I'm afraid of myself

Just in this thought, He Jinyang went straight to the ancestor of Honghe without dodging or avoiding, his eyes began to fight in the void, lightning flashed and thundered, and the blood light reversed, and within half a moment, a thunderbolt was naturally glowing from the Shura world The red sky split down without any deviation.

The falling thunder shrouded He Jinyang in lightning, and a voice resounded in his heart like the incarnation of the system.

"Regret is not regret!"

He Jinyang let out a muffled snort, endured the interrogation that came with the thunder and lightning, and let out a foul breath.

Seeing that his Dao heart was still motionless, the voice came one after another with stern shouts.

"Regret is not regret!"

"Regret is not regret!"

"Regret... is not regret!"

A word of regret suddenly enlarged occupied He Jinyang's sea of ​​consciousness, and his heart and eyes were full of this word of regret.

From the moment he was born, to the ordinary life, and finally other voices began to appear in his life...Under this word of regret, he seemed to have gone through his own growth process again, chewing every time he regretted his mistakes over and over again , Taste the remorse at that time.

As small as accidentally losing a dime, as big as making a wrong decision at work, and in the end, the system banned the possession program from being used by him, just because he insisted on helping Xie Yanlai, so he lost his only support in the strange land.

Should he regret it?

From the perspective of a selfish and mediocre mortal, he should really regret it, how can a selfish person put himself in danger for others.

Should he regret it?

From the point of view of an extraordinary monk, he should indeed regret it. He is an immortal, he is a demon. Immortals and demons have no way, and there is no balance between good and evil. Why would you expose your trump card for a future enemy?

Should he regret it?

From He Jinyang's own point of view, he should indeed regret it. Just like what he thought, the entanglement between himself and Xie Yanlai was nothing more than a mistake. Love, for oneself, for others is a good thing.

As long as... that person named Xie Yanlai is really not that important.

When He Jinyang was still in college, he read a collection of essays, in which he compared the people he had contact with to three types.

Passers-by, good people, reluctant people.

Compared with duckweed, passers-by, whether good or bad, is a breeze in the author's ears. What they say and do will disappear one day. This is the fate of passers-by.

Good people are compared to cattail grass, whether they are true or false, in the readers' mouth, they are the people who come and go, what they say and do will leave traces in their hearts, but the deep relationship will naturally leave, whether good or bad, shallow Natural parting, or tears or joy.

Among them, He Jinyang savored those who were reluctant.

To be willing, to be willing, to be willing, to gain, this is the enlightenment after interpreting the Buddhist mantra. At the beginning, he read this paragraph with this idea in mind. To have a deep love is not to give up to get it, but to get it to be willing.

The author was clever. She used duckweed to compare people on the road, cattail grass to compare good people, and finally used stupid stones to compare reluctant people.

In the text, facing the three words of reluctance, that person and oneself are like rocks. Because of all kinds of scruples and ignorance of importance, they make all kinds of wrong decisions, causing the fate between the other party and themselves to gradually fade away. Gradually, in the face of "reluctance", even if the talent is peerless, he becomes a puppet, stumbling and stiff, not knowing what to do.

At this moment, He Jinyang compared the duckweed cattail grass with the Xie Yan in his mind, shook his head slightly, and gestured away.

It is undeniable that Xie Yanlai is not a passerby who can be forgotten at any time. It should be said that he once thought it was, but when he asked Xin Jie, he knew it well.

Since he first entered the world of comprehension, He Jinyang inevitably felt confused about the way ahead, but at that time, it was not Feng Chuxi, Leng Baijun, nor the system, but Xie Yanlai who showed him the way.

It was because of the existence of this person that he started to enter the game, and at the beginning of the game, he realized that he was weak, and because he was weak, he had to spend his time on taking advantage of the situation, and the thought and power he spent was undoubtedly Xie Yanlai.

Let go of your mind and regenerate waves.

He didn't expect at that time that such a little thought turned into love and marriage today. Love is not born of the two, so it is not love.

Xie Yanlai is not stupid, he will be full of affection. Isn't it because He Jinyang is not thoughtful?

It's just that He Jinyang was so stupid that he not only didn't notice it, but also had too many distracting thoughts, so he couldn't see the emotion composed of admiration, awe, and many visualizations.

Saying it is liking is more complicated than liking, so he can't tell it apart. Saying it is love, it is a little deeper, mixed with jealousy, envy, fear and other emotions.

It’s fine if no one wakes up with this kind of thinking. One day, when He Jinyang walks higher and higher, farther and farther, from looking up, to level, and then occasionally turning back when surpassing, there will be no such shadow in his heart. , but asking the heart!

Asking the heart robs, and knocking on the heart.

"knock--"

The Lake of Mirrors seemed to be struck by an invisible palm, and ripples spread out.

