Rebirth of the Lost Me

What exactly did Zhang Rin say to Li Yaoran that day, why Li Yaoran didn't come to him anymore, no matter how Yang Qing asked, Zhang Rin just didn't tell him, nonsense, of course Zhang Rin couldn't say it, how could he say it, he If she told Li Yaoran that he had a bad temper, she would never be able to bear his temper, and that would definitely make Yang Qing unhappy again.

But if Zhang Rin didn't say anything, Yang Qing became more curious.

After having lunch with Gao Chongyao, Yang Qing didn't go to learn his driver's license in the afternoon, so he came back early.

Yang Qing has a good relationship with Gao Chongyao now, not only because Gao Chongyao always puts his dog at his house, but also because they occasionally meet for a meal and communicate occasionally. Speaking of which, Gao Chongyao also likes men , he will occasionally date people 419, but that's all, not talking about feelings.Sometimes Yang Qing cares, but sometimes he just pretends he doesn't know. After all, the friendship between them is not too deep.

Zhang Rin seems to have class in the afternoon, and the children also have to go to school. After Yang Qing returned, he opened the door by himself. The shoes on the door caught his attention, because neither he nor Zhang Rin wore leather shoes, and there were no leather shoes in the living room. Man, suddenly, he heard an extremely suppressed panting sound from his room, which was clearly the sound of emotion.

Yang Qing just stood there, staring at that direction in a daze, the door was half-closed, he could see the scene inside as long as he approached, but Yang Qing didn't dare to walk over, and he couldn't tell what he was afraid of, of course, Reason is to let him go out immediately, but emotion often prevails, Yang Qing approached carefully, looked in from the outside, when he saw the person clearly, he was struck by lightning.The one lying on the bed was Zhang Rin, even though Yang Qing couldn't see his face clearly.

At the same time, Yang Qing couldn't make a sound at all. He finally understood why his wife ran away when she found out that her husband was having an affair on TV, because he had already run out of the house before he could decide what to do.

Nanjing is very big, and in big cities, people tend to be indifferent. Yang Qing seemed to be walking aimlessly, most of the passers-by were in a hurry and not many people cared about his differences.In fact, at this time, Yang Qing didn't care what others thought of him, but he really wanted to find a quiet place to stay by himself.

This city is full of people, and he couldn't find a quiet place. Yang Qing never felt that he liked Zhang Rin in his life, but now the feeling of heartache does not seem to be fake. At home, Zhang Rin and Zhang Rin Curdy, in his bed, doing that stuff.

Up to now, that picture is still in Yang Qing's mind.

Yang Qing wanted to go to the hotel to get a room, at least there was a place where he could stay quietly, but before he found the hotel, he remembered the hotel he stayed with Zhang Lin in Chongqing many years ago, when he unilaterally He broke up with Wang Yi and felt that he could not love anymore. He was already desperate for this life, and tortured himself in pain, and also tortured Zhang Rin who went to find him. It was also at that time that Zhang Rin repeatedly emphasized that he liked him for so many years Come on, he really believed it, but today's scene made him doubt it again.

Inexplicably, he remembered the night when he decided to separate from Wang Yi. In this life, he opened his heart to these two people, but did they both treat him like this?Yang Qing in the previous and present lives was not a person who would take the initiative to fight for it. Today, he is only suffering alone, and he doesn't even have the courage to question Zhang Rin.

Just like when his parents separated, he was obviously sad, but he didn't say anything.

Yang Qing thought how to solve today's matter?Naturally, it is impossible for him to pretend that nothing happened. He wanted him to sleep on that bed as if nothing had happened. The quarrel is gone, the key is that if there is a real quarrel, he can't even imagine how he will lose his temper with Zhang Rin, so he should drive him away in all likelihood, in that case, he will return to the original isolation and helplessness, just like in his previous life , lonely, unable to stand alone, eventually died.

He thought about those days again.If you are alone for a long time, you will get used to being alone.If you are lonely for a long time, you will refuse warmth.If you are alone for a long time, you will also be afraid.Yang Qing really didn't want to live that kind of life anymore, that's why she committed suicide when she couldn't bear it any longer.

In his previous life, he had the idea of ​​suicide many times. At first, he was really afraid of pain. Later, he was afraid that his death would make those who loved him suffer. But in the end, the depression that had been suppressed for a long time made him unable to care about it anymore. Many, those fears are for living people, if he is really dead, then he will know nothing, what else needs to be afraid of.So, he was really dead, but God played a trick on him and let him be reborn.

Yang Qing really thought that instead of living like this, it would be better to just die and leave the other self in his body. After all, that is the owner of this body. Only with him, without carrying those memories, he should be able to live better Bar.It was the first time that Yang Qing wanted to return his body to him. He seemed to be unable to find the meaning of living. The responsibility for him should be borne by another person. This time, he was really uncomfortable.

There is no place to go, Yang Qing has been in this city for almost six years, and he has never had a close relationship with his classmates in college, so he is the only one who can be counted as a friend, and has nowhere to go, so Yang Qing called Gao Chongyao Telephone.

Gao Chongyao's house has quite a lot of wine, most of which are high-end red wines with no alcohol content. Gao Chongyao was dealing with work in the study, and Yang Qing was taken to the wine cellar to drink. , When Gao Chongyao finished his work, he had already fallen asleep with tears on his face.

Gao Chongyao knew about his relationship with Zhang Rin. He thought about Zhang Rin's leg injury recently, and instead of calling Zhang Rin to pick him up, he took Yang Qing out of the house and drove him back to his home. .

It was getting late, and Tan Shunli had finished his homework and went to bed. Zhang Rin called Yang Qing several times but no one answered, so he sat impatiently. He thought that if Yang Qing didn't come back after a while, he would call Go out and find it.After waiting for a while, Yang Qing hadn't been seen yet, so he decided to go out, when he heard the doorbell ring, he immediately walked over to open the door.

"Why are you drunk?"

"I don't know, I called me suddenly to go to my place, and then I drank so much, the person has already sent it back to you, so I will go back first!"

Zhang Rin immediately picked up the drunk Yang Qing, and helped him to walk in. Pity him for his inconvenient leg, and Yang Qing almost put all his weight on him.After finally helping him back to the room, Zhang Rin slapped him hard on the face before he had time to rest.Zhang Rin was a little dazed by the beating, and then went to see Yang Qing, Yang Qing was sleeping with a frown, Zhang Rin thought he was just falling asleep and waving unconsciously, so he took his hand and kissed him a few times. lay down.