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No one would believe it, but Chu Qiu's sexuality is actually the white rabbit's original flavored toffee.

……Kidding.

No one had ever asked Chu Qiu about his sexual orientation face to face, and Chu Qiu had never considered it on purpose.

But when someone asks, he usually answers.

Chu Qiu thought for a while, but was not sure: "It is... probably, probably."

When it comes to sexual orientation, you have to think of the person you like.

Does Chu Qiu like someone?

He thinks he doesn't.

Chu Qiu has read many books, watched many film and television works, and carefully watched emotional programs. From these, he is used to summing up the emotional expression and physiological reactions of the special feelings of "like" and "love", and use them as his own. Reference when filming.

But apart from the family works and programs that he can empathize with that can resonate with him, he has never been able to substitute himself into the story of love.

Probably because I have never felt it before, so I can't understand it, just like summer insects can't speak ice.

Although Chu Qiu couldn't understand such emotions, he was always in awe of this kind of emotion that was better than family affection but not family affection.

He worked hard to sum up a lot, practiced the same scene countless times in private, always relied on skills to act out emotional scenes, accommodated a lot of references, although there was no emotional substitution, he still performed perfectly under the camera.

Many directors praised him for his quick entry into the film and his full of emotions.

But in fact, Chu Qiu has always had no real sense of love.

He has no one he likes, nor has he ever had that kind of mood, so naturally he can't be sure whether he is straight or crooked.

When you are not sure whether you are curved, you usually default to straight.

But Chu Qiu's answer was full of hesitation and uncertainty.

Because when he thought of "the person he likes", he was surprised to find that his head was not as empty as before.

His first reaction was Qi Tianrui.

Probably because Qi Tianrui was the first and only one who clearly expressed his love intention to him.

Chu Qiu: "..."

It's dying.

He shook his head, trying to shake Mr. Qi out of his mind.

Zhou Yiyue and Zhang Dali looked at the hesitant Chu Qiu and exchanged glances, feeling that Qi Tianrui still had something to do.

Zhang Dali had the bottom line in his mind, and started to chase people away: "Okay, okay, Zhou Yiyue, hurry back, we'll go first."

Zhou Yiyue curled her lips, put away her phone, and walked into the elevator with the big apple that Chu Qiu gave him.

If you drive by yourself, there is still some distance between the orphanage and the apartment where Chu Qiu lives now.

Zhang Dali drove the navigation, and looked through the rearview mirror from time to time to see Chu Qiu who was sitting in the back seat with downcast eyes and deep thoughts.

At another traffic light intersection, Zhang Dali stepped on the brakes and asked Chu Qiu, "What are you thinking about?"

Chu Qiu recovered from his contemplation, and shook his head at Zhang Dali.

You can't tell Zhang Dali that he is thinking about Qi Tianrui.

When Chu Qiu was aware of his own thoughts before, he felt a little embarrassed.

As for Qi Tianrui's kindness to Chu Qiu, whether Chu Qiu was aware of it, or whether he was moved, it must be there.

But precisely because of this gratitude, Chu Qiu felt more and more at a loss when facing Qi Tianrui who had a strange affection for him.

After knowing Qi Tianrui's thoughts, Chu Qiu understood very well that Qi Tianrui just wanted to be nice to him, and wanted to hold the best things he had in front of him to express his goodwill and sincerity.

But Chuqiu only felt a little bit of pressure about it.

It's probably because he doesn't have that kind of intention towards Qi Tianrui, and in terms of repayment, plus his previous life's assets, it's not enough for Qi Tianrui to give him a fraction.

Realizing that he couldn't reciprocate his feelings, and couldn't repay the favor, Chu Qiu felt that he was very worried.

With Qi Tianrui's status and identity, he probably didn't realize this.

For example, he felt that throwing Chu Qiu tens of millions of dollars to let him directly airborne the crew was nothing at all, or he felt that it was not a big deal to push Chu Qiu to control public opinion and resources, and to pull Chu Qiu into him graciously. In the circle of friends, it's not a big deal.

