purple yellow

It is night, but not quiet.

Zhan Zhao made many novel discoveries that night.It was the first time he saw that the four brothers Wang Dynasty, Ma Han, Zhang Long, and Zhao Hu were so capable of making trouble. It was more fun than listening to the double reed.It is also the first time that Mr. Gongsun, who has never touched alcohol, can smell the aroma and distinguish the wine.For the first time, I found out that Mr. Bao is so good at drinking, he was toasted by Wang Dynasty and others in turn, and he still stood upright. In the end, even Bai Yutang, who was addicted to alcohol, was defeated in the battle of wine, and he returned to the room early .

Of course, Bao Zheng's "massiveness" did not let him and Mr. Gongsun see the clue until the end.It turned out that Bao Zheng had been drunk a long time ago, but his black face couldn't tell that he was drunk and bright red.

Zhan Zhao didn't drink much, but he felt that he was drunk from the very beginning.

The sincere eyes, the earnest care, and the unobstructed world are more warm and can make him drunk than drinking yellow soup from the stomach.

After sending the last drunk Zhao Hu back to his room, Zhan Zhaocai felt a tired ache all over his body.He smiled slightly, because he was very familiar with this feeling.This is the tiredness that only he can feel when he is completely relaxed.Since the death of his mother in his hometown in Changzhou, from traveling all the way to entering the officialdom, only Kaifeng Mansion gave him this feeling—the feeling of home.

Home has never been a place, but a warmth accumulated by people who love each other.

The courtyard is still the same, the vegetation is still the same, and the year away seems to be just a corner of the winding corridor that is walking.Zhan Zhao walked slowly, flicking off the snow on the fence.

An open-minded heart is like a flattened palm, seemingly magnanimous to everything.However, when the snow melted in it, there was still a trace of uneasiness hidden in the heart that could not be driven away, just like the uneven palm lines on the palm.

What it is, Zhan Zhao already knew in his heart.But, he didn't want to think about it.

Back in the room, Zhan Zhao felt extremely tired.Without lighting the lamp, I walked straight to the bedside to undress and rest in the dark—just like every time I returned home at night.Unexpectedly, just as he was about to take off his belt, the movements of his hands stopped suddenly.

"Who?"

Shout out simultaneously with the sharp palm force, straight to the dark corner.Seeing that the palm wind was about to surround the indistinct sound of breathing, it stopped abruptly.

"Brother Bai?" Zhan Zhao withdrew his palms, and put away the surprised expression on his face, "It's so late, what are you doing in my room instead of going back to rest?"

"You really know it's me?"

In the darkness, Bai Yutang's voice was a little dry, but also a little drunk - his tongue was sticking out, and his words were slurred.

"If I didn't know it was you, I wouldn't have given up just now." Zhan Zhao turned to the table, took out the torch, and said with a smile, "Brother Bai is really childish, if I didn't recognize you, wouldn't you Did you take my slap in vain?"

"No. I know you'll recognize me."

The hoarse voice followed heavy steps behind him, giving Zhan Zhao the illusion that Bai Yutang was so close to him at this moment, as if his breath would blow out on the back of his neck at any moment.Zhan Zhao wanted to step aside as naturally as possible, but a pair of arms surrounded him faster than he thought, hugging him from behind.

It wasn't a gentle hug, Bai Yutang's movements were a little rough, hands interlaced regardless of severity, clasping his shoulders tightly.I can still feel the frighteningly hot body temperature through the clothes, and the fire is burning, as if it is going to burn out with him.

The dim moonlight that leaked into the room seemed unreal, but what was real was Bai Yutang's confused and deep eyes under his thick and handsome eyebrows.

Zhan Zhao stood there in a daze, not knowing what to do for a while.After a while, he pretended to be calm and let out a cough and laugh, and then the bone-crunching words came out of his throat word by word: "My fire bag seems to be wet. Brother Bai, do you have any? Help me light the lamp."

"Why do you need to light the lamp?" Bai Yutang asked.

"It's pitch black and you can't see clearly."

