Don't be jealous of your daughter!

It was a dog days, when Ma Xiu was a freshman in high school and Miao Zhiqing was a freshman.

The troublesome elder brother finds a tutor for Matthew who lives alone.Regarding Matthew's original family, it is actually very common to think about it carefully.A well-off family with a well-to-do family, out of the idea of ​​"one child is too deserted, two children are always with us", they honestly paid the super-birth fine and gave birth to their elder brother and Matthew.

Since the first child was a boy, Matthew's parents were relieved, so it didn't matter the sex of the second baby.And it was this kind of indifference that ran through Matthew's entire life, and it was not an easy task for anyone to put together the disintegrated self-confidence.

Some people are born to be the center of attention no matter where they are, like Matthew's brother.

Compared with his elder brother who has excellent grades, cheerful personality, and is very popular among teachers and classmates, Matthew is very mediocre, with mediocre grades, dull personality, and always messing around in his own world.Mediocrity is not original sin, but contrast is.Naturally, parents who originally held an equal mentality gradually developed a tendency, and once the tendency is formed, it will become more and more out of control.What you like, what you don't like; what you care about, what you don't care about, no one can go against their own will, always cover up and pretend.

Matthew sometimes thinks that if he can't become an "excellent child of other people" like his brother, then at least he will be completely bad, so that his parents may be able to pay more attention to himself.Unfortunately, she was wrong, mediocre people can't even learn to make trouble...

All in all, most of these past demons have been cured by moving out of that home.It's just that my brother seems to understand something, and Matthew can always feel the guilt he carries when facing himself.

But is it my brother's fault? Even in this matter, no one really did anything wrong from the beginning to the end. It's just that it has reached this point, and Matthew doesn't want to look back. All she can do is do her best accept his brother's kindness.

My brother contacted a college tutor for Matthew, who was said to be a top student in the Mathematics Department of Shanda University.

The "creaking" old-fashioned floor fan blows warm warm air.In fact, Miao Yue was only half right. Not only was Matthew reluctant to turn on the air conditioner in winter, but she also lived so tight in the hottest summer.

Big drops of sweat fell on her Diner's tablet, but Matthew didn't bother to wipe away the sweat at the moment, her sweaty hands clutched the mouse nervously.

Because he knew that he was not good at communication, Matthew added the tutor's WeChat and suggested that instead of home tutoring, he could just communicate via video online.

The other party was obviously not a talkative one either. Every time Matthew tremblingly typed a long series of stumbled words to the other party, the other party would only reply with words like "um" and "oh" to express his understanding.This gesture, which seemed impolite to most people, relieved Matthew's tension to a great extent.Matthew believes that avoiding one-off communication is a safe zone that is comfortable for both parties.

But today this day has been given a different meaning.This tutor, who had never met before, was going to give Matthew one-on-one tutoring online for the first time.When the end came to an end, Matthew realized that it wasn't that she was not nervous anymore, but that her previous nervousness had not been mentioned, and she had ignored it...

Just after the hour, Matthew received a video request from the other side.Matthew took a deep breath. She even thought that she would click the "Reject" button because of her slippery hand. It wasn't until a cold half silhouette appeared on the screen that Matthew suddenly realized that the reality was so smooth.

The other party adjusted the camera a little bit. Although the light was a little dim, Matthew could still outline the delicate facial contours of the other party with his eyes. The long hair was shawl and the slightly curled tail was turned inward, showing a sense of abstinence.

Matthew stared blankly at the woman in the video, the other's facial features seemed to be blurred in her eyes, naturally carved and extremely beautiful.Matthew heard the humming sound of sinking in his head, and the big clock in his heart "bang bang" sounded a throbbing signal... Her consciousness was drifting away from her...

"Classmate Ma? Classmate Ma?" Miao Zhiqing on the opposite side frowned, somewhat puzzled.He obviously looks cute and cute, but why does he show such a strange idiot expression.

"Student Ma?" Miao Zhiqing had no choice but to wave his hand at the camera.

Matthew's long-interrupted brain waves finally resumed. Although she couldn't remember how long she had been in a daze, her face blushed honestly, and she whispered: "Miao...Mr. Miao, I , My side is too hot, so it affects, uh, affects the state."

Miao Zhiqing saw the fan behind Matthew's seat from the corner of his eye. Are there any students who live such a hard life these days... Miao Zhiqing was a little embarrassed to charge her tuition.

Matthew glanced at Miao Zhiqing's tense expression, thinking that she was angry, so he hurriedly said: "No, it's okay, let's start making up lessons... Don't waste your time, time."

Although Miao Zhiqing seriously suspected that Matthew's blushing face and weird tone of voice were all due to heatstroke, since the other party said it was fine, she could just do her duty as a tutor.

It's just that this strange atmosphere between the two lingers for a long time, even across the two ends of the screen, both sides can feel obvious discomfort.

......

Usually, after a full day of classes at school, I just feel a little tired.But after this tutoring class, Matthew had the illusion that he had just accepted Ling Chi.

After hanging up the video with the expressionless Miao Zhiqing, Matthew buried his head between his elbows and managed to catch his breath.