His identity and status are doomed to be unable to understand the uneasiness in the hearts of people who are valued and favored by him to such a degree.

Chu Qiu didn't dislike Qi Tianrui, and he didn't feel any dislike for his confession.

At that time, he just calmly listened to Qi Tianrui's wishes, calmly refused, and then calmly apologized.It wasn't until he was reborn and thought about it carefully that he suddenly realized how many things Qi Tianrui had secretly done for him that he didn't realize.

Qi Tianrui was kind to Chu Qiu, and Chu Qiu remembered it clearly.

But for Chu Qiu who couldn't respond to his favor, but hoped to repay Qi Tianrui, the debt piled up higher and higher, so high that Chu Qiu desperately raised his head, Can't see the top.

The debt of favor is the most difficult to repay, and Chu Qiu feels very distressed.

He hopes to be reborn once again, and things will change.

Whether he changes or Qi Tianrui changes, it's good.

Chu Qiu raised his eyes to look at the traffic light ahead, the red seconds flickered and jumped to zero, and the light turned from yellow to green.

After passing this traffic light, you will arrive at the street where the orphanage is located.

Zhang Dali found a shade and parked the car, and he and Chu Qiu shared the big and small bags from the trunk, and walked to the entrance of the orphanage.

It was afternoon, and the early autumn sun was still a little blazing.

After Chu Qiu took two steps, he turned his head and glanced at the van parked in front of Zhang Dali.

Zhang Dali was looking at the board of the orphanage, which said "Fuxing Children's Welfare Institute in B City".

Seeing Chu Qiu stop, he asked, "What's wrong?"

Chu Qiu looked at the car for a while, and went to the window of the reception room to ask Grandpa Hai, who was still in charge of guarding the gate, only to find that the old man was lying on a chair in the air-conditioned reception room, sleeping soundly.

"It's okay." Chu Qiu shook his head, and took another look at the car.

Che Chuqiu near the orphanage has almost recognized it all. In this small suburban old city, it is like a small town independent of a busy metropolis. What happens to a family that has an accident, married a wife and bought a car? Work is basically clear.

Chu Qiu has a good memory, and Chu Qiu has never seen this car, nor the license plate number.

They stopped at the entrance of the orphanage, maybe they were couples who had completed the formalities to adopt their children, Chu Qiu thought, and took Zhang Dali directly into the gate.

Chu Qiu gave a brief introduction as he walked.

"playground."

"dormitory."

"classroom."

"..."

Listening to Chu Qiu's introduction without explanation, Zhang Dali nodded helplessly.

The orphanage is not big, and the economy is not well-off. The building looks very old, with green ivy crawling on the wall, and there are a few pieces of land in the corner of the wall, with vines climbing on the shelf, and vegetable beds under the vines. There are some green vegetables growing in the green.

The courtyard is not big. When entering the courtyard, there is a playground in front of you. The classroom and activity building are directly opposite. The dormitory is on the left, and the office looks like an office on the right.

There are only three buildings in total, the highest is only three floors, and the lowest is a bungalow used as an office space. Counting the rows, each building has about six windows in a row.

The doors of several buildings are still quite ancient wrought iron doors, and a wooden door inside is closed to keep out the wind and rain.

Chu Qiu went straight to the activity building directly opposite, and stopped in front of the building door.

The door of this building is open, and a small blackboard is hung on the iron door with rust marks, with the words "teaching building" written in chalk on it.

"What are you... learning here?" Zhang Dali followed Chu Qiu into the door and asked curiously.

Chu Qiu replied, "Elementary school."

There are no children from adoptive families. The orphanage will be responsible for the six-year elementary school education. The teachers are not strong. Most of them are teachers from the city who are going to support education.

In the future, those who can get into a good junior high school by themselves will go to the junior high school they are admitted to. The state exempts tuition and miscellaneous fees, plus poverty assistance and scholarships, so they can still live with some savings.

Those who fail to enter junior high school will also be assigned to other places because of compulsory education.

After that, it depends on the child's personal fortune.

Zhang Dali followed behind Chu Qiu, and could vaguely hear the sound of children reading.