"If you can't see clearly, it's fine. Is there anything you must see clearly?" Bai Yutang buried his face in Zhan Zhao's shoulder, and murmured dreamily, "I don't want to light the lamp. I don't need it, I don't need it at all. .”

Zhan Zhao's face turned pale, and his two straight eyebrows were wrinkled, as if he was enduring an indescribable pain.Perhaps, there is also a resentment hidden in it.He held Bai Yutang's arm firmly, and said word by word, "Let go quickly. If you still consider me a friend."

Bai Yutang didn't speak, but his breathing became heavier each time.The strange atmosphere renders the whole room eerily quiet.After a long time, I heard a sigh in the darkness, the deepest, bitterest and heaviest sigh.

"...can we...can only be friends?...can we really only be friends?..."

Feeling that Zhan Zhao was about to break free, Bai Yutang hugged him even tighter with all his strength, "Don't move, don't move... Please cat. Don't move, just stay like this for a while. Please, let Lean on me, I'm so tired, I don't want to move at all. So that's it, just let me make sure, just one more time, I beg you."

Begging, cautiously, like a novice chanting scriptures in his mouth.Such piety, no matter who understands me or not, cannot ignore its existence.

Zhan Zhao was confused.He couldn't believe that the begging with faint weeping sounds came from Bai Yutang.

How could that proud man be so vulnerable?Even if you are vulnerable, how can you show it to others?

What's going on here?What is he sure of?

Puzzle bound Zhan Zhao's hands and feet, unable to move for a while.

"You're still alive, aren't you? You're right in front of my eyes, aren't you?" The question was refuted by his own sneer, "Look at what i'm talking about." The circled hands slowly loosened and rested on Zhan Zhao's shoulders.Bai Yutang pressed his forehead against Zhan Zhao's vest, "Cat, scold me a few words, wake me up quickly. Do you know what I look like now? I'm like a woman who cares about gains and losses, and has nothing to fear I've become a coward. I'm scared to death when I think of that gun shooting at you. Cat, curse me quickly, so I don't get worse."

"What's wrong, Brother Bai?"

"Don't look back at me!" Zhan Zhao wanted to turn around but Bai Yutang yelled to stop him, "I'm not me now, I'm a weak and weak guy. So don't look back, I don't want you to see me like this."

Zhan Zhao didn't turn around again, but closed his eyes and asked in a low voice, "What happened? Did you have a nightmare?"

"I can't hide anything from you." Bai Yutang smiled self-deprecatingly, "I probably drank a few too many drinks. I was so confused that I couldn't even distinguish between reality and dreams. I dreamed that I was back on that street again, and I saw When the Soul Seizing Gun was shot at you, I thought you were fine, so I didn’t shoot. But...it’s completely different from what I thought, the tip of the gun pierced your heart, and I saw you lying in a pool of blood..."

Speech froze with infarction.The obsessive arms wrapped around her again, as if she couldn't bear the pain of loss.

As everyone knows, for Zhan Zhao, it was another kind of heavy pain that overwhelmed him, bending his shoulders, frowning, and hurting his heart.

"It's just a dream, don't take it seriously."

"You don't have to take it seriously?... You don't have to take it seriously... Yes, you don't have to take it seriously." The murmur gradually turned into excitement, "Then tell me when it will take it seriously, is it really going to be the time of death?"

It wasn't Zhan Zhao who broke away from Bai Yutang's embrace, but Bai Yutang let go of it quickly, waiting for Zhan Zhao to slowly turn around and face him.

What should be faced is always faced.

Looking at each other, they couldn't see each other clearly in the darkened room, but their eyes were precisely glued to each other for a long, long time.The two pairs of crystal eyes flashed with complex and indistinguishable expressions at each other.

It is love, it is righteousness, it is friendship, it is love.

Seeing what is invisible seems to be clear.What should be seen through is never seen through.

Did he really respond to Yuehua's exclamation?

——It is the mundane world if you can't see through it. If you see through the world, you may lose its various flavors.

This time, Bai Yutang was the first to look away, because Bai Yutang couldn't find any wavering in Zhan Zhao's eyes.

