king string

I spent four years walking all over the streets and alleys of the capital with Jiang Jun.Know the most prosperous place, also walked through the poorest areas.I have seen all kinds of life, and I have walked a long way.At that time, I was just 20 years old, which was the youngest and most frivolous day.

When I was sitting in a restaurant, I would fight with someone because of their comments on current affairs, and I would fight with other people because of a little mess.Jiang Jun always helps me without asking why, but I always feel that what I have is the truth.I have also been to casinos, and met those who beat me. I won a lot of money by relying on Jiang Jun's influence, and when I was about to return home with a full reward, Jiang Jun took him back by slipping his collar.

Even after 4 years, my stature is still a head lower than him, and he occasionally likes to rub my hair with his hands, laughing while rubbing, sometimes I am a little confused.

But I think, I still like him, always have, since the first time he saved me.

He was dressed in red, like a god descending.

Even though I still felt that I couldn't tolerate this feeling at that time, I didn't realize until now that falling in love is falling in love, there is no reason, no cause and effect.

In the past four years, I have buried this love and this feeling deep in my heart, and I dare not reveal it.

This is a relationship that will not be tolerated by the world, and it is a relationship that will destroy each other.

I used these four years to create the best memories of my life.

We once went to the Lantern Festival together, and I won a lot of prizes. Jiang Jun followed me and helped me carry the big and small luggage. Later, of course, all these things were given to the little doll for free;

We once sang to wine together, it was plum blossom viewing in winter, I, Jiang Jun and Cheng Han were enjoying plum blossoms on a hill in the suburbs, drinking wine, singing poems and songs, it was so relaxing and happy .

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We once galloped through the city of Chang'an together.

We also used to open a warehouse together to release grain.It was the summer flood a year ago, which caused many people to be displaced and stopped outside the capital.When Jiang Jun took me to see it, I felt extremely heartbroken. After returning to the palace, I discussed the decree with my father overnight. He opened the granary and asked Cheng Han to bring people from the medical hall to distribute it.Jiang Jun asked his soldiers to mix in and help out.Father was very shocked when he found out. He looked at me with indifference mixed with alienation and blame. His heart was very cold when he looked at me.I was not punished in the end, because Qin Xiang and the general's house supported me in the court and the public, and the queen mother in the harem pleaded for me.

If it was before, I don't think I would do this, at least I wouldn't do it against my father's will.But I met Jiang Jun.

At that time, we looked at each other and smiled, and I think a lot of words were contained in this smile.

I think I'm much more flamboyant than before, and I remember always having a smile on my lips.At that time, when I felt that life was so immutable, I walked out of the palace by myself, met Jiang Jun, let him walk into my life, and became out of control ever since.Because of this person, I became who I am now. He is like a ray of sunshine, shining warmly into my heart.

But this is not what the father wants.After that incident of opening the warehouse to release grain, I seem to recognize the real emperor.

Indifferent, tough, interests first.

Chills my heart.

And the memorial I am holding in my hand now makes me not know how to deal with it.

For four years, my father allowed me to gradually get closer to the government and let me participate in state affairs with those ministers. Although I still knew that I was not suitable to be an emperor, and I was still nurturing my third brother, he was still too young after all. I couldn't bear to let him get involved in the muddy water of the court at such a young age.

For the time being, I still need to provoke the heavy responsibility that I should bear.

But behind this important task, there are wrongs and killings.

I do not want to.

I do not accept.

I tried to go out of the palace to change all this, but before I reached the palace gate, I was stopped by the hidden guards.

Father is actually so guarded against me.

So now I am kneeling at the door of the emperor's bedroom, and I want to change my father's mind.

This is a case of rebellion.

The general's mansion, the prime minister's mansion, and the two major forces in the court were involved.

The emperor's father ordered the soldiers to surround the Prime Minister's Mansion and the General's Mansion, and no one was allowed to escape.

