There is light at the wellhead

"Then you like someone, and she hasn't responded, aren't you sad?"

"It's not sad, she is that kind of person anyway. Besides, I don't need her to respond. At the beginning, when I passed by the honor roll and looked at her photos, I could feel beautiful in my heart for a long time - I didn't think it at the time, but I found out when I talked about it now." I'm also quite innocent..."

"Then what's the fun?" Guan Wei thought that I was really upset.

"Hehe, of course it's boring to say it. You'll know when you have someone you like, it's a really beautiful feeling, and your heart skips a beat." He Jingyang asked Guan Wei, "Have you fallen in love with someone? "

"No, just chat casually."

"Oh, I don't think it should." He Jingyang breathed a sigh of relief.

"Why not?" Guan Wei asked back.

"Aren't you still leaving?" He Jingyang squeezed the corner of the quilt tightly, pricked up his ears to listen to what Guan Wei would say, after waiting for a while, he suddenly realized, and asked: "The one you like is a female classmate from Yunzhou? Are you going to Go back and find her?"

"No." Guan Wei sighed, thinking that He Jingyang's composition is really unreasonable, such a rich imagination, he is ashamed anyway.

not what?Don't you want to go back, or are you a girl from Yunzhou?He Jingyang opened his mouth and didn't ask, but he was a little bit unwilling, and turned back and forth, expressing that he was not asleep and was very energetic, and the topic could continue.

"Zhu Baoping said that when he likes someone, he just wants to hold hands, kiss, and think about him every time he fights. Have you ever thought about kissing her?" The person he likes is lying beside him, but talking about irrelevant feelings, Guan Wei feels inexplicably irritable , he wanted to get rid of the chaos in front of him, and probe into a more direct depth, and blurted out a sentence.

"...It seems that I haven't thought about it." He Jingyang, who was tossing hard, froze instantly.Don't say that you really haven't thought about it, and you can't say it if you think about it.

The topic was suddenly so straightforward, even though there was no one else in the room, He Jingyang was still embarrassed and didn't know where to look.It is not uncommon to talk about these topics with the boys in Shushui Town, but why is it so awkward to say it from Guan Wei's mouth?It seemed that the minor was sincerely inviting himself to play a hooligan on him.And the key thing is that he really has no experience to talk about.

"Then what are you thinking?" Guan Wei asked shamelessly.

The only girl I ever liked was Zhao Qing, but needless to say holding hands, I never even thought of getting close.So what am I thinking?What I think is whether I can be listed on the honor roll with her, and whether I can go to the same school as her.

After He Jingyang thought carefully about Guan Wei's question, he was shocked to realize that his feelings for Zhao Qing might not really be liking in that sense, but admiration or admiration at all?

Ouch, this is so embarrassing.I thought that love is deeply rooted, but it turns out that love has not yet opened! ? ?

He Jingyang was frightened, and he didn't dare to discuss it further, and even planned to rot the matter in his stomach, so he pretended to be very uninterested and answered: "Are you all talking about this?"

"Tch, you don't seem to be chatting." Guan Wei reached out and turned off the light, the room was pitch black, and he didn't speak any more.

After a long time, feeling that He Jingyang should fall asleep, Guan Wei gently turned over and looked at him.At first, I could only see the outline, but it became clear when I looked at it: it should be a new haircut a few years ago, and the sideburns are very thin and short. It looks weird, but it is unspeakably free and easy. .

In terms of appearance, Guan Wei is considered beautiful, and He Jingyang is considered heroic.The two eyebrows were raised slightly, but the ends of the eyebrows were slightly lowered, making them less aggressive, and they didn't seem to be so aggressive when they fell asleep. They looked obedient and honest—"You can't sleep?" He Jingyang The sudden sound made Guan Wei startled, he closed his eyes subconsciously, and felt a little silly again, when he opened his eyes, He Jingyang was also looking at him, and couldn't help but smile.

The two of them stared at each other for a while, and the soft light coming in from the window, whether it was moonlight or snow, hit the corner of He Jingyang's eyebrows, and then darkened in the eye sockets, making his eyes affectionate and gentle.

A puddle of water appeared in Guan Wei's heart, and he swayed without a trace.Encouraging him to get close to this person's body, this person's lips, this person's temples, everything about this person.

But he didn't dare - it would be good if time could stop at this moment - he thought.