There is always one of the two opposing sides who has to make a move first, and one of the two sides has to be shaken first.At this moment, Bai Yutang finally understands why he always loses to Zhan Zhao in every martial arts competition. It's not because he is better or worse in kung fu, but because he never has Zhan Zhao's concentration and calmness.

With a burst of laughter, Bai Yutang smelled of alcohol, and then laughed dryly again and again.

"Hehe, you're right, you don't have to take it seriously. It's just a dream, why take it real."

He waved his hand nonchalantly, as if he wasn't himself just now, and all the nonsense was erased with a light swipe of his cuff. "Life is nothing more than a mirror, and it's more fake than a drama. If you should be free and easy, you should be free and easy, and if you should be free and easy, you should be free and easy, right?" Bai Yutang smiled frivolously.Like most drunk people, he couldn't stand upright and kept shaking, "So I told you to scold me. Being scolded by your stinky cat is the greatest insult to me, a mouse. Maybe I can wake up from this." As if confirming himself, he nodded again and again, "Yes, yes, I can definitely wake up. How good it is to be awake. The sky is big and the earth is big, let me Chinchilla Bai Yutang come and go freely, haha , How happy. I am happy, and you are also relieved. Hahahahaha."

The bold and unrestrained laughter echoed in the quiet room, which was particularly abrupt.

"Hey, cat, this is a rare opportunity. I won't even answer if you scold me. Hurry up, if you miss this village, you won't have this shop. Why don't you hurry up and take revenge?"

Seeing Bai Yutang faltering, Zhan Zhao's heart was heavy: "Brother Bai, you're drunk. I'll take you back to your room."

Bai Yutang avoids the hand that Zhang Zhao came to support, and spat hard, "Hey, who is drunk, you are a dead cat. I am very clear-headed. Don't think that I gave you a great opportunity to let you go If you scold me, just treat me as stupid, and let me tell you, I am more sober than ever. If you want to scold me, scold you, mother-in-law, what?"

"Yes yes yes, you are sober. I am drunk, I am drunk." Zhan Zhao responded vaguely, stepped forward to support Bai Yutang, "Okay, brother Bai, it's getting late. Go back to your room and rest."

"Stop you ghost! If you pretend to be me, you can't fart? Don't you believe that I'm not drunk? Okay, I'll prove it to you now. See how I can turn your royal cat into a panda now."

Accompanied by Bai Yutang's anger was his fist.This punch was unforeseen, and he was almost hit.Fortunately, Bai Yutang exerted too much force and couldn't stand still. His feet slipped, his legs became weak, his fists turned sideways, and his body fell down. His head hit Zhan Zhao's waist, and he slammed Zhan Zhao straight into the chair beside the table. But it looked like a soft-legged crab lying on the ground.

Zhan Zhao was angry and funny, and wanted to pull Bai Yutang up.Unexpectedly, he knocked off Zhan Zhao's hand in a fit of anger, and insisted on getting up on his own.But he failed even after several attempts, and in the end he just lay on Zhan Zhao's lap and stopped moving.

"Bastard, it's you who made me unable to use any strength. You evil cat. It took me eight lifetimes to get to know you."

Neither Zhan Zhaofu nor La, so he could only sit there with a wry smile and agree, "Yes, yes, we know each other after eight lifetimes of misfortune..."

Zhan Zhao suddenly lost his voice, because he saw a scorching sight from the darkness in a trance, which made him unable to say any more words.He knew that it was Bai Yutang's sight, but when he looked back, he could only see the back of Bai Yutang's head.

Could it be just an illusion that the sour eyes that ooze with worry?

After a long time, Bai Yutang's voice sounded again in the darkness.No longer loud, but unexpectedly calm.

"Cat, can you promise me one thing?"

Zhan Zhao said: "Tell me. As long as I can do it."

There was another silence before Bai Yutang said, "You must not die."

Zhan Zhao smiled softly, and said, "What stupid things are you talking about. I'm living a good life, and I can't seek death."

"I'm serious. I know who you are. I say you cherish life, but everyone's life is more important to you than you. If you continue like this, sooner or later you will kill yourself! "

Zhan Zhao sighed: "A man has something to do, but not something to do. How can he kill himself if he devotes his whole life to his beliefs and ideals?"