But in fact there is no rebellion at all, this is just a way for the father to take power.For so many years, the world has only known the virtuous prime minister Qin Xiang, the general who defended the people, and almost forgot the existence of the emperor.How could the royal father tolerate such a fact that covered the sky with one hand.In fact, this whole incident can be seen from the court dispute over the opening of warehouses and grain release a year ago, but I did not pay attention.

It was my mistake that brought things to this point.

The wind of late autumn blows on my body, but I don't want to regress.

I know that if this matter is not resolved tonight, it will only be more passive if it is dragged to the court tomorrow.

I knelt down to Dongfang Dingbai, and I smelled a strong smell of blood.It is the hidden guard next to the father.

"Your Highness, the matter is a foregone conclusion, please stop kneeling."

"What did you do?" My tone was cold and scary.

I always underestimated the cruelty of my father, who was so cruel that he directly deprived other people's lives for the sake of power.How could the person who climbed to the throne with a lot of bones as a stepping stone pay attention to one or two lives.

"Prime Minister Qin and General Jiang have committed suicide by taking poison. The Qin family will leave the capital in a few days, and Mr. Jiang will lead the army to the frontier to fight against the Turks today."

This person... this person, as an emperor, probably lost his humanity long ago!

He killed other people's fathers, but preserved their honor, and let their descendants take on the responsibility of defending the frontier.

Outrageous.

"Your Highness...you are crying..." The hidden guard looked at me blankly.

did i cry?He raised his hand to touch his face, his hand was full of tears.I wiped it off with my sleeve, but found that the sleeve was covered with tears, and I couldn't wipe it off.

I want to cry, but I have no position.My father, who killed my friend's father, who killed... the father of someone I like.What right do I have to cry?Who am I crying for?Since then, I have lost these people I want to cherish the most. If I lose it, I will never get it back.

I can only send them one last ride.

My legs became numb after kneeling for so long, and it was even difficult to stand up.I had no choice but to call the little eunuch who was always by my side to help me, and staggered towards the main hall.The journey is so long and the journey is so difficult.

But I have to go.

After walking for a long time, my knees were hurting like needles. I thought I couldn't walk, but I finally saw the hall not far away.I also saw it, Jiang Jun.

The armor he wears is heavy on his body, but behind him is a bright red cloak, which is so dazzling in my eyes.He looked normal, but not smiling.The eyes are icy and cold. When I look at me, I only feel the biting cold wind blowing, which is icy cold.

I could barely stand and fell to my knees.

He just watched it coldly, unmoved in the slightest.

I held back the pain, took a few steps towards him, and called out cautiously, "Jiang Jun."

He didn't speak.

I bit my lip and said again, "I'm sorry." I wanted to say that I tried my best, and I wanted to save your father; but I also felt that I didn't try my best, and I didn't change any ending.

I feel very hateful, I can't do anything in front of the powerful authority of my father.

"Your Highness didn't do anything to offend the minister." He shook his head, his tone distant and indifferent.

"You never called me Your Highness before." I smiled wryly, "Are you hating me for not doing anything?"

"Your Highness is serious."

I was very annoyed, so I grabbed his collar again and looked into his eyes, just like Qiushou did at that time, but it seemed so pale and weak at this time, I asked him hoarsely Said, "Are you so heartless?"

"It's not me who is heartless." He also looked into my eyes and replied, "Your Highness, please respect yourself."

Yes, this person, me and this person, from now on, maybe we can only drift away gradually.

I loosened his collar, and without support, I couldn't stand on my legs, so I fell to my knees on the ground.What he said is correct, I am incompetent, I am incompetent as a prince, but if I have a little self-motivation and cultivate a little bit of my own power, the general's mansion and the prime minister's mansion will not be in the situation they are today.

"Your Highness, do you know why I am wearing this red cloak today?" He looked down at me from a height, "Because red is the color of blood."

At that time, he told me that red was the color of a boy in fresh clothes and angry horses, but now he told me that red was the color of clothes soaked in blood.

I am really going to lose this person, there is no way to get it back.

I wanted to reach out and grab the corner of his clothes, relying on him like before. I opened my hand, shook it, and finally retracted it.