"Guan Wei, in fact, I have to go to Qingzhong, not all because of Zhao Qing, I have my own ideas." He Jingyang said in a low voice.

"what idea?"

"Don't laugh at me, I just want to see what people in other places are like, such as you, such as Huang Jin, such as Zhu Baoping's father, and I don't like the life of 'you can see the head at a glance'." After He Jingyang finished speaking, he felt nervous and embarrassed for no reason when he let out the secret that he had hidden for many years, "a young man in a small town covets the scenery of the world".

"He Jingyang—" Guan Wei stopped after shouting.

"Huh?" He Jingyang raised his eyebrows slightly, waiting for him to continue.

"Let's go to the same school!" Guan Wei barely said, "You don't plan to follow Zhao Qing anyway, so follow me."

"Your goal is college—I'll go to technical secondary school at most."

"Then you should hurry up and work hard. The university has a library, so you can watch Rubens, Botticelli, those fleshy white people." Guan Wei bit his lip and forced a smile against his will.

"Haha. Then you have to wait for me. Li Jie said that you are just on the rise, and I am basically exhausted." He Jingyang stretched out his hand and pinched Guan Wei's nose.

Guan Wei raised his right hand, waiting to give him a high-five. He Jingyang looked at it for a while, then raised his hand and put it on the back of Guan Wei's hand. After slowly holding it, he brought his arm down to the pillow and patted him gently. Pat the back of his hand, "Go to sleep."

He Jingyang didn't want to slap this palm, but he didn't want to admit that he couldn't do it right away, and he didn't want to see Guan Wei's expectant eyes, so he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep.With a slight smile on his face, he wanted to give Guan Weiwei an illusion of peace, but his heart slowly turned cold, and only the little skin covering Guan Wei's hands could feel a little warmth.

He Jingyang couldn't sleep.If Guan Wei just said it casually, he would coax it casually.But Guan Wei raised his right hand and looked at him with bright eyes, he knew that this person was serious.

He knows his own strength, although he is barely ahead of Guan Wei now, but he is the kind of weakling that Li Jie said.

Excellence in physics does not give him enough motivation and confidence.Sometimes watching Guan Wei's small figure sitting there studying hard, I feel a little envious, and more melancholy.

Guan Wei's goal is to go back to Yunzhou. With parents, friends, and school, he has a more promising future. What about him?have no idea.

He was happy to meet friends from Shushui Town in Qingcheng County by accident.Since he set chasing Zhao Qing to Qingzhong as a small goal in life, he hasn't participated in such a large-scale group activity with his friends for a long time.But once again, you don't need to get used to it, because the conversation is still about making trouble and talking about someone.A few friends went to Qingcheng to study technical school and medical school half a year earlier than them, and upgraded the conversation to the experience they had learned in the "Life Movie", and the jokes became more vulgar and explicit.

Although the excitement was lively, it was just that He Jingyang's voice was dull when others talked about it.

On the way back to Qingzhong alone, he couldn't help but compare the excitement with the few hours Huang Jin and Zhu Baoping spent together.This kind of bustle is loud and overwhelming, but it is also frivolous and superficial. When it is blown by the cold wind carrying fine snow, it disappears without a trace.

This is the people he has known since he was a child, the things around him, and the world he lives in. Perhaps, this is also the future he cannot escape.

Like most of the top students who have disappeared from the crowd in Qingzhong, and like those classmates who have arranged for their families to work as workers or nurses in Qingcheng County as soon as they graduate.

I didn't ask before, I went to Guan Wei's house and chatted with Huang Jin, and then I realized that before Guan Wei came to Qingzhong, he was actually a student of Yunzhou Shizhong.

So when he came to Qingzhong, it was just a reform through labor.After returning to Yunzhou after the second year of high school, he will be exposed to more excellent intensive training.Perhaps, people like Huang Jin are qualified to stand side by side with him. After all, what is there to compare with?Thinking about how he boasted before that he would be admitted to the same school as Zhao Qing, it was ridiculous like a fool's dream.

He thought of the fear and sadness he experienced that night when he was riding a motorcycle by the Shushui River.About the future, about the future, about the desperation that he may not be able to reach the place where other people are born - perhaps, he should have turned around and headed to the familiar place long ago, and Shushui Town can give him A battlefield of security.

