There is light at the wellhead

"Then tell me, if that...what... thinks about men, wouldn't it be a pervert?" Guan Wei asked angrily, but still pretended to be "I just ask casually and don't care about the answer" Indifferent face.

"What? Ah!! Hit? I don't know, I haven't thought about it anyway." Liu Quan chuckled.

"Let's stop talking about this." Zhu Baoping looked at Guan Wei's strange state, and wanted to change the topic.

"Don't you have a studio? Just ask." Guan Wei glanced at Zhu Baoping.

"It should be counted! If you don't believe me, tell me who you two were thinking at that time, hurry up, don't pretend~" Liu Quan didn't understand Zhu Baoping's spirit correctly, and pushed forward enthusiastically.

"Then... is it considered... homosexual...?" Guan Wei leaned against Huang Jin with his eyes closed, and put his hand against his sweater, feeling soft and warm, but he was cold from the outside to the inside.

The big ball that had bulged in my heart just now is now deflated, into a pile of tatters, trying to shrink into the deepest and darkest corner of my heart.

He wished he could reach in from his chest, pull out this pile of junk and throw it to a place too far away to see, so that he could be like them, talking and laughing happily, right?

But no, it was his heart.The things wrapped in it are hidden for several days, and they dare not look at them. It is a secret that cannot be shown to others or revealed. If you move it, you will be terribly afraid.

No one answered his words.Zhu Baoping stared at him suspiciously for a while, then turned to look at Huang Jin.Huang Jin was taking a wet towel to wipe off the unknown liquid on the sweater, but he didn't notice it.

Liu Quan tore open a bag of Huamei, and started a new topic: "Hey, you all know Zhang Yidan, what do you think of this person?"

"What's the matter, I just don't want to see her, why don't you go with her? I just want to see her, can you let me?" Zhu Baoping continued to stare at Guan Wei while talking.

"Bullshit, I won't affect our relationship just because of my partner, I must listen to your opinions."

"It doesn't make sense. After the college entrance examination, you two are still not sure what's going on." Huang Jin lost interest, "I'll ask when you plan to marry a man and a woman."

"Then... what's going on if you're thinking about men?" Guan Wei mustered up his courage, and unswervingly forcibly turned the topic to himself again.I feel like throwing a gun, but I'm not sure if I have insurance. I look forward to an answer, and I hope that people don't understand.

No one answered a sentence, so I should have heard this sentence.

"It's fine if you like it, as long as you can fight Astro Boy, you just think about it." Huang Jin replied very hastily.

Liu Quan raised his eyebrows and looked at Guan Wei for a while, then suddenly looked surprised, and shouted: "I'm fucking, isn't it? He's thinking about you? It's so shameless~ I'll smack him to death!"

Huang Jin was startled when he heard this, and stopped what he was doing to look at Guan Wei.But he found that Zhu Baoping looked at him with a strange expression, first shook his head, then put his left and right thumbs together, pointing at Guan Wei, frowning and tilting his head, Huang Jin instantly understood what he meant.

"What the hell are you talking about!" Liu Quan also understood it, and pushed it suddenly. Zhu Baoping was unprepared, and fell down on the coffee table, and the table was full of snacks.

"Why are you pushing me? If it's true, would you still beat him?" Zhu Baoping shouted aggrievedly, but Liu Quan hadn't fought him for several years.

The three of them remained silent, all staring at Guan Wei.

"It's not him, it's me. I probably have a problem." Guan Wei closed his eyes, they were waiting for him to continue, but he didn't want to say a word, he was so tired!

"Tell me what's the problem. Maybe it's not a problem. Are you thinking wrong?" Huang Jin was a little confused, but still wanted to be rational.

"That's right, I've been tossing me for a long time." Guan Weixin said, "I just seem to like him."

"Is that what... is it different from liking me and liking them?" Liu Quan stopped shouting and asked in a low voice instead.

"It's not the same...you, I'm thinking of Zhang Yidan when I'm typing, and I'm thinking of him when I'm typing."

"That's not necessarily the case, you don't have much experience, you don't know what to think..."

"I know, I've tried it too, but it's useless to think about anything else." Guan Wei finished speaking with difficulty, and lowered his eyelids not to look at them.

