doctors to patients, but also from elders to juniors, and from friends to friends.He is warm and content.So he saluted mischievously and said, "Yessir! I'll go for an inspection tomorrow, and I promise to be obedient!"

Dr. Zhao glanced at him helplessly, he was relieved and got up to leave, but the moment Zhong Qianyi opened the door, Zhong Qianyi suddenly saw Liao Tongxun standing in the corridor, his stern face was full of unacceptable astonishment.