things you do not know

I didn't expect that school would start so soon, and my memory seems to be still in junior high school. I still remember that when I came home before the high school entrance examination, Ann went to the teacher and asked for my lyrics.I still remember how this lyrics book got to the teacher, it was before the high school entrance examination.That day, as usual, the teacher asked us to review in groups, and we also got together to chat and play games in groups as usual, and I usually sang with the students at the back table, but on this day, the lyrics in class were written by that The boy borrowed it, and I didn't know that he was going to chase Ann. It turned out that the lyrics book was confiscated by the teacher, and he went home on vacation before the senior high school entrance examination.

Ann, it was a girl I liked for three years. I fell in love with her when I was in the first grade of junior high school. At that time, I should be able to use a sentence of love for the first time. I didn’t understand anything. I wrote the first love letter in my life, to she.The result was unexpected to me, she said: "We are all girls, how can we be together, but we are friends, you will always be my good friend." In this way, we have always been friends, It didn't change until the third year of junior high school.And my liking for her hasn't changed.

In the second semester of the third year of junior high school, the head teacher showed mercy and asked us to choose our own seats. I didn’t want to change it at first, but my two back desks kept persuading me to sit at the same table with Ann. I might not have the chance in the future. .My heart was moved, I told the teacher in charge, and we did it together with Ann. When I helped her move the table, my heart was beating non-stop. I could finally sit beside her, even if it was a friend.

In the third year of junior high school, there was an exam similar to self-enrolment, which was organized by a key middle school in the county. The teacher said: "Don't go, you will definitely be able to get in. Let's wait until the senior high school entrance examination to hit the key middle schools with strength." I Discuss with my mother, my mother agreed.Since then, I've become a different person, more proud and impetuous.Doing nothing every day, sleeping in class, chatting after class, it seems that there is nothing to worry about.When the mind is not on study, it will be put on other things, many people like me put on love.I started writing love letters to Ann again, but she always refused, until one day I used the word "love" and she got angry, and she said: "The word love is not to be used casually, do you really know that! Don't Say love to me!" She was angry because of me, so I agreed, and I promised her not to say love again.But he was getting more and more free with her.Thinking about it now, I was really an asshole at that time.

I was very arrogant at that time, no, I am the same now.Not only arrogant, but even a little conceited, but she still followed my wishes, maybe because her letting go made me misunderstand, so she became less and less self-control.

I was very excited to finally be at the same table with her. At that time, she was a goddess to me, although the term was not popular at that time.At that time, I didn’t attend classes anymore, and I basically fell asleep during math class every day. I chewed gum in my mouth every day when I got to math class, and fell asleep holding her hand in a pile of books. I was really happy. , Occasionally, she would ask to rest on her lap when class was over, but she never refused, and she never said anything even when I deliberately held her hand hard while I was asleep.I thought she liked me too, but I...

One night, I didn't go back to the dormitory directly after the evening class as usual, and sat on the seat waiting for my friends to join me (An and I couldn't live in the same room).I can't remember exactly what I was doing that night, I just remember watching someone make origami cranes. I wanted to learn it too, but I couldn't.It was at this time that Lin Feng appeared. He was the chemistry class representative of the next class, and so did I. The chemistry teacher of our two classes was the same. At that time, there were rumors in both classes that he had broken up with his girlfriend.I don't know what kind of wind he had, and he came to my desk (at that time, our two classes were basically left alone after the evening class).

"What are you doing?"

"Origami crane, I don't know how to learn." I replied casually.

"Let me teach you," he said.

"Okay."

The next step is to teach one to learn, talking nonsense.

Later, he left after teaching once, and I was still practicing hard on my seat. When I finished, my friend Xin had just finished tidying up.I packed up casually and went back to the dormitory.

I bumped into Lin Feng at breakfast the next morning. I didn’t know why I had just finished folding a small paper crane, so I handed it to him and said, “Look, what have I learned? .”

Maybe the look on my face was asking for praise.I didn't take this seriously at all, but in the end, I received a love letter from Lin Feng a few days later, or it couldn't be called a love letter.

I just remember that he wrote "He means miss, do you like me." Today when I think of this sentence again, I really want to scold myself at that time, are you stupid, because I am sure whether it is Now or at that time, I just admired him, but didn't like him. However, at that time, I agreed to be with him, but I didn't expect what An would think. Didn't I like her?What's more, I actually showed her the love letter that Lin Feng wrote to me. I don't know if I'm crazy.

When I was with Lin Feng, I was similar to the student couples of that era, exchanging love letters at school and chatting at home.I don’t have a computer or a smart phone at home. I went to my second uncle’s house, but my cousin found out about it. My cousin talked to me a lot about the future. My already unstable heart was shaken even more. I broke up with Lin Feng, but I didn't dare to tell him face to face that he was really good to me. Until now, although we are no longer in a relationship, we still have contact and are still friends.I wrote the last letter to him and asked the boys in his class to take it back to him. As a result, he rushed into the classroom like that and told me why we broke up and that he loved me, but I didn't know how to answer it. Is it to tell him I just want to know what it's like to be with guys?Am I going to tell him I like girls?I really didn't dare to see that big boy crying in front of me.I know, I've hurt another person, it's no use.

After that day, we just nodded, although he was still very good to me.

I honestly muddled through the rest of the day, but I didn't expect another accident.

One day I accidentally heard that a boy in the same class likes Ann. In my eyes, that boy is a bully and fearful of learning. Besides, I think I still like Ann. Because of him, there was a breakup between me and Ann, or cold war.She no longer wanted to care about me, and she no longer accommodated me. At that time, I was almost in tears.Every day when I mention her, I feel that there is something in my eyes that wants to come out. I want to control it, but I can't.She, she is not doing well.I don't remember what happened afterwards, but she forgave me.Until before the senior high school entrance examination, as long as the boy was not mentioned, there would be no time. We were laughing and playing, but for the first time, I had doubts about my feelings for Ann. Do I really love her?I have no idea.

I know that day, the day before the senior high school entrance examination, when I was packing books in the classroom, I saw and heard the boy's confession, and I promised her, and she agreed.At that time, I was really angry. I rushed back to the dormitory with my book in my arms, put my head under the water pipe and pointed at it over and over again. I was depressed but couldn’t shout out. After all, she didn’t like me. Everything was my own doing. Just sentimental.

In the afternoon, my mother came to pick me up, and I moved things numbly until she came to give me the lyrics.

The result of the senior high school entrance examination can be imagined. I lost a complete defeat and chose to leave.

Today is the day of school.

My parents came with me, looking at their earnest eyes, I don't know what to say, I just know that my heart is sore, not only my heart, but my nose is also sore, and there seems to be something in my eyes that I want Flow down, turn around quickly, wipe off secretly, and turn back.

"Mom and Dad, you go back, the school has started to release notices, you can't go anymore." I laughed and joked with my parents, but they just looked at me. .

"Oh, okay, I know how to study and I will work hard, so don't worry. Go back early, or you won't be able to catch the bus." He reached out to hold his mother's hand and said something to reassure them.This time they finally turned around and went back.

Watching their figures disappear little by little, I also turned and went back to the new class.

Looking at the military training notes on the blackboard, I was a little nervous. "A new life has begun, let's settle down as soon as it comes, let's work hard." Sitting in the car leading to the military training base before losing consciousness, I thought of this sentence in my heart.

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Woohoo, it has nothing to do with the first article, it’s just because of that article that this article has nothing to do with the storyline