"Your ideal is to be an official?"

"Why ask knowingly? You know it's not."

"Okay. Then I want you to promise me not to be an official anymore."

The staring eyes were Zhan Zhao's instant astonishment, he was puzzled and asked, "Brother Bai, why did you say that?"

Bai Yutang suddenly tightened his grip on the hem of Zhan Zhao's clothes, but he never looked up at him.Bai Yutang snorted coldly: "If you say I'm not suitable to be an official, are you suitable? You just want to contribute to the people's country, so you can do it freely. Why must you stick to the status of a fourth-rank imperial guard with a sword? Isn't it more enjoyable to spread your wings and fly high than to stay in a golden cage?"

Zhan Zhao no longer smiled, and the soft lines on his face suddenly hardened.He said: "I didn't expect that after so many years, you still don't understand me..."

Bai Yutang raised his head in shock, grabbed Zhan Zhao's arms anxiously and said, "I understand, why don't I understand. 'Xia Yiwu breaks the ban'——I understand that my heart is callused. I know I shouldn't." Saying such things, I also know that I shouldn't make such a request, but...but..." Excited, Bai Yutang finally stood up straight, and his long figure caged Zhan Zhao, Bai Yutang shook his head bitterly, "Look at yourself. After so many years in the officialdom, you have not seen much achievement, but you have made yourself like this. Don't you realize that your body is getting worse and worse, and you are getting more and more injuries? Is the time getting longer and longer? You are only a mortal after all. I am doing it for your own good."

"Thank you, Brother Bai, for your concern. Because I am a mortal, even if I go back to the rivers and lakes to lick blood, I will be injured. If I take care of things once in the rivers and lakes and get hurt once; then in the officialdom, I will take care of them ten times and suffer ten times." Zhan does not think there is any unfairness. Besides, instead of fighting to the death for some meaningless things in the arena, I would rather stay in the officialdom and continue my toil. I am not achieving for the sake of achievement, just being me What you want to do. A person who does what he wants to do, whether it's for himself or for others, isn't it considered a happy life?" Zhan Zhao smiled emotionally, and patted Bai Yutang's arm, "Brother Bai, I Knowing you well, you would never ask me to leave the officialdom for such a reason, would you? Tell me honestly what happened?"

Bai Yutang turned his eyes away, "Don't worry about it so much. If you trust me, just listen to me."

"If you don't give me enough reasons, you won't be able to persuade me to leave Lord Bao."

Zhan Zhao's eyes didn't make any waves, but they couldn't calm Bai Yutang's disturbed heart, because there was already a great uproar in his heart.He shouted excitedly: "Reason! Reason! Do you still have to use your Kaifeng Mansion method to gather witnesses and evidence for you?! Yes! I don't have enough reasons to convince you. You are benevolent and righteous, and you have both loyalty and filial piety." , almost everyone in Kaifeng City recognizes you, Mr. Zhan. You are not a small fourth-rank imperial guard with a knife. In the eyes of those ordinary people, you are simply a national hero and the patron saint of Kaifeng Mansion. You are not afraid of injury or injury. Pain is not afraid of death, what are you afraid of?"

Bai Yutang was full of irony, Zhan Zhao couldn't hear it, he knew that Bai Yutang was losing his temper.Every time Bai Yutang lost his temper without reason to him, he would just laugh it off.However, this time Zhan Zhao didn't.

He stood up.

He is very straight, his back, the bridge of his nose, his shoulders, his eyesight are almost sharp, he can cut through anything - at least Bai Yutang has this feeling.

"Brother Bai, it's okay to put it on the table if you have any complaints. But I hope you remember that I, Zhan Zhao, am not a punching bag. Even if you want to vent your anger, you should at least vent it clearly."

Zhan Zhao's voice was extremely flat, and if it was someone else, he might not be able to detect the peculiar smell in it for a while.But Bai Yutang can.It was that plainness, Bai Yutang felt that there was a chill that seemed to have reached the freezing point, like a blade of ice and snow that could split the plain, breaking away his intensity and melting his excitement at once.

