deep crush

Li Min insulted, satirized, and mocked him with the most ugly words, and he was scolded for nothing.

Ten years of forbearance is meaningless, ten years of repression has become a joke.On that day, the pain accumulated for more than ten years broke out in an instant, and he yelled back at the aloof queen for the first time.

In adolescence, the deliberately hidden rebellion found an outlet to vent. He growled uncontrollably, asking why they gave birth to him, and gave birth to a self specially designed for them to torture.For more than ten years, his life was worse than death.In their eyes, he is not as good as a cat, a dog, or a toy.In order to satisfy their ever-expanding vanity and perverted desires, he was transformed into a machine that could only learn.He doesn't know anything, knows nothing but study, study, study, and lives like an idiot.You can hit and scold, you are not allowed to have feelings, and you are not allowed to refuse all good arrangements for him.He has had enough of these days.

Li Min slapped him twice angrily, and Tang Kun, who returned home, picked up his stick and slapped him indiscriminately.He snatched the stick and threw it, and raised his chair and slammed it against the window.

The glass shattered and fell from the sky together with the chair.Flying debris scratched his face and the back of his hands.Li Min looked at his mad son in extreme horror.

Tang Ye's whole body trembled, his chest heaved violently, his eyes were red, and he lost his mind, and he said extremely cruel words.

The most painful thing in this life is being born in this hellish family and meeting you two perverted lunatics. 18 years, your abuse is over, and I am enough.Do not meet again until death.

He rushed out of the horrible house in one breath, escaped from the cage called "home", and breathed the free air to his heart's content.

He laughed out loud for the first time, and he laughed for a full 10 minutes until his tears couldn't stop falling.

To its university, to its family, he would rather be a beggar for the rest of his life and never go back.

Li Liefeng, who ran away from home with him, gave him a rare thumbs up. In 18, under that kind of control, it is a miracle that Tang Ye didn't go crazy and didn't become a serial killer who only preyed on women.

Relieved, Tang Ye embarked on a journey to find the meaning of life together with his second-hand friends.

Along the way, Li Liefeng, like a conscientious teacher, taught little boy Tang how to use Dafa in the unknown world, opening another door to little friend Tang's life.

When passing through S City, they were fooled by a taxi driver to the prestigious S University.

There, Tang Ye met the only concern in his life for the first time, Xia Han who was in the glorious and splendid period of life.

In April, when the peach blossoms were in full bloom, the place where the students gathered was a self-made small event. The host on the stage announced a name, and there were endless shouts of excitement from the audience.

The sun pierced into his eyes, Tang Ye closed his eyes.

The frantic yelling in his ears stopped, and a low, ethereal male voice sounded. The magical singing was like a breeze blowing from a distant valley, and he slowly opened his eyes.

Under the peach blossom tree, fallen petals are colorful.The boy holding the guitar raised his eyes, his captivating eyes looked at him from afar, his lips parted and he chanted in a low voice.

In the dreamlike scene, Tang Ye's eyes froze instantly, unable to move away from the man.

As the music started, the man held the guitar and danced with his fingers to show his skillful skills. The penetrating voice brought the atmosphere to the climax, awakened the sleeping soul, turned the vast sky with high, and the whole campus was shouting the name of the boy , the flash of youth, an era that belongs to him.

Xia Han.

That is a person who almost holds the world in his arms. He is confident, handsome, versatile, and free-spirited. He has everything Tang Ye desires.His smile is the most beautiful scenery in the world.

At the end of the song, the boy embraced the band members behind him, including Lin Yu.

The boy waved his hand to bid farewell to the audience, and left with his friends. Tang Ye couldn't help chasing the figure until he was far away from the turbulent stage before calling out the boy's name.

"Now that I think about it, it's really enough, just chase after him. I don't know anything about him except his name. But I still got stuck."

Xia Han turned her head, the smile on the corner of her mouth was too late to take back.

In April, the sun shone wantonly on the verdant campus, the sound of music sounded far away, and students in twos and threes passed by him.

Tang Ye stared obsessively at the person who was approaching step by step.

Xia Han came to him with gentle eyes, a smile on his lips, and said in a slightly magnetic voice, "Hello, classmate."

At that moment, Tang Ye forgot to breathe.

He was embarrassed like a child, and could only respond to his hello silly.

Xia Han: "What do you want me to do?"

Tang Ye: "..."

Tang Ye's courage was exhausted the moment he called out to that person. He didn't know why he stopped this person, and what to do when he stopped.

With almost zero experience in making friends, he didn't know how to communicate with others, so he lowered his head in shame and anger, hating himself for being useless.

Xia Han: "How old are you?"

Tang Ye babbled for a long time before saying, "I...I'm not from this school, high school, senior year."

Xia Han: "How did you know my name?"

Tang Ye: "Just now, the stage..."