Since he is not a passerby, he is not a good person.

He Jinyang was quietly shrouded in the attack of the thunder snake and electric python. No one thought that he would actually break through in the Asura realm. Even the ancestor of Honghe who controlled the entire Asura Dao was surprised. It is hard to imagine what kind of monster this kid is. , actually directly jumped over the 98 body karmas in front, and went straight to Wenxin.

Asking the Heart Tribulation is also known as the Heart Demon, Breaking the Delusion, etc. in all walks of life, but for the monks, no matter what the name is, after passing through the calamity, the sky will show the gate of heaven, guide Guangda, and the dream of ascension is close at hand.

What an opportunity!

So no one thought that He Jinyang would ask Xin at this time, nor did he think that he might not be able to break through the tribulation of asking Xin.

Not for anything else, just because he is the son of luck, just because he is He Jinyang, just because... the last time he showed his body cultivation level, he was still in the Jinghai state!

In just one year, from a mortal with no cultivation all the way to the top of the column, and then soared up by his own ability, the system that threatened him with the possession program is now speechless.

when?

When exactly did he sneakily reach this realm?

He Jinyang, without making a sound, managed to hide from the surveillance of the system and raise his cultivation to such an extent!

There is no need to doubt, just wait for him to ask the heart, he will not be much worse than those possessed characters provided by the system.

But how did this happen!

If it can be realized, the inner voice of the system must be a mess of garbled characters. Even the people behind the system didn't expect that it could be like this, and...

The man smiled slightly, as expected of the person he chose.

He Jinyang didn't know the changes in the system. He had already reached the final level of the Xinxin Tribulation beyond everyone's imagination.

Ask your heart, ask your heart, the so-called question your heart.

The first question was whether he regretted it or not, and the last question was whether he was clear or not.

Are you willing to admit what you think in your heart, are you willing to accept that self.

After confirming that he was greedy and longing for Xie Yanlai, He Jinyang nodded in front of this question even though his thoughts were extremely sparse.

Love robbery, thus born.

"Hey, it's terrible! After asking about heart robbery, love robbery happened again."

Sitting cross-legged on the Yehuo Honglian, the ancestor Honghe squinted his eyes and glanced at the twin swords floating in front of him with lingering fear.

"What? Should I really send you away?"

Yuan Tu remained motionless, while Ah Bi uttered a clear and crisp sword cry, which was as long as a green luan sweeping through the sky, and wailed long and loudly.

Patriarch Honghe's complexion darkened all of a sudden, and he said angrily: "OK, OK, I understand, the female university is not allowed to stay, you guys, I understand it."

This time Ahbi didn't make a sound, Yuantu's Qingyin was calm and indifferent, and the ancestor Honghe waved his hands repeatedly.

"Forget it, I won't stop you from having a chance, that's... anyway, it's my sanctification artifact, how can I let him take it away casually, I think I still have to think about what kind of tribulations and tests we should set up to test him .”

A Bi suddenly groaned even more fiercely, showing a polite refusal.

Patriarch Honghe glared at it, "Before he got it, he started protecting his shortcomings!" Seeing that Ah Bi wanted to reason with him, he hurriedly complained, "It's okay, it's okay! Don't be so busy talking about me. , what I want to do depends on whether he has passed the love disaster, and you must know, if you can’t pass, it’s none of my business, and it’s none of your business.”

Abi shook like a dragon singing from the nine heavens, and it flew away from the sky, scattering thousands of miles of floating clouds, as if saying, I am very confident.

The ancestor of Honghe looked funny, and wanted to say a few more words, but the vision rising from the Red Sea couldn't help him to continue joking. A pair of eyes full of human bones, sinking into the deepest part of the sea of ​​blood, the strong curse, freezes to the one below. Those who close their eyes and say nothing cultivate their bodies.

"Let's... let's see."

When he finished speaking, Yuantu and Abi's twin swords quieted down, like how Jinyang floated in the void when they first met, motionless and still.

He Jinyang has entered a critical juncture here, and countless voices began to question him frequently.

"You like him, what do you like about him?" "Love is difficult, hate to leave, how much is the love you say is true, how much is false?" He!" "I'm not afraid of being impulsive, what I'm afraid of is harming others and myself."

……

A sentence pierced his heart, no matter how He Jinyang explained it, he couldn't refute it, because this was what he thought in his heart.

He likes Xie Yanlai, but just like what happened in Wen Xinjie, the liking is not fake, there are too many impurities, and the sporadic feelings can't even be defeated by a small blow, and they can be on the verge of breaking under the pressure of reality.

But on the verge of breaking is not completely broken.

He Jinyang, who was in a catastrophe, raised his head and stared at the big sky calmly and fearlessly. This is the portrayal of a lake in his heart.