What's worse than not understanding and learning anything is that she, Matthew, a house girl who only has a cute cat girl in the Two-dimensional game, actually has such and such thoughts about the three-dimensional royal sister!

Of course, after all, Matthew is in love for the first time, and she imagined that this and that are just dating and marrying a goddess, and some colors are not involved, but at this moment, she has been defeated by the guilt of delusional three-dimensional... ..

So for the first time in his life, Matthew called his brother boldly and told him to withdraw from the tutoring class as soon as possible.

"You still need to make up for your mathematics and science scores. Are you not satisfied with Shanda's top students? What's wrong with your speech?" The brother on the other end of the phone was very puzzled.

"No, she spoke very well." It's just that she wasn't listening...

"Then why? Why don't you try another session?" My brother suggested a compromise.

"No, don't try. I said I didn't need a tutor." Matthew's voice was rarely so unshakable.

"I just think it's too unreasonable to refuse just once, maybe you will feel differently next time if you try again." To some extent, my brother is used to Matthew's obedience, so he just said his own idea.

"Really, don't try." The brother continued to entangle, and the emotions in Matthew's heart gushed out, "Trying again will only make me like her more!!!"

"Hi, like?" Stuttering is sometimes contagious.

"It's the kind of liking you think... Your sister may be a lily, no, it must be, I know my affairs." It is a kind of kindness for Matthew to really declare the truth. Freedom of release.

But the person on the other end of the phone fell into a long silence.

It may be 1 minute, or it may be longer, my brother said: "Okay, I understand, I will reject her."

After hanging up the phone, Matthew covered his forehead with one hand, and poked open Miao Zhiqing's WeChat avatar with the other. What she was going to do next made her hold her breath, as if she was about to complete a sacred but tormenting ceremony.

She taps the "..." symbol in the upper right corner, and...

The red "delete" was too eye-catching, she couldn't do it.

Do you want to cut off this tiny possibility with your own hands?

Matthew asked himself, every blow was a thousand kinds of reluctance, but the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain...Miao Zhiqing may not be as lofty as she thought, but that height is already beyond her reach in her entire life. .....

In the end, she pressed "delete" and got what she thought was a relief.

......

However, in fact, Matthew did not gradually forget as she expected, and fell in love with the same sex at first sight, which was too absurd in her past life that followed the rules.

She couldn't restrain that restlessness, and finally chose to follow her heart.Matthew began to hang out in various forums, post bars and QQ groups of Shanda University.Miao Zhiqing intends to keep a low profile, but everything about her is always eye-catching, which is a boon for Internet addicts like Matthew.

Hiding in the crowd to peek at the life of the goddess?Matthew smiled wryly. He probably still has a natural advantage over many girls in the fan circle. This kind of pursuit may not be all in vain.If the probability of a star-chasing fan successfully capturing an idol is one in a million, the probability of her marrying a goddess is probably one in ten thousand...

Back then, she was miraculously cheered up, even without the cute little loli she conceived with the goddess telling her a predetermined result.

Loving someone really makes you a better person.The sarcasm, the melancholy, the self-indulgence that used to be, was just laughed off because there was no reason, and now there is a reason.

The goddess is high above her, and Matthew climbs up step by step, with some embarrassments and struggles, but that's what secret love is all about.Many years later, you will find that you still haven't achieved your original goal, but you have done it to give yourself an explanation and give an explanation to this single-arrow relationship.

Therefore, when his brother persuaded him to consider the direction of the college entrance examination, Matthew resolutely applied for the art special admissions of Shanda University, and the physical distance with the goddess seemed to be shortened all of a sudden.

Although Shanda University is a well-known university in China and even in the world, it focuses on science and engineering, but is not satisfactory in other aspects.So when making a decision, Matthew felt full of confidence for the first time. In a sense, Shanda was really in her pocket.

......

Through three years of practice in high school, Matthew has initially mastered the rules and principles of social interaction.

She is not good at long-winded speeches, and she is not good at seeing stitches, but she is good at smiling and "uh huh", which has established a good foundation for her popularity.

Indeed, nowadays more and more people are self-centered. There are many people who talk in the social field, but few listeners.Matthew found his place easily.

She felt that everything was going in a good direction, but she never expected that her second meeting with the goddess would come so soon.

On a sunny afternoon, when Matthew looked back and savored it, she suddenly found that every time she met the goddess, it was a sunny day.Is this a positive implication?That's all for later...

Matthew was bored and basking in the sun in the small garden behind the school's cultural center.For art students, the eternal subject is sketching.The classmates like to go on picnics together, but Matthew is essentially a withdrawn girl, although with her unremitting efforts, the withdrawn attribute has been slightly lowered.

But she didn't seem to have much inspiration... Matthew half-lyed on the bench that she wiped and squinted.

Eh?That, over there!

Matthew snapped together like distorted puppet parts scattered on the ground, causing her to assume a strange body shape.

Sure enough, she is a goddess!Matthew took a closer look.

The author has something to say:

New Year's Eve tomorrow, I feel like this article has also traveled to the future