Now the three people in the room couldn't understand it anymore. Guan Wei fell in love with a boy, which seemed to be a solid fact, and now, he put this fact in front of them.

New Year's Eve.

Guan Wei didn't hesitate to tell them about this matter, it was just a matter of time.

From childhood to adulthood, they were all his closest friends, brothers, and relatives, and they talked about everything.Even they have to keep it a secret, whether it is a secret or a joke, he is the only one who bears it alone. This possibility makes Guan Wei feel strange and frightened.

But if you tell them, how do you say it?How will they react?What if, like my father, he becomes too talkative and can't avoid it?

He also thought that maybe one day he would suddenly stop being troubled by it, and then he would easily tell them as a joke.

However, before he was fully prepared or the situation changed, this topic appeared so suddenly, and the conversation reached this point.

To avoid talking about it or to pass it off with a smile, to him, it is tantamount to deliberately concealing it.

Moreover, that imaginary "maybe" is just a self-deceiving lie.

Because from the time we parted until now, there was never a day when I didn't miss him, and there was never a time when I didn't feel the impact of pleasure when I chanted his name.

While thinking about him, he hated himself, but every time the phone rang, he silently expected that it was that person who called and asked him to go back to school.

Maybe there are some things, no matter when it is not the right time to say, because it itself is not suitable, so don't pick the day.

The bewilderment and helplessness of the past few days, as well as the secret and shameful happiness behind this emotion, as well as the self who is demanding such happiness, all make Guan Wei feel extremely exhausted.

He wanted to sleep again, so he leaned against Huang Jin's arms, soft and warm, just like the sleep in his parents' big house, and fell asleep.

It must be very comfortable to not have to wake up even during Chinese New Year.

He didn't want to pretend, and he didn't have the energy to pretend.

"Is it perverted? Is it perverted?" Guan Wei asked mechanically, not expecting anyone to give him an answer, and smiled self-deprecatingly.

Huang Jin didn't expect that the little detail that he inadvertently saw in his eyes would lead to such an unexpected result.Unable to persist rationally, Hulala left him, leaving only a stunned expression, allowing Guan Wei to push him away and stand up, swaying towards the door step by step.

"Where are you going?" Zhu Baoping asked.

"I—" After only one word, I couldn't continue.

Still not working!Guan Wei hated herself for being weak and for not giving up to the three people in the room.If we step out now, is it the last time we are together?What a pity, I kept saying I was going to take a group photo, but I never did.

Pressing on the doorknob with one hand, and reaching for the coat hanging behind the door with the other, Guan Wei felt like a human-shaped scaffold, with no flesh and blood, no clothes, just exposed in the air.The wind from all directions passed through the inside and outside of the body, except for the cold, it was still cold.

It turns out that this is the feeling of waiting for others to give a judgment!

His hands were shaking uncontrollably.Hurry up, hurry up!Push open this damn door!Although the outside world is cold and dark, it belongs to him alone. All problems can be wrapped up and placed in the darkest corner of the heart. Whoever explains and explains, does not have to face those suspicions, surprises and puzzles, or, there is disgust and disgust.

The phone rang suddenly, and everyone was shocked, as if Qiqi had been awakened from a nightmare.

"Huang Jin, stop him!" Zhu Baoping quickly answered the phone, "Dad! Happy Chinese New Year! Yes, you are all here, play with me. No, I won't go. No, I can take care of myself. That's fine Dad, let's do this first, I have more important things waiting to be dealt with than whether to go with that woman or not." ——Zhu Baoping was about to hang up the phone, when he turned to look at Guan Wei, suddenly his heart moved.

"Dad! Dad, you didn't hang up, did you? Well, my matter is more difficult, let me hear what you mean." The other three were shocked, and Guan Wei's face turned pale, and he was anxious to get away from Liu Quan Come here, but Zhu Baoping waved his hand at him and continued.

"I have someone I like. Well, he likes me too. Yes, he is very nice to me. You can express your happiness later. He...he...he...maybe a little different from what you think .No, no, am I capable of such stupid things as being pregnant before marriage? No! Pregnant! Go! Didn’t hold hands! They just have a crush on each other! Oh dad, listen to me first! He’s a man! "

There was silence on the phone.

