Xiaobai Deformation Meter

After that day, Xu Bai was very depressed, no matter what he did, he would always think of Liang Haimei.

Thinking about eating, thinking about walking, thinking about painting, even thinking about when you can’t pee...

She wanted to get this hatred out of her mind, so she went to recall the good things, but sadly found that her past was all about Liang Haimei, and her regrets followed her everywhere.

"You said that when other people are in a relationship, they stay together when they are together, and they break up when they break up. How can there be someone like me who still leaves a shadow in my heart."

Xu Bai sat at the bar and complained to Tang Ying, then looked suspiciously at Thursday.

"Your situation is too special, and I can't do anything about it. Don't think about her!" Tang Ying was almost driven crazy by her, "She also raped you domestically. If it was me, she turned around and left, but who cares about feelings? Can you make it clear?"

"Later Shen Yi appeared." She lowered her head, "My parents thought I was doing well, but I couldn't leave Shen Yi alone, I was really forced."

"That's right, you still have your little loli, think about her, isn't she coming to you soon, those bad things are over, don't torture yourself anymore!"

Xu Bai stared blankly at the colorful stage, only one young lady was singing, and she didn't listen to anything she sang, only feeling full of scars.

"It feels like I've spent the past few years in vain."

"You're okay, at least there are people who love you, other things are just a matter of time."

"What?" Xu Bai put out his cigarette, "Speaking like you have no one who loves you."

The next second she knew she was wrong.Tang Ying broke up with her boyfriend whom she had been dating for three years, and it was still not lost to her strange reasons.

Xu Bai knew that Tang Ying and that man had lived together for two years, and she had met that man several times, and she always felt that they had a good relationship. She never expected that man to fall in love with a woman with a special profession...

"Live well and mature, not as ignorant as I am." Tang Ying downed the whole bottle of wine in one breath, "I really endured him for a long time, but the time was not as long as yours, but I was also depressed for half a year. Since you left After the game company, I found out that something was wrong with him, it’s not good to like someone, and I ran to like that kind of woman!”

Xu Bai listened to Tang Ying's words in silence, and he didn't have time to fix his three views.

"Uh, you didn't go to work at the company?"

Tang Ying shook her head and told her that the original company had been sued: "You left in time, I'm doing wechat business now. I know he will regret it, Xiaobai, he will definitely regret it... But I don't I will forgive him again, he is also my first love..."

Seeing that Tang Ying was drunk, Xu Bai had no choice but to comfort him, saying something that he couldn't even convince himself to make excuses for that man.

"Men, there are a few who don't like flirting. He wants to keep a house and a car, so the pressure is too great."

But Tang Ying's next sentence immediately made her shut up...

"Is he as miserable as you? You have nothing, and you won't do such a thing!"

As if with a knowing blow, she just said lightly: "Uh, I'm stupid..."

After returning home, the more Xu Bai thought about it, the more unbalanced he became.She has never done anything harmful, why is it always her who gets hurt?Why does she have to bear these?Why are good people not rewarded?Even going to see Shen Yi has to save money, and others still have spare money to find Miss...

She couldn't figure it out, tossing and turning on the bed, unable to sleep.

Shen Yi sent her a message after her evening self-study: [Mr. Abai, are you home yet?Don't think about that dream, you go to bed early today. ]

The two chatted for a while, and Xu Bai jokingly said: [If I had known that I was T, I should have had more girlfriends when I was in school, good-looking ones, big breasts, long legs, don’t be distracted, and change them one by one. , When I had enough fun, I threw them all away. ]

[It's really... still talking flirtatiously, what about the baby? ]

Xu Bai laughed: [Where can I still meet you, maybe my illegitimate daughter is as old as you. ]

[...]

[forget it. ]

Shen Yi was not angry, so she yelled at her: [Hmph, fortunately you are not a man, and you didn't know that you were T, otherwise I would have to think carefully. ]

[It’s still too late to think about it, anyway, I can’t give you anything...]

