Now, little cane

When Xin Ang woke up in the morning, Qi Ling had already left.

Go to the guest room to have a look, the bedding is neatly folded, the ashtray has been washed, the garbage has been taken away, the drinking cup is placed on the coffee table in the living room, it is clean.

It's just that the smell of smoke in the whole room can't go away.

Xin Ang opened the window for ventilation.

Inexplicably sighed.

He doesn't care about other people's affairs.

Qi Ling drove Yan He's car, it hadn't been washed, it was dusty.

Park in the underground parking lot a short distance from home.

Walking on the road, the sun was a bit glaring, Qiling covered it with her hands and walked for a while before letting it go, slowly getting used to it.

His current appearance must be very bad.

This section of the road is already considered to be around the military area, and it hasn't changed much in so many years.

Surrounded by low-rise houses, almost all of which are single-family, oleanders in the fence are blooming brilliantly, with red flowers and green leaves spreading out, full of vitality.

Qi Ling walked in along the stone road, the blue stone road hadn't changed much.

Later, it was re-paved, but it was just better, and the materials were not changed.

He went to and from school on this road in primary and junior high schools.

The first person he liked also lived in this area. At that time, the two brats went their own way.

I heard that the man finally entered the military area along the path of his ancestors, and now his son is two years old.

Qi Ling straightened up, put her hands in her trouser pockets, and walked all the way inside with a slightly soft expression.

Walking outside the house, peeking in secretly, the uncle who hadn't seen him for a long time dyed his hair white and tended the flowers and plants.

His mother was feeding the birds and babbling and complaining about the old man.

Qi Ling glanced at it and walked away safely.

Feeling in my heart, it's so good.

After walking for a while, the familiar iron fence appeared.

Qi Ling was at the door and wanted to ask someone to open the door. The old man knew him and said that he hadn't seen him back for a long time, so he opened the door for him.

Qi Ling just smiled.

Weary and tired.

After entering the iron fence, it is the housing allocated by the military officials.

Built against the mountain, there are few thieves, and they will not be able to please them when they come.

And they are all independent.

This area is quite out of the way, and now the city is developing rapidly, and it is gradually becoming more popular here.

However, he still brought the strictness of the military region.

Many officials also retreated, and Qi Ling occasionally saw familiar uncles and aunts, bowing their heads and walking past.

They looked back, they hadn't seen each other for a long time, and they were not sure it was Qi Ling.

After cleaning the downstairs, Aunt Wu washed the rags in the front yard.

Hearing the creaking of the wooden fence in the garden, looking up, it was rare and a little surprised.

Aunt Wu murmured, "Xiao Ling?"

Qi Ling smiled: "Aunt Wu."

She size him up.

There are dark circles under the eyes, the clothes are a little wrinkled, and the whole body is exhausted.

Aunt Wu felt very strange in her heart, she was called by Qi Shu yesterday to greet her when Qi Ling came back to tell her.

Aunt Wu forced a forced smile.

Qi Ling: "Is my mother there?"

Aunt Wu: "Madam Qi is upstairs."

Qi Ling lowered her head, walked in slowly, and changed her shoes in the entrance, so quiet that it made people flustered.

Wait for Qi Ling to go in.

Aunt Wu hurriedly took out her mobile phone and called Qi Shu.

Aunt Wu: "Xiao Shu, your brother is back, hey, yes, he just came back. What?... Oh, oh, then I'll go and watch and don't let them throw anything, but I really can't do anything about it."

Qi Shu put down her phone, and the report in front of the computer was only half done.

Uncertain for a moment.

I hurriedly got up and went to the leadership office to ask for leave.

After asking for leave, I packed up my things and hurried out.

Call Yanhe.

Qi Shu: "My brother has gone home, I... am a little scared."

Yan He's voice was gentle: "Don't be afraid, I'll be there right away."

Qi Shu: "Well, I'm near here, brother Yanhe, come quickly."

Yanhe answered yes.

Putting down the phone, suffering from insomnia and headache for half a night, he took out the painkiller and took it before going out.

Fortunately, I found someone.

Yan He didn't dare to think about the rest.

Qi Ling took a deep breath, stopped outside the study, and straightened her crumpled clothes.

From the half-closed door came the sound of the lid of the enamel cup hitting the wall.

Qi Ling reached out and pushed the door.

It's like opening a memory that has been dusty for more than ten years.

