because you broke into my lens

Outside the coffee shop in the summer afternoon, it was dull and windless, and it was almost evening. There was a little silver light, as if everything was going to be melted under the scorching sun, only the melodious chirping of cicadas came from the grove not far away from time to time, which seemed to add a little excitement to the boring heat. The pleasant and leisurely colors of nature at dusk,

Shanran, who had been listening patiently and earnestly, seemed to be unable to hold back after hearing this. She seemed to feel that she had heard too much about Rene before her mind returned to her original position. Things, those sensitive and terrifying things hit her nervous nerves again, and she was afraid that her emotions would be disturbed and hurt again.At this moment, her brows had already gathered, and her expression became more and more uncomfortable.

The scorching sun had sneaked in over the edge of the parasol, and the strong sunlight completely surrounded the Chinese woman sitting under the parasol.

She moved the chair that had been exposed to the scorching sun for a long time, so that her head could avoid the scorching sun, she squinted her eyes and glanced at the coffee she had already drank, and interrupted the German woman opposite. end memories,

Mrs. Bouguer, may I interrupt?Could it be that the purpose of your coming here is to tell me that Rene is already a terminally ill patient!Is there something you want me to do next?Or can I do something with you?Maybe that's what you're here for?

The German woman first showed a surprised expression on her face, and her eyes seemed to be a little aggrieved, and then she calmed down the wavering expression, and a secretive smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, which made people feel Unfathomable and mysterious, she said with ease and hidden words;

Don’t you think that August is the most beautiful season in Germany now, it has not only lost the cold of winter, but also gone through the restless and floating spring, although it is hot now, it is really hot, there is no flashy foam, let alone Worry before the dust settles.

Instead of answering Shanran's question directly, she indirectly expressed her feelings at this moment with another voice.

As if she was afraid that the woman on the opposite side would not understand her cryptic words, she also drank the iced coffee in front of her eyes, then wiped the coffee grounds left at the corner of her mouth with her hand, and continued;

In fact, for me, this world is already peaceful, so peaceful that I no longer have any extravagant demands, and so peaceful that this world is getting farther and farther away from me... Don't you want to continue listening?Don't want to hear me tell the whole story?Maybe the following story line will be useful to you, reminding me of a sentence; maybe where a life is dead, there must be some hidden accumulation.

Then this means that I will continue to listen to your dead body, and I will continue to be patient and listen to your accumulation!Are you going to tell me next time that your ex-husband had an incurable disease that led to that horrible night and those crazy actions.It seems that we should bow down to his incurable disease, it seems that we should accept these things reluctantly, and as he has no choice but to do so, should we justly bear the harm imposed on us?It is best that we should turn these hates into a kind of fraternity, and then put it in a high position as it should be, and put it in a position parallel to God's benevolence, so that the hurt we have suffered can find a kind of deception in your heart. balance!

Shanran thought of the frightening and bloody night in front of the elevator, of that terrifying knife and that ferocious face, at this moment she lost control of her emotions.

I understand your emotions at this moment, and I also sympathize with the painful state of mind that you never want to touch that day, so my sympathy has also become a kind of special patience now, I just hope that you can finish this unfinished After listening to the story, I want to say it again, maybe it will help you, and it will help some of the accusations that will be produced next.

Shanran, who had lost her calm control, heard some movement on her face. She tried again to calm down her emotions, but from the expression, her mood was still depressed and writhing.

I remember Rene once said to me: A hero should not only know how to live at the right time, but also know how to die at the right time.Yes!You are right in your judgment. He has an incurable disease, and it was discovered very late. When it was found out, he was already in the middle and late stages of rectal cancer. He refused to have surgery or any form of chemotherapy. He made his doctor very sad. Disappointed, he hardly cooperates with his doctor in any way. Perhaps to be more precise, he seems to subconsciously look forward to the early arrival of this day. It seems that they are more willing to stick out their necks and lie safely under the guillotine waiting for death to come,

In fact, it is more appropriate to say that he is seeking to give up this unchangeable destiny as soon as possible, or he hopes to end this endless torture as soon as possible.

seek?Please say it again, he is seeking to end this unchangeable doom earlier, if I understand correctly, he is trying to end his own life by himself?Furthermore, did he ever seek suicide?

Yes, although he didn’t tell me directly, but from the words and phrases my daughter told me, I concluded that he tried it more than once. I don’t know if it’s because he has too much nostalgia in his heart, or it’s because of the things he cares about. His hand, he has never fallen down, and he still lives in front of us as before, and he has always insisted on himself, relying on his perseverance and strength to work tenaciously for this family in the possible days, but in spirit Subconsciously, I knew he had given up completely.I don't know when to start, alive!For him, it was just to find another possibility!