"Jiang Jun, come back alive." When I said this, my heart was bleeding, "Only when you come back alive will you have a chance to take revenge."

Actually, really, I don't want to be your enemy at all.

He smiled, that kind of mocking smile, "Follow the order."

I did not enter the hall again.

The attendant asked someone to lift the sedan chair and sent me back to the bedroom, where I was passed on to the imperial physician.

The imperial doctor said that the leg can't be cured, and the root cause of the disease will be left behind. It was like wind in my ears, and I didn't pay attention to anything.

Later, I had a high fever, and I was so dizzy. When I fell asleep, I would always dream of Jiang Jun, his cold expression, his disappearance, and finally a long sword pointing straight at him. I point.Later, I didn't want to sleep anymore, and then I got sicker and got sick again and again.

Been sick all winter.

During the Chinese New Year, Brother Huang came back.Two years ago, the emperor's brother was named "King An" and left the capital for his own fiefdom.Since then, we can only get together again every year during Chinese New Year.

He saw my sick look, dragged me out of bed with a look of hatred for iron, and took me outside to get some air.He knew that something happened to me, so he came back very early this year, and the mother and concubine came back with him.

In the year when the emperor's brother left the capital, the queen mother left the capital together with the emperor's brother on the pretext that the emperor's eyes were not good.I was left alone in this deep palace compound.I didn't stop her either, after all, my mother has been trapped here for decades, so it's always good to leave.We are three brothers, only me and the emperor are born of the concubine, and the third brother is the child of the concubine.But there are only three brothers in total, and there is a big age gap between the three of us, so there has been no conflict.

"Su Xian." I haven't heard anyone call my name for a long time, and now I feel a little nostalgic, "Leave the palace. This place is not suitable for you."

Maybe, I should really leave here, the whole meaning of my stay here is gone, and occasionally, I can think about it for myself.

I used to love this land dearly.It carries all the happiness in my life since then.

Now, I may have to get out of here.

"Okay." I nodded.

The Spring Festival has passed in a muddle.

I remembered that Jiang Jun and I used to leave early together during the Spring Festival in a tacit understanding, and then we would find a place where no one was watching until dawn, drinking and chatting about everything, or just sitting quietly Standing, looking at the deep blue sky and the brightest star, leaning on each other.

It's a pity that what's gone can never be found again.

This year or for many years to come, I should be able to celebrate the Spring Festival alone.

The first time I went to court in early spring, I gave a memorial.Yan Ming felt that he was not qualified enough to be the crown prince and could not shoulder the important responsibilities of the world, and hoped that the emperor would choose someone else.At the same time, I hope that my father can let me out of the palace and let me travel all over the world to understand the affairs of the people and the suffering of the people.

I myself resigned from the crown prince.

The court was silent at first, and then there was an uproar, saying everything.Some people say that this is not in harmony with the rule of law, some people say that this is a major national event, I hope the emperor thinks twice before acting, some people say that the prince is really emotional, and he should choose another virtuous person... I have been quietly looking at my father, neither sad nor happy .

Father was silent for a long time. In a sense, he spent too much effort on me. He wanted to turn me into a qualified emperor, and then hand over his country to me, but he never succeeded.

It is impossible for me to become a qualified emperor.

I don't want to endure loneliness in that "high place" alone.

I want the feelings that I hold dear.

"No." His tone was light but full of weight.

"Father, if you don't agree, I can only show my determination by dying." I smiled lightly, this was probably the first time I smiled since that incident.

Father was silent again.But this time, I'm sure he won't say no.

"That's right. Give the second prince Shang Fang a sword, and allow him to cut first and then play."

Father, this is advancing by retreating.Mingli deposed me as the prince, but in fact gave me the power to control the life and death of local officials, which is really a good plan.

But it doesn't matter, I think the purpose of leaving the palace has been achieved.

My life starts here, but maybe, my life will end up far away from this land.

Let's go and find a place where spring flowers bloom.

It would be great if there was such a place.