pointing to the stars

I lay on the bed tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, and I was very concerned about what the boy said.

He is a monster?How can it be……

The more I think about this question in my mind, the more I look forward to tomorrow.I really want to ask that boy why he calls himself a monster.

In order to nourish my energy, I quickly fell asleep.

In the dream, I dreamed of the boy.The boy was walking in the countryside, his handsome and gentle face was reflected in my eyes.

He smiled and stretched out a hand towards me, and I eagerly stretched out my hand to put it on his palm, and then...it was dawn.

I got up from the bed and pushed open some old wooden doors. The sound of pattering rain that was blocked outside the door also gradually sounded.Looking up at the hazy sky, I was also a little depressed.

The rainwater falling from the roof tiles formed long strings of beads and hit the concrete floor of the yard.

I like rainy days, but today I feel that the rain is a bit of an eyesore.

Grandma saw me coming out and asked me to have breakfast.Parents also left in a hurry yesterday afternoon due to work reasons.

After breakfast, I lay down on the wooden table, looking at the rain-drenched crop fields.It was foggy and rainy, and there was a little breeze blowing from time to time.

I put on my headphones and listen to the songs on my MP3.

"After the rain in the rainy season, a slight and gentle wind blows..."

"I want to touch you, that unknown feeling, I want to see you again, the more I expect, the more painful it is..."

"..."

Before I knew it, I fell asleep on the table.

When I woke up again, I was shaken awake by someone.I rubbed my sleepy eyes and slowly opened them. When I saw the person in front of me clearly, I blinked my eyes and looked at him for a long time.

"We meet again." The boy opened the opposite bench and sat down, imitating my hands on the table, looking at me and laughing.The exposed canine teeth make the boy handsome and sunny, and the warmth like bathing in the sun melts in my heart.

At this time, the rain had stopped, and rainwater fell from the eaves, splashing lightly on the waterlogged ground.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

"My mother-in-law asked me to have lunch." The boy stood up and opened his hands, "I even changed my clothes."

"It's pretty good." These flattery words made me feel too false. He was wearing a white round neck T-shirt with a deformed collar, and the cuffs were rotten and ugly.And I myself wear the best clothes, pants and shoes.

I lowered my head and didn't dare to look up at him, maybe because I was afraid, or maybe I felt guilty.I don't know how to relieve this awkward atmosphere.

"I think so too." At this moment, the boy opened his mouth. "This is my best suit, and I can't get it dirty again."

Hearing this, I stood up, walked around the wooden table, and walked in front of him.

"Ah? What's the matter?" The boy laughed and took two steps back.I wanted to stretch out my hand to pull his arm, but just as I raised it to mid-air, I didn't have the courage to stretch it out any more.If I get close, maybe even he will disappear from my sight.

Thinking of what my mother did back then made me extremely sad.She felt that those friends approached me, it was all for money.So he secretly gave money to his friends and sent them all away.

The friends I made with great difficulty all disappeared from my life because of my mother...

I don't know if I should let it go, but I feel a little unwilling in my heart, obviously I will be able to touch him soon, but, but...

When I hesitated to feel it, I only felt that my hand was being held.I regained my composure, looked at him holding my hand, and said with a smile, "Do you want to shake hands?"

"Hmm." I hastily withdrew my hands behind my back, and turned my head to look at the wet ground under the steps: "Well, that... after dinner, can you take me for a walk?" After saying this, I just felt His face was hot, and his fingers behind his back were twisted together.

"Yes, yes, but...your parents and the others."

"They're gone." Hearing that the young man had concerns, I hurriedly explained: "The tutor invited will come in two days, and I don't have any friends of the same age here, so..."

I don't know if it's because I long for a friend so strongly that I let him stand there stupidly for a long time without speaking.

But the more I think about it, the more wronged I feel.

"Oh." The boy said, "That's good, but the road is a little slippery when it rains, so you have to be careful. I think your parents don't like you doing such dangerous things. I think you should think about him..."

"What do you know!" Maybe his words touched my bottom line, so I yelled at him, but I regretted it the next second.I don't know how to ease the atmosphere, I don't know how to apologize to him.

"I'm sorry, I said something wrong." Just when I didn't know how to answer, he took the initiative to apologize to me. "I know you are annoyed by your parents' control, but I envy you a little..."

I was about to say something to him, but my grandmother's voice came from the kitchen.

It's quite lively for four people to eat around the table, at least it's much better than being alone at home.I lowered my head and ate, sneaking a glance at the boy from time to time.The boy is very talkative and polite, and his grandparents also like him very much.

After lunch, grandma picked up the bowls and washed them, and the young man also helped grandma clean up.And grandpa sat on the long wooden bench, picked up the tobacco rod and wrapped a leaf cigarette, smoked a few puffs, and then went to the ground with the hoe on his shoulder.