Xia Han nodded knowingly, "Are you here to visit the school in advance?" After speaking, he raised his hand and put it on Tang Ye's shoulder, "I have a little time now, let's go, I will show you around."

Xia Han's approach made Tang Ye hold his breath nervously, and walked with him on the legendary campus.

S University covers an area of ​​more than 5000 mu, with four campuses and 35 colleges. Xia Han briefly introduced the general distribution of the school, and Tang Ye turned his head slightly.

In the past 18 years, he has never seen Xia Han who has thousands of stars in one body.

Or I have seen that there are not a few people in this world who live wonderful and successful lives.But, only Xia Han, who was shining brightly on the stage, was the only one who caught his eyes and his heart.

Xia Han turned around and asked what department he wanted to apply for?

Tang Ye lowered his head, he had already given up the university, what department was he still talking about.

"I, no, didn't think about it."

Xia Han looked up at the iconic buildings on the campus, "Then think about it carefully, what is your dream, what kind of road do you want to take in the future. No matter how hard it is, you have to grit your teeth and work hard for the goal, don't make a decision casually. In short, remember one sentence, don’t let yourself regret it.”

The Xia Han in Tang Ye's eyes--excellent, confident, and gentle, because of his words, Tang Ye picked up the life that had been abandoned.

Someone called Xia Han's name in the distance, and he answered and turned around, "I should go, classmate, I hope you can get into S University smoothly, this is a school that will not let you down. As a senior, I can I am very responsible to tell you that the splendor here is definitely beyond your expectation."

Xia Han stretched out his hand, Tang Ye carefully squeezed it back, the temperature between his fingers was hot to the bottom of his heart.

Xia Han left, a friend in the distance patted him on the shoulder, and said with a smile, he was bewitching the freshmen again, what time is it this month, you are about to become the publicity ambassador of S University, does the school have to give you a commission...

Tang Ye plucked up the courage to call the man's name for the last time, but the man waved his back without looking back.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

After seven years of separation, the unexpected encounter he thought never happened.

After drinking a bottle of white wine, Tang Ye was very drunk. He opened a beer can, took a sip, and fell on the coffee table.

Xia Han sat beside him and listened quietly. Tang Ye didn't say much, didn't mention the person's name, and a bottle of white wine sipped a short story, all he swallowed was bitter.

College life is not as exciting as that person said. He collected bits and pieces of that person like a madman and accumulated them in this small nest of [-] square meters.

During the seven long years, Tang Ye had a persistent belief that he would see that person again in his lifetime.

"In the past, I had no money and no ability. In the past two years, with some savings, it shouldn't be too difficult to find a person with a name, a photo, and a school." He turned his head and looked at the other side drunkenly. "Say, I, do you want to go to him?"

Li Liefeng asked him, since he likes him to the point of death, why didn't he go to him?

In the past, there was not so much money for him to find someone who had met once among the population of 13 billion; now, now...

He wanted to see Xia Han again in his dreams, but now that he was able to look for it, he flinched.

The 29-year-old Xia Han should already have a happy family, one or two lovely children, such a picture----

He warned himself that one day he should give up, but he was paradoxically afraid of this fact.

On that day, on that day, maybe, maybe...

He may, never stand up again.

The belief that had supported him for seven years had collapsed, and what else could he rely on to complete the rest of his long life.

In Xia Han's eyes, Tang Ye is a person with a slightly indifferent temperament, who seems indifferent to anyone and everything.It seems that no one can really get close to him.

What he didn't expect was that Tang Ye's childhood was almost miserable, and Tang Ye, who had developed an indifferent temperament, also deeply loved someone.

That love was deep, strong, and heavy. After seven years, it reached the edge of despair.

Li Min's negligence caused Tang Ye to lose that person's substitute, and that's why he acted irrationally afterwards.

Xia Han sighed softly, very clearly in the quiet night.

"Tang Ye, forget about her!"

"There are many passers-by in everyone's life. You just mistake her for the destined person. Lock yourself in a world with only her, so you live so tired."

"Time is reserved for you to forget and heal your wounds, and you have to come out on your own."

"Your first love is just a first love, and you already have an answer. The day you met, it was over."

"give up!"

The drunken Tang Ye slowly closed his eyes, Xia Han helped him to the sofa, and brought a blanket to cover him.

The summer night breeze blows in through the window, and the crisp sound of wind chimes can't wake up the dreamer.

give up!

A hopeless first love, a fruitless secret love, this is the only way left.

Learn to give up, let go of what you have accumulated in the past, bit by bit, from your hands.

His story, his old things, his voice, his appearance, his --- name.

In the end, let the non-existent person really walk out of life.

The figure in the dream walked further and further away, he opened his mouth, but he couldn't call out his name no matter what.

Having been in love for seven years, now, he must, must, learn to let go.

Let this hopeless attachment be submerged in the deep sea of ​​memory.

Maybe, one day, he will finally be able to face the unexpected encounters in his life with a smile...