[Look at you, let’s not talk about being frustrated, okay, I’m giving Abai something, don’t let you push me away, I will cry if you say that. ]

[I was wrong, I won't say anything, I like Yiyi the most... just because I like you so much. ]

[Then cheer me up and tell me if you are unhappy, although the third year of high school is very busy, I will take time to accompany Ah Bai. ]

Xu Bai forced a smile and encouraged Shen Yi to study hard.

In the next few days, her mood was sometimes upbeat and down, and she discussed with her father again, and paid half of the money to buy a new teddy for her mother, named Yunyun.

Yunyun's personality is very similar to Lele's. Bai Mingzhi almost treats Yunyun as his grandson, but Xu Bai can no longer be interested. She can feel that she is becoming hard-hearted.

However, it's good to let Bai Mingzhi divert his attention, don't keep complaining to them at home.She knew her father thought the same way, it's rare that the father and daughter are so in tune...

The downside is that there is an extra Yunyun in the family, and Xu Bai has been sidelined again, so he can only go to the hospital for reexamination alone.For so many years, she has not stopped taking medicine, and her condition is under control, but this time, the doctor suddenly asked her: "How do you usually feel?"

"Uh, sometimes inexplicably irritable."

The doctor then prescribed a mood-regulating drug to try to control her temper.

Well now, if you want to get angry, it depends on whether your body agrees or not - everything is admonishing Xu Bai to forget the past and let go of hatred.

But she still wanted to stuff Liang Haimei's head into the toilet...

After dealing with all the miscellaneous matters, Xu Bai made a resume, intending to pitch it to various companies, and decided to start her career in painting from scratch.However, He Quan invited her to work in the TV station. She resisted in her heart. After repeated questioning, she found out that He Quan needed help now.

Xu Bai submitted her resume, and while waiting for a response, she helped He Quan make a recording about hot springs as a friend.

She doesn't know anything about this business, she can only do odd jobs at the scene, even if she carries a camera, He Quan will dislike her.

"You're not in good health, but you still try to be brave. I'll do it with such a heavy machine, and play with it by yourself." He Quan said while adjusting the focus, "You should listen to your father and get into a stable unit."

"I'll suffocate to death." Xu Bai played with the camera cable.

"Don't touch it, my God, you're entangled in my feet!" He Quan said impatiently, "I'm your father, so I'll beat you. If you're so naughty, your father just can't do anything to you. Although you don't accept His ideas, but he really broke his heart for you."

"Can we not discuss this, I want to talk about my ex."

"You child... She is too much, you are miserable, so miserable that I want to cry, but don't forget, she also wasted 9 years for you!"

Xu Bai said coldly: "She deserves it, isn't it going smoothly now?"

"How do you know that her conscience hasn't hurt? You just can't let go of your resentment towards her. If you paint your face whiter, I can make ghost movies for you."

Xu Bai made a V sign and said, "Come on, I'm ready to be on camera, such a handsome ghost must be killed by himself."

He Quan almost kicked her into the hot spring.

What puzzled her was that her friend seemed to have made an agreement with her, either to be her mother or to be her father, even Shen Yi almost regarded her as her son...

[Ah Bai, have you eaten yet?Have you taken your medicine?Are you feeling sick today?Go to bed early and don't stay up late. ]

Whenever this happened, Xu Bai would feel that he had failed. He was such an adult, but his wife had to take care of everything.It wasn't until those resumes disappeared that she really degenerated into a cell, and she just wanted to lie in Shen Yi's arms.

[It makes sense to me that one or two companies rejected it, but more than a dozen companies have rejected it, so there must be a problem! ]

[I also think there is a problem, does Abai know the reason? ]

On the last day of filming, He Quan reminded her: "Maybe you offended the big red envelope before, and he deliberately lied to you! During this period, you should not vote again, and wait until he forgets you. "

Xu Bai was furious, and her plan was shattered again. He directly took the salary He Quan gave her, rushed into a tattoo parlor, and asked the boss to tattoo her back.

