Ninth Symphony

For more than ten days, Xi Le didn't see many people from Du Nian.

Although he knew that he would come to see him every day, he usually came when he was asleep. Xi Le could always see a familiar figure guarding his bedside when he was half asleep, but when he really woke up, Du Nian has already left or is about to leave, in short, he looks unwilling to have too much contact with him who is sober.

Weird.

Xi Le was very thoughtful. On the second day after the operation, he realized that people around him were hiding something from him, and there was more than one thing.

However, after experiencing this incident, his tolerance for this situation has increased a lot, or he should have changed his handling strategy, no longer hysterical and stalking for answers, but just lying there calmly and using The injury on his body threatened and lured him, although he didn't say anything, but there was a sense of "I'll go to the ICU to get a bottle of soy sauce if you don't tell me" all over his body.

In the end, Li Dong was defeated first, and while Xi Yin hid out to "avoid suspicion", he told Xi Le everything from his coma to the present.

Xi Le summed it up by himself after listening to three main points: first, Xi Yin's manuscript was robbed; second, Wu Yi was seriously injured and is still in a coma; third, Du Nian and Wu Yi are brothers .

"What the hell is going on..."

At that time, after Xi Le finally sorted out the relationship, he stared at the ceiling for two or three minutes with a disinterested expression on his face. He felt in his heart that the whole world had changed when he opened his eyes, and it was still worse. Change.

"...But even so, he wouldn't avoid me, right?" Once again, as soon as he opened his eyes and watched Du Nian leave, Xi Le also turned his head a little irritably to ask Li Dong who was sitting on the other side of the bed.

Li Dong spread his hands at him, "I don't know what's wrong with Brother Nian, he's been acting weird lately."

"He really went to Angkor when he went out?" Xi Le asked suspiciously.

"I can't confirm it here, why don't I check the post for you?" Li Dong raised his eyebrows, but was met with a blank stare.

"Check the fart, check." Xi Le frowned, looking preoccupied again, Li Dong thought his wound was hurting again, and was about to step forward to check, but Xi Le waved his hand to stop him, "I'm fine, I'm only……"

Li Dong: "If you are a wounded person, don't bother others. Hurry up and heal your own injury first."

"It's easy for you to say, how can you not worry about so many things happened." Xi Le took a deep breath subconsciously after speaking, but when the lungs were involved, even the muscles in the wound on the back were stretched, and it hurt immediately He gasped again.

Li Dong looked anxious, and hurried over to support him, but he didn't dare to do anything else lightly, he only waited for his strength to subside before saying: "You just calm down, other people are responsible for what you should worry about. It’s not your turn yet. I heard from Xi Yin that he has asked Ji Shi to investigate the clues of the manuscript that was taken away. As for Wu Yi, there is also the best doctor on his side to treat him attentively. He will be fine, don’t worry. "

"What about Du Nian?" Xi Le blurted out.

Li Dong was stunned for a moment, then asked: "What's wrong with him? Well, let me tell you that he was hit because he suddenly knew his life experience, but it's not too serious. It's happened for more than 20 years, so let's worry about it now." How meaningful would it be? What's more, Uncle Wu is no longer here... You can see that Du Nian doesn't seem like a person who can't think about it, no matter how difficult it is to accept, it will take ten and a half months to pass on him. Refund [-] Let's just say, even if he really got into a dead end, wouldn't there still be you, he couldn't let you go, so he would never do anything out of line."

After hearing this, Xi Le looked out the window noncommittally. In fact, he wanted to say that he felt that part of Du Nian's recent abnormality must be caused by himself.

And at this moment, Xi Le suddenly noticed that in a small booth not far from the hospital downstairs, there was a man standing there, who seemed to be smoking a cigarette.

"Huh...?" Xi Le subconsciously said, no matter how far away he was, he could recognize that it was Du Nian.

"What's the matter?" From Li Dong's perspective, he couldn't see the pavilion, so he asked a little strangely.

Xi Le turned his eyes back, shook his head, and after thinking for a few seconds, he said to him, "Dongzi, do me a favor."

Li Dong is a little allergic to his words now, and immediately became nervous when he heard it: "What kind of demon moth did you come up with?"

"A little favor, are you so scared..." Xi Le gave him a helpless look, "I suddenly remembered that I accidentally dropped my phone when I was escaping in the 'base' last time, and now I don't even have a communication tool in hand None, if it’s inconvenient to find someone for something, if you’re free right now, go and buy me another one.”