I was the only one left in the courtyard again, and the local dog lying in the kennel was still barking at me.I was idle and bored, and walked to the dirt road in front of the courtyard, looking at the rolling green hills and the rice fields in full bloom.

The sun shone golden on the dew.At this moment, there was a sudden buzzing sound in my ears. I turned my head and saw a rapidly flapping insect flying towards my face. I fell to the ground and it hurt my ass.

The brown shorts were splashed with mud, and the shoes and socks were all dirty.The hands that were propped on the ground pressed down on the small stone and made a cut.

"Are you okay?" The boy's voice came from behind, and I felt wronged from the bottom of my heart, but I still said stubbornly: "It's okay, this little injury is nothing." After speaking, I missed him and walked towards the house: "I'll change it." clothes."

"Would you like to take a bath?" The boy followed up and suggested.

"Is there hot water here?" I asked.

"Yes, I will cook a pot for you now."

"...No, no bathtub?" I was a little taken aback.

"Huh? What is that?" The boy smiled and said, "Take off your clothes and pants, adjust the temperature of the water and rinse it from head to toe."

"...Do you wash here?"

"No, there is a place to take a bath." The young man pointed to a thatched hut: "Where to wash, I will boil water for you first, and then take you there."

"Yes." I nodded, "Thank you, thank you."

"It's okay." The boy said as he walked towards the kitchen, "Wash your hands first and wait for me in the yard."

"it is good."

I sat on the bench in the yard with my head empty, looking at the scenery in front of me, I felt unprecedented comfort.Maybe it's because the air here is better than in the city, and it's green everywhere.

The boy boiled the water and took me to the thatched cottage. The bathing place is not big, it can probably occupy two or three people. The sunlight shines through the diamond-shaped hole in the cement wall, adding more light to the dim room.

"The light is a bit dim, so be careful." The boy said to me while pouring the bucket of hot water into the basin.Looking at his busy figure, the corners of my mouth could not help but slightly rise.

He adjusted the bath water, stood up with a white handkerchief on the side, and faced me: "Use the handkerchief to wipe your body first, then touch it with shower gel, and then rinse it with hot water in the basin. "

Seeing him talking seriously, I couldn't help but put my fist to my lips and laugh out loud. Does he treat me like a child?

"What's the matter?" The young monk Zhang Er was puzzled, scratching his head and looking at me.

"No." I shook my head: "I see, you go out first."

"Oh, then I'll wait for you outside, call me if you need something." After speaking, he turned and left.

However, it is said that it is outside, but it is actually separated by gray cloth nailed to both sides of the wall. The gray cloth only covers the top, and the bottom is empty. I can even see the legs of the boy standing outside the cloth.

I crossed my hands and lifted the hem of my clothes, but my eyes were fixed on the boy's legs, for fear that he would rush in suddenly.I have never taken a bath with anyone, and even when I was sweating all over my body during military training, I just ran under the faucet with a handkerchief and wiped it off casually.

Anyway, don't want to be seen, and don't want to shower with other people.I always feel a little embarrassed in my heart, I am not a person who can let go like a teenager, who can take off his clothes and pants without any worries in front of so many people.

"That, that..." At this moment, a boy's voice came from outside the gray cloth: "Have you not started washing yet?"

"Ah? I'll be fine soon..." I hurriedly replied, "What's your name?" I took off my shirt and put it aside, and then took off my pants.

"My name is Ling Qiu." Ling Qiu replied. "What about you? What's your name?"

"Qi Tiansen." I poured water on my body with a wooden ladle. The warm water flowed down from my shoulders and was hot. I wiped my body with a handkerchief, and then squeezed out the shower gel to touch the white foam on my body. I was about to use water I washed off the foam on my body, but saw a big spider crawling on the basin, and couldn't help screaming.

"What's wrong?" Ling Qiu heard the commotion inside, opened the curtain and walked in.I was so frightened that my legs became weak and I squatted down, pointing at the spider on the water basin, I said in fear, "Yes, there are spiders!"

"Where is it?" Ling Qiu walked towards the water basin, but for some reason, I reached out and grabbed him, "Don't go there, it's so scary!"

"It's okay." He patted my hand lightly and smiled at me.A sunny smile was reflected in my eyes, and I suddenly felt at ease.

"Do you want me to accompany you?" Ling Qiu disposed of the spider, looked at me and asked.

"No!" I shook my head, but I was afraid in my heart, and looked up at him.

"They're all boys, don't be shy, if you continue like this, you'll catch a cold." Ling Qiu pulled me up from the ground, and I didn't refuse, but just stood there stupidly.Listening to the sound of rushing water coming from my ears, I felt the foam on my body being washed away by the warm water until it disappeared.

The author has something to say: the source of the lyrics "Firefly" - Qiran