Dare to Live Up to the Country and Live Up to Your Honor Ⅰ

When Gongsun Mingyue followed Yan Xi and the others back to the yamen, Huang Xiaobei ran over excitedly, grabbed Gongsun Mingyue's hands and shouted happily: "Master Gongsun, you are finally back."

Gongsun Mingyue forced a smile, patted the back of his hand without saying a word, turned around and said to Yan Xi: "I'm so tired, I want to rest first, what's the matter, let's talk about it at night." Before Yan Xi could speak, he He walked to the bedroom alone.

"Brother Yan." Zhan Pei looked at Gongsun Mingyue's back worriedly, and said something uneasily.

"Let him have a good rest, maybe when he wakes up, he will figure everything out." Yan Xi turned and left after leaving a word.

Figure it out, what exactly do you want to figure out?

Zhan Pei shook his head in confusion, and also left behind them, leaving Huang Xiaobei and Xiao Rong standing there dumbfounded, at a loss.

Gongsun Mingyue was lying on his bed like a zombie, his heart was blank, as if it had been completely emptied, he finally couldn't help sobbing softly, with so many grievances in his heart, so much reluctance to let go, only at this moment The ground is vented, why can't he leave behind him, why the cave is going to collapse, even if he wants to go again in the future, it is no longer possible, there are all the good memories of him and Ponce, but now they are all followed by the bombardment. He didn't know how to resolve his full thoughts in the future, he only knew that no one would be able to open his heart in the future, because he had already fallen asleep at the bottom of the valley of unfeeling, and would never be able to wake up again. coming.The tears in the corners of his eyes wet his sleeves, his long gown, and also wet his gradually indifferent heart.

He fell headfirst on the bed and buried his face deeply in the quilt. Although it was already summer, he still felt cold, the cold that froze his heart.

Just when Gongsun Mingyue was exhausted physically and mentally, Yan Xi was sitting in the room thinking about what he saw today at the bottom of the Valley of Desperation.

Although he is always belatedly aware of feelings, but this time he can clearly see that the faint feeling between Gongsun Mingyue and Pang Ce is a kind of feeling that violates ethics and the world, perhaps because In the desperate situation at the bottom of the valley, there was such a feeling that was insoluble in the world between them, but now that they have returned to the world, how can such feelings exist? If Gongsun Mingyue can't let me give up, maybe all of this will be over. I need to rely on him to help. For my best friend, sometimes I have to be a bad guy.

Zhan Pei gently knocked on the door and came in. Seeing Yan Xi's thoughtful expression, he couldn't help asking: "Brother Yan, that brother Gongsun is weird, why are you so weird?"

Yan Xi raised his head with a smile, looked at Zhan Pei who was sitting at the table, and said, "Is there any? I'm thinking about the case, what's so weird?"

When it comes to the facts of the case, Zhan Pei gets excited, he pulls Yan Xi and prepares to go out.

"Where are you going?" Yan Xi staggered and almost fell, he unhappily shook Zhan Pei's hand, he just didn't like Zhan Pei's reckless behavior.

"Go to Brother Gongsun, isn't he the most concerned about the case?" Zhan Pei didn't notice Yan Xi's displeasure, and was about to grab Yan Xi's hand again.

Yan Xi avoids him, continues to sit at the table, and doesn't speak anymore.

"What's wrong?" Zhan Pei looked at Yan Xi inexplicably.

"It's not dark yet, let's talk about it in the evening." Yan Xi looked at Zhan Pei's eager expression, and said with a smile, "You have so much time, why not prepare bath water for Gongsun Mingyue, I think he must have been gone for a long time Got a bath. Also, get something to eat, I think he's starving too."

"Tell me, why did I forget such an important matter? My mind is full of the case. I'll go now." After speaking, Zhan Pei immediately jumped out of the door.

Looking at Zhan Pei's bouncing back, Yan Xi couldn't help shaking his head, he was still a child at all, he hadn't grown up at all.

Gongsun Mingyue really fell asleep, but his dreams were one after another, falling from the Valley of Unrequited Love. Although it was in a dream, the coldness of the cold Tan still made him truly feel the fear of death. Because of my illness, I stayed up for days and nights, dreaming of his unhesitating test of medicine, dreaming of his warm chest, every time I could calm my frantic heart gradually, dreaming of leaving, The confusion in his eyes, and the despair after the cave collapsed.

When he woke up from the shock, he found that he was sweating profusely, and the despair in the dream had not disappeared, and he couldn't help the red eyes. From then on, he had to learn to be strong and learn to adapt to life without him.

Looking at the darkening sky outside the window, Gongsun Mingyue got up from the bed. Although he had slept, he still felt weak in all his limbs. He opened the door reluctantly, only to find that Zhan Pei was sitting by the door and taking a nap.