"Hey, I said that you are quite easy to call people around. Do I have to do things like buying a mobile phone myself? Besides, you don't use a mobile phone now. If you want to talk to someone, I will call you." It's over." Li Dong said angrily and happily.

"That's not the case. I want the phone for other purposes—I'll tell you the specific purpose when you buy it back." Xi Le interrupted Li Dong in time who wanted to continue asking.

Li Dong looked at him suspiciously, "I always feel that your purpose is not pure, are you trying to get me out of it?"

Xi Le suddenly cried and laughed: "What can I do? Look at my physical condition, what other big things can I do? At most, I can make myself somersault on the bed and it will be terrible."

"That's right, you are not much different from being half paralyzed now." Li Dong looked at him and said.

Xi Le: "...you are only half paralyzed. Are you going or not?"

"Go! You are the ancestor now, why don't I go?" Li Dong clapped his hands helplessly and stood up, "Then you stay by yourself first, ring the bell if you have something to do, Xi Yin is going out today, how about I go and get Brother Nian call you?"

"No need." Xi Le shook his head resolutely, "Don't call him."

"That's all right, take a good rest. I'll be back after shopping." Li Dong poured him a cup of hot water and put it on the bedside, then put on his clothes and left.

After waiting for a few minutes, Xi Le looked into the pavilion and found that Du Nian was still there, so he gritted his teeth and turned his gaze to the wheelchair beside the bed.

If you are not strong in pain, you will perish in pain.

Xi Le cheered himself up like this, and finally sat up from the bed with all his strength, and then got down to let himself fall into the wheelchair. After these simple actions were completed, he felt like he was about to bite his teeth Broken.

Fortunately, it wasn't broken after all... He didn't want to turn into a mouth full of gaps at a young age.

Pulling off the coat from the hanger was another pain, Xi Le broke out in a cold sweat, but as soon as he got out of the building in a wheelchair, the cold wind chilled his heart.

"What a pain..." He murmured silently, and slowly moved towards the pavilion while holding the wheels with both hands.

There used to be a whole small garden there for the patients to relax and recuperate, but now it's winter, the weather is cold, and the grass withered and flowers look very bleak, and almost no one will go there at this time.

Xi Le thought that Du Nian must be in a bad mood to come here to smoke alone. When he recognized him upstairs just now, he felt that he was also panicked and stuffy, as if he couldn't breathe.

Fortunately, no one stopped him on the road. It must have been a coincidence of timing, which allowed him to "escape" out of the ward building smoothly.

Xi Le moved very slowly, because every movement was a torment.

The weather was obviously very cold, and he was wearing thin clothes, but he didn't feel cold at all, and all his attention was on restraining the pain.

"... Lele?!" When he got closer, Du Nian finally spotted him, and turned around with a look of astonishment.

Xi Le saw that his whereabouts had been exposed, so he stopped the wheelchair, and stood up slowly while holding the handle. Du Nian was so nervous that he took three steps and two steps up to support him.

"Why did you come out?? Where's Li Dong?? I don't know if your current physical condition can't go out casually?!"

Du Nian could see that Xi Le's lip color was fading at a speed visible to the naked eye, but he smiled at him with restraint and said, "Stop yelling at me, I'm almost very painful……"

"..." One sentence made Du Nian lose his temper.

Du Nian saw that he was wearing a hospital gown and a windbreaker, wanted to say a few words but held back, silently took off his coat to wrap him up, and gently hugged him into his arms.

"Is it cold?" He asked Xi Le.

"It's not cold." Xi Le rested her head on his shoulder, took a breath and said again: "But I really can't stand without the wheelchair..."

... who let you run out by yourself.

Du Nian wrapped his arms around Xi Le's slightly trembling body, swallowing the words between his teeth.

"I'll take you back." He took a step to the side, ready to help Xi Le sit back on the wheelchair, but Xi Le tightly grasped his clothes, and pressed his whole body tightly against his body, saying "No! Go back! Go!" These three words are vividly expressed.

"Isn't it unbearable?" Du Nian stepped back and looked at him helplessly, adding some strength to his arm, but he didn't dare to make it too obvious, for fear of touching his wound again.

Xi Le couldn't raise his arms too high now, so he simply put both hands between Du Nian's arms and body, wrapped around his back and hugged him tightly, hanging his weight on it like a koala, He also said a bit shamelessly: "Isn't there a stool over there, sit there."