No matter how bad it is, it is only a frog at the bottom of the well who has once tasted the scenery at the mouth of the well.

The agreement with Guan Wei was the only motivation for him to return to school early, but he struggled from morning to noon.He didn't want to rush over to show that he took this agreement seriously, but he was afraid that Guan Wei would arrive early and didn't see him, what should he do if he was disappointed all by himself?Does Guan Wei really need him?Or is it enough to have an old man Zhao?He's not sure.

It wasn't until after noon that I suddenly remembered that I could call Master Zhao, and then I realized that Li Jie was also here—that's great!Then it doesn't look like I'm in a hurry!

He almost jumped up with joy, and rushed out the door with the things he had prepared a long time ago.

Li Jie's sentence "Think carefully about why you have to come today", his initial answer was "I have an appointment with Guan Wei", but after thinking about it, he felt that the correct answer should be "Guan Wei this semester I'm leaving after I'm done, I want to spend more time with him."

It's just that this answer is too much for a woman's chirp, unlike what he, He Jingyang, can do, so I really can't say it.

Although the "emotional problem" mentioned by Li Jie seems to be in the wrong place.But his reluctance to Guan Wei is true.

This reluctance has now been answered—Guan Wei said that he would take the same exam as him, but he dared not agree.It turns out that to be reluctant to give up must have a qualification, and his qualification may expire before the college entrance examination.

He wanted to ask Guan Wei again if you really planned to leave.

Once again, it was the same as the night at Guan Wei's house, without asking.

Tired from walking the first day, He Jingyang rarely heard the sound of Guan Wei getting up, and when he opened his eyes, he felt the warmth in the room.

Guan Wei is fully dressed and sitting by the window, reciting something, this scene seems familiar. Last time, he almost reached out to touch the most beautiful part of the picture, but this time, he just wanted to watch quietly, just like Really got to admire a painting.The exhibition is over, but I can never see it again.

After breakfast, Guan Wei was still writing questions, He Jingyang did not go out crazy, took out "The Ordinary World" and read it, in the silence, only the sound of two people flipping through the book and writing.

As soon as he thought of He Jingyang staying obediently by his side, he could see when he looked up that Guan Wei's heart was filled with something called satisfaction, which was slightly sweet.

He Jingyang asked suddenly: "Guan Wei, do you remember a sentence I said to you when we were at your house, which probably means that there are not so many things that you must let you get if you work hard?"

Before Guan Wei could answer, he held the book in his arms and began to read—"In this world, not all reasonable and beautiful things can exist or be realized according to one's wishes—so I think the same as the great writer. It's a pity I can't write so well, otherwise the composition will definitely get full marks!"

Guan Wei didn't turn his head back: "God closed the door of Chinese for you, but opened the window of physics - don't play around, hurry up and prepare to study, don't you still want to go to the university library with me what?"

He Jingyang was startled when he heard this, then remained silent for a while, and continued to devote himself to the novel.This investment could not be dialed out, and Guan Wei called back for lunch and dinner.Except for eating, He Jingyang sat like a stone sculpture at other times.

"Only the eyeballs turn once in a while, which can indicate that she is a living thing" - Guan Wei grabbed a ball of paper and threw it over, telling him that Li Jie called and said that he would not come back, the stone sculpture raised his head and said seriously, "Got it, Don't make trouble."

I don't know how long it took, He Jingyang finally got tired of reading, and he closed the book with a long breath, feeling that his chest was tight and uneasy, as if a monster was trapped inside, sometimes wanting to roar and cry, but he couldn't find the exit.

He took out a half pack of cigarettes hidden in the cabinet, flicked one out, but couldn't find a match, so he tore a piece of paper and lit it in the stove, took a puff, and stared blankly. Paper dust swirls down.

He didn't know what Li Jie thought the book was good about. In his opinion, Sun Shaoping's ups and downs of fate made him feel the sadness, heaviness, depression, and helplessness through the pages of the virtual world.

The sense of uncertainty that once worried that "even if you climb hard, you may just change the well and continue to watch the sky" hit again.

Life is as good as riding a motorcycle. With a road under your feet and a car, you can experience the feeling of riding against the wind. Who doesn't like it?

Even if he forgot to turn on the light and bumped into the car coming from the opposite direction, this life gave him a joy.

But the world in front of him was chaotic, and he stumbled.There was no way to see, and the shoes did not fit.