It's funny to say that he helped to arrange the study room when he was a child, so he had to put the desk near the window.

Yun Suxi raised her head, surprise and shock flashed across her face, and finally looked at Qi Ling without saying a word.

Qi Ling walked in slowly, with one hand still in his trouser pocket, with a soft expression on his face, not visceral.

Qi Ling smiled: "Mom, long time no see."

It's a gentle look that I haven't seen in a long time.

Yun Suxi was silent.

Qi Ling walked to the window and looked out, the green bamboos were shady, and the trees in the middle of the mountain were verdant.

Qi Ling said quietly: "Mom, do you often come here?"

After a while, Yun Suxi replied: "Well, I'm going to retire soon, your father liked the study room when he was young, and the light here is pretty good."

Qi Ling bowed her head: "That's right."

Looking up at the wall, Qi Ling said, "Cover it with a painting."

Yun Suxi followed him to look at the wall, where the koi in the ink painting was carefree among the lotus leaves.

Before Yun Suxi could stop her, Qi Ling took a few steps forward and took off the painting. Behind the painting was a round hole.

Qi Ling calmly said: "You should fill it up, it's unlucky."

Yun Suxi's chest felt tight.

This is the mark left by the bullet that passed through Qi Ling's right shoulder and hit the wall.

Yun Suxi didn't know why Qi Ling was here, and in front of this event, she couldn't even ask and criticize her.

Only the rest of the room was silent.

Qi Ling didn't hang up the painting, but put it on the side bookcase, glanced at Qi Yunwei's certificate and trophy, not paying much attention.

Qi Ling: "I don't seem to have told you about me, nor have you asked."

The tone is still calm, familiar as if an old friend had a discussion.

Yun Suxi took a deep breath, felt a bit of a headache, smiled wryly: "Yes."

When she came back, Qi Ling had already refused to communicate.

He only lowered his head with a stubborn face.

not talking.don't cry.

Do not laugh.

Qi Ling clasped her fingers together, thought for a moment, walked to the window, and took a deep breath.

The morning air lifted a bit of the haze.

Qi Ling leaned against the window and looked outside: "When I was in junior high school, I gradually felt something was wrong.

"Classmates I know, especially boys, like to discuss girls, but I don't, and I don't like to pay attention to girls.

"I was laughed at as a hypocrite back then."

He lowered his head and laughed for a moment, more like self-deprecating.

Qi Ling: "Do you still remember the youngest son of the Li family, my former playmate, who stopped seeing him when he was away from high school?"

Yun Suxi: "Remember."

Qi Ling: "I know from him that I like boys.

"Well, my eyes don't focus on girls, and I don't find them cute and charming. Maybe even if they are, I don't find them attractive. For a while, I feel a little distressed, but it's not What a big deal, it's just nothing to talk about.

"Until I realized that I paid too much attention to him, I always felt that his behavior was good-looking and his smile was bright, and I would panic."

"I panic and don't know what's wrong with me."

"Later, when the Internet developed, I was able to go to Internet cafes to surf the Internet and check slowly before I knew where my problems were.

"At the beginning, I was quite blindly optimistic. The two of us had grown up together, and felt that even if he didn't like me, he shouldn't hate me. I didn't realize that the world is not good for people like me. so friendly.

"There were a lot of people in that old forum. The first time I logged on, everyone told me to give up. The second time, everyone comforted me. I just got used to it, because basically the first time I said it was the same.

"At that time, I felt that there was no fairness in this world. If I was heterosexual, I would say a few words of apology if the person I liked didn't like me, but I am gay, and I would still feel sorry if the person I liked didn't like me. Disgusting, that's it... there is no light."

Qi Ling laughed at herself: "I keep telling myself, forget it, it's so difficult to find someone I like, and it's even rarer to spend a lifetime together. Maybe I will be like those uncles in the future, let the family arrange to marry a wife and have children. If you can bear it, you can bear it for a lifetime, and you can't bear to live with your children for a lifetime.

"At least you won't be ridiculed and discriminated against, won't you?"

"At the time, I didn't think these thoughts were narrow-minded and selfish. Later, when I got older, I gradually learned about their wives. I felt that they were harming others. The girls don't owe you anything, and they shouldn't pay for it all their lives.

"I also have a younger sister. If Qi Shu encounters this kind of situation, she can't bear to rush up and beat her to death."

"Until I met Yanhe."