Du Nian sighed silently, "That's a stone bench. It's so cold and your body is at its weakest. Do you want to sit on it to get sick?"

"What are you afraid of? If you sit on the stool, I'll take care of it if I sit on your lap." After Xi Le finished speaking, he realized that he had said such intimate words to Du Nian without thinking. The last time he was like this was probably a few years ago .

Du Nian also seemed to be stunned for a moment, the emotion in his eyes changed a few times, and finally fixed on a kind of helplessness.

"Okay, just stay for five minutes." He compromised.

Xi Le nodded, and said in his heart that when he sat down, he couldn't help you.

However, his current state is indeed off the chain. It is only a few steps away from where he is standing to the stone bench, but Xi Le feels like he has become a little mermaid. Every step he falls, he steps on the tip of the knife. who knows.

After finally waiting for his butt to settle down, Xi Le didn't care whether he was weak or not, and whether the joke was a joke. He really had no strength in his body, so he leaned on Du Nian's shoulder and panted heavily.

"Tell me, why do you have to run out?" Du Nian asked in a low voice, putting one hand on his back and the other on his leg.

"I'm looking for you." Xi Le squinted one eye reluctantly, stared at Du Nian with one eye and said, "Didn't you keep avoiding me for the past two days? , but outside, you can’t just leave me here.”

Du Nian paused, then lowered his head to look at him with serious eyes, "Just tell me if you have something to say, I'll avoid it anytime. You can't make fun of your body."

"Do I seem to be joking?" Xi Le also became serious, and said with a straight face, "Du Nian, what do you mean? I just finished saving you, and you are not going to talk to me? Could it be that I saved someone wrong? Don't quibble, you think I can't see that you are not embarrassed to see me because you blame yourself."

Du Nian turned his head away slightly, "Don't think too much about it."

"How much do I think?!" Xi Le didn't intend to be angry at first, but when he heard his words, he felt angry, and the pain flared up in one breath. Not so polite anymore.

Xi Le: "Before you were a stalker, but now you keep it at arm's length. You don't tell me every time you ask why. What do you think of me? How you treat me depends entirely on your mood? When you're happy, give it a good look." , I’m not happy, and you shake your hands cleaner than anyone else, you call it pull, pull——do you know what Ruqing is! Ouch—”

As soon as he finished speaking, he shrank his shoulders, and his muscles were tense. Du Nian hugged him and pressed him gently into his arms to persuade him: "...don't get excited, let's talk slowly if we have something to say?"

"Then you're telling me!" Xi Le grabbed Du Nian's collar tightly with both hands, and asked ruthlessly on the premise that he would not strangle him to death: "Why??"

Du Nian raised his hand after hearing this, as if he wanted to take his hand away, but he fell back halfway, and his expression suddenly became extremely lonely.

"Lele, it's actually nothing—"

"If you keep talking nonsense, I'm going to beat someone up."

"..." Du Nian hesitated to speak, but seeing Chen Le's unrelenting posture, he finally said: "Xi Le, I just never really realized that you hate me so much."

"...Hate you?" This time it was Xi Le's turn to be confused. After thinking for a few seconds, he finally understood the crux of the problem, and couldn't help laughing sarcastically, "No way, I never really realized it? Then you are too Dull, I thought I was clear enough."

The stress he specially added to the word "never" made Du Nian's heart skip a beat, and he couldn't hold back his words, "Are you serious? You would rather encounter danger than go with me, I Is it so unbearable to you? When you saved me, you actually thought of 'even'... Xi Le, how much do you hate me, and you want to punish me in this way. "

"If you use this method, it means that you must hate it very deeply." Xi Le said dutifully, he didn't want to make Du Nian feel so good, since he didn't think clearly about the consequences when he did those things to himself, at this time You can't blame him for being fussy.

"I've told you—in fact, I've said it many times, that I hate you. To be honest, hating you made me feel so sad in those three years, obviously as long as you change your attitude, I can feel better."

Du Nian: "I didn't tell you because I want you not to worry about those messy things until you are at least an adult."

Xi Le: "But can I not worry? Do you think it is possible for me to continue to live a stable life when my parents are dead and my brother is missing?"