"Cat, are you angry?"

"No."

Zhan Zhao returned very simply.

"You are angry."

What Bai Yutang said was also very affirmative.

He seems to have forgotten one very important thing.

Zhan Zhao is a Nan Xia, a bodyguard, whatever his status is, but Zhan Zhao is also a human being, a man who stands up to heaven and earth.He also has his ups and downs.He can let it go, most of the time his temper is too good, he can tolerate many things and many people.

But this time, he didn't seem very happy.

When Zhan Zhao is unhappy, he also loses his temper.Because having a good temper is by no means the same as having no temper.

Bai Yutang took a deep breath and let it out again.He walked up to Zhan Zhao, walking cautiously.He wasn't afraid of Zhan Zhao getting angry, he had seen Zhan Zhao getting angry countless times, and there was neither thunder nor rain.There is nothing to be afraid of.

not afraid.He is definitely not afraid.

He just cares.

So he walked cautiously.Not because he was afraid of touching Zhan Zhao's anger, but because he wanted to clean up his mood.In the past, he would have slapped his ass and walked away in anger, regardless of whether it was his fault or not.Now... Oh, when a person cares about another person, he will inevitably give in.

"Maybe I really drank too much. I was too excited. You don't have to take what you said just now." The voice was much softer, Bai Yutang was very sincere, and his eyes were also very calm.It's just that as soon as the words were finished, the frozen knot in his chest made him have to look away again.

Nothing escapes Zhan Zhao's eyes.Zhan Zhao asked, "Brother Bai, are you hiding something from me?"

"Where is it?" Bai Yutang smiled slightly.He seemed to walk around behind Zhan Zhao casually, but Zhan Zhao always felt that Bai Yutang was avoiding him.Tonight, every time Bai Yutang didn't let him see his face, Bai Yutang would become very strange - say some strange words, do some strange actions.

Sure enough, Bai Yutang was weird again.He reached out to hold his shoulders, although it was firm and powerful.He said, "Since you are unwilling to leave the officialdom, then you promise me that you will never die. At least you will not die before me."

"Brother Bai..."

The strength in the shoulders increased, "Promise me! Don't let this happen, never."

Feeling a sudden heaviness in his back, Zhan Zhao knew that it was Bai Yutang who pressed his forehead against his vest again.Even the spitting out of the nose is hot and discernible, "Otherwise, I will never forgive you, absolutely not."

Clenched hands into fists, let go, clenched again, let go again.Zhan Zhao let out a sigh of relief and nodded: "I promise you. I will live a good life." The leaking moonlight just shone on his face, and he said, "Brother Bai, I will take you back to your room."

The fabric on the back was gently rubbed, Bai Yutang was shaking his head, and even his voice was almost blurred, "It will be fine in a while, it will be fine in a while. I feel so tired, let me lean on it again, and it will be fine... …”

"Brother Bai..."

"I know you don't like it, but I feel bad right now. Just treat me as wayward, don't be angry with me, and don't hate me, okay?"

Silence is not thinking about the answer.The answer is in his heart, but Zhan Zhao doesn't know how to say it.

Until a long time passed, Bai Yutang felt his hands start to catch and release back and forth due to tension.Zhan Zhaocai said slowly: "I will not be angry with you, nor will I loathe you." He closed his eyes, sighed like a long and meaningful wave, dispelling the last trace of depression in his heart, "We are best friends through life and death. "

"Best friends in life and death? Yes, we are best friends in life and death. So, you will never leave me and run away, will you? Then I can feel at ease."

Following the word "An Xin", Zhan Zhao felt Bai Yutang tremble all over, and then he was about to fall down.Shocked, Zhan Zhao quickly turned around and hugged him.

"What's the matter?" The touch on his hand was extremely hot, and Zhan Zhao suddenly realized, "Are you sick?" He touched Bai Yutang's forehead, and it was really hot, "You have a fever? Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

No wonder he ran into his room and said so many inexplicable things, no wonder he looked drunk and awake.As early as at the cleansing banquet, something was wrong with Bai Yutang, no wonder, no wonder he went back to his room drunk before even reaching half his usual drinking capacity.