The flower arm boss said: "What kind of picture do you want to tattoo?"

Xu Bai showed the boss her drawing of a poisonous snake that could kill a villain.

"You drew this?"

"Yeah." Without further words, she lifted up her clothes and lay down on the tattoo table.

"Have you ever had a tattoo before?" The boss took out a disposable drill, "If you haven't, it might be a little painful."

"No, I'm not afraid of pain."

She just wanted to give it a try, what could be more painful than her heartache.She was already numb. After three hours of tattooing, she didn't say a word, and she was a little disappointed.

The boss made an explanation, and then asked her: "Would you like to take the order? Please be the original painting in the store, and don't use it for work. You will pay for it and deliver it."

Xu Bai realized that she was looking for extra money, so she agreed casually, but her daily work has never been settled.

She wasn't so stupid as to waste time looking for the big red envelope to settle accounts. The big red envelope would never hurt her heart. She hated Liang Haimei even more, to the point where it couldn't be worse.

After He Quan knew that she could only work in a tattoo parlor, he asked her seriously, "Do you really want to be a painter?"

"That was my wish since childhood."

"Can you be flexible?" He Quan continued, "The career I really love doesn't have to be done by myself."

"What do you mean?"

"As long as you can stay in this circle, it doesn't have to be a high level. Because of your ex, you have missed the best time, and you are happy and can support yourself now. Think about your father and your wife, They all need you, and you have to know how to take a step back."

Although He Quan's words are very heart-wrenching, it is not wrong to think about it.

When Shen Yi came to the city in the future, she had to spend money for her wife no matter what, she couldn't just think about herself.

Xu Bai looked at the old Xu Wenhui at home, and suddenly thought that she had never let her father go all these years.Whether it's love or career, she insists on being herself, but acts like a jerk.

There are two jerks in the family, it's time for one jerk to let the other jerk...

Thinking of this, Xu Bai told Xu Wenhui that she would obediently go to work, and if she really couldn't continue, she would think about painting again.

Her father was overjoyed, and quickly arranged for her to work in a factory, where she worked three shifts the same as Bai Mingzhi did before she retired.

Xu Bai carefully followed the master's ass to familiarize herself with those operations. It was quite novel at first, but after only a week, she felt that she was about to become a machine, and except for pressing those same buttons, she could only be in a daze.

Although the salary and benefits are guaranteed, but the diploma is limited, she can only start from the most basic level.Colleagues have a wide range of ages. Apart from her master, she also knows that there are many people speaking ill of her behind her back, saying that she came in based on acquaintances, and even doubted her sexual orientation.

Seeing these people treat her like a fool, Xu Bai wasn't angry, but just felt sad—it seems that this job is really boring, but people don't know it.

The only thing she can't stand is to reverse black and white.

After several months of work, she finally didn't have to worry about starving to death, but she could go to the hospital at any time.

[Xiaobai, how are you recently? ]

It was Duan Ran, and Xu Bai hurriedly replied: [I got off the night shift yesterday, and today I can rest all day, but I want to draw but have no strength, what are you doing? ]

[Just do this job well for now, I just want you to take good care of your body. ]

Xu Bai, however, felt that she was not going to get better: [My mother used to work three shifts, and now I adore her so much, how did she persist... Although I really annoy her, she also does her best at work. ]

[Well, in fact, everyone will have her helplessness. It feels like you have really grown up a lot. ]

As if waking up from a dream, Xu Bai said to Duan Ran: [Sorry, I told you this at such a young age. I'm fine. You should study hard. ]

After a while, her cell phone rang again.

[If I tell you that I am already working and I am still a Chinese teacher, what will you do? ]

Seeing this, Xu Bai's drowsiness disappeared.

She got up and sat on the edge of the bed, gripped her phone tightly, and flipped through the photos that Duan Ran had sent her before, her legs were so surprised that she couldn't close her legs...