Seeing that Du Nian was silent for a while, Xi Le calmed down his emotions, and told him for the first time: "You know, in three years, more than 1000 days, I haven't slept a single day. Every day, he can't sleep all night or is woken up by a nightmare in the middle of the night. He is so scared to death, but there is no one to say. While worrying about Xi Yin's safety, he is also afraid that his disguise will be discovered. Although he doesn't know the use of such a disguise, but He told me to do this, so I didn't dare not to do it. I was afraid that if I made a mistake here, it would have a more serious impact on him. I couldn't relax for a moment. Day by day, I just got through it like this... To be honest, I really felt a while ago I can't stand it any longer, and I feel like dying."

"...why never told me this before... I thought—"

"What do you think? You can think I'm fine under that kind of situation, so do I still need to tell you?" Xi Le raised his head to meet Du Nian's distressed eyes, and twitched the corner of his mouth, "Du Nian, I'm I already know that you wanted to cooperate with me to continue playing 'Xi Yin', and I also know that you blame me for lying to you, and I know that most of the torture I suffered was self-inflicted, but I still hate you. This is too subjective, It has nothing to do with my objective perception."

"So you risked your life to let me experience that kind of despair?" When Du Nian asked this sentence, the expression on his face was also desperate.

Xi Le was silent for a while, then nodded slightly. "That's right, you come and go, it's reciprocal. Let you also experience what it's like to be afraid, and let you experience the pain of losing an important person. Since you had high hopes for me at the beginning, I believe that even if I really have to die You can definitely get out of the pain with your own psychological quality, right?"

Xi Le felt that what he had said was too much, because after he finished speaking, Du Nian's eyes were obviously red.

He stared at him almost at a loss for two seconds, then lowered his head deeply as if to conceal his expression, the lines of his side face stood out because of the tense facial muscles, the outline was sharp, like a knife carve.

Xi Le had no doubt that if he hadn't been sitting on him at this time, he would have walked away.

Otherwise, it would be like now, his body was trembling slightly, and he could clearly feel it all.

"Does it hurt?" Xi Le asked softly after a while. "It hurts."

When he said that, he realized that his tears were also streaming down his face.

Hurt others and hurt himself, he forced Du Nian to this point, and he is not much better.

"If you feel sad, don't treat me like that again, okay? I can't bear it." Xi Le took a deep breath and said.

After another long silence, Du Nian's voice muffled from below: "Do you still want to have a future with me?"

"I don't want to, if I don't want to, why should I save you." Xi Le said softly.

Du Nian: "It's not for revenge on me..."

"Are you stupid? I wonder if you've been tired and confused for the past two days, and your IQ has dropped." Xi Le pretended to laugh at him, hiding the seriousness in his words, "Officer Du, it's up to you to judge whether the testimony is true or false. In my job, which of the words I just said is true and which is false, did you not catch it?"

Du Nian raised his head and looked at him hesitantly, his eyes were full of red threads, "Xi Le, tell me the truth, what are your... feelings for me... I don't dare to guess anymore."

His desperate and tired eyes penetrated deeply into the depths of Xi Le's heart, making his heart sore and painful, and he couldn't bear to torture him with this kind of "self-mutilation" method anymore.

So Xi Le restrained all the jokes he had just put on, showing his truest self at this moment, and said what he wanted to say the most.

"Do you really think that I would think of such complicated things as 'punishment' and 'revenge' when I blocked a gun for you?" He stared into Du Nian's eyes and said, "Just like you would desperately protect me, I will save you There is no need for a reason at all, it is just the body's instinct, and the body has already responded before the brain provides any instructions, otherwise how could it be too late."

"Lele..." Du Nian bit one side of his lips, the emotion in his heart was written all over his face, his eyes were wet again, and he couldn't help it.

Seeing him, Xi Le also felt sore, so she lowered her head and hugged his neck, put her forehead on his forehead, and said with a light smile: "But when I ran away from the gas station, I did want to take revenge on you." Later, I found out that I was playing off, and it was too late to contact you after being watched, but fortunately, you came in time."

Du Nian closed his eyes, raised his head slightly to let his lips touch his lips, and rubbed his lips carefully, whispering in a whisper: "Do you know how scared I was at that time... Lele, if you are really gone... I will never be here... I can't get out..."

"I know." Xi Le held his face, raised his head and kissed the corner of his eyes, and gently licked away a teardrop that was about to fall with the tip of his tongue.

The words were finally spoken, and he was finally able to face his heart calmly.

"Are you still asking me what my feelings for you are?" Xi Le asked suddenly, but before Du Nian could answer, he lowered his head and kissed him, and said quickly and softly as if embarrassed: "I like you, don't you always love me?" do you know."

In the face of this love, what is that bit of hate?

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