Confused!How did he find out now?

"Don't say anything. Go to bed and lie down first."

Fu Bai Yutang lay down, covered the quilt, and fed him some water.Zhan Zhao said: "You rest, I will find Mr. Gongsun to show you."

"Don't go." Bai Yutang held him back, and said with a stinky face, "If you want to kill me, you can go and shout."

"Why did it turn into harming you again for your own good?"

"Don't think that you are trying to trick me because you are used to drinking bitter medicine. Mr. Gongsun's medicine is extremely bitter. Every time I drink it, my stomach can't stand it."

Zhan Zhao sneered: "It's your stomach that can't take it? I think it's your mouth. Let it go, maybe you haven't fallen asleep yet."

"I already feel much better. Mr. Gongsun has no place to use a doctor now."

"You're such an adult, don't be childish."

"I'm just childish, I just shy away from medical treatment. You don't care about it." Bai Yutang said, rolling all over the bed like a child, crumpling the good quilt into a ball.He said impetuously: "If you dare to call Mr. Gongsun, I will sneak away. If I die of illness on the street because of this, you are the one who killed me. Even if you are a ghost, I will not let you go."

Zhan Zhao smiled wryly: "I don't think you're like a child now. You're more like a spoiled woman."

"Fuck you bastard! If any woman rolls like this on your bed, you should marry her." (Zero [eyes popping out of heart]: That's enough? I'll do it, let me do it! )

Zhan Zhao rolled his eyes, "Then what do you want from me? Bai Wuye——"

Bai Yutang called "Fifth Bai" and smiled.Although Qi is weak and weak, the playful heart will not lose half because of illness, it should be said that it is even more insatiable, "Mao'er, stay and serve me."

"It seems that you are seriously ill." Zhan Zhao said with sideways eyes, "Lie down well and sleep well. I'll go to sleep in your room."

Before Zhan Zhao lifted one foot, Bai Yutang banged his head on the bed and cursed: "Ingratitude! Don't save yourself if you die! You have no loyalty, no humanity, no conscience! Who is taking care of you, a half-dead cat, at Shenquan Villa?" Why, just cross the river and tear down the bridge. It turns out that Nan Xia Zhan Zhao is so kind and righteous."

"You got it." Zhan Zhao smiled helplessly and shook his head, "Forget it, I'm afraid of you. Lie down quickly. I'll reciprocate."

Zhan Zhao rolled up his sleeves, went to the basin stand and poured water to wet the towel, then wrung it dry, and put it on Bai Yutang's forehead.Seeing that the quilt was crooked, she covered it again for Bai Yutang.Bai Yutang deliberately kicked the quilt away, Zhan Zhao glared at him and covered him again without saying a word.Bai Yutang kicked again, Zhan Zhao blocked again.It wasn't until Zhan Zhao's expression was about to explode that Bai Yutang couldn't hide the complacent look on his face: "Hey, there is no one more majestic than me in this world, and you actually let Master Zhan serve me in person."

"That's right, the most prestigious mouse in history..." Zhan Zhao muttered.

"What did you say? Smelly cat!"

"Hmph, white mouse!"

"Show kittens!"

"Cross-eyed!"

"Death seeker!"

"You..." Each other's right hands clenched into fists, ready to go.It's just that they understand that no one's left cheek will touch the other's fist.Because in the next second, both of them burst out laughing.

"Cat, you've been infected with this childish person like me for too long." Bai Yutang arched his body into a shrimp ball, coughing and laughing.

Seeing him like that, Zhan Zhao couldn't help worrying, he said, "I think it's better to ask Mr. Gongsun to take a look at it for you. It's rare for you to be sick, and it doesn't look like you're tired or caught a cold, so it's more reassuring to have a look. .”

Bai Yutang shook his head and said, "It's probably just that I didn't sleep well, so don't make a big fuss about it."

"You must follow the example of Duke Huan, I have nothing to say."

"Who said I want to imitate that stupid thing? Cai Huan didn't ask someone to scrape him."

"Scraping?" Zhan Zhao pointed to himself and asked in disbelief, "You mean you want me to scrape for you?"