After a long time, Zhu Baoping became anxious: "Dad, you are talking, this is a long distance!" The other end of the phone rang "Zi La Zi La", and Zhu Baoping kept nodding like a chicken pecking at rice: "Yeah , um, yes, got it. OK. Don’t, don’t, I’m embarrassed to buy it, hey, I got it. Dad, you’re so kind, I miss you so much.”

Zhu Baoping hung up the phone, looked up at the three people, and spread his hands together: "I'm not, I just want to find an adult's opinion for us."

"Fuck, your dad knows you're lying to him with this, and he can't beat you to death!" Liu Quan pointed at him.

"It's okay, no one's life will be lost, Xiao Wei don't just stand there, come and sit down and talk to you." Zhu Baoping rubbed his tense and stiff face, and smiled at Guan Wei.His father traveled all over the world and had seen a lot, so he wasn't afraid that his father would kill him, what he was afraid of was that his father's reaction would be useless.

Fortunately, his father did not disappoint him.

"What did your father say?" Liu Quan asked while tugging Guan Wei back, but Guan Wei was holding the doorknob, Huang Jin was still expressionless, and refused to let go no matter what.

"He scratched his liver and lungs in a hurry. He sounds very irritable. If he said it face-to-face, he would probably have to whip my belt first. Let him go in a hurry, anyway, he can't reach it. But it is still useful to say a few words, one is now I’m young, I don’t know what it’s like, so I’ll let it go until I grow up in a few years; second, don’t let this affect the college entrance examination. It’s estimated that this scare won’t wait until the end of the [-]th year. I’m back, haha!” Zhu Baoping had fun in his pain.

"Then it won't fade away in a few years?"

"You first give yourself a reason that you can think about and get through the present. As for the next few years, who knows what will happen in the middle."

"Then what if Xiao Wei fades away in a few years and he still haunts her?"

"Tsk, are you bored? Let's get through it first!" Zhu Baoping shouted impatiently.

"No, he really has a girl he likes, and he has to go to the same place for the exam with that girl. And he doesn't know that I like him." Guan Wei said in a low voice.

Liu Quan and Zhu Baoping looked at each other, and both breathed a sigh of relief.

"That's okay, that's okay, don't worry, maybe it's just a momentary crush, and it will really fade after a while, you see, I have Zhang Yidan now, and I have long forgotten the goddess who wrote love letters to me last year... But Xiaowei Ah, you...are you giving an example, or have you actually fought?" Liu Quan lowered his voice and asked Guan Wei in the second half of the sentence.

"What?" Guan Wei's mind went blank, and suddenly realized that Liu Quan was asking about sex, and turned away from him in embarrassment, but still refused to go back.

"Huang Jin! Please! Move!" Zhu Baoping was in a hurry, he could see that if Huang Jin didn't make a statement, Guan Wei would not stay here tonight.

Huang Jin finally recovered from the shock, stepped forward and took Guan Wei's hand off the doorknob: "You scared me, I haven't figured it out yet."

Guan Wei was dragged back to the sofa by Liu Quan and sat down. Huang Jin squatted in front of him and looked at him. After thinking for a while, he said carefully, "This kind of relationship is abnormal in the final analysis. Fortunately, it's just...then What, don't get caught up in it. Why don't you tell your mother to come back next semester, we will meet each other day and night, and there must be something to do if there is nothing to do. "

"How do you say this? His grades have improved so fast, there is no fucking reason to let him come back?" Zhu Baoping expressed doubts.

Also, "I fell in love with a male classmate" - this reason is really fatal, Huang Jin suddenly wants to hit someone too.

"I'm changing it, I've tried it—I'm also afraid, but I don't want to hide it from you." The experience of losing and regaining the warmth in this room made Guan Wei's nerves all over his body suddenly tense and then relaxed, thinking about it again Seeing the forbearance and restraint and panic that he had tried so hard, he felt more and more wronged, and the tears that had been endured for a long time came off the brakes and flowed down.

They haven't seen each other since Daguan Wei went to junior high school with such a crying method.But everyone knows that crying, then it should be fine, if he doesn't want to cry, he may have something in mind, then it will be troublesome.

Filled with emotion, Huang Jin hugged Guan Wei in his arms again, patted him on the back as if coaxing Zhu Baoping, feeling sorry for his new sweater - this night was full of snot and tears, hey!