Journey of a Thousand Miles

He didn't want to believe it.

But there is not enough evidence to convince myself.

I have been firmly supporting my beliefs, which are fragmented.

After that day, Qianli never went to Feilang Internet Cafe again.

Never went to school again.

After returning home late at night, he only stayed for 5 minutes, took his things, put down the keys of the house, and left.

The next day, my mother received a call from an unknown number.

He told her very calmly that he was gone.

And will not come back.

There is no need to look for him.He is considered an adult and can support himself in society.From then on, his life is his own responsibility.

Mother couldn't recover from the shock for a long time.

"Mom, I know I have caused you a lot of trouble over the years, I'm sorry." Qianli said.

This is the truth from the bottom of his heart.

He understood that his mother could have had a normal and complete family, but because of his rash intervention, the taste changed somewhat.

In all fairness, her husband is not a bad person, never abused him, and would not deliberately make things difficult for him.He was just doing what a normal person would do, loving his children more, that's all.

However, Qianli really had enough.

He was sorry, he was sorry that he had become a burden to the family, and there was nothing he could do as a young boy.

It's different now, he's grown up.The autumn game once became his greatest hope-the hope of escaping from this family.

He finally got through it, he could finally leave.

He finally doesn't have to live in depression and self-doubt every day, accepting the judgments of these elders and relatives.

He finally didn't have to listen to their twisted and insinuating words, and finally didn't have to look at their mocking and disgusting expressions.

He finally doesn't have to be compared with other children all day long, and he doesn't have to be reminded all day long that you are just a loser.

He is not afraid of struggle and hard work, but he is afraid of shackles and shackles.

He doesn't care that the food is not delicious, the clothes are not good-looking, and he doesn't care that there is no cake and presents on his birthday.

He just wants a little understanding, and respect.

But it is so difficult.

He is grateful, grateful for their upbringing.

Gratitude is not the same as love.

All he could say was, sorry.

I'm not the kid you want.

If you can, please pretend that I have never been born.

Goodbye.

Qianli hung up the phone and looked up at the vast world, feeling nothing but emptiness and bewilderment in his heart.

He was very determined that he would leave, but he didn't expect to leave like this.

Also can only leave.

Every extra day they stayed in that place was an endless torment, and every extra penny they spent was like a hot slap in the face.

Let them pay for themselves through high school and then college?

No, this was never in Qianli's vision.

Now, what should he do?

After thinking twice, I went thousands of miles to another city not too far away.

A longtime friend from his game was there.

Besides, he didn't know who else he could rely on.

A long-term friendship is still of use. His friend has taken him in, so he will not be reduced to the streets for the time being.

After living there for a few days, one night, Qianli was sleeping on the sofa when something suddenly fell on him and he was still alive.

Qianli jumped up in fright, and the other party also jumped up in fright.

Accompanied by a scream.

It wasn't his friend who screamed, but his friend's girlfriend.

The girlfriend took off half of her clothes, and when she saw a strange man here, she was ashamed and angry, rushed into the friend's room, and closed the door with a bang.

The friend and Qianli looked at each other, and the air was filled with a strong smell of alcohol.

Qianli smiled awkwardly, "You...you continue." After finishing speaking, he walked out the door as if fleeing.

When I went out, I found that it was midnight, the shops on the street were basically closed, and there were few people. Occasionally, I could see three or two young gangsters or drunk uncles passing by. From time to time, a few mice ran across the ground, crawled A few cockroaches.After walking thousands of miles, I was about some distance away from my friend's house, so I found a random place to sit down.

After half asleep and half awake all night, it was dawn.Qianli continued to walk aimlessly alone in this strange city. When he was tired, he sat down, and when he was tired, he continued to walk.In the afternoon, guessing that it was time for his friend to wake up, Qianli called him at the newsstand, saying that he had already found a place to go and would not bother him.

The friend said yes again and again, and then asked him to take care of himself and call him Yunyun if necessary, so he hung up the phone.

Qianli looked around, and bought two big white steamed buns for one yuan and two on an old woman's cart, and sat on the side of the road, eating and watching the traffic and people coming and going.

So lively, but it has nothing to do with him.

I ate these steamed buns for a few days. I spent a few dollars a day to fill my stomach. At night, I went to sleep on a bench in a small square nearby, and when I was thirsty, I went to drink tap water from public taps.