"Nonsense. Do you think it's so easy to serve people? Just change the handkerchief. You are beautiful! Go get some cold oil."

"Cold oil? I don't have any in my room."

"Then take it somewhere else."

Zhan Zhao smiled cunningly, "Only Mr. Gongsun has it. If you borrow it from him, I don't think Brother Bai will be able to get away with the three big bowls of bitter medicine."

Sure enough, Bai Yutang's complexion turned from white to dark.Zhan Zhao thought for a while, and then said, "Why don't you change the soup instead of the medicine, how about helping you get rid of the fever?"

The smile on his face didn't change at all, but Bai Yutang felt that Zhan Zhao's smile was even more treacherous.He said stubbornly: "No. You want to take this opportunity to take revenge on me. No way! I, Bai Yutang, am not a fool."

"Then what do you want from me?"

Seeing Zhan Zhao rubbing his sore neck, Bai Yutang couldn't help asking with concern: "Are you really tired?"

Zhan Zhao didn't respond, and said with a faint smile, "Take a good rest. If the fever doesn't subside tomorrow, Mr. Gongsun, you must see him." After finishing speaking, he turned to leave, but felt that his cuffs were heavy because Bai Yutang was holding him back .

Bai Yutang's eyes shined with profound and deep feelings, like splashing ink on paper, melting and re-melting.The look in his eyes made Zhan Zhao's heart ache.Don't turn your face away, just avoid it.It's just that he could avoid his sight, but he couldn't even avoid his voice.

"Stay with me for a while, okay?"

Zhan Zhao felt that his body was a little stiff, as if he had lost his sense of touch, and even he himself didn't know how he sat on the head of the bed.

Why sit down?Since he didn't want this kind of ungodly relationship, maybe it would be better to throw Bai Yutang away and scold him awake.

Zhan Zhao suddenly had an epiphany, that what Bai Yutang called him to scold just now was not just timidity.Bai Yutang seemed to be pointing something all the time, he wanted him to scold him, he wanted to be sober, could it be said that Bai Yutang was also looking forward to an early conclusion of everything?If he is really not drunk.

Yes, maybe he should scold him and vent all the unhappiness in his heart.

Why did the friendship that he had always valued more than anything else deteriorate to such an extent?

He has many friends, but Bai Yutang is the best friend who has truly experienced disasters and countless storms with him.He attaches great importance to him, sharing good and bad, and being in the wrong is nothing, for this friend, he can do his best, just like he does for his ideal.

However, what exactly changed everything?

Bai Yutang can still do his best for Zhan Zhao, and Zhan Zhao can still give up his life for Bai Yutang.Nothing seems to have changed, yet everything has indeed changed.

"May I shake your hand?"

Almost numbly, Zhan Zhao glanced at Bai Yutang.

Zhan Zhao's expression made Bai Yutang nervous, and he evasively said, "I just want to make sure you didn't sneak away before I fell asleep. And... I don't want to have such a dream again."

Zhan Zhao didn't refuse.

The so-called no rejection, just because Zhan Zhao didn't say anything, doesn't mean he agreed.Keep silent, because once you make a sound, it may be out of control.He wasn't ready to clean up the mess yet, the foundation of his heart was softer than he imagined.But preparations like this can always be made.

Bai Yutang held his hand and closed his eyes.The faint smile seems to have confirmed that there will be no more nightmares in the next dream.His expression looked very happy, as if the whole person was being gently enveloped by love.

Love... what is love?

Friendship is also a kind of love.Why doesn't this kind of love burden Zhan Zhao?

Friendship makes him laugh, let him carefree, let him move, let him die without regret.Losing Yuehua's love, he was in pain, but he survived well.Because Bai Yutang used one of his shoulders to carry half of the heart-rending heart, sharing his pain.He knew that there was hatred in Bai Yutang's heart at that time - he failed to keep the promise to him and give Yuehua an everlasting life - but that hatred did not flare up once during that period, nor did Bai Yutang comfort him once.He just quietly stayed by his side, without saying a word, occasionally patted his arm, occasionally threw a can of wine, and drank with him until he was as drunk as mud, forgetting all worries and grudges.

