add to the chaos

When people deal with problems, there are two kinds of thinking, one is to solve the problem, the other is to avoid the problem, and there are very few times when the two are just right.

When faced with one thing, the different choices made often make people in a dilemma.People are vacillating among different choices, and it is difficult to find a moderate "point".

A good way is to bring yourself into this choice, deduce the difficulties you may face after making the choice, and then make a measurement among the choices.Choose the most acceptable result.Then this is the choice to make.

For example, if you have your ears pierced, the difficulty you face is that piercing hurts, but wearing earrings is beautiful.At this time, it is necessary to weigh the consequences of the two, which is more unbearable, such as "I am more afraid of pain than being beautiful", then it is better to simply stop piercing your ears, and don't think about it in the future.

This is a very straightforward way of dealing with the problem.

Qiu Cen has always followed this routine.

Compared to seeing Li Tian, ​​he couldn't bear to stay away from him.

So now he appears at the door of Li Tian's house.

It has been silent for two days, and he deliberately stayed these two days for him to meditate, and his mentality should have stabilized.

See, Qiu Cen, who is so fussy and impatient, will accommodate Li Tian in this way.

He muttered inwardly.

Qiu Cen made sure that he was at home.

He said hello when he came, but Hu Dawei said he didn't come to class today.

He expected him to be at home.

Li Tian leaned against the door frame and looked at him without speaking.

Qiu Cen tilted his head, "Go out for a walk?"

Seeing the expectation in his eyes, Li Tian's heart that had not fluctuated for a long time was suddenly touched.

He was curious.

How did this man do it?

He has been rejected so many times and looked at with cold eyes so many times, but he has always maintained a happy and comfortable heart.

Those scorching eyes almost tore through the protective shell he had worked so hard to build.

"No," he heard himself say.

"Don't," Qiu Cen smiled disapprovingly, looking a little smug, "Go out for a walk."

Did you never go out except to the hospital and consultation room?

"The weather is very good today, but I skipped class and came out to play."

"..."

Li Tian looked at him silently, hesitating for a long time.

He didn't know how to face him.

You can't pretend like nothing happened like him.

A corner of the phone in his hand was dented, and he pressed it.

He remembered how it was done.

"Let's go," Qiu Cen dragged his voice, leaned forward and tugged at his sleeve, "I'll take you to a barbecue...haven't you eaten meat for a long time?"

I can't eat in the hospital, and I'm still so thin after so long of recuperation, I don't eat well at first sight.

Li Tian looked down at his toes, and after a while he nodded slowly, agreeing.

He thought to himself: I might be crazy.

Qiu Cen didn't know what he was thinking, but when he saw him nodding, the corners of his mouth unconsciously opened to both sides, looking extremely happy.

He pushed him back and went straight into the house, "Then you change your clothes quickly."

Li Tian was pushed into the room by his hand on his shoulder, and the two of them drove to the wardrobe in the bedroom like a small train. Qiu Cen consciously went out to wait, leaving him alone staring at the door in a daze.

As if living in a dream.

The two of them seemed to be fine without the series of things that happened before, and the nights of nightmares accompanied by various transparent liquids in the infusion bottle when they were alone in the hospital seemed to have never happened.

It feels like someone else is suffering.

……

Forget it.

this is the last time.

Li Tian repeated silently in his heart.

Afterwards, he changed his clothes and followed the person in front of him who was about to jump up, out the door.

How can there be a barbecue at noon.

In the crowded barbecue shop, Li Tian sat opposite Qiu Cen. In his impression, Hu Dawei would only sit by the side of the barbecue stall when it was dark, eating beer and meat, saying, "Life is worth [-] yuan." My god, there is wine and meat little fairy", who can sit for two hours in one sitting.

He himself seldom eats these, and often when the two of them come out to eat barbecue, Hu Dawei is too embarrassed to ask him to pay for it.

But now Li Tian looked at the roasting pan full of meat skewers on the table and the people sitting behind the roasting pan, and suddenly felt relieved.

Such a scene seems familiar.

He was all too familiar.

He didn't know how many times he watched the person in front of him feasting.

"Do you eat?"

Qiu Cen took the skewered lamb loin from the plate, wiped off the charcoal marks on the tip with toilet paper, and handed it to him.

Li Tian's wandering thoughts stopped, and his eyes moved to Qiu Cen's slender fingers.

The joints of those hands are well defined, the skin is soft, especially the flesh at the tiger's mouth is more comfortable to pinch, and the entire palm is as big as his hand when opened.

"Take it."

As Qiu Cen spoke, he handed the lamb waist forward again.

"This is……"

Li Tian looked at the black or purple lump of meat in front of him, but couldn't see what it was for a while.

"This." Qiu Cen didn't know what to think, and suddenly smiled, "Sheep's happy stick."

Li Tian: "..."

Li Tian: "Eat it yourself."

Qiu Cen sighed regretfully, as if feeling sorry for his ignorance, he reached back, bit the end of the bamboo stick and piled up all the meat.

Seeing him smacking his lips with relish, Li Tian didn't know what to say.

"Won't you get sick if you eat this? Fever or something?"

Qiu Cen was taken aback for a moment, apparently not expecting this question, "It should be... no, it's actually the first time I've eaten it, and it's quite delicious."