Qi Ling took a deep breath, let it out slowly, and smiled sincerely.

In an instant, his face was gentle and angular.

"You know what, like a ray of light.

"Most of the girls in our school like his face. The ones who really confessed their love, let alone half, have a small half. At that time, Yan He looked like a porcelain doll. He was a boy with a girl's unique delicacy. Delicate, very good-looking when she smiles, with a few freckles on her nose, carefree, and loves to smile.

"Sitting at the same table with me is a kind of torture. I warned myself not to like him, but at the same time I thought, how can this person have such a good personality, and how did he grow up?"

Seeing Qi Ling's innocent smile, Yun Suxi felt very heavy in her heart, so she didn't speak, waiting for him to speak.

"His mother is different from her parents in China, she is a painter, she doesn't seem to have grown up, and she still cooks.

"I have a bad stomach, and I always go to his house to eat and drink, and I don't know what kind of mentality it is."

"It wasn't until a letter from someone he knew was mailed to him by mistake. It was a couple of the same sex. They seemed to be together now, settled in the United States, and had already received a certificate. I didn't know that he knew people like me a long time ago. , At that time, I carefully tested his thoughts, and he actually... that is, not being discriminated against, not being disgusted, you don't know how lucky I felt at that time.

"But I still dare not admit it."

"I feel like I'm cowardly, a lot of the time.

"Including facing Qi Yunwei."

"Later, I asked him out at the bar to see his reaction. If he really doesn't feel sick, maybe I can try it too?"

Speaking of this, her eyes were red, and she raised her head, Qi Ling took a deep breath.

"It's bad, and you know it.

"So after breaking the news, he didn't discriminate against me, and he didn't look at me in other ways. I'm already... very grateful.

"When he agreed, you don't know how happy I was. It was like putting a hundred pigeons in my heart. I donated all my change that weekend. I just wanted to make this luck last longer."

Qi Ling covered her eyes with one hand and spoke excitedly.

"At the beginning, I was always cautious, afraid of scaring him away, and also afraid that he would not like it. When he kissed me and hugged me, you don't know how grateful I am to God.

"He was looking at me through the eyes of a normal person.

"Later, he looked at me with the eyes of a lover. I didn't feel that I was deformed, disgusted, or abnormal. I felt that the whole world was showing kindness to me. I didn't dare to make too many demands. If you dare to make him unhappy, he... Yanhe will sense what's in your heart and tell you slowly with actions, that's okay.

"You can be willful, he won't leave, how can he be so good!"

"I've always thought about finishing high school and college with him, working hard, being with him, all the future is related to him, with him, everything is so good and worth working hard for.

"How blessed I am by God."

Qi Ling put down her hands, took a deep breath, and calmed down.

How lucky.

Meet in the best years.

Two people can understand each other and overcome difficulties to go on.

It's not easy.

In this circle, true love is like a joke, only bed|partner is the eternal theme.

How much luck did it take him to meet Yanhe?

Qi Ling raised her head, her eyes were burning, and she took a deep breath.

Yun Suxi watched, not knowing what to say.

Qi Ling slowly looked at her squarely, and said slowly: "So Mom, I just want to ask once, you tell me, what happened last time in the nursing home, is it..."

Qi Ling closed her eyes.

"is not it……"

Fingertips trembled.

"You told him?"

Broken down.

Yun Suxi frowned and looked at him: "What did you say?"

Qiling gasped: "I know you have looked for him once before."

The room was silent.

Yun Suxi held her forehead, felt a headache, and gave up struggling.

Swallowing hard: "No, I was looking for him for other things, so I didn't say much."

After a long time, Qi Ling's voice was slightly hoarse: "Thank you."

Qi Ling smiled miserably: "I didn't come to talk to you.

"If it's not you, it should be Dad."

"Didn't he make a will when he died? He didn't give me any money, and all the inheritance went to Qi Shu.

"Because I made the decision for you and asked me to sign it to take effect."

"This home, I should never come back."

"Take it out and I'll sign it."

The author has something to say: I almost cried when I corrected it~ The only time in the whole text that Qi Ling spoke like this~~

Thank you to a wild little white dragon and little fairy for your inspiring thunder~~

There are still three chapters left for the finale. After the finale, I’d better just release the sweet and greasy episode, lest you chase me and send the blade (cover your mouth and cry~

I am going to write about the car today, my drunken play~ Xiao has been thinking about it for a long time 2333

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