Such a Bai Yutang, such a friendship, once thought that nothing could break it.

Yes, not broken.Never question the things that can be destroyed by external force, who can predict, but deteriorated from the inside.

Love... what is love?

Do you really understand, Yutang?What are you in love with, what are you in love with?What kind of love makes you want to give up our friendship?

Is such love worth it?

Maybe even Bai Yutang himself knew it wasn't worth it, that's why he wanted Zhan Zhao to wake him up, right?

Now that you know everything, why don't you wake up yourself?

Holding his hand makes sure he's still there.But Zhan Zhao's heart is far from as strong as he thought, and he may be inadvertently escaping to a place he can't imagine.

Does he really know what is going on in his mind? !

That's right, Bai Yutang rarely asked Zhan Zhao what he was thinking.No matter what he thinks, Bai Yutang will do what he wants.Most of the time Bai Yutang is willful, like a naughty boy who has no heart.He is always eager to express his feelings and likes and dislikes, but he never cares whether others will be hurt.Perhaps, he also cared, but rather than keeping things in his heart and making himself uncomfortable, he would rather lay things out straight and clear, even though he knew that it would be others' turn to feel uncomfortable.

Zhan Zhao appreciates Bai Yutang's straightforwardness.This is something he doesn't have.

Zhan Zhao always worries too much.He and Bai Yutang are completely opposite people.It is better to swallow the words like a knife than to cut others, knowing the pain.

But no matter how hard it is to endure pain, there is always a limit.Perhaps, Zhan Zhao has reached his limit at this moment.

Who can stand being hardened by a kind of love that is almost cruel?

Just ask, is that still love?

Zi Jin's love is cruel, but Zhan Zhao will not be hurt by it.Even if injured, it can recover quickly.

But what about Bai Yutang?

Isn't it cruel that every time he stops his mouth but can't stop his eyes?

——Because you care, you will be hurt, and you will be truly cruel because you have feelings.

Bai Yutang wanted him to wake him up by scolding him, but how did he want him to speak?

It's too heavy, will Bai Yutang get hurt?Could it be that he couldn't even keep the last friendship?It's too light, will Bai Yutang not be able to give up again, what will happen between them then?What kind of face should he use to face this person who has no clear boundaries, whether it is a friend or what?Is crying?Is it laughing?Maybe it's a heavy sigh.

Sigh, Zhan Zhao is really sighing.With a wry smile and self-deprecating.

Yutang, it really took me eight lifetimes to get to know you.

How can I have a friend like you who puts all the blame on me, makes me weigh the options, and makes my brain hurt.It's good for you to occupy my bed comfortably.Do you think that every time you show a childish grin on your face, I will give in?

What a little bastard you are, naughty and rascal.I was never allowed to put on my elder brother's airs, but he always used the excuse that I was more than ten days younger than me to ask me to stand aside.

You say that I am a strange cat with nine lives, but I think you are also Bai Yutang, a Chinchilla who can't be killed.Is it my luck or misfortune to meet someone like you?

Bai Yutang closed his eyes, but Zhan Zhao felt that he was still asleep.He Jing's eyelashes never moved, but Zhan Zhao could clearly feel the fingers holding his left hand, occasionally caressing the back of his hand lightly and vaguely.Bai Yutang's face is very stable, maybe his heart is also very stable at the moment.So stable that I don't even know what will happen next.

Zhan Zhao's eyebrows revealed determination.Once he made up his mind, Zhan Zhao was never a procrastination person.His right hand suddenly grabbed Bai Yutang's wrist.He wanted to tear that wrist off his hand, and then he would calmly tell him to end everything that shouldn't have started.

However, he lost his chance.Bai Yutang rolled over and put his other hand on top of Zhan Zhao's right hand.Bai Yutang murmured: "Cat, your hand is hot, really warm. If you can hold it like this for the rest of your life, it will be fine."

Then Bai Yutang pressed his face against the back of Zhan Zhao's hand, gently, softly, sharpening it.The expression on his face was eerily blissful.At least Zhan Zhao's face turned pale, and chills rose from the soles of his feet in vain.