"Dayan'er's family often eats these. He's quite funny, and he named them well. Put a piece of sheep's whip, sheep's treasure, and sheep's waist. He calls it a urinary system set meal..."

Li Tian: "..."

"I finally laughed."

Seeing that he couldn't help but bend the corners of his mouth, Qiu Cen secretly breathed a sigh of relief with a smile in his eyes.

Li Tian was startled, and the smile in his eyes disappeared.

Turns out he said this to make me laugh.

Li Tian's eyes softened, he looked into his eyes and said sincerely: "Thank you, Qiu Cen."

"Oh, don't," Qiu Cen waved his hand, "It's not necessary, we are all friends, we should."

"..."

Li Tian's heart was full of ups and downs.

I don't know why, but when I heard him say "we're all friends", I felt very uncomfortable.

Worrying about gains and losses.

He leaned back in his chair, took a deep breath, and repeated, "Thank you."

"..."

This time it was Qiu Cen's turn to be speechless.

He smiled wryly, "You can still see me and come out to eat with me. I am very satisfied. As for the future, let's take a step at a time."

He raised his eyes to look at Li Tian, ​​with a flash of light in his eyes, and asked in confirmation: "Is it okay?"

Forget yours, mine is tired, let's stop talking, okay?

Li Tian looked at him in astonishment, although he felt a strange feeling in his heart, he still nodded slightly in agreement.

Life in the barbecue restaurant is noisy, and no one notices the peaceful atmosphere here.

Qiu Cen laughed again, moved again after a long pause, put the meat skewers to his mouth, and began to eat with big mouthfuls.

After the meal, Qiu Cen stopped pestering him, and the two went home separately.

A strange feeling rose in Li Tian's heart again.

It's just a matter of habit.

He found that when Qiu Cen got along with him, it was different from before.

In the past, I wished I could get tired of being with him every day, but now it was so close, like fine sand slipping through my fingers, I couldn't catch it anymore.

Maybe this is the distance between friends.

Li Tian felt a faint sense of discomfort in his heart, but he forced himself not to care about it, ignoring the strangeness.

Then he doesn't have to worry about it, just be himself.

He is alone.

"Li Tian!"

Qiu Cen stepped out of the elevator, and when the door was about to close, he suddenly turned around and grabbed the door with one hand.

Li Tian was taken aback by his actions, fearing that he would be caught, so he hurried to press the elevator.

The elevator doors opened again.

"What's wrong?" Li Tian asked calmly.

Qiu Cen was still standing outside, his lips moved, he obviously wanted to say something, but he didn't know how to speak.

Finally, he gritted his teeth and said, "If you need me, I'll be at home."

Then he turned and left without looking back.

Afraid of looking at him again, he couldn't help hugging him.

Want to ask him, do you regret it later?

Think about it, in the next few decades, there will be only one person, living a boring life, smelling the aroma of cakes and the smell of the constant air freshener at home, looking at the foreseeable and constant second half of life, watching everything For things that I don't like, will there be a moment when I suddenly regret not holding me back?

These words, just to myself, feel extremely naive.

Maybe it's best for them to be friends.

In that way, they can always respect each other as guests, and live in a strict manner.

Chat, drink, travel with old friends.

Seems not bad.

— Not a bad fart.

Standing at the door of the house, Qiu Cen thumped the wall with clenched hands.

In the end, I couldn't hold back, and climbed upstairs in three steps at a time.

The door of Li Tian's house was closed tightly.

Qiu Cen patted on the door, his movements were as gentle as a caress, and there was no sound at all.

He didn't know what to do.

He stood in the corridor with red eyes, his chest rose and fell violently, and he kept panting heavily.

Suddenly, he put his hands on his face and stood quietly.

At some point, he lowered his head and saw a pair of shoes appearing in front of him.

The door opened.

Li Tian stood at the door, pretending not to notice his abnormality, and asked in a flat tone, "Is there anything else?"

After he got home, he couldn't calm down for a long time and stood in the door in a daze.

I happened to see a series of movements of this person through the cat's eyes, and couldn't help but opened the door again.

This door is tiring enough.Li Tian thought about it one way or another.

His gaze inadvertently fell on Qiu Cen's red and skinned back, and he frowned.

At a glance, he knew it was his own doing.

Qiu Cen raised his head in a daze, seeing the person who had wanted to hug him for a long time suddenly appeared in front of him, and seeing himself in a mess, he froze for a moment, unable to turn his head.

"I... I'm fine, I'm fine."

"...I didn't ask if you're okay...you're okay..."

Li Tian stopped, realizing how awkward he was to say this.

Qiu Cen: "...?"

Li Tian sighed, "Come in, I'll give you medicine."

It's so hard on myself, it hurts so much.

Ever since I saw this person again, his whole body has been wrong.

It seems that they lost the ability to communicate with people in an instant. There is a big gap between the two people, and it keeps eating away at the two sides, and the distance between the two is getting farther and farther.

Li Tian didn't even know what he was doing.

Are you pushing him away, or are you pulling him?

Obviously experienced the pain of separation, and finally returned to normal, but they still have to go back and do it again.

Li Tian picked up the medicine box in a daze, turned his head to look at the person sitting quietly on the sofa with arms folded, and his heart was confused again.