Many classrooms are empty and have been converted into small cafeterias, lunch break rooms, and even playrooms for babies.

When Zhang Dali passed by the baby toy room, he saw two young people in volunteer T-shirts, taking care of two babies who had just learned to crawl.

One of the babies was born without a hand, limps and keeps tumbling.

Zhang Dali stopped in his tracks, stood by the window and watched.

Chu Qiu looked back at him, and then stopped.

Zhang Dali and his wife are about to have a child. The couple have read a lot of books on parenting and prenatal education, and they are full of expectations and longings for having their own child.

Seeing these two children now, Zhang Dali felt a little uncomfortable.

He stared at the disabled baby for a while, then turned to Chu Qiu and asked, "Are they thrown away?"

"Well, a lot." Chu Qiu nodded, was silent for two seconds, and then said, "It's good to be alive."

Chu Qiu was one of the lucky babies who survived.

Many children were abandoned because they were physically disabled or born with diseases. When they were found and brought over, they had already vented more than they had breathed in, not to mention the children who had to be abandoned by welfare institutions because of delayed treatment.

Treating diseases and saving lives is money, raising children is also money. There are so many children sent to the orphanage every year, so few people are adopted, and the funds and labor are so little. The hospital has more than enough energy.

Zhang Dali could also think of something from Chu Qiu's words. He looked at the baby in the nursery who crawled two steps and rolled around twice, and sighed softly, "Let's go."

Chu Qiu nodded, and took Zhang Dali to the classroom where the class was being taught.

The Fuxing Orphanage is very small, occupying a small area and less funds than the regular staff. Most of the funds rely on government funding and social donations, as well as students and volunteers who occasionally come to practice in the society.

There are not many children that can be accepted, and the dean killed at most [-] children, otherwise they would not be able to see it at all.

Now there are 36 children in the hospital, excluding the two babies who just learned to crawl, 22 of them are school-age children and can go to school.

Chu Qiu and Zhang Dali climbed upstairs with big bags and small bags. As soon as they turned a corner, they saw two cameras set up in the corridor, and two or three men carrying cameras, squatting in the classroom to shoot.

The classroom is very lively, and several young volunteers are leading these children to play games.

The children looked very happy with smiles on their faces.

Aunt Chu was standing in the corridor, smiling and talking to the person standing next to a camera.

Facing the camera being filmed head-on, Chu Qiu was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly stepped aside, moved aside and called aunt in a low voice.

"Xiaoqiu?" Aunt Chu showed a surprised expression on her face, then she wrinkled her face with a smile, beckoning like Chu Qiu, "I'm back, come quickly and let Auntie take a look."

Chu Qiu walked over full of doubts, and Zhang Dali looked at the back of the person who was talking to Aunt Chu with his back turned to them, feeling familiar.

The man turned around and was taken aback when he saw Zhang Dali.

"Zhang Dali?"

Zhang Dali gave a light snort: "Director Li?"

Standing beside Aunt Chu, Chu Qiu put down the fruits and snacks and odds and ends in her hands, looked up at Director Li for a while, and then suddenly realized who this person was.

He knows this director.

Eight years later, Director Li is known as an advertising geek. He has won many awards. His style is unconventional, he has great ideas, and he is unconstrained. His advertisements are very popular among young people.

Chu Qiu didn't know why this young director came here.

He greeted him politely, and when he saw that Zhang Dali was chatting with Director Li, he turned his head and asked Aunt Chu's health condition in a low voice.

Zhang Dali walked up, looked at the camera, then looked inside the classroom, and asked, "What are you doing here?"

"There's a public service advertisement." Director Li replied, "You, Mr. Qi, recommended this place to me."

Chu Qiu, who was talking to Aunt Chu, fell silent for a moment.

The author has something to say: Chu Qiu: This person is everywhere.

Qi Tianrui: Did you fall in love with me?

The focus of this chapter.

【He hopes to be reborn once, and things will change.

Whether he changes or Qi Tianrui changes, it's good. 】

Reading comprehension: Please analyze, what kind of mood changes do these two passages show the protagonist Chu Qiu? [doge]