This is probably the taste of wandering.

It is really simple for people to live.

How to live is a complicated question.

The world is so vast, where is his shelter?

One day, while walking thousands of miles, he stopped unconsciously.

He raised his head and looked at it for a long time.

Above a narrow staircase, a signboard was hung.

E Times Internet Cafe.

He wanted to go in, but couldn't move.

He wanted to go away, but still couldn't move.

He didn't know what he was going to do.He doesn't know where he's going.He doesn't know what he's going to do.He didn't know how he would live the rest of his life.

He thought of his boss, his soft heart under his sophisticated appearance, the unpalatable meals he cooked, the many things he said, and the many things he taught himself.

He thought of Wujiu, their not long but unforgettable battle years, and their innate tacit understanding that they had never met.

forget it.

After all, Qianli did not step into that door.

On the side of the road there was a young man who was singing, standing in front of the microphone, carrying a guitar, and singing loudly as if no one else was around.

"Today, I watched the snow drift by in the cold night, and drifted away with a cooled heart..."

Qianli stopped and stared unconsciously.

"Chasing in the wind and rain, you can't tell the traces in the fog, the sky and the sea are wide, you and I will change..."

My father's hometown is Cantonese-speaking, and almost all the repertoire on his computer is occupied by various classic Cantonese old songs. Except for "Friendship Years", my father's favorite is "Broad Sea and Sky".

Beyond is his father's idol. Whenever he mentioned the group of dream-seeking teenagers, his father's eyes would be full of longing.

"How many times, faced with cold eyes and ridicule, never gave up on the ideals in my heart, in a trance for a moment, if the feeling of loss has faded unconsciously, the love in my heart..."

Qianli listened and watched in a daze, and unconsciously began to sing along softly.

Sometimes after finishing the dungeon, my father would hum a few words in a happy mood, and even Mai’s other teammates would sing along when they heard it. Meeting each other will not hinder the intense emotional blending.

"Forgive me for being unruly, indulgent and loving freedom in this life. I am also afraid that one day I will fall and abandon my ideal. Anyone can do it, even if I am afraid that one day it will only be you and me—"

He is homesick.

Not thinking about mother's house.

I miss my father's house.

The home that can never go back.

"Still free myself, sing my song forever, travel thousands of miles—"

The audience around came and went, and came and went, but it was only the time for Qianli to finish a song.

Qianli took out a handful of change from his pocket, looked at it, took out one piece and put it in the little brother's guitar case.

"Thank you." The little brother nodded with a smile.

Qianli spent 10 yuan to find a small hotel that was not formal. I opened an hourly room for an hour and took a good bath. The water heater was basically broken. Fortunately, it was not cold, and cold showers were not in the way. .

I went back to the old grandma's stall and bought two steamed buns to fill my stomach.

Then, get a job.

He needs time to think, but only if he lives.

Starting from that street, Qianli began a carpet-like sweep, as long as there was a recruitment sign posted on the door, Qianli would go in and inquire.

On the first day, nothing came of it.

The second day, the third day...

He has no experience and skills, no decent resume, education, and most importantly, he is not even 18 years old, and no formal shop dares to hire him.

Moreover, there is another requirement for Qianli—you have to pay for food and lodging.

When the money left in Qianli's pocket was less than 10 yuan, a boss finally took him in.

It is a small restaurant, and the work is very complicated, from the kitchen to the storefront, from purchasing to cooking, washing dishes, sweeping the floor, almost everything is done, 9 hours a day, three days off a month, food and lodging included, and because of Qianli's age , his salary is lower than others, only 800 yuan.

Without saying a word, Qianli agreed.

No one thought that this skinny-looking boy could be so good at eating. For the first meal in the store, Qianli emptied the rice pot and dishes.

Qianli is very silent on weekdays and doesn't chat with other people very much. When he is resting, he just sits in a daze and can stay there for a long time.

The first few days were peaceful, but after a while, the boss began to dislike him explicitly and secretly. Qianli was really not good at doing those chores, he was clumsy, far less capable than others.

No matter what the boss said, Qianli kept silent and just did his own thing.

In addition to the boss and the proprietress, there are two other employees in the store. There is a computer in the store. After the peak meal time, when the store is empty, the boss will play games.