He stepped forward to push him gently, and called softly: "Zhan Pei, Zhan Pei."

Hearing the cry, Zhan Pei immediately opened his eyes, looked at Gongsun Mingyue in front of him, and said happily, "Brother Gongsun, you're awake, that's great. I've prepared bath water and food for you. Are you here?" Eat first or take a bath first?"

"Take a bath first." Gongsun Mingyue looked at Zhan Pei moved and said with a smile.

Zhan Pei jumped up and was a few steps away. He shouted as he ran, "I'm going to get ready right now."

Gongsun Mingyue straightened up, looked at Zhan Pei's bouncing back, shook her head, turned and walked into the house.

As soon as he sat down at the table, Yan Xi came to the room. Seeing Gongsun Mingyue's paler face, he couldn't bear it. He came here to wake him up. Will he be more cruel to him then?

"Gongsun Mingyue." Yan Xi whispered and walked into the room.

Hearing Yan Xi's voice, Gongsun Mingyue didn't get up, but said lightly: "Come, have a cup of tea with me."

Yan Xi sat in front of him, his voice choked up and said: "Actually, I have something to tell you."

"Although I know what you want to say, I still want to hear you say it." Gongsun Mingyue didn't look up at him, but poured himself a glass of water, a glass of cold water.

"Well, although what I said may not please you, but, Gongsun Mingyue, I hope you understand that all of this is for your own good." Yan Xi looked up at his pale face, with the faint redness remaining at the corners of his eyes.

"I know." Gongsun Mingyue raised her head, her eyes were calm, "Speak."

"No matter how thrilling you and Pang Ce have been through this time, I hope you understand that what he thinks, what you think, is impossible." Yan Xi turned his head and stopped looking at him, " I shouldn't need to say this clearly, Gongsun Mingyue, you should know it very well in your heart."

Gongsun Mingyue's pale face was suddenly stained with a faint blush, he didn't know how Yan Xi could see it, could it be that he had already shown it so clearly?

Of course he knows that all of this is impossible, so he has been resisting, hasn't he?but…….

Pon Ce is the only son of his parents, how could they let their only son become a man with broken sleeves, otherwise would they just let the Pang family be broken in Pon Ce's hands like this?Marrying a wife and having children is inevitable for him. Whether he wants to or not, this is something that must be done. How can he and him be together, not to mention that he is still alive and dead, and the initiator of all this is How could he forgive himself?

"Gongsun Mingyue, you have to understand, what is the most important thing to you now?" Seeing that Gongsun Mingyue had been silent, Yan Xi stood up, walked to the door, and said calmly, "Pang Ce is not important, You and I are not important, the most important thing is how you will be your Minister of Rituals, how to explain to the people of the world and the emperor."

"I know." Gongsun Mingyue said softly.

"Since you know everything, then cheer up. You can't fall down at this time." Yan Xi suddenly turned around and saw the sad eyes. What has he been through, but he clearly remembered that when his mother passed away, he had never seen him so distraught.

As soon as Yan Xi finished speaking, Zhan Pei jumped into the house and said loudly: "Brother Gongsun, the bath water is ready." Suddenly seeing Yan Xi beside him, he couldn't help but stop, pulled Yan Xi and said, "Brother Yan, are you here too?"

"After taking a shower and eating, let's take a good look at the case and hope to solve the case as soon as possible. After such a long delay, we have no more time to waste." Yan Xi ignored Zhan Pei, but turned to He was about to leave the room, but just as he stepped out of the door, he seemed to think of something again, so he stopped and said, "Come to the study later."

Gongsun Mingyue really needed to take a good bath, because he was exhausted physically and mentally, and his body was terribly cold. He hoped that after taking a bath, he could clean up his mood and do what he should do.

When Gongsun Mingyue packed up and walked to the study, Zhan Pei and Yan Xi were discussing something in front of a map.

Zhan Pei has good ears, he knew Gongsun Mingyue as soon as he entered the room, he quickly turned around and saw Gongsun Mingyue, jumped in front of him, pulled him and said, "Brother Gongsun, you are finally here."

Yan Xi also walked up to him from the case, and after sorting things out, Gongsun Mingyue in front of him recovered a little bit of anger, and his eyes were no longer sad, but much more energetic, Yan Xi knew, he finally understood Aware of their own responsibilities, know what is the most urgent in front of you.

"You're back." Yan Xi said with a pun.

"Yes, I'm back." Gongsun Mingyue looked at Yan Xi with a gratified smile.

Zhan Pei looked at them and asked inexplicably, "What charades are you playing?"

After Yan Xi and Gongsun Mingyue looked at each other and smiled, they both said at the same time: "You child, I don't understand." After speaking, they both smiled slightly again.