"You are all right, because you are all me."

After the words fell, the sound stopped suddenly, and a vague figure appeared in front of him, quietly making a listening gesture.

He Jinyang seemed to be looking at this figure on the surface, but he was actually thinking about it.

Compared with other people, this trace of admiration is really too little to say, it can't be regarded as sincere, and it can't be single-minded, but don't forget what kind of state he is in.

Three souls and seven souls, there are leaks and deficiencies, the seven emotions and six desires are few and far between.

Let me ask a person who doesn't have much knowledge of love can suddenly realize that he likes a person, and that person also likes himself. What a rare miracle is this?

Therefore, it is only natural to hold "it" in the palm of your hand and cherish it!

In short, how to criticize his hypocrisy, scold his greed, and scold his indifference is nothing but a result in the end.

When the seven emotions are fulfilled and the six desires return to their place, this emotion will surely be like a seedling that grows surging when encountering rain and nectar, with long branches and leaves, and as huge as a canopy, deeply rooted in the heart and a happy story.

He Jinyang thought of this, so he realized the ugliest side of love.

"I like him. The reason for liking him is my ignorance and my imagination. I like him in my imagination. You will definitely feel that he is not pure enough."

"I like him, and many other feelings are added to the feelings I like, some of which are even ugly, so you must be disappointed with me. After all, you are all me, and this is what I hate."

"But where does so much sincere love come from in the world? Where does so much single-mindedness without impurities come from? Where does it come from... the innocent and beautiful love between two people like in the book?"

He Jinyang replied calmly to the figure: "Stories are just stories, and I am me."

The whole body of the figure is becoming more and more illusory, which symbolizes the possibility that He Jinyang is about to overcome the catastrophe of love, but in comparison, the aura of the figure is becoming more and more ferocious, as if the most filthy and ugly things in the bottom of his heart were pulled out and condensed into shape.

At this point, no matter how dull people are, they will find that the atmosphere is not right, but Jinyang turned a blind eye to it, and even hooked the corners of his lips.

"You are angry, because of what? Are you not willing to let him go like this? Don't worry, you won't. "

The aura of the figure froze suddenly, as if he couldn't figure out why he would say such words.

He Jinyang took a leisurely pace and walked straight towards the figure.

"It's not because I'm not sincere enough that I will let him go, even if I will feel ashamed of myself in the future, I want him, I want him from the bottom of my heart, and in this case, this dirty feeling will not follow the wind And passed away, but the thread of traction was drawn, connecting me with him."

Speaking of this, there seemed to be a sound when the footsteps landed, and he rushed to scatter the figures with a sonorous and powerful voice.

"It doesn't matter if I don't understand it, or it doesn't matter if it's not pure, as long as I hold him in my hand and get along with him for almost eternity, what I don't understand will become understanding, and the person in my imagination will be shattered and become three-dimensional. If I still have the state of mind at this moment, then I can say without shame that I like him."

He Jinyang closed his eyes, raised his head, and murmured in a low voice: "Anxin, now that it's confirmed, he will be mine." The figure floating into smoke stayed for a moment at last, dissipating beside him as if mourning.

As the figure lost its power, the color of the sky suddenly changed to a gradual light red.

In the eyes of the Honghe patriarch, He Jinyang suddenly opened his eyes, and there was a purple cloud in his eyes. The imposing restraint is perfect, which makes people extremely startled.

"Red River Patriarch."

At this moment when the Shura tribe spontaneously quieted down, He Jinyang called out, and then a karmic fire burned all over the sea of ​​blood centered on him.

The Rakshasa girl and Shura ghost who had been peeking at this side quietly since he appeared suddenly withdrew from the sea of ​​blood in fear and ran to other places. Although they didn't know why He Jinyang came here, they belonged to the innate sense of the Shura clan. Tell them that the God who created them is angry and that they don't want to be angered and leave.

When the onlookers were almost evacuated, He Jinyang lazily stretched his body, turned his neck around, as if moving his limbs, and the evil spirit in his lazy voice was extravagant, and the ancestor of Honghe frowned when he heard it. : "Boy, are you still haunted by demons?"

He Jinyang laughed out loud when he heard this.

"pass."

pass?

Patriarch Honghe wondered, this state is obviously wrong!Looking at the frowning eyes, it doesn't look like it's over, it's not bad if it doesn't get worse!

"Boy, don't lie to me, Patriarch." The more Patriarch Honghe thought about it, the more wrong he became, and he simply gave up the threat of thinking, "The aura on your body is obscure, it doesn't look like a demon, but it doesn't seem like a fairy, what are you? What!"

What am I?

He Jinyang tilted his head to think, then suddenly smiled and said, "I'm human."

There is love and righteousness, there is love and hatred, they will do evil things for their desires, they will do good deeds for their conscience, all kinds of things are different, but this is the changeable human nature.

He Jinyang, who obviously should have passed the heart disaster, but relied on his special physique to eat the heart demon, is indeed a real human being.

"But……"

Although the ancestor of Honghe got the answer, he was more panicked than if he didn't get it.

The problems in his heart piled up more and more, and he didn't even want to care about the double swords. It was only a matter of fate to sit down and chat with this person.

"No buts."

He Jinyang's overly rigid answer answered the Honghe Patriarch's doubts, and the scene finally returned to normal.

Patriarch Honghe appeared on the lotus throne holding his breath, burning karma fire and igniting his own karma. Zu is happy, it can barbecue He Jinyang in a sea of ​​blood.

He Jinyang raised his head and looked at the huge Honghe Patriarch, who was like a devout believer kneeling under the golden Buddha in the Buddhist temple. He knelt down on the blood without hesitation. sea ​​surface.

"Ancestor, please bestow Yuan Tu with the two swords of Ah Bi."

Patriarch Honghe narrowed his eyes, feeling that this kid is really happy, but... "Why?"

He Jinyang didn't answer.

The ancestor of Honghe sneered, "Since that's the case, you just need to come into my karmic fire and roast it. When I am happy, you can leave with Yuantu."

He Jinyang's eyes moved slightly, without raising his head, he said, "For Yuan Tu, A Bi's double swords."

Patriarch Honghe raised his brows angrily, "Boy, don't push yourself too far!"

He Jinyang lowered his head, "Please forgive me, the ancestor, Yuantu, Abi's two swords, the younger generation is bound to win."

Hearing these words, Patriarch Honghe suppressed the real anger on his face like a fake, he rubbed his chin and said coldly: "You can do anything for the two swords?" Kneeling young man.

He Jinyang's body froze, and he endured the dismount in front of the ancestor of Honghe. After experiencing what happened to the leader of Tongtian, he really has nothing to be afraid of. Then he has nothing to fear.

"Yes."

"Okay!" The ancestor of Honghe clapped his hands and said coldly: "Enter my red lotus, eat my karma fire, 360 five days in the fire is one day in the underworld, you have to go through 680 cold and heat in my fire, and take out the 680 lotus knots Each lotus seed is different in size and appearance. You have to choose the best three of them and give them to me. The rest cannot be discarded casually. You have to polish them into [-] five Buddhist beads and put them at the gate of hell. Wherever you meet the Buddha, you can take away Yuantu and the two swords of Abi."

"Will you agree to such a strict request, He Jinyang?"

Originally, the ancestor of Honghe thought why Jinyang would at least hesitate for a while, because the condition was too much, but he didn't expect He Jinyang to agree without changing his face, which made him feel that the other party might not understand the horror of Karma, so he cleared his throat explain.

Ancestor Honghe: "My fire of karma burns not firewood, but karma. Everything in the world has karma in me, and my flame burns everywhere. Especially in this place of Honghe, there are gatherings of three thousand The world has boundless karma, the karmic fire is eternal, and the red lotus is eternal and invincible. It is a first-class fierce place. Those who are exposed to the flames have a physical body and are swallowed by the karmic fire, and those without a body are swallowed by the karmic fire. If you touch it, you will be separated from the flesh and bones, and the pain of the coke of the flesh and blood, not to mention eating it raw, eating one flower, the pain penetrates into the bone marrow, burning the internal organs, eating two flowers, the pain is all over the body, and I have been unable to live for seven to seven consecutive days, and I have died in my karma. There are countless nights under the fire, and all of them are extremely painful. Do you really want to accept this test? Then there is no option to regret it!"

He Jinyang listened to his warning calmly, his expression remained unchanged, nodded in the sight of the ancestor of Honghe, and stopped speaking.

The ancestor of Honghe saw that he was determined and had no way to turn around, so he waved his hand and sent him into the Karmic Fire Red Lotus.

"In that case, you can go."

Before entering the red lotus, He Jinyang bowed down and said sincerely: "Thank you, ancestor."

When the people were gone, the karmic fire was still burning in the sea of ​​blood. The ancestor Honghe looked at it, flicking his sleeves impatiently, whipped up a strong wind, and sent the karmic fire into the void, and said impatiently: "Thank you? The ancestor can't So be merciful!"

Yuan Tu, who was fluttering quietly, remained silent, while Ah Bi groaned intermittently as if on purpose, as if laughing at his duplicity.

Patriarch Honghe shook his head: "Who am I worrying about?" After finishing speaking, he raised his head to the sky, his eyes fell through the eighteen layers of hell to the chaotic outer sky, but after a short pause, he retracted his gaze, and hesitatingly spit